Not Until You Turn Punk

Disclaimer: Oh yes, that was my wish on the genie… that was stuck in that bottle I found. Buwahaha. –sobs- I'm crazy. I know. Stupid straightjacket…

A/N—I KNOW! I'm BACK! It's been so long, and I let EVERYONE DOWN! No. Sorry! I sincerely am. But life happens, and my life has been HELL. You have no idea. I've been an emotional mess, but low and behold, I FINALLY MANAGED A CHAPTER! Sorry for the super long wait, and I hope you enjoy. And even if you don't; oh well. Wait… you will enjoy.

Last Time:

They arrived at the hospital and the doctors took her into surgery automatically. Sesshomaru waited, nervous for her. Sira and Souta had shown up, and were sitting beside each other, Sira crying hard. It was clear that Sira loved Kagome, and from how Souta held Sira to him, that he loved her too.

InuYasha sat, his attire messy now, as he'd been pacing. He used to know Kagome, and now she was different. He knew he remembered her from somewhere, and now he knew where. She used to live beside him, for his aunt Kaede took care of her and babysat when her parents were gone. How much had changed. With her, with himself.

The doctor came out, with a grave look on his face. Sira clung to Souta. InuYasha clenched his fists and Sesshomaru looked like… Sesshomaru. His face was completely stripped of emotion.

The doctor began to speak.

This Time:

Chapter Seven

Wasted

"Ms. Higurashi seems to be in a state of… unrest. Her body was eating away at itself, because she has been lacking proper nutrition. Her pupils suggest lack of sleep, as do the bags under her eyes. She is not to be in any form of stress for the next few weeks, and she will be written off of school. She is listed as her own guardian, so as soon as she is awake, and the IV's are gone, she can leave. She might have some head trauma, but she seems perfectly fine other than that. No broken bones, no fractures, and her skull and brain look perfect."

"So she's okay?" Sira whispered, her voice hoarse from crying.

"She's fine, she just needs rest for a few weeks. Three should be enough. I'll be giving you her prescription for painkillers, just in case she gets migraines or anything of the sort. If she bleeds through her ears or nose within the next few days, bring her back."

"Okay." Souta said, as he stood up. Sesshomaru looked down at his clasped hands. InuYasha shifted and looked at him, going to stand.

"InuYasha."

"What?"

Sesshomaru seemed to release a sigh, and he ran a hand through his hair. "What did you mean?"

"About what?"

"Why am I an idiot?"

"Oh. How can you not see her? Because of Kagura? Kagura is a whore, Sesshomaru. Kagome is a JEM. She deserves the best. She's hot too, but she is a sweetheart. I remember when I met her when we were children, and she wore a pink skirt, and a little pink hair tie. She had ribbons around her wrists, and she smiled. And I changed her to who she is now. I told her she looked fat in pink, that cute little six year old girl, and now she is how she is. She is tough, and she is a fighter. She is a nice woman, and she deserves a strong man. If you don't shape up soon, I will get her to be mine, Sesshomaru."

When Kagome opened her eyes, all she saw was white, which meant hospital. She sat up slowly, and rubbed her head. "Ugh. Bruise." She flinched. A sigh was heard and a shout of 'Kagome!' before she was squeezed in between frail arms.

"Kagome I was so scared." Sira sobbed into her, as she held Kagome. Kagome sighed and rubbed Sira's head gently.

"Sira, Sira, Sira…" Kagome whispered. "I can survive anything." She whispered, and she leaned against Sira. "Can we leave now?"

"The doctor said you could when you woke." She heard from the door. Sesshomaru stood there, watching her as she looked into his eyes. She looked down a moment later, and moved to stand. She began to walk, and wobbled slightly before tilting sideways. Sesshomaru caught her easily, and held her. She looked at the ground and blushed. "Your balance will be off for a few days and you're supposed to rest. If you need anything, I will be in your living room."

"I don't need anyone to take care of me." She whispered as the exited the hospital. Sira had left to get Souta, and they had headed to the pharmacy to drop off her prescription. "I can take care of myself."

"Kagome." Sesshomaru whispered, and he sighed again. "I want to take care of you. Please let me. I know I haven't been… acting the same lately, since Kagura transferred." He felt Kagome tense slightly. "I am sorry. You don't understand that kind of pain. You don't understand what it is to have your heart ripped out of you, because you didn't make a move earlier."

Kagome didn't say anything. What could she say? 'Well I could tell him that I know but that would be a lie. And I don't like to lie.' She sighed. "You're right. I do know how unrequited love feels though." She said, so softly he almost missed it.

"Oh, Kagome…"

"Please, just take me home." She didn't look at him. She couldn't. He would see the tears that threatened to fall and then she would be lost. This killed her. She didn't even know why she was so jealous of Sesshomaru's ex. Who had cheated on him with InuYasha. But she was. Her heart clenched in her chest, and she bit her lower lip.

"Okay." He whispered to her, as he helped her into his vehicle. She didn't look at him during the drive, nor when he helped her from his car and into her house. She didn't look at him as he helped her to her room. She didn't look as he turned away from her. She bit her lip again, and her shoulders shook. "Oh Kagome…" He whispered again, his arms wrapping around her from behind. She gasped when he pressed his lips to the hollow behind her ear, and when she felt his rough fingertips against her jawline. He pulled her back against his chest, and turned her face. His eyes smoldered in the light that came from the corner lamp. All his emotions hung in the amber depths, and he leaned forward and kissed her gently. The kiss lasted only a moment, but her heart soared, and crashed instantaneously. The kiss held pent up passion, sadness, loneliness, and a hunger she had never felt before. And then he was gone.

And she was left there crying on the floor, left where her legs have given out after he had gone.

The night was long, and her world was plagued with nightmares, and hopes, and dreams. Her dream world twisted into something evil, and she had no idea why.

Staring at an empty cup of understanding. Maybe you could fill it up and tell me what you love. I don't want to be alone, in this ocean. People passing by, rushing towards you.

Sesshomaru sighed, as he packed the rest of his belongings. He was leaving today. She would never know. She was still recovering. It had been a week since he had saw her last. One week since he gave her the kiss he would leave her with. "Is that the rest of it?" InuYasha asked, as Sesshomaru passed him.

"Yes."

"You're leaving?"

"Yes."

"She'll be broken."

"She will survive."

And I can see your soft reflection, like a ghost in the mirror. And I will do whatever I could, for a chance to have you here. And be home again. Now that you're gone I can see that I was wrong. Back in your arms I feel home again. Now that you're gone I can see I was wrong, back in your arms again.

The plane he was getting on rolled up, and he looked at the emblem. InuYasha's mother was sending him off in style. He smiled. She was a very sweet woman. He turned around, and had to double take. The flight attendant was Kagome. "Kagome?"

She smiled at him, and her features changed back to a plain black haired woman with brown eyes. "Need help, sir?"

"No."

Again. Even as the clouds roll by I swear they mock me, cause every one that fills the sky turns into your face. Maybe it was heaven's fault; they lost an angel. I couldn't hold on and I let her get away.

He sighed gently. Kagome was on his mind. The plane had left without a hitch, right on time, and he sat, drinking a bottle of water. He wouldn't see Kagome for a while now. He was halfway to Paris. Someone had to take over the business now that Izayoi was getting older.

And I can see your soft reflection like a ghost in the mirror. And I would do whatever I could for a chance to have you here. And be home again. Now that you're gone I can see that I was wrong. Back in your arms I feel home again. Now that you're gone I can see I was wrong. Back in your arms again. Again.

Kagome sobbed gently. He was gone. GONE. He had left for Paris. Miroku had told her. He had hugged her tightly and told her everything would be okay. What had happened to her? She wasn't this weak, emotional teenager. She didn't have time to be. Sira was five months pregnant now. Her parents had left her in Kagome's custody. They were planning a wedding. Kagome hummed to herself. She wasn't this girl. As she wiped her eyes, she stood up and looked out the window. "Everything will be okay." She said to herself. "Life goes on."

And it would.

And it did.

Yes, I know. It isn't the best ending to this chapter, but still! You have to grow every day. Remember that.

Jaime