chapter 7.

BPOV

It was a beautiful.

It was first instrument and my first Acoustic Guitar.

The body was a light beige with a black pick guard. The neck was also black and the head and the sides were black as well. ( A/N: These are the parts and colours of the guitar if you don't know them than ...look them up...I guess. Sorry.)

This was a gift that I was happy Charlie spent money on. Charlie must of noticed my expression because he asked… " Do you like it Bell's?"

I instantly ran up to him and gave him a tight hug, and a kiss on the cheek.

" Im glad you do. I also bought you a learning book so you wouldn't have to take lessons. But you don't have to use it if you do want lessons. You could use it for practice."

I gave him another hug and his face lit up. Well, at least one of us were happy.

I was happy for the present. I can finally learn my songs. And actually play them. Maybe I can sing them.

No. That would be going against my vow, right? Well I did only vow not to talk. I never said that I wouldn't sing.

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February 10th

Dear Diary,

I've been doin' pretty well with my guitar. And may I say, I'm a quick learner. I wrote a new song and I just tried playing it on guitar today. But I haven't played it fully on guitar yet. I haven't sung it either but I know how it goes and I have been singing it in my head all day. I need a place more peaceful than my apartment to sing. I was thinking of going to…our meadow. I don't care if I get lost, it will be worth it. It's so peaceful there, aside from all the memories…of him. I will go soon. Don't worry.

Sincerely,

Without my missing soul,

Bella Marie Swan

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BPOV

February 14th

I was in the middle of the forest with my guitar on my back. I knew where I was. I would be there soon. Just a couple more minutes. I know that…our meadow… will bring back a lot of memory's but I will have to face sooner or later. I'm not trying to get over him, I'm just trying to forget him…

Who was a kidding? I could never forget him. There's no way. He was my love, my life, practically my guardian angel. I loved him. I always will, I will never forget him.

I still love you Edward Cullen. Even if you don't love me anymore.

I was approaching the opening where the meadow started.

I walked through the trees and the bushes that had grown over the opening since no one has been here in a while.

I walked in. It was just as beautiful as I remember. I could hear the nearby stream and the birds chirping. There were so many flowers. Everywhere you looked there was either flowers or a tree or bush. Beautiful.

I sat down in the middle of the meadow. The sun shining down on me. I pulled the guitar into my lap.

And started to sing.

Gotta Find You

"Everytime I think I'm closer to the heart

Of what it means to know just who I am

I think I've finally found a better place to start

But no one ever seems to understand

I need to try to get to where you are

Could it be, your not that far

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

I need to find you

I gotta find you

You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me

I need to find you

I gotta find you

Oh yeah

Yeah yeah

You're the remedy I'm searching hard to find

To fix the puzzle that I see inside

Painting all my dreams the color of your eyes

When I find you I'll be alright

I need to try to get to where you are

Could it be, your not that far

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

I need to find you

I gotta find you

You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me

I need to find you

I gotta find you

Been feeling lost, can't find the words to say

Spending all my time stuck in yesterday

Where you are is where I want to be

Oh next to you... and you next to me

Oh I need to find you... yeah

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

I need to find you

I gotta find you

You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me

I need to find you

I gotta find you

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

I need to find you

I gotta find you

You're the missing piece I need, the song inside of me

I need to find you

I gotta find you

Yeah, yeah... I gotta find you"

I didn't realize I was crying. I put a lot of emotion into that song. After not speaking for over 5 months, Im suprised I could sing. It felt so good to sing. But thats all I will do. I will only sing my songs. That song made me realize that as much as I miss him, and love him…he will never come back... because he doesn't love me...he never did.

I sat there crying my heart out when I heard a rustle in the bushes.

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BPOV

The bushes rustled again and a woman with long red hair walked out. I instantly recognized the blazing colour of her hair and gasped.

" Surprised to see me?" Victoria said. Slowly walking towards me.

" What do you want?" Was all that came out of my mouth.

" Well, Bella, I'm surprised it isn't obvious. I've come back for my revenge darling. You didn't think that after you lover boy Edward killed James that I wouldn't come back for revenge, did you?" I shuddered at his name and didn't answer.

" Where is he by the way? I was expecting a fight. But I see him nowhere."

" He's not here. He left." I could feel myself falling apart as I said it.

" Really? You're lying."

" As much as I want it to be a lie, it's not. He never loved me." It hurt to say it, even though it was true.

" Oh so sad. And here I thought this would be hard. A shame. That takes all the fun out of it."

" Takes the fun out of what?" I knew the answer I just had to make sure. If it is what I think it is, at least I will be happy and with Edward.

" Oh, killing you my dear. You know an eye for an eye." I was right.

" You don't look too upset, do you want to die?"

I'm surprised I wasn't crying yet. What's wrong with me. " There's nothing left for me t live for." I replied. It was the truth. What is there to live for. " What's the point of living if I'm always going to be depressed?"

" Really? Well, this is going to be easier than I thought it would be. I thought you would be difficult. Running, screaming for help, the usual. But, I guess not." She looked to have been deep in thought. What was she thinking. She was probably going to make it a slow and painful death. Obviously. A smile grew across her face. But at what? She wasn't looking at me. What was she thinking. If she was going to do it, she should just get it over with.

" Why do you want to die?" She asked with a grin across her face. She was planning something.

" It's not that I want to die, it's that there's nothing for me to live for. Besides the sooner I'm in heaven, my heaven, the sooner I'm with—"

" Hahaha!" She laughed then pounced on top of me and bit my shoulder.

The pain. The pain is something I will never forget. Other than my emotional pain, I have never hurt so much. I was waiting, waiting for me to die. Waiting for Victoria drink all my blood.

I could feel the teeth in my shoulder when suddenly they were yanked out.

I screamed in pain as Victoria stood over top of me.

" Sorry Bella. I couldn't let you be happy. You seemed happy when you figured out that you were going to die. Quite sad really. You said that you were always depressed and there was nothing to live for. Well, Bella, you shouldn't of told me that. Now you have the rest of eternity to be depressed." She said as she walked away.

" Enjoy your life!" I heard from afar. Then laughter.

I laid there. Screaming in pain. Once again I heard another rustle in the bushes.

What, was Victoria not done with me yet?

Then I saw 3 heads above me. The boy lifted me bridal style and I screamed in pain. As the boy carried me, I slowly slipped into unconsciousness.

I woke up in a large pale yellow room. On a king sized bed. I sat up. There was a window to my right but the sunlight was shielded by long light beige curtains. To the left was an arm chair faced towards the bed. Was someone here watching me? Probably not. I lid back down and covered my face with my hands, which were startlingly cold.

" Hello." A young brown haired man walked into the room. A young woman around the same age followed behind him. They were pale as chalk and had dark purple shadows under their eyes. I instantly knew what they were. I looked down at my hands. They were pale as well. I let out a sigh. The man looked at me confused and continued.

" I suppose you're wondering where you are." I nodded.

" My name is Jared Rodale. And this is my wife Hannah Rodale. We have 3 adopted children. Hayden, Rae and Dylan. They found you in a meadow and brought you here.

Do you know what happened in the meadow?"

I nodded and tried to act out writing. Hopefully he would get the point that I needed pen and paper.

" Paper?" I nodded.

" Do you not speak?" I shook my head.

Hannah left the room for a second and came back with a notebook and a pen.

I simply wrote:

You don't need to explain I already know.

I passed him the paper and he looked confused. " What do you mean you know? What do you know?"

You guys are vampires, right? I just had to make sure, even though I doubt they aren't.

" Uhm. Please explain why you are asking these questions. Why do you think we are vampires.?"

I looked into his eyes. They were smouldering black while his wife's, Hannah's were a golden topaz.

I sighed and began to write again.

Before I answer any questions, I think you should go hunt. Our eyes are pitch black.

I handed him the note.

" I will soon. Wait. How much do you know about us?!" He said in a sharp tone.

I sighed again and began to write.

You and I'm guessing your family as well, are vampires. So am I. You do not feed off of human blood but off animal blood. I can tell because your wife's eyes are gold. If you drank human blood they would be a bright ruby red. Your skin is as pale as chalk and I'm guessing ice cold. Vampires. What else can I say about vampires… Oh. You do not have fangs. You don't have a heartbeat. You can run at in-humane speeds. You don't have to breath. You sparkle in the sunlight. Your natural enemies are werewolves ( which I don't find half bad). You don't age. The "Vampire Royalty" and most powerful vampires are The Volturi…( well not to me). Uhm…You and your family are called a Coven…I think………shall I go on?

I once again handed him the note. He read it through slowly with confusion on his face. His wife, who I forgot was their, spoke first. " Who are you?"

Isabella Marie Swan (But I prefer 'Bella' ) Former human. Currently a newborn.

I ripped the page out and gave it to Hannah.

I never really noticed how beautiful she was. She had deep golden eyes, and long wavy dark chocolate brown hair. She had a heart shaped face and a beautiful figure. I'm guessing she's in her early twenty's, the same age as Jared.

" How do you know all this. You were bitten yesterday. Did the one who bite you explain it all before?"

I shook my head.

" Then how do you know this?" She asked again.

It's a long story… I wrote.

" Well, we have time."

Well, short version. I fell in love with a vampire. And he fell in love with me. He said I was his ' La Tua Cantante' or whatever. I inspired him to write a lullaby, and he sung it to me every night, to help me fall asleep. He would stay with me all night. He would tell me every thing. One day I was bitten by a tracker and he had to suck the venom out. He thought he would kill me but he loved me enough not to. His sister threw a party for me at their house on my 18th birthday and I got a paper cut and his brother attacked me, but didn't bite me. He was silent after that and three days later, he said he was leaving and, he said…he didn't live me. He broke my heart.

I slowly ripped out the note and set it on the bed. I pulled my knees to my chest, crossed my arms and lay my head in my arms, covering my face. Hannah was next to me in a split second rubbing my back.

" It's okay sweetie."

I lifted my head and rubbed my throat.

I quickly wrote.

I have to hunt.

I handed the paper to Jared and he nodded. " Yes. We all should. You can meet the rest of my family."

I nodded and stood up off the bed. Brushing my self off.

Jared leaded downstairs and walked into a large room, which I'm guessing is the living room.

There were three people. All three stood up and walked over to Jared.

" Bella, these are my children. Hayden," He said pointing to a 5 foot blonde girl with curly hair going down her back and ending in the middle. She had an oval face and medium sized oval eyes. She had a large smile across her face. She waved and squealed "Hi!" She looked about my age.

" Dylan," he pointed to a tall, about 5'8 thin but slightly muscular boy with curly brown hair. He had soft eyes and smiled with his mouth shut. He reminded me of someone…uhm…what's his name…Nick Jonas! He kinda looks like him. He was quite. He just gave me a small smile and looked back down at his feet. I was guessing he was about my age as well. Around 18.

" And Rae." He said pointing to the last girl. She was about 5'4. She had shoulder length brownish blondish hair with side bangs. She gave me a smile. " Hello!" She said cheerfully. They were all very beautiful.

" Children, this is Bella." Jared said pointing to me. I gave a smile and looked back to Jared.

" Okay, no more chit chat. I think we all could use a good hunt." Hannah said leading us out the door.

Could this be my new family?.