A/N: YES YES YES! I finally got it to you guys! I finally finished this chapt! I'm sorry this took a year and some, but I was just bursting with so many new ideas for new stories from anime like Bleach and KHR and I really should've put this story on HIATUS but I didn't...I hope you forgive me! Though, I'm sure many of you have forgotten about this fic...

BUT NOW I've finally finished chapter 5, A chapter that I have been dying to write for ages. This is probably going to be one of my favs. I remember working on this a while back with Minanaru4ever, I hope you like this one Buddy!

Now...

Warnings: Disturbing scenes, rape, angst.

Disclaimer: I own nothing but my fucked up desires! ENJOY!

The Same Pain he suffered

Part 2: The depths of This realization

After sunset was always the worst for the blonde. He could never find the sleep that he needed. It was hard to, especially when the nights were so damn chilly and the dusty couch would leave him sneezing until the break of dawn.

To avoid problems such as this, the blonde picked up a habit of going through Naruto's old boxes each night, which relieved him of sleep and later forced him to suffer from insomnia, which in this case, was perfect.

On this particular night, Minato was going through the very last box Naruto had kept with him. Casually searching through the items, something had caught his attention. Digging until his hands grabbed hold of what he had seen, the said blonde pulled out a small pocket book.

"What's this? A diary?" Minato questioned as he dusted off the book.

His assumptions were true. Flipping a few pages blue orbs caught sight of dates on the right hand corner of the book, and the body of what seemed to be daily routines written on the pages, proving that the book was in fact, Naruto's diary.

"I never new that he had a diary…"

That wasn't anything new, there were countless facts that Minato didn't know about his son, so this wasn't anything special.

"Well, I guess it won't hurt to read it or anything…"

Taking it up, Minato walked over to the chair where he sat, crossing his legs, opening the book once more. Flipping through tattered and what seemed to be tear stained pages he realized that there were particular headings which were highlighted, which probably meant that they showed more importance to the rest. He turned to the first highlighted page.

June 3rd2005

Dear diary,

Today my father told me about his proposal to Hiri. It really shocked me….I keep asking myself why is he doing this? Why does he have to do this? Can't he see that woman is no good for him? I honestly don't trust her and I think it's wrong for him to do so also. He said to me "It will be a new life for us, both me and her" I felt so rejected, where would I come in, what about me? I mean aren't I important too?...I tried to argue against it but then he…he yelled at me, he told me to grow up. Then he just got up and left….I was so speechless, I didn't have a clue what to say, all I was just so embarrassed…so hurt, at that point I didn't even realize I was crying…..I just wish I told him how I felt about him, I wish he knew….maybe my life wouldn't be as hard….

Naruto. U

After reading the entry Minato felt like trash. Here was his son dying on the inside and he didn't know anything about it. He turned to the next highlighted entry.

November 8th 2005

Dear Diary,

This evening I came into the house after a pretty long mission. I wasn't planning on meeting up with my dad in the house because I know that he would be at work. Being as tired as I was, all I wanted to do was head upstairs and take a nap. I wasn't expecting to see what I saw…..when I reached my room, I opened the door to my father Minato, completely naked, with…Hiri. He…he had her legs, spread to each side in his hands…he didn't see or her when I came in, maybe because she was moaning so loudly or that he was pounding into her and growling her name out loud like some animal…It took about a few seconds or so before he actually saw me and when he did….his facial expression was as impassive as ever "So are you going to stand there all evening and watch us both?" That was all he said to me, before continuing his movements…in… and out…in and out….until it was over… I wasn't there to see It though, I only heard what was happening…I was outside the house on the steps…crying my eyes out…..they came out of the room a while later, he had come outside to look for me to do the dishes…when he did, I looked up at him with tear filled eyes… "What's your problem" he asked me

"P-Problem? n-no problem!…" I quickly replied in fear that he might scold me. Maybe he was right…I do have a problem…That's why he looked at me like that…

Naruto U.

Minato felt so disgusted with himself, what kind of father let's their child see them in the act of sexual intercourse, in his own room none the less…Only a scumbag would do such a thing, and that was exactly what Minato was, scum.

May 5th2006

Dear Diary,

She's pregnant…He told me about it today. I saw him moving out my stuff, I asked him, why he was doing it. He looked at me with those eyes…those of complete apathy, the ones that make me feel like I am nothing to him, I mean nothing. He even proved that when he said that it was his son and he's giving the baby my room. I snapped at him, I asked him about where I was gonna go, what was gonna happen to me….he honestly didn't care, he accused me of being immature, hey, what if I was acting like that? I didn't want to lose his love and affection for someone else, but who says I haven't lost all of that already…he told me he wanted me out of the house and I literally begged for him not to do put me out, I think it was then that I started to cry…I couldn't take it, I wanted him to understand that I couldn't live without him but….I guess I was expecting too much. Without warning he slapped me in my face…I'm not sure which hurt more, the pain of his hand connecting with my cheek or the fact that it was my father…..He then screamed at me…he said I was selfish…Maybe he's right, maybe I am selfish…that's why he doesn't love me…but even if I still had to at least try to find a way to stay in the house…so I did the one thing that no one would ever expect…I confessed to him…I told him I loved him…I really hoped that would help but it didn't make the situation any better. He took me by my neck and chocked me, telling me to never speak to him like that again…Hell, I don't think I can even speak to him at all, my throat still hurts so badly…..

Naruto. U

Minato folded his fists remembering that particular day…the day he had rejected Naruto as his son.

These are the same hands I nearly killed my own child with….

He had crossed the limit. He had proven to Naruto that there was nothing between them anymore. What had hurt besides the fact that he kicked Naruto out of the house, was the fact that he kicked him out of his life…Hesitantly he turned the page.

June 28th 2006

Dear Diary,

I just moved in about 3 days ago into this old shak… It's pretty cold, like bone-chilling cold... I guess it's because of the storm outside. And, this old rag... Just won't enough to cover the cold... I miss my warm and fuzzy blanket at my home... I miss it when I cuddled in it and then dad would read me a bedtime story... I miss his warmth whenever he embraced me…when I was younger…. I wish he would come for me... I wish I could go home, but I know that wont ever happen, he wants nothing to do with me... Tch, I can't believe I cried again... Damn it, he's right... I'm too immature... This is nothing... Naruto, this is nothing... It's not cold... It's not c-... Damn, why won't the cold go away...?

Naruto U

August 12th 2006

Dear Diary,

Today, I cried again…. and again and again... I'm not growing up. I'm still too childish... I cried too much.. Maybe that's the reason that he hates me... Because I cry too much, that I'm overbearingly too dependent on him... Of course he needs his own space... But, I kept on invading his... And, that's why he kicked me out of the house... Until I grew up… Maybe he wouldn't want to see me…anymore until then…That's why I'll try to make a change…From now on, I'll stop crying…Maybe…maybe then he'll love me…

Naruto U.

February 2nd 2007

Dear Diary,

A year has passed and the baby was born about 2 weeks ago…funny, he looks nothing like My father. I mean wouldn't he at least have one physical feature? Come to think of it, he reminds me of that guy that I saw Hiri talking to once…But it's weird how Dad never met him…Oh my gosh…what if…what if Hiri cheated on him?…What if that's not my dad's kid…No, I mustn't think like that…but still, if that were true…if my dad ever figured out…he would…he would die from heartbreak…That is just too rough for him to handle…I went by his house to visit Yuro today but he didn't let me see him...instead he asked me to leave…I just don't understand…Why couldn't he choose me? I'm his son... He's supposed to love me... But what did I do wrong? Why would he do this to me? I guess I really do mean nothing to him…

Naruto U.

October 10th 2007

Dear Diary,

It's my 17th birthday….I know he wont come by and visit me though…He's busy with his own life to deal with…I still miss him though…I promised myself I won't get upset over it anymore…but it would still make me feel so bubbly on the inside if he could just send someone over with a message saying happy birthday or something like that…it would at least help a little bit…

Naruto U.

January 5th 2011

Dear Diary,

Today was it…That was the final straw…he fired me…He actually fired me, right on the spot…I went out of control just like I did the time that I was kicked out of the house…I had snapped at him…I asked him why he hated me so much, why I could never be accepted by him…I almost let Yuro hear about the truth of the matter, but dad stopped me…It was only then I realized that he kid was still in the room…I immediately dropped on my knees and begged for forgiveness but I guess it was too late…Dad was Furious…I was told to give in all my gear etc. he wouldn't even let me cal him 'dad' anymore… maybe I really should stop, it wouldn't do me any good….man…I totally screwed up now…How am I ever gonna get myself out of this one…

April 9th2011

Dear Diary,

It hurts. It hurts so much. Damn, why did they have to do that? I'll swear I'll pay the rent! I just... I just need some time… It's so hard to make some money, now that I'm not a shinobi anymore... I couldn't believe they beat me like that..I could've fought them off... But, I don't think it's a good idea to do so. After all, It's my fault that I got fired. I started a job at the cemetery as a caretaker…it's not so bad…although I really miss my team, I wonder how they're doing…

November 2nd 2011

Dear Diary,

She's dead…Miso's dead. I knew she would never make it…I cried when I heard the news, she died yesterday, on a mission with the group…if only Minato would've reconsidered, if only he hadn't put that new jounin in charge then maybe she could've made it….Tomorrow's her funeral, it's quite early to burry her isn't it…But I guess life must still go on…I will truly miss her…her kindness, her innocence…she was one of the only people who understood how I felt…

Naruto. U

October 9th 2012

Dear Diary,

It's october 9th today... And tomorrow is my birthday. He came over tonight…I'm so happy! I could never imagine him visiting me in a million years, I had completely given up on that…But I guess after the whole thing with Yuro and Hiri leaving, I guess that's all he came for…maybe he wants me back in his life? Oh my goodness that would be the best thing that ever happened to me….being in his life again…I sure hope he come by tomorrow too! I can't wait! I gotta feeling it's gonna be the best day ever!

Naruto. U

That was Naruto's final entry in the book. The day after was when he had died for his father. Every single entry broke the blonde's heart as he read them. The book in his hands knew more about his own son than he did, why, because he never took the time out to fully listen and understand him. He was too caught up in his own perfect life and that became his weakness.

Flipping through the pages again, something else caught his attention. Call it a bonus, but there was something else- at the back of the miniscule book. Curiosity arose from the former Yondaime. Turning to the back he came across an entry without a date or year, one particular entry that caused his blood to run cold.

I feel so empty... The pain... It's too much... I feel so dirty... Damn, It's hurt so bad... Why did they do that to me... Taking away something so important to me... Stripping me and gagging me.. Then, beating me until I hardly could breathe... Why did they do that to me? What did I do wrong?

Why couldn't I fight them? Why did I just accept it and let them... Rape me... Was it because... of what they told me? Was it true?

I... I... No... No.. I don't believe that! Why would he do that! No! No, I refuse to believe that! He wouldn't do that! He wouldn't hurt me like that... Yeah... He wouldn't... Would he? Damn, why am I crying again! Naruto, you idiot, Grow up! …But goodness, it hurts too bad to do anything…I just…I just wish I knew what I had did wrong this time…Dad why….

Minato grew very apprehensive. Of all the things he had done, what could it be that allowed this to happen? His son was raped! Naruto, his flesh and blood was raped?! How was he not aware of that?! Oh yeah, because he was an asshole to him for the past- let's see- 7-8 years! But still, he needed answers, he needed clues! Why didn't Naruto fight them off! Why didn't he do anything to stop them?! Who was "he" The person he was speaking about?!

As if on a timed mission, Minato went back to the last box, searching for anything else, any other booklet, piece of paper, any notes, any video cameras

Wait, video camera?

As if in a trance Minato stared at the bottom of the box, at the grasp of his fingers, a black, small video camera. This grew suspicion from Minato. Never in the past 8 years was Naruto so privileged that he was given a video camera. Just who was this from?

Holding the object so delicately in hand, the man sat back on the couch and pressed the on Button. Seemingly charged up, the camera switched on, playing the latest video.

On the small, yet very detailed screen were three men crowding around something, someone, whom by their position seemed to be kneeling on the ground. Said person was covered in blood and stripped naked, somewhat screaming in pain, however, this did not cause as much a distraction as the all too familiar blond hair between the men.

Minato's eyes widened in utter horror and disgust. Oh God. It was Naruto.

"What the hell did they do to him?!" Minato whispered.

His thoughts were distracted by the voice of a burly man in the video.

"You know what you're gonna do for me now boy? I'll show you what you're gonna do!"

As if his eyes could get any wider, blue orbs were bulging when he saw the said man taking off his pants, followed by underwear. He watched for naruto's facial expression which was none too pretty seeing as tears were pooling from his eyes.

"You're gonna suck on this cock" The man continued, slapping the semi-hard length against the boy's cheek for a more dramatic realization.

Minato felt his stomach twist in disgust. He couldn't watch this. He couldn't stand to look at this, but seeing as it was his son, he needed to know, he needed to see what happened in the video. He decided to continue watching.

And instantaneously regretted that decision.

"Oh. My. God."

Like an uncontrollable jack hammer, the girth was forced in the poor teen's mouth as pistoning hips showed no mercy. The man fucked Naruto's face for all it was worth.

"Mppphhhfffttt!"

Muffled sounds came from the blonde who tried fruitlessly to grab on to something to brace himself. His mouth felt as though it would just rip and tear at any second. Naruto screamed around the length again voicing his displeasure and aversion, which unfortunately, to the liking of the hideous monster above. Those moans were sending vibrations down his cock and he was enjoying it.

"Oh yeah just like that you little throat whore! Suck on it!"

Minato knew he was getting sick. The more this went on the more disgusted he felt. He cringed, grabbing his stomach in pain, a few expletives escaping his mouth. He cursed himself for being so weak. No. He was going to watch the whole thing in its' entirety. He was not going to stop. What Naruto went through- No- was going through, was far worse than a little stomach ache. Nothing could be worse than what he saw on the screen. Nothing.

…..

Unless…..

"Man, looks like your mouth is full, that's too bad..."

From the background came another bastard, and not only had Minato noticed that, but he also noticed the undeniably hardened member being lifted in his hands.

Nothing could be worse….except…..

"How about I just stick mine in somewhere else…"

His heart skipped a beat. No….

"And I think you know where that is…"

Two beats. "God please….."

"Here we go…!"

Time held still. Deathly still, from the point where the man came behind the blonde, to the point where he mercilessly impaled him with his penis.

Naruto screamed. Loudly.

Never in Minato's life had he heard such a piercing cry, one filled with hopelessness, despair, and undeniable pain all morphed together. And never had he felt so helpless.

"NOOOO! Please! Stop! STOP! You're hurting him…!"

He screamed at the device in hand, literally begging it, as if by some sort of miracle, the men would stop and just disappear. But God wasn't on his side tonight, and neither on his son's.

"Fuck yeah! You're a tight little bitch aren't ya?"

The pounding continued as both males found a pace on their little cum slut. They moaned in unison. Even though they had just started, Naruto was too much of a tight heat to let any of them last long enough.

"I'm…gonna cum any minute now…." The first rapist declared.

Minato froze. That feeling in his stomach returned. He was becoming sick, Very sick.

God! yess! here it is! Now take in all a' my sperm you cum whore!

"Oh god! y-you're not gonna...please don't do it..."

The man went faster, harder, his hips moving haphazardly, feverishly, senselessly. He looked as though he was going mad.

" Yess! here it is! Now take it all you dirty little whore!"

Finally with a forced only suited for bulldozers, he exploded in Naruto's uneager mouth.

Minato had seen enough, and exactly at that moment, grabbed the nearest thing he could find, being an old container, and vomited wildly into it, knees buckling uncontrollably.

As the video continued Minato vomited, and vomited and vomited and vomited. He belittled himself for being so weak.

Eventually both men had gotten their satisfaction and now Naruto laid on the cold pavement breathing lightly, about to pass out. His body decorated in cum which was accentuated by the blood and other substances painted on his body.

He looked repulsive. Unsightly.

It was only then that Minato realized he was crying as the falling tears created a puddle at his feet. He sniffled.

"I…I-I f-failed…"

A sob came out.

"A-As a help….."

Another sniffle.

"As a f-friend….."

The blonde dropped to his knees.

"A-As a father….I-I failed…"

Turning the video camera off, Minato lifted his hands to his face, wiping the trail of vomit from his mouth. He tried standing up on jelly legs, only to fall right back down again. After a few more futile attempts, Minato gave up, lying next to the god forsaken couch, guilt echoing in his mind and voicing out in two continuous words.

"I'm sorry…..I'm sorry….I'm sorry….."

TBC

A/N: Well? TELL me what you think. Reviews are more than excepted!

Alyssa-Kaye :D