Can you please do the disclaimer for me?
Carlos: Suuure..., but why can't you do it? You say the disclaimer all the time.
I don't really feel like saying it this time around.
Carlos: You feeling ok? *places hand on Princess' forehead*
*backs hand away* I'm fine. Please sat the d**m disclaimer.
Carlos: *wide eyes* Ok! *eyes back to normal* Princess.A. doesn't own Big Time Rush but she wishes.
Please enjoy the story btw (by the way) this is the last chapter in the story….
(-) = Thoughts
I wake up the next day; still stuck in the hospital. I was looking at the roses the five guys I had in my home give me. I began thinking about the concert in one week/five days and Big Time Rush.
(It's Sunday morning and I haven't heard from my dad or the guys. I'm really thinking why did I meet the guys in Virginia Beach? Am I going to see them later in life or what? I need answers and I need them now!)I got out of the hospital bed and walked over to the window; looking out at the beach and the people doing beach things.
While I was looking out the window; I glanced at the beach and saw a group of people gathering at an empty stage… or so I thought.
(What in the world are those people at that stage for?) I clocked my head slightly
As my wondering began to ponder; a nurse came in to tell and give me something.
"Ms. Henderson." The nurse came right behind me and tapped me on the shoulder
I turned around to see the nurse holding a note like letter in her hands which had my name on it.
"Who wrote the letter?" I gently took the letter from the nurse's hand,
The nurse let go of the letter and began to speak.
"A guy named James Diamond dropped the letter off and told me to give it to you." The nurse smiled awkwardly
I looked down at the letter. I gave a look at the letter like I was regretting having it in my hands. The nurse looked at me then left without saying another word to me. I looked at the stage then the letter and back to the stage.
(I have a good feeling that this letter has to connect to the stage outside on the beach.) I monotoned
I slowly opened the letter; might think that I might break to pieces after reading the letter… sure enough I did.
Dear Ashley,
I'm sorry for what has happened last night with those girls. I mean whatcan I do when I'm a star and loved by many people? I know how you feel; being cooped up in a hospital bed and just watching T.V all day when you're busy watching (on a daily basis) your dad not trying to burn the house down. Me, Kendall, Carlos and Logan had to keep your dad away from the oven all day and it was a BIG TIME job! Don't worry about your dad. He's fine and can't wait for you to come home. I've might forgot to tell you this, but you got in the hospital by the blood from your head that wasn't pressurized.
Anyway, you already noticed that the two roses I gave you last night meant I love you and it was at first sight. I will always love you even when I go away… I know… I don't like the thought of leaving either. But we both saw it coming… we just ignored it until now. In this letter I gave you; there is two things. One there is an A necklace meaning you and a J bracelet meaning me that always has your hand (or wrist… whatever you want to say). The last thing is a concert outside your window to say goodbye. I love you to the end of time and beyond that. Please never forget me.
Love,
James Diamond 3
After reading the letter my heart sunk to the bottom of me and it went numb. I didn't want to watch the concert and start to cry right in front of right in front of James would be disgrace to me. Once I heard the guys sing their first song "Big time rush" I turned my head away; ready to wait till they were done. Once they ended their last song "Stuck" James grabbed his mic.
"Thanks for coming! We arranged this concert for a special someone who is stuck in the hospital watching right now!" James calmed down hishis voice "I want to read a poem that describe me and the girl who I feel for. The girl I fell for wrote this herself… Ashley Henderson."
My body frozed up and quickly turned over to the stage to see James reading a peice of paper.
Love
Love doesn't change us
It just means that were more than friends
An addition to us… There's a plus
We're in love till time ends
My heart tends to skip beats when you come around
My eyes flutter shut when you kiss me
I feel like I've been lifted off the ground
I have a feeling that we're really meant to be
Love is an over powering feeling
It can't be stopped; No matter how much we try
I see our love growing; me on one knee with a question reeling
As I stay in my position I'm in; you begin to cry
Nothing in me or my loving heart can replace loving you
You're everything I ever needed, wanted; you're pure and true
My eyes began to waterand make trails down my face. I didn't want him to leave like this.
(THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING! I'M NOT WATCHING HIM LEAVE LIKE THIS!) I ripped my IV off of my arm, took off my hospital gown, trade it with my clothes, took off my bandage, and headed out the door.
The nurses tried to stop me but one nurse understood what I was going through so she stopped the other nurses. I thank her to this day. I got to the beach entrance where the stage was near and yelled.
"James Diamond!"
The brunette turned his head to see me out of the hospital, not bandaged up and smiling like myself.
I was wearing a black tank-top, a white blouse that had a mini vest that was white that had one button, a black skirt that when it stopped it went out-wards that stopped at the end of my kness and my black designer flats.
I saw those hazel eyes glitter like the first day I met and kissed him. He became in shock mode until Kendall hit him in the back and James ran up to me.
Once I felt arms wrap around me and I was going into the air; I knew that James was hugging me like it was the last time we could ever see each other.
"Hey. I thought I wouldn't see you out of the hospital when I left." James cradled me in his arms like I was his baby
"And I thought I wouldn't see you in person before you left." I tapped his nose with my finger playfully
"We don't always get what we want sometimes but this time around-"James smiled
"We got what we wanted." I finished for James
"Yeah…" James looked into my metallic blue eyes and just bore into them "I guess you're right."
I smiled once I saw those hazel eyes boring into my metallic blue ones. I took one finger, took the finger to dip his chin down which made his face go down, and I went in for the kill.
Once I touched James' lips with mine; I felt like heaven came to me. I couldn't comprehend what I was feeling. My emotions were all racked up and it was all to James. James meant everything to me. All I look for in guys are… they make me smile, I can completely trust them, they're able to back me up if something goes wrong, they're always there to help me when I hurt, and they aren't embarrassed to be around me….
(James…. You're everything that my checklist checks off on. Now when it comes to trusting you… I'm not sure if I can when you leave, butif you read my poem "Love" and really mean it while you were reading… I know I can trust you when you leave.) I mind sighed blissfully
Once I felt James stop kissing me; my world stopped.
"What's wrong?" I asked like I was confused (And I am)
"You weren't kissing me back…" James' face dropped "are you ok?"
I blinked twice then I face palmed myself knowing I went into my own world.
"I'm sorry!" I panicked "I went into dreamland!"
James took one finger to my chin and brought my face to us touching noses.
"Now why did you go off in your own world when I'm your world?" He asked
Now I became much blanked at that question. I looked around to see if something I will give me an answer, but nothing came.
"Well I was thinking about you. Everything you are to me and what you'll be when you leave." I smiled my best knowing I'm deeply telling the truth.
"You were really thinking about me?" James asked with face becoming brighter by the second.
"I was. You're always on my mind." I deeply smiled even making me have butterflies in my stomach "Do you mind if I sing a song?"
James nodded his head and gently puts me down from his arms. I quickly ran to the stage, grabbed a mic and I had James quickly following me.
"What *pant* do you *pant* want to sing?" James panted
"Well "fall to pieces" By Avril Lavigne" I chuckled a tiny bit
"Well…" James looked at the guys and the guys shook their heads. Carlos on the other hand didn't really respond. "Go right ahead."
"Ok!" I spoke into the mic "This song is "fall to pieces" by Avril Lavigne and I sing this song to my guys, James Diamond."
Everybody even Carlos looked at James who was blushing. I began to sing with my eyes shut pretending nobody is there.
I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you
During this break I heard somebody's thought (You might have forgot I have super powers, but due to James making me fell normal for the first time I didn't mention till now.) become loud like it was somebody talking right next to me.
(I wish that was me she was signing to instead of James.)
I shook the thought off and paid attention back to the song.
You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
[Chorus]
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything
[Chorus without last line]
[Chorus]
I'm in love with you
Cuz I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
After the song was over my thoughts went to the person who was thinking "I wish that was me she was singing to instead of James". My thoughts couldn't shake off the person who said that. I really felt bad for this person. I didn't realize what happened net but all that I know is… I passed out again.
AT HOME
I woke up in my home, on the couch and on the T.V "Grown Ups" was playing.
(Why am I always passing out everywhere I go?) I face palmed.
I quickly looked around to see if the guys were still here. I got up and looked outsideto see if the tour bus was there but it was gone. I began to cry so loudly that my dad came rushing inside from smoking to come to my side.
"Ashley! Please calm down, honey!" Foster dad rubbed my back in an attempt to calm me
"How can I when James, Carlos, Logan and Kendall just left with no note or something!" I pounded the nearest wall to me
"They left you a note." Dad spoke softly
"They did?" I sniffled a bit from my crying
"Yes."
"Where is it?" I stood up
"It's located in your room for some strange reason"
"Thanks!" I kissed my dad's forehead and ran the hell up the stairs like my life depended on it
MY BEDROOM
I slammed the door open and looked for a note like paper but instead where my two lonely poems were; I saw four pieces of papers that looked poems written by one of the guys.
Ash,
I want to tell you that the song you sung sounded amazing. I wish you could be with me every day but you can't. I hope you do ok without me.
Love,
James Diamond3
P.S Please stop passing out! It's not good for you! ;)
Ashley,
I know we didn't talk much after you and James hooked up, but I wish we can keep in contact so I gave you my number along with the others (if you don't mind). Anyways I hope you get better and have a great life!
Hugs,
Carlos Garcia XD
Ashley,
I know we didn't really talk to each other, but I know we can become friends later in life. I don't know if Carlos didn't mention but he gave you everybody's number. I would love to talk to you once you wake up. I hope you get better and have a great life!
Sincerely,
Kendall Knight :)
Ashley,
We never talked at all but I would love to know who you are like James does. From what he told me is that you really love math and have a really good memory when it comes to the subject. I would like to know you can remember math so quickly. Anyways... Please be safe, get better and have a great life!
Sincerely
Logan Mitchell :)
After reading the mini notes the guys wrote I got down on my knees and began to cry.
(These guys are so nice, helpful, and creative. I wish I can give them something in return…) I wiped my tears away and relooked at the notes.
On my table where the radio was I saw my pink Pantech flip keyboard phone light up after getting a message. I got James texting me.
James: You up, love?
Yes I'm up.
James: Are you angry?
Am I angry? Well…
James: Are you? I'm sorry that we left all suddenly and the notes weren't able to make up the leave! *tears run down the "face"*
James. *wipes tears away*
James: What? :)
That was the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me in a very long time.
James: Really? Because I have more up my sleeve if you want hear more.
No I had my daily dose of James Diamond today… I maybe had an over dose too…
James: *hurt* Alright then! I'm going to stop talking to you!
NO! I'm saying an over dose of you in person! But I can be up all night texting to you though
James: Ok. Now I'm wondering if you still have that necklace and bracelet I gave you?
I looked on my neck and my left wrist (that was the hand James really like to hold for some odd reason). The necklace and bracelet were located right where they needed to be.
Yes. Along with my wonderful roses that I got from you guys.
James: Ok, Well I'm getting on the plane now and need to stop texting. Its 9:30 here and I won't get to Cali until 12 or 12:30 in the morning here. So it's really a good idea if you get some sleep now.
Sure, dad. I'll go to bed on your command.
James: That's right, daughter! Good night. I love you.
I love you too, Jamie. Good night.
After I texted him back I got into bed a slowly slipped into dream land.
So what did you think?
Carlos: That was touching!
James: Why am I always the one every girl wants?
Have you seen yourself, James?
James: Yes, but I didn't know I'm really loved.
Either way... Please review! Princess.A. out!
-Princess.A