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A/N: Sorry about the delay, between new jobs, a crashed computer and a death in the family I barely got this out. Sorry I couldn't respond to your lovely reviews but I did read them all and they were greatly appreciated. So without further ado I give you... chapter 7
Not for the first time Bella wondered what in the blue Hell she was doing sitting on Spencer's sofa less than two weeks after Edward's departure. Her heart still throbbed when she thought of him. Not just him but his family too, they had become her own in a way. As different from her as they were she felt connected to them all even vain as hell Rosalie.
Now all those nights of tears and heartbreak later here she sat trying in vain to figure out exactly what the hell she was supposed to tell Spencer. She knew from the moment he drug her out of the bar that he was going to want answers but she really thought that maybe she would have more time to explain the clusterfuck that was her life lately.
Really she mused to herself all the while watching the doorway that lead to the kitchen where Spencer was making them tea. He had only said a little since they got here. One being "Have a seat." And two being" You know I need answers Angel". Well Bella was more than ready to give them if only she knew what to say. Well how about my vampire ex boyfriends fake brother tried to eat me then he wigged out on me and left me in the woods after breaking my heart by claiming he never loved me in the first place. Bella scoffed to herself. Of course she knew Edward had lied to her when he said that he didn't love her. It hadn't taken her long to figure that out. No one with a secret that huge would risk all that he had for someone that they didn't love completely. She finally understood that in his own warped way his leaving was in his mind for her own good and while she understood his reasons it also made it clear to her that their relationship would have ultimately failed because he would never see as a equal partner who he didn't need to make decisions for and also Bella wanted someone to love her enough to fight for their love. As much as she loved all the classics with their self sacrificing love and leaving to show that you love enough to let go what she wanted was someone who loved enough to say "fuck that" and hold on to love with both hands.
Now because her life had somehow become an angst filled teen drama she the girl who couldn't lie her way out of a paper bag had to figure out how to lie to a man trained by the damn government to see the truth of things..
"Just Great…" She breathed while letting her head fall back with a thud to hit the sofa behind her.
Spencer stood staring mindlessly at the boiling water in front of him. He wasn't really aware of how long he had been standing there literally watching the water boil but he did know that his time was up. It was time to go comfort his friend and find out what the heck was going on with her. He knew that something had happened with Edward and he knew it had to be bad or she wouldn't be there with him. He knew that their relationship was on a edge that he had never dreamed was coming. It was his all or nothing moment. After this they could stay friends or finally have a shot at being more than that. All he had to do was put the tea-cup he was holding down on the tray and walk back into the living room. Too bad his hands were shaking so bad that he was afraid that if he moved he would pass out.
Taking in a deep breath of cleansing air he gathered all his mental fortitude and made his way into the living room where he hoped his future waited.
"Bella here's your tea." He said as he watched her lift her head from the sofa. Her motions were slow and painful looking almost like she was dreading this conversation. That look alone made him wonder if maybe he was wrong about everything. Maybe something completely different was going on with her and she just needed her friend. Resigned to putting his feelings on the back burner again her sat down gingerly next to the girl and whispered," talk to me sweetheart. Tell me what's wrong."
Bella looked up at him with red teary eyes and said "have you ever wondered what would have happened if I had stayed in Arizona? I have thought about that constantly for a while now. And I truly think that moving to forks was the worst thing I could have done." She said then let her head lowered to his shoulder and began to weep silently.
Spencer had no idea what to say. For all the scenarios he had imagined nothing like this was even close. As much as he knew Bella hated the weather and lack of things to do in Forks he never once thought she hated it. He brushed her hair off her shoulder and asked his only question." Why?"
Bella tensed next to him then decided that she would give him as much of the truth as she could and pray that it was enough.
"Can you just listen and not ask questions Spencer. You know I can't lie to you but some things are just not mine to tell. If you can trust me and let me give you what I can of this then I can tell you what happened. Then afterwards if you want we can deal with the rest of it." She finished speaking then looked into his eyes waiting for his answer.
Spencer thought long and hard about what she said. If he was hearing her right then Bella was about to tell him her story with significant pieces missing. He had to weigh his need to know what happened with his need to know everything. Spencer took a deep breath then said the words that unknowingly sealed their fate. "I trust you babe. Tell me what you can."
Alice Cullen sat high up in the tree tops in Denali National Park in Alaska. With her husband Jasper calmly sitting in the tree next to her, waiting out her vision. Three branches below her Emmett Cullen sat waiting as well . His shoulders were hunched in on himself and his grief was evident for any who cared to look. Luckily they were miles from any human and jasper had grown used to the family's despair. With Edward having taken a runner and heading to Brazil he was once again able to manage the intense grief they were all feeling at the loss of their "little Sister".
Alice slowly came out of her vision and spoke for the first time in days. They had been sitting in the tree with her for over a week slowly succumbing to hunger but unwilling to leave her until they knew what was happening to Bella.
"That Idiot!" she cried then hopped out of the tree and fell more than a hundred feet only to begin pacing back and forth almost faster than they could see.
"He damn near broke her Jazz. All he had to do was tell her the truth and leave her but no his dumb ass hurt her. Now everything is all screwed up. It's going to take months for them to mange it now… And it's so complicated. Bella doubts everything she knows to be true and Spencer…Jesus Jazz remind me to kill Edward as soon as we bring him home."
Jasper and Emmet slowly made their way down the trees approaching the small but angry vampire warily.
"Ali what are you going on about… You said Bella would be ok with this Spencer guy if she could just see what could be between them. What's wrong now?" Jasper asked still feeling all the guilt for trying to kill Bella.
"Jazzy as soon as I had that vision of Edward finding his mate in Rio I knew that I must have missed something. I mean I always saw Bella with us you know? It never dawned on me that every time I saw her she was with all of us never just Edward. Even that vision of him chasing her in the woods we were all right behind them. So I've been thinking what if he was just meant to bring her to us, not "be" with her? I've always wondered about Edward being celibate for all this time and now with his mate being a guy…." Alice stopped quickly when both Emmet and jasper looked at her with faces full of disbelief. "Ed's mate is a dude? Are you sure? Emmett asked laughing softly.
Alice joined him laughing as they ran back to the house to tell the others about her vision." Yep, he sure is." She began running backwards then continued on with her theory about Bella. "So I was thinking what if Bella wasn't meant for Edhead. Maybe she was just meant to be a Cullen. And I don't think she was meant to be the only new addition." She said mysteriously then walked into the family house calling for the others as Jasper and Emmett shared a look the in unison yelled
"What!"
So… what are you guys thinking now? Ready to see where this train wreck is going to take us? Can't wait for your thoughts, love to know how you all feel about Edward's mate being a guy. I personally love Edward but for this story it just works if his mate is a gut. I promise it will all make sense soon. See you guys later.
