A/n- *dodes object* Ouch! Damnit! Oh hello...I didn't see you there.*notices angry mob* I can explain...oh wait...no I can't. Please forgive me for this being late. School started and I've been busy. It's only been a little over a month but still...it seems like half a year to me. I need inspiration(BIG TIME!) for this story. My will to write with this fic has left and I'm left with material like this! OH...and by the way I'd like to introduce you to a friend I've been getting really close to as of late. Writer's Block...these are my awesome fans which you have been preventing me from satisfying with an update! Awesome fans...this is Writer's Block. Yeah, I think you get the point. Anywho, thank you all for ALL the awesome reviews. THIS CHAPTER BREAKS A RECORD! WHOOT! Thirteen reviews! Isn't that great? For only my second story I think that's pretty good...I take pride in it! That said I'd like to thank all those who reviewed.
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My head bobbed down for what seemed like the millionth time that day. At this point, the only thing keeping me from falling asleep (and off this blasted cloud) was the never ending wind that blew against me, caused by the high speeds at which Sesshomaru was traveling. His arm was slung loosely around my waist and I clung as tight as I could to his haori...but it was so hard. It was going on twenty four hours since I'd slept and far, far too long since I'd bathed. I wanted to do nothing more than to collapse on...well...just anything solid would do at this point but what I really wanted was a soft mattress...a warm and crackling fire...nice fluffy pillows and crisp clean sheets that I would undoubtedly wrap around my legs in my sleep or kick completely off the bed...
That's what I wanted. But what I was getting something else entirely. I was stuck standing on this stupid cloud that, by all laws of nature, I should just fall right through. Oh but it didn't stop there. Oh no! Sesshomaru offered only an arm for safety and feeling of security and my calves were burning. I was so tired and I had been standing for an entire day! My self pity suddenly did a 360 and whirled into anger...at a certain demon lord. He hadn't spoken once...as usual but this was different. He wanted to stand instead of sit and I didn't want to sit while he stood because...well...honestly his arm offered an irreplaceable comfort and I didn't want to lose the familiarity it allowed me to have with him. So...I suffered through it. Until now.
" Hey Sesshomaruuuuu!" I screamed over the wind, my voice coming out like a whine. Thankfully, the cloud slowed and I sighed in relief.
" What is it?" I glared up at him.
" I've been standing here for the whole damn day! Don't you think we can stop for a while...preferably near some form of heated water?" He shrugged and I noticed how awkward it was for him to shrug with his only arm around me. He sort of winced, seeing that I'd noticed. So it embarrassed him? My anger vanished, replaced by pity again but this time for him.
" We will stop long enough for you to sleep, eat, and bathe and then we will continue traveling. We are still a day away so the next time we stop you will be allowed to rest at my castle." His cloud began to descend and I bit back a startled yelp. I held tightly onto his arm, my hands clenching the white fabric of his haori. We landed gently on the ground. His arm left my side and I felt...well I felt cold but inside I missed his touch. Like his arm was supposed to be there...which reminded me.
" Sesshomaru, come...come here for a moment." A silver brow rose only to be hidden by his bangs but he still took the few steps toward me to stand a few feet away. I closed the distance and started to undo his haori.
" What are you-" I shushed him and pushed the cloth aside.
" I'm fixing my mistake." He didn't have time to protest as a white glow sprang forth from my hands. I called on his powers and they immediately responded, coming to unite with mine. The white and green came to mix and swirl together, like ribbons dancing, until they gathered at the base of his arm, where it was severed. He stared with wide eyes, unable to stop anything.
" Just relax...Sesshomaru,just relax." He released a breath and I continued. The dancing ribbons our aura flashed a blinding light and started to grow out, in the shape of his arm. I was recreating his arm, a solid form of both of our auras. His mouth opened slightly in wonder and I smiled. Almost...
I watched the stripe of his wrist and the tip of his claws form with the greatest feeling of victory. The very second it reached the end of his arm there was another flash and i released the hold I had on our powers. The remaining power went back to our bodies and I sighed in relief. I had done it. I had given him back his arm. A small part of me, in the back of my mind, realized that, after he sent me away, after I was forced to leave him, he would always have a small part of me that he could never let go. In this small way, I would never have to let him go.
" You...my arm...I...how did you...why?" I hesitated only a moment before I lunged at him and hugged him,my arms wrapping tightly around his waist.
" You deserve it and even though you'll hate me one day...I wanted to do this for you." His fallen jaw snapped shut and he nodded.
" Thank you." I smiled again and nodded.
" It feels strange, to have my arm returned. I feel...uneven." I laughed and watched as he flexed the muscles in his arm. I felt pride, to make his happy.
" You'll get used to it, I'm sure. Is there a spring around here?" He nodded and lifted a clawed hand, the one attached to his new arm, and pointed to the left.
" Just through those trees." I nodded and blushed when I realized I was still hugging him. I grabbed my bag and headed out of the clearing.
" Don't get in trouble while I'm gone." Just when I thought he wouldn't respond and was about to leave his sight, I heard a disbelieving snort.
" And you as well." I laughed happily. True enough, the spring was right there in front of me, just out of the clearing. I set all of my things out and stepped into the water. I groaned as I felt my muscles untense in the hot water.
" Ahhh, this is the life." And here it was, the hated moment. The moment where I actually had time to think about how bad I'd screwed up. About my guilt for lying and leaving Inuyasha. About the life I'd left behind. About a missing little girl. About what would happen when I got to his castle. About NOT wanting his memories to return so he could be MY Sesshomaru longer. About everything else I'd done wrong.
" What am I going to do..." And just like that everything I'd been ignoring came back like a slap to the face. Who would be at his castle? What would they think? Would they replace him because he couldn't remember anything?!?!?! But wait...didn't he say it was in his blood to be lord? So maybe...but what would they do to me? I couldn't leave Sesshomaru! Not now! He was so sweet, so kind, so MY Sesshomaru! What if they saw me as the cause of his lost memories? I started to panic.
That's when it really hit. These feelings...of not wanting to lose somebody, not wanting to lose a feeling. I'd felt them before but compared to this it was like the flicker of a candle to the very fires of hell. I had loved Inuyasha before, in the past. And now, I realized with the utmost shock, as my world seemed to light up with a now almost obvious epiphany,I was falling for Sesshomaru. Fast.
**Later That Night**
As I lay there on my side, staring into the dancing flames of of the blazing fire, my heart was ripped into. It seemed only proper, that I should be punished like this. Doomed to love those that would never love me back. Ture, I didn't love Sesshomaru...yet. But I would be a fool not to see the fast track I was on to doing so. He couldn't love me. Would never, and even if he did, I could never do that to him. He'd lost his memories and when he regained them, he would hate me. So I would suffer for him as I fell head over heels in love. I would endure the pain of yet another unrequited love so that he would not suffer. So that I would not suffer. So that I would never have to know that he would turn me away. So that I could live in this world of not knowing, the world where he just might love me back. And I squashed those thoughts.
Jaken stared at me. They'd caught up with us a few hours ago and there was something...off about Jaken. The darkness was gone from his aura. It seems that he has to lie directly for it to show.
Sesshomaru's golden gaze darted to me, away from Jaken, for a moment before going back. He was across from me, on the other side of the fire and I stared at him, deciding that he was much more interesting than the toad. It was his shift, to watch the traitor.
" Sleep Kagome, you said you were tired." I jumped at his voice and blushed as I forced my eyes to close.
" Sorry." I whispered.
"Hn" The last thing I remember before I fell asleep, was the smile that came to my face at his choice of words.
**Next Morning**
" Wake up you foolish hu-OOMPH!" I threw the closest object, a rock, at the most annoying version of an alarm clock in existance. The kind with no snooze button. I opened my eyes to see a blurry version of a smirking Sesshomaru.
" That was most amusing." I grinned, looking silly I'm sure.
" Glad you enjoy my pain." His smirk grew.
" I'd say he's in more pain than you." I laughed at the sprawled form of the little green nuisance.
" Well he deserves it." His brow rose.
" Indeed." I shrugged and stood, stretching as I did. It was hard to go on like this, knowing how I felt about him.
" Prepare yourself, we must go soon." I nodded and quickly got dressed in my make-shift shorts and torn school shirt. When I stepped back into the clearing Sesshomaru frowned.
" What?" In a flash he took off his outer haori and threw it, the large cloth fluttering down to land on my head. I tore it away and looked up curiously.
" You want me to wear it?"
" Hn." I blushed and looked away.
" Thank you." I wrapped it around me and pulled it tight. The sleeves were too long and it swallowed me whole but...it was warm...oh and it smelled like him. When I thought he wasn't looking, I inhaled it deeply.
" What did you just do?" I froze.
" Nothing!" He smirked.
" You just smelled of my haori." I shook my head, my face burning.
" No I didn't." He let out a deep throaty chuckle.
" Kagome, I can smell you lie." I looked away.
" Whatever..." He continued to laugh.
" Are you admitting to it?" I grabbed the sleeve of his inner haori and tugged.
" Let's just go!" He looked down at me and I looked away again. Thankfully, he left it alone. He leaped into the air and his cloud formed under us.
" No ear piercing scream this time?" I shrugged.
" I'm used to it." He went faster, I stayed still, resisting the urge to cling to him.
" Hn." He sped up so fast I had to close my eyes. I turned my head to his shoulder and wrapped my arms around his. He slowed down.
" What the hell was that for?!" He laughed!
" I was simply seeing how long it would take you to give in." I huffed...but only loosened my grip instead of letting go.
" It will take another day to reach your castle won't it?" He nodded and I groaned.
" Great, another twenty-four hours stuck with you!" He looked down at me, seeming offended, but he must have been able to see the joke in my eyes.
" Such a shame seeing as how I enjoy losing the circulation in my arm," he said, gesturing to the grip I had on him. I frowned, as I could see no playfulness in his golden eyes and released his arm. He frowned though, and said," You didn't have to let go." I grinned and grabbed onto him again. I suddenly yawned. Kami was I tired!
" If you'd like..." He didn't finish and I gestured for him to continue. " I could carry you...so you could sleep. You're only human so..." My eyes widened in surprise.
" You'd do that? I don't want to be a burden, I'd be much too heavy to just carry ar-" He laughed.
" You would not be too heavy. It's no problem." I shrugged, looked down, and awkwardly scraped my toe along the cloud. Before I had time to think, he swept me up, one hand around my shoulders and the other under my knees. I gasped in surprise.
" Sleep. I can sense your need for it." I yawned and nodded.
" I guess you're right. Thank you."
" Hn." I smiled and let my head rest against his shoulder. I loved his scent, and his warmth, and the rise and fall of his chest. It was so...natural. Like it was supposed to be this way. But that would never be possible. I was only a girl selfishly indulging in something she could never have. But take what you got when you can get it right? Unfortunately, I didn't get to for long because, Sesshomaru was right. I was tired.
**At the castle**
" We're almost there Kagome, wake up." Warm. I thought. And soft. And it smelled good. Annoying, I thought, for trying to wake me up. Then...strange...I thought, for talking.
" Kagome!" It hissed. Shouldn't be hissing...wait...
" Sesshomaru?" I felt myself go vertical.
" Yes, now get yourself together so I can enter my grounds." I quickly grabbed hold of the situation and shook myself awake.
" Alright, I'm ready. Let's do this." We walked out ahead but I was confused. There was nothing but a giant, gaping emply piece of land.
" Up there." He explained and I looked up. I noticed it now, the shadow cast over the land by the giant castle over head.
" T-that's your castle." He smirked, with arrogance, I assumed.
" Yes, now come. I was confused until he grabbed me and gave a giant leap. Within seconds we were on the cloud that somehow held the giant towering castle.
I simply stared at its brilliance, the intertwining vines that grew mystically up the walls and the impossibly floating green garden at its side. Suddenly, the sound of the giant double doors sliding open startled me and I turned to looked at it. It was a woman. A demon woman.
" Sesshomaru, darling! You're here early!" Behind me, Sesshomaru tensed.
A/n- I know, I know! You guys want some action! I'm not a professional or nothin'! Some of you guys are really understanding and sweet about it and others...not so much. I'd like to speak for all beginning writers when I say," We come here to learn and experience! We don't all start out great writers!" Some are good at action scenes, or romantic scenes, or sad scenes...and I'm learning them all as I go. So please try to understand. To those of you that already do and had to listen to that, I'm sorry for ranting you out. ^_^ Please make my life worth living with your reviews. You know I love them! Oh and do you know who the demoness was?
Jaken:*squawk!* I barely had a part in this chapter! You stupid human! I shou-
Dreamer:*Throws shoe* There's that! This time he's going into the oblivion.
Everyone but Dreamer:*stage whispers*
Dreamer: What?
Inuyasha:*bravely speaks up* Ahem...that might be a bit cruel. Your imagination is...scary...*shivers*
Kagome: Yeah...we're still trying to get Sesshomaru out...
Dreamer: Well I had to stop you guys! I told you, you can't have wild monkey sex until the plot progresses! He can't try to kill me for stopping you two!
Koga: Ummm...Can't we get out of this thing? *Bangs on box*
Kagome: You'll get used to it. It's not so bad after a while...you just have to get used to Dreamers random thoughts...and perverted images.
Inuyasha: Oh sweeet Kami! What the hell was that?!
Kagome: She just pictured Sesshomaru...naked...*drools* At least I can enjoy the show!
Inuyasha and Koga: HEEEELLLPPP!*faints*
Dreamer: *stares at bodies then looks at Kagome* You're cleaning that up.
XD I'm so stupid! REVIEW!
