Disclaimer: Victorious isn't mine. But I yearn for the day where I could call it mine, yet that day will never come because Victorious is coming to an end :(

A/N: Hey, sorry it took so long to update! I've had a lot going on, anyways, I hope you enjoy this chapter! XOXO

CHAPTER 7: Defending my "girlfriend"

The next morning, I threw on a black sweatshirt and some grey jeans. I usually wear really colorful cloths, but now that I'm so depressed, I feel like I can't dress colorful when I don't feel colorful. Oh great, today I had improv with Jade. It's so hard to look at her without feeling my crumbled heart in my chest. I thought about Tori's kiss last night and everything began to get better.

I walked out the door and was about to start walking to my bus stop when I saw a car outside my house. I recognized it as Tori's and started walking towards it. The door opened for me as I reached for it, and Tori sat in the driver's seat, leaning over. "Hi. Would you like a ride?" She smiled at me and I got in the car.

I sat awkwardly most of the ride. I think Tori noticed my awkwardness because she started to talk. "I'm sorry about kissing you last night. I don't even know what came over me."

"No, it's fine. I enjoyed it." I said, not really knowing what to say. I honestly did enjoy it, but I wasn't sure about how I felt about it, like if I liked her that way.

"I really like you Cat." Tori said as her face got red. I paused for a long time, not knowing how to respond. I can't just tell someone I like them, when I don't know how I feel yet. Maybe that's how Jade felt... "It's okay that you don't like me back." Tori said after my long moment of silence.

"No! It's not that, I do like you! I just haven't exactly figured out my feelings yet." I said, trying not to make her upset.

"Oh, well take your time beautiful." She said looking at me passionately.

I felt horrible. Yes, I do like Tori, but she seems to like me much more than I like her and she deserves someone who feels as much for her as she does for them, and that person isn't me. I remained silent the rest of the ride. When we got out of the car, I quickly walked into the building leaving Tori out in the parking lot confused. I felt bad, but I needed to get my thoughts straight. I went to the bathroom and walked over to the mirror. I looked like a mess today. My hair was messy, and I wasn't wearing make up. What did Tori even see in me? I turned on the sink and started to wash my hands for no reason.

As I thought about Tori, one of the stall doors opened. I didn't bother to look up, figuring it was just some random person that I didn't know. The girl started washing her hands in the sink next to mine. After drying her hands, she touched my shoulder. I turned around to look at her. Jade. Our faces were just inches apart and I stared into her eyes for what seemed what forever before she finally said "I have that same sweatshirt." Before I could reply, she walked out of the bathroom leaving me stunned with water pouring over my hands.

When I finally walked out of the bathroom, my legs were shaking. All I could think about was Jade's eyes. They were blue-green and seemed to hold so much secrets and things I couldn't comprehend.. It was almost impossible to describe how I felt when I looked into them. As I walked through the halls dazed, Tori stood in front of me and snapped me from my thoughts.

"Hey Cat! May I walk you to class?" She smiled at me.

"Uh, sure." I said. As we walked to our improv class, my hand slid against Tori's. I pulled away quickly, but Tori reached for my hand and next thing I knew, our fingers were intertwined.

We walked in class, holding hands. Some people stared at us, and I felt my hand begin to sweat. Jade turned around to see what everyone had been looking at and her eyes immediately went to our hands. She gave a sharp, harsh look to Tori, making her rip her hand from mine. I wiped my hand on my jeans and sat down in my usual seat. Tori sat next to me, but it was a little to close for me. Our shoulders were barely touching and I was very uncomfortable. I felt eyes on me through out class. The other students seemed to be getting suspicious of me and Tor's relationship.

I think I held my breath the whole class, because when the bell rang I was able to breath smoothly again. I quickly stood up and was about to run out of class, but I felt a soft hand grab my arm. The touch of their skin sent butterflies down to my tummy and I turned to Jade's amazing blue-green eyes. "Hi." Her voice was so smooth that it seemed like a whisper.

"Hi." My voice was shaking as I responded. She was still holding on to my arm as she talked to me, which made it really hard to focus on what she was saying.

"What's going on with you and Tori?" She asked, although it wasn't much of a question, it was more like a demand. I wasn't sure how to respond. My mind was frozen, along with my body. I tried to think of what to say. All I could think of was how confused I was though. Why would Jade even care? Why was she even talking to me? I didn't even know what was going on between Tori and I, so how was I supposed to answer.

Just as I was about to answer, I saw Tori in the corner of my eye. She walked up to me and Jade. "Hey, Jade. What are you and Cat talking about?"

"What's up with you guys?" Jade directed at Tori this time.

"I don't know what you mean." Tori said innocently. I felt like I was missing something.

"You know exactly what I mean Vega." Jade released my arm and faced Tori, looking very angry. I was starting to get terrified. I tried to listen to what they were saying, but my heart was so loud that it was hard to hear everything.

"Well, I don't know. Even if I did know, it'd be none of your business." Tori yelled.

"I'm just asking a fucking question and you don't have the courage to just answer it?" I flinched at the curse word.

"Who said I didn't have the courage to answer? Maybe you just don't have the right to know."

"Well then just say nothing and leave instead of pretending that nothing's going on!" Jade's face had started to turn red as she yelled.

"I can't say nothing because then I'd be lying." Tori said. I wanted to jump in and just stop this useless arguing, but I wasn't sure what to say. Nothing was going on between Tori and I. Tori just had a crush on me and that was all. I finally realized my feelings. I didn't feel anything towards Tori. She was just my bandage, nothing more. Looking at Jade made me see how much I really liked her. I don't know why I felt this way about someone I hardly even communicate with, but no matter what, I did feel a strong connection with her and that's something that I didn't feel with Tori.

"Hey Cat, why don't you just go ahead to the parking lot? I'll meet you there and drive you home in a few minutes." Tori said calmly too me.

"She doesn't have to leave!" Jade yelled at Tori, then she looked to me as I started to walk out of the classroom. "What, are you her puppet Cat? You're just going to do what she says so that she can sit here and tell me shit without you knowing? Because that's exactly what this bitch is going to do!"

I turned around. "Don't call my girlfriend a bitch." I felt like washing my mouth out with soap after saying that. Why did I just say that? I don't even know why I said that, I just didn't like that Jade said those nasty words. Tori was right... Jade isn't nice. However, I think it's just a cover up. Deep down inside, I know Jade's a different person. As I walked out of the classroom, I saw Jade give me a look. It wasn't a mean one, but it did have a lot of emotion. I didn't have time to decipher what it was though.

I stood outside the classroom door so that I could hear what else Tori and Jade were going to say. I know eavesdropping is bad, but I was really curious.

"Why do you always take the things I love? First Beck, Now cat?" Jade began yelling at Tori. I was deeply confused when I hear this.

"I didn't take Beck! I'm sorry things got rough between you guys, but I had no intention of anything. And you broke Cat's heart! You didn't love her!" Tori yelled back.

"I told you. I even told you that I felt something towards Cat. I even told you that I couldn't be with her because it would hurt to much. For once, I thought that I could trust you. Why Vega? I should have known not to trust you again. GOD, I'm such a dumbass!" Jade poured her heart out to Tori as I stood out in the hallway, shocked. Jade likes me?

"You always got everything Jade! I want something good for once! Beck wouldn't go out with me because he felt guilty!"

"So you go after a freshman? Wow, fuck you Tori! FUCK YOU!" I heard footsteps coming my way and I ran to the parking lot as fast as I could.

A/N: Hmmm... Tell me what you think? Again, sorry it took so long to write and sorry if there are any errors! I haven't had time to really edit it.