CHAPTER 7: just maybe

"I feel so lost."

Spencer looked at her cell and stopped walking. One week after the party, she was on her way to work and she was thinking about what happened at the party.. She knew that Ashley had noticed that she heard what she said at the party but was acting like nothing happened. For about six days, Spencer thought that maybe she heard it wrong, that maybe Ashley didn't mean it like that, that maybe it was just the alcohol talking. But there still a doubt in the back of her mind, something telling her that those kind of thing just didn't come out of someone's mouth without them meaning at least some of it. She found herself thinking that maybe, just maybe, Ashley wanted something to happen between them. Those were the thought that Spencer was trying her best to shake out of her head. But she found out that as hard as she was trying to stop herself from thinking about it, she just couldn't.

That's why Ashley's text had surprised her that much. They didn't really talk about what was said at the party, and that being totally blurted out of nowhere made Spencer think that maybe, just maybe she was right all along. Spencer started walking again as she texted Ashley back. "Why lost? What's going on?"

Ashley's text came back a couple of minutes later which was the opposite of what usually happened. It was quite unusual since Ashley only took a couple of seconds to text back. Her phone finally vibrated again and Spencer knew it was a message from Ashley. She took her phone out of her pocket and opened it, reading the message.

"It's embarrassing."

Spencer stopped walking once again. She knew what was going on in Ashley's head at the moment, simply because Ashley was always the one who was pushing her to tell something, not caring a tiny little bit or not if it was embarrassing or not.

Spencer put her phone back in her pocket started walking again because she saw that her bus just turned the corner and being late for work wasn't really an option. On the bus she took it out again and starting typing a message to Ashley. After three attempts of texting something back she realised she couldn't find the right words so she closed her phone yet again. As she was putting her phone in her pocket it vibrated again. She opened it to find a new message from Ashley. "Don't worry I'm not in love or anything."

Before Spencer had a change to realise what she was doing she had texted back. "Neither am I."

Neither am I ? Way to go dumbass. Spencer thought to herself. She texted Ashley back. "Let's go play some pool tonight."

She didn't have to wait another five minutes for Ashley's text because it came right after Spencer sent hers. "Okay."

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"Ashley would you just please stop freaking out?" Spencer laughed at Ashley. "We're just gonna go in, play some pool and then go back home. Everything's gonna be okay, no one's gonna touch you." Ashley glared at Spencer.

"Well I'm glad you find my discomfort amusing." Ashley spat out.

Spencer stopped laughing when she realised Ashley was really freaking out. "Hey, come on now. Nothing's gonna happen to you, it's no like a girl is gonna jump at you." She said while looking Ashley in the eyes.

"Promise?" The brunette asked, pouting

"Yes." Spencer smiled at Ashley. "Look we can go somewhere else if you want, it's not that big of a deal." Spencer said shrugging.

"No, it's okay. But I'm NOT going to the bathroom alone."

"Alright, let's go." Spencer laughed as she slightly pushed Ashley forward, leading the way.

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"See? Told you it wouldn't be as bad as you'd think!" Spencer said smiling and quite proud of herself. They were on her way back to Spencer's house and Spencer knew what Ashley had enjoyed herself.

"You totally suck at pool though." Ashley said and Spencer gasped. "I do not." She said trying to keep a straight face. "I totally let you win."

"You didn't." Ashley responded trying her best to keep a straight face but it was rather impossible with Spencer right next to her.

"Oh no, I did." Spencer said smirking at Ashley.

"Shut up!" Ashley said as Spencer burst into laugh and she soon followed.

Ashley turned at the end of the street and they were now in front of Spencer's house. Ashley stopped the car but let the music play.

"Well I guess this is it." Ashley said and Spencer couldn't help but notice the tone in her voice. She sounded sad, like she didn't want the night to end.

"Yeah. I better go, some of us are working earlier than others tomorrow." Spencer said smirking. She was the one working earlier and Ashley couldn't help but smile too.

"Alright, well come here." Ashley said as she unbuckled herself and opened her arms. Spencer leaned in and wrapped her arms around Ashley's shoulders as Ashley did the same. Once again Spencer found herself closing her eyes even if she was trying not to.

But Ashley suddenly pulled back. Her eyes were anywhere but on Spencer.

"What's wrong?" Spencer asked as she sat back down to a more comfortable position

"Nothing."

"Ash." Spencer tried again. She really wasn't fooling anyone.

"It's just..." She took a second a took deep breath. "Your hugs usually do nothing to me."

"But this one did?" Spencer asked after a moment.

"Yeah." Ashley confessed

Spencer rubbed her forehead trying to come up with something. "Wanna try it again?" Spencer said as she took off her coat. Ashley wasn't wearing hers either because the heat in the car was on and it really was getting hot.

"Okay." Ashley said as she finally looked Spencer in the eyes. Her eyes were filled with emotion but Spencer couldn't quite figure out which one.

"Come here." Spencer whispered as she opened her arms, much like Ashley has done just a couple of seconds ago.

But the hug was nothing like the first one. Ashley rested her head on Spencer's shoulder. But when Spencer slowly started to rub her back Ashley moved to Spencer's neck and buried her face in it. Since Spencer wasn't wearing her coat she could feel and hear Ashley's breathing starting to pick up. Yet she was trying her best to keep her face from moving to Ashley's neck as well.

Then she felt it. Ashley had just pressed her lips to her neck without kissing her and Spencer could already feel her own heartbeat picking up. She tried to calm herself down but it really wasn't working. "You okay?" She heard Ashley whispered but not trusting her voice, Spencer could only nod.

Ashley hugged Spencer even tighter before slowly starting to pull back. Her cheek was now pressed against Spencer's. They stayed like that for a couple of seconds before Ashley moved her head slowly to the side, facing Spencer.

Spencer fought to keep her eyes closed. But as she felt Ashley move she couldn't keep them closed anymore. She slowly opened her eyes and immediately Ashley's eyes found hers. "You okay?" Ashley whispered again and turned her head even more towards Spencer.

Spencer swollowed but once again only nodded and she closed her eyes again. That was too much for her. Ashley's sent was everywhere and she felt like she was drowning in it. She opened her eyes again and just as Ashley was leaning in she leaned in as well.

The second their lips touched both girls eye's closed. Spencer had kissed a few girls but no one had kissed her like that. Ashley knew what she was doing as she moved her hands to the back of Spencer's neck as she pulled her even more into her. Spencer lifted her hand to Ashley's cheek and as she softly stroke it with her thumb she heard Ashley moan. Oh fuck.

Ashley pulled back and pushed Spencer back in her seat.

"Ash?" Spencer asked but before she could finish her sentence, Ashley was sitting in her lap and her lips found hers, kissing her hard. Both girls got caught up in the moment in their own little bubble, where it was only just the two of them. Ashley lips moved to Spencer neck where she bit some flesh there. Spencer winced a bit in pain but then moaned at the sensation Ashley was making her feel. Spencer took Ashley's face in her hands as she kissed her soflty but with passion. It's like she was putting everything she was feeling towards the brunette in that kiss and Spencer couldn't help but smile when she heard the brunette moan.

Both girls finally pulled back and rested their forehead against each other's. Spencer was breathing heavily and noticed Ashley was too.

"That was intense." Spencer whispered and Ashley nodded.

"But I can't feel my legs." Ashley said and Spencer burst into laughs.

A/N Damn this one was hard to write...please R&R the next chapter should be up by the end of the week!