Neko: Wow, I just keep getting more ideas for this one. I want to finish it soon but, I kind of don't want it to end either. I may end up with a squeal.

KuroNeko: Maybe they don't want another story about 2 gay kitty boys.

Neko: You know you love my pretty Kai-kun!

KuroNeko: He's emo and schizophrenic…Not what I'd call the ideal 'catch.'

Neko: Ritsuka's attracted to weird people.

KuroNeko: He's got issues too, his mother is abusive, and his brother was a two faced bastard and his former lover was a Lolita-freak with a Lolita-complex.

Neko: ….

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Chapter 7

You promised, now you're lying…

Kai had told Ritsuka he wasn't going to show up at school the next day. He didn't want to risk Sei hurting someone again. Ritsuka told him he'd meet him after school at the playground.

Kai was wandering the streets aimlessly, his blanket and a few other items he owned shoved into a bag Ritsuka gave him. He felt homeless; the only home he'd ever seen the inside of was Ritsuka's. As far as Kai knew he had no parents. Ritsuka was lucky, he had a mother. Though from what he heard she wasn't the nicest of people.

She still refused to give up the thought that the 'real' Ritsuka would come back, erasing the Ritsuka he fell in love with. Maybe Ritsuka's mother was right; maybe Ritsuka would disappear leaving him alone again.

"No, he promised he'd never leave me…He promised." Kai smiled to himself, he felt oddly complete even if he had no home, no family. He did have Ritsuka, he always would.

He reached the park they planned on meeting at and sat on the hard roots of a tree, leaning against its wide trunk. He reached in his bag and pulled out the blanket. There was still a chill in the air, it was early November and all he had as a jacket was his black "Unlucky" shirt. Ritsuka had argued with him saying he should wear something on top of it but, he said he could use his blanket.

He snuggled into the warmth of the blanket, breathing in the familiar scent, he felt drowsy. He hadn't gotten much sleep so he decided on taking a nap.

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"Leave me alone." Ritsuka mumbled as he doodled in his math notebook.

"Ritsuka-kun, you're being colder then usual! Hey, I wonder where Urusawa-kun is today." Yuiko had her usual chipper attitude.

"K—I mean Urusawa-kun is probably sick or something. He wasn't wearing a jacket on Friday so I bet he caught a cold." Ritsuka told her trying to act like he didn't really know.

"Urusawa is sorta cute!" Ritsuka heard one of the girls in his class say. He was beginning to miss Kai; he hoped he would be warm enough.

"Ritsuka…Are you still sad about Soubi-san?" Yuiko dared to ask as Ritsuka stared blankly out the window.

Actually, Ritsuka had tried not to think about his lost lover. The way he had found him, with cuts all over his body. He had thought it was all a nightmare until the funeral. The casket was closed but he knew his butterfly was inside. Ritsuka still kept the silver ring he always wore on his right hand.

Now with Kai to protect and care for, he didn't know how he should act. It all happened so fast, he just hoped he wasn't doing the wrong thing.

"Ritsuka-kun?"

"No. It's not that, don't talk about Soubi anymore." Ritsuka said coldly, his face holding the same distant, solemn expression.

Yuiko frowned at him her perky features turning into a distinct pout, Ritsuka hated how she would do that expecting his opinion to change.

The rest of the day went on slowly, Ritsuka waiting for it to end so he could go make sure Kai was alright.

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Kai would have slept all day if not for Ritsuka waking him up.

He opened his sleepy eyes and found pretty amethyst eyes staring at him, it almost looked as if they were smirking at him.

"Ritsuka!" Kai reached out throwing the blanket aside and tightly hugging Ritsuka.

"Hi." Ritsuka murmured into Kai's shirt, wrapping an arm around his waist.

"I missed you." Kai blushed as his uncontrollable black bangs fell over his eyes.

"How do you live with such messy hair?" Ritsuka question as he petted Kai's long hair.

"I like it." Kai stated simply.

"Ok, well…What do you want to do?" Ritsuka asked as Kai reached down to pick up the blanket he had become attached too.

"I…I'm kind of cold…" Kai said as he wrapped himself in the blanket, covering his face except his eyes as well.

"…Its Wednesday isn't it….?" Ritsuka asked as a rhetorical question.

"So?" Kai poked Ritsuka, cocking his head to the side quizzically.

"I…have to go somewhere." Ritsuka looked down, not wanting to tell Kai he went to therapy for fear he would get scared.

"Well, fine then I am coming with you!" Kai laughed a little, noting the fact Ritsuka was not happy.

"Kai…I don't know if you'll like it there, it's got doctors."

"W-what, b…but you're not going to let them…touch me right?" Kai asked his voice cracking as he began remember the people in white jackets. They always asked how he was doing, right before they stabbed him with a needle.

"Maybe I shouldn't go." Ritsuka suggested.

"No, if you have to go. Then I'll come too…" Kai looked down mentally afraid. He knew he would be ok, but the mere thought of doctors was a scary thing for him to over come.

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When they reached Ritsuka's therapist's office, Kai clung to Ritsuka's arm. They managed to get to the front desk and Kai nearly jumped out of his skin when he saw the woman in a long white jacket with an aggravated look on her face.

"Hello, I'm here for my weekly appointment." Ritsuka told the woman.

She looked up and put a small smile on her face, "Hello Aoyagi-kun, who is your friend, a relative? You two look awfully close." She addressed Kai who stepped behind Ritsuka.

"This is Kai." Ritsuka smiled allowing Kai to use him as a wall of protection. He made sure not to specify their relation and proceeded to walk down the hall with Kai in close tow.

"Ritsuka, you have weekly appointments here? For what, may I ask" Kai looked up at Ritsuka who stopped outside of a door.

"….Therapy…My mom is still waiting for the other Ritsuka to return, she thinks it will help." Ritsuka responded as if it were programmed into his mind.

"But Ritsuka! I don't want you to leave. I love this Ritsuka, just like you love me not Sei or Rei…" Kai was now staring at the floor.

"I'm not the real me Kai, this may all end any day…I'm…I'm sorry…" Ritsuka looked at Kai with sorrow in his amethyst eyes.

"I…I won't let you go if they're going to change you…You're the only person that's been kind to me…The only person that's shown me love, you can't just leave me!" Kai stood firmly now.

"Kai…I'm sure you'll find someone new, who could resist such a cute stray cat anyways? I know the real Ritsuka will come back and mother will be happy. So, I must do everything I can to make it better, after all it's my fault." Ritsuka put on a smile as he opened the door.

"Ritsuka! Stop talking like this I won't let you go!" Kai stomped his foot defiantly and stood in front of Ritsuka preventing him from entering the small room.

All the while Ritsuka's therapist was watching the ongoing fiasco. She just stood there, shock apparent on her face, she looked Kai over he was about the same age as Ritsuka. They were obviously close if Ritsuka brought him here. From the sounds of the argument Kai was stating all the points she wanted to get across to Ritsuka in therapy. Only, Ritsuka didn't think he was trying to help. She just stood back and let Kai try to convince Ritsuka.

"I have to be the old Ritsuka from 2 years ago! I'm not supposed to be here. I can't love if I don't exist, Kai. I'm sorry!" Ritsuka pleaded.

"It doesn't matter! You exist to me and you showed me love, you can to love! Don't do this Ritsuka; I won't let you leave me." Kai's eyes flashed dangerously red, the pigment was threatening to engulf his beautiful blue eyes.

Ritsuka noticed it to late, Kai was gripping his head, muttering arguments to Sei again.

"Stop it! Why are you doing this, leave me alone! What did I do to you? Leave…Just leave, I'm begging you." Kai mumbled before his alter personality Sei looked up with determined red eyes.

"So, we meet again Ritsuka…You really have a knack for causing Kai extreme emotions, so extreme he needs me to cope." Sei smirked and looked over at the therapist.

"You really are pathetic, all of you. All you do is tear up people's consciousness…But, I guess I have your kind to thank for my existence." Sei looked back to Ritsuka who was awe struck.

It was him that caused all of Kai's extreme emotions, whether it be sadness, Rei, or resentment and determination, Sei. He felt guilty, he was to busy thinking about his own pathetic worries to see the turmoil behind Kai's eyes. He should have never let him come here.

"Kai…If you can hear me, I'm sorry. I never realized how much I've hurt you until now. I'm so sorry. All your pain this past week has been my doing, if you can even think to forgive me…" Ritsuka stifled a sob as if he wasn't aloud to cry. He pushed past Sei and ran, ran again…Just like when he wanted to run from Soubi's funeral. It felt horrible to run, but it was all he knew how to do.

Kai came back with tears in his eyes. He looked at the floor and whispered, "You promised you'd never leave me Ritsuka…You promised…Just like everyone else you're leaving." He smiled a sorrowful smile and looked at the therapist, "he's gone."

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Neko: Thank you for waiting…You guys are probably pissed, I know it. This chapter ended up as planned, for once. I don't know if it sounds as good as I'd like, but I said what was needed and the dialogue is just how I planned!

KuroNeko: Ha ha Kai is all alone…And Ritsuka is going to go emo.

Neko: How do you know that! It may end up happy for all you know you mean mean person.

Kuro: I know you…It'll be angst-y…You'd die if it was to happy.

Neko: I WOULD NOT!

Kuro: Oh, shut it so they can review if they want. I doubt they will you suck that much.

Neko: ;0; meanie!