Chapter 7

My Life & The Story of It

[Jade's POV]

15 Years Old

"We could go swimming in the lake?"

"I can drown you in the lake." I say as I reach over to Vegas' plate and take a French fry.

Vegas scrunches her eyes at me and makes some pitiful comment about my attitude towards her, but I couldn't care less. Vegas deserves no more than what I give her.

We have a whole spring break coming up and we're all trying to figure out what in the hell we're supposed to do for seven days and sitting inside the house all day is not an option. I rather hang with Vegas than stare at my wall…..you know what? I take that back. The wall plan is better.

"Ohhhhh we can go to Sea World, and watch the monkeys and the zebra's. Yeah, yess? Yess!?" Cat nods with a huge smile as she points around the table trying to get everyone to agree with her, but instead we all just stare, but that doesn't seem to dampen her excitement.

"Sea World is in Florida, besides, they don't have zebras and monkeys Cat." Andre speaks up before reaching into his plate and continuing his meal as Cat pouts.

"I know how to sneak into the laser tag arcade off sunset. All you have do to is lick the guards feet." Sinjin stated as he walks up behind Andre who asks him to back away a bit.

I think it's so crazy how Sinjin and Cat got split when they were younger but reunited at Hollywood Arts. You wouldn't even think these two knew each other to be real. They barely even speak and when they do it's literally about nothing. Which is everything that comes from Cat's mouth anyways.

What I really think is a crazy and a mistake is how Vegas got accepted with Cat and I. I mean….she thinks she can sing, but she can't. She can't act, she can't dance. She can't do anything. She's stupid, she's always been. She shouldn't even be here. The only real reason I still even communicate with Vegas is because of her hot brother because I definitely could have dropped her off years ago. The plans I had set for her were not working as easily as I thought they would which made me agitated with her so I wanted to drop her, but then I met her brother Beck that she hid from me half of the time I knew her. I can't even believe that hot thing is even related to her. It makes me want to stab him with scissors but love him at the same time.

Beck is only a couple years older than me. He's a Junior this year and what a coincidence that he goes to Hollywood Arts. Really, I had no intentions on coming here until I heard he was here. That's the only reason I let Cat drag with me with her to auditions. I never knew I held talents of acting and singing. I didn't even prepare for my audition like Cat and Tori did, but somehow I got through with the judges saying it's the best they've seen all day. Guess I'm just a natural.

The only thing that stands in the way of me and my future husband is that idiot Robbie. I hate him. I hate him because he occupies all Beck's time and he's annoying. I can never get Beck alone because stupid puppet boy is always there. I mean he's by his side all the fucking time as if their joined at the hip. It makes me wonder if Beck ever gets tired of that boy. I mean I even need a breather sometimes. Fuck off Robbie.

"Are you speaking from experience?" I ask as I turn to Sinjin and cross my arms on the table.

"Oh yes." He said reaching his hand to my shoulder.

"Fuck off."

Sinjin's always had this stupid disgusting crush on me. I wouldn't even date him if he were me that's how serious this is. And it's like, I can't get rid of him. He's like a infestation. I can't kill him off without exterminators which I have none of. Well I would if Vegas would have cooperated with me and if Cat had a real brain, but those plans fell off long ago.

"Do you always have to be so rude?" Vegas asks as she glares at me in which I glare right back at her. "Well do you always have to be so crude?" I said with a smile.

"Hahaaha, that rhymed." Cat giggled as I stand and grab my bag leaving them behind.


Back home is no better than it used to be. Well, actually its worst. I mean, it's whatever now you know? It was years ago when I lost her. Yeah I cried some, until I figured there was no point anymore. Crying doesn't bring your loved ones back. So why do it? It's stupid. I learned not to cry about anything anymore, not that I used to all the time anyways. All it is is weakness. No tears, fuck those.

Walking into my house I see Ron spread out over the couch with an empty liquor bottle hanging from his hand. This is nothing new, so don't be alarmed. It's whatever. The guy always drinks himself into a fucking coma. Actually what's more worst then him, is his stupid girlfriend. Ugh she's so annoying. The only reason I'm glad she came around is because it took the pressure off of me. Thank God for that.

New Text Message

Sender: Cat

Cat: Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

I roll my eyes at the text as I walk into my room slamming the door behind me before flopping onto my bed.

Me: What's up?

Cat: Guess what?

Me: No.

Cat: Awwwww c'mon guesssss pleaseeeeee?

Me: You got more annoying?

Cat: What's that supposed to mean!?

Me: Nothing.

Cat: Oh kk.

Me: What is it!?

Cat: Oh! Tori and I are having a sleepover tomorrow. You should come too!

Me: Why would I want to sleep at Vegas' house?

Cat: Because there's going to be friends, and movies, and pop corn, and….movies.

Me: Who's all going?

Cat: Me, Tori….you.

Me: So in other words you just want me to spend the night tomorrow? There's no real sleepover.

Cat: Yess!

Me: No.

Cat: Awwww pleaseee Jadey!

Me: Stop calling me that! And I said no!

Cat: You owe me Jade! Remember when you said that you owe me for making me cry that day? Well you owe me to come stay the night with us!

Jade: Ughhhhhhh! Whatever I'll come.

Cat: Yay! You can ride home with us tomorrow after school. Mom is picking us up!

Me: Whateveerrrrrr

I sigh as I roll onto my back and look at the ceiling.

~Flashback~

"Dang it, I forgot to pack my sunscreen." I frowned as I looked through my swim bag.

"It's fine. We can stop and pick some up." My mother said as she gave my back a quick rub before returning her hands to the stirring wheel.

Today me and my mother are just having a day out. These are what she likes to call dates, but I rather not think of it as a date. It kind of creeps me out. So I just say day out. We usually try to have one at least once a moth where we'd do something fun, go to dinner, then finish off the day watching the sunset from a special spot not many people know about here in LA. I hate to get all cheesy and mushy about things like that, but it's really a beautiful thing. I feel like I can be free there and let all my thoughts and troubles go. I feel very at ease especially when I have my mother right by my side.

We pulled up to a small corner store not far from the water park we were headed to. Once inside we quickly spotted some sun block in which I thought twice about and instead picked up a bottle of sun tan lotion.

"I don't think you'll get any darker babe." She chuckled as she grabbed sun block for herself.

I just shrugged. You never know. I mean I've tried tanning before and yes it was a big fail because only spots of me tanned, but I didn't have sun tan lotion to help. This time it will help.

BANG

"Everybody put your fucking hands up!"

I froze in my tracks as I look up to see a two men wearing all black and face mask as they held guns up.

"Money, now! Don't make me tell you twice!" One guy said as he held a gun to the cashier who struggled to open the register. The other guy pointed the gun around to everyone in the small store as he kept quiet waiting for his friend to finish the job.

I know this is something that I should be afraid of and trust me I do get afraid sometimes, but…I'm not now. I don't feel afraid the least bit and me not panicking quickly spotted a back exit to the store.

"…Mom." I whispered as she kept quiet and held me closer with her trembling hands around me. "Back exit." I whispered again to her making sure not to get the robbers attention.

I didn't see her but I know she turned to see where I was saying because I felt myself being pulled with her a she took tiny steps backwards. We took small step after small step as we heard a police siren coming from just outside. The guys cursed as one shot the ceiling yelling angrily about someone calling the cops.

Within seconds policemen came running into the store shooting starting off a whole gun fight as the robbers shot back and it was in that moment I felt myself being jerked around in front of my mother and pushed out of the fire exit that had stairs behind it leading outside. I didn't have time to stop myself as I tumbled down the stairs cutting my face on a broken piece of glass on the way down. And even though my knee was on fire and I felt the side of my face dripping blood I stood quickly because my mother wasn't behind me.

"Mom!" I screamed out waiting for the door to open again and her run after me as I hear gun shots still being fired, but the door never opened, she never came running behind me.

~End of Flashback~

That day my mother was shot and killed along with two other mothers and one father. That day never leaves my mind. She took her own life to save me. And… No matter what I do, it's always there. I see it when I close my eyes at night. I see it when Ron's body is on top of mine knowing now there's no hope for her to save me anymore.

It's all my fault that she's not here today. If I never had of made her stop for stupid sunscreen she's still be here! And….whatever. I don't…fuck it okay. I don't even care anymore. That was two whole years ago. Who still gives a fuck? Not me.

KNOCK, KNOCK

I sit up quickly before dashing to my bathroom and shutting the door softly as I lock it. Covering my ears, I walked back into a corner and slid down the wall before bringing my legs to my chest and closing my eyes tight.

"Jade, babe you in here?" He asked as I heard my room door opening. I still hear his slurred voice through my covered ears and bathroom door as I grit my teeth tight.

KNOCK, KNOCK

"Jadeee, I know you're in there. Open up babe. I just want to show you something." Ron said as he banged on my bathroom door again this time demanding for me to open up.

I know….I know I should be used to this by now, and I kind of am, it's just…it's hard sometimes. You probably wonder why I don't tell, well because….where would I go? Who would want me? I don't have any other family that I know would actually take me in no matter what circumstances may be. My aunt is just a rotting soul. She doesn't give a shit about anything or anyone and she never has. So who does that leave me with? Ron, or the street or foster care, take my pick…..Ron's.

I open my eyes just in time to see the bathroom door get kicked open hard with his foot. This is the third time he's broken the lock on my bathroom door. My bedroom door lock is damaged beyond repair.

"Why do you hide from me?" He slurs as he gets to his knees in front of me.

I just shake my head as my heart starts to pound harder and my breathing almost at pants. It's just anxiety that builds up in me every time he's around. What makes it worse is that his girlfriend, Olivia, knows exactly what's going on with me, but she doesn't care. She doesn't say a word to him or a word to me. She's nothing but a hoe. All she wants is his dick, so as long as she's getting that she could care less of what else goes on in this household.

Today is no different than any other day. It's nothing new, I promise. He grabs my legs, slides me down, strips me, and does what he pleases before leaving me in a naked fetal position on my bathroom floor.

Tears fill my eyes, but they aren't tears of sorrow. No, those are weakness tears. These tears are tears of anger. Anger that no matter what I chose, I'd still be miserable, but either way I don't let the tears fall. I just let them blur my vision for the moment in time before I gather myself together, shower and get started on my homework as if nothing ever happened. It's almost a daily routine, but this is my life and the story of it and I'm sorry but there's not much I can do to change that.

I've just learned to live with it.


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