Previously…

"I don't, considering I just met him! I need to give him a chance if I'm ever going to trust him though. I'm not going to be the only one who is alone because my brother refuse to let me grow up and you have this protective gene in you. That's not how it works! This is my life! I chose how I get to live it and I will be going out with Nate!" I finished, yelling.

"You will?" Nate asked

"Yes I will," I said smiling at Nate. He was really hot.

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"Bella? Could I have a word with you?"

I paused and nodded my head.

"I'll see you later Jazz," I said walking back to talk to the professor.

"Hello Bella, I wanted to talk to you because I've noticed you have been a little distracted lately."

I started at Mrs. Weathers, my Creative Writing teacher. Have I been distracted? I didn't think that was possible in the class. I guess Nate has taken up a lot of my time but I didn't think he was affecting my schooling?

"I'm sorry Mrs. Weathers, I didn't realize I was portraying that I'm not interested, I really am, and this is my favorite class."

Mrs. Weathers tilted her head and stared at me as if I had more to say, and just when I was about to, she spoke.

"You have amazing potential Bella; I saw it when I read your first draft of the Life paper. But after that you started drifting, I am actually surprised to see you shocked by all of this given the comments and grades you have received this past couple weeks. Your grade is a C Bella, and only because of that first paper."

I didn't know what to say, I was in shock, I was surprised. I have a C in creative writing? My class, my love? How was that possible? I did all of my assignments. What comments was she talking about? I don't even remember seeing any grades. Could I have really been that distracted?

Nate's become such a huge part of my life; we spend almost every free moment together. As it turned out he was a good match for me. He couldn't possibly be the reason I am doing so bad? How are my other classes holding up? Oh good! My brothers are going to kill me!

What could possibly be the cause of my grades? Writing was my thing. Maybe it was Edward? Ever since Nate and I started dating he did drift away, it's not like we were close or anything but he won't even sit by me in class anymore. It's as if I am a diseased plague. Therefore it couldn't possibly be him…

"Since I saw so much potential I have decided to take you on as a TA, let you work your grade up. Will that work for you?

I didn't even have to think of course my answer was "Yes".

"Great, we'll start tomorrow, straight after class. I have taken the liberty of looking up your class schedule and noticed I'm am your last class which is great because that allows me to keep you till dinner. You are expected to work as my TA from three to five, Monday through Friday."

"Thank you, thank you for the opportunity I promise I won't let you down." And with that I smiled and retreated out of the room and building

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"Babe? Are you in there? Hello?"

"Bella!"

Looking up I saw Nate standing in front of me. A small smile played its self across my lips and I leaned to give my boyfriend a hug.

"Hi, have you been here long?" I ask taking his hand and we started our walk towards my room

"Only since three. I saw Jasper leave and he mentioned the professor wanted to talk to you. How did that go by the way? You were pretty out of it walking out of that building."

"It went well; Mrs. Weathers was just worried about my grade. Apparently I have a C" shivering, I continued, "But she has offered me a TA position where I can work to get my grade up.

"A C isn't that bad Hun," Nate began

"Not for me it isn't, not for Creative Writing." I cut in.

"How come, it is average, and it's not like Creative Writing is a real class."

I stopped dead in my tracks and stared up at Nate, mouth hanging open and all.

"How can you saw it isn't a real class? It's what I making my career off of! This class is everything to me!"

"Whoa Bella," Nate stared at me as if I was some completely different person.

Did he not know my love for writing? Have I not told him I am writing a book? Or at least that I was? I haven't written in a while, I guess I have been pretty busy. But so busy that my own boyfriend wouldn't even know the true me? Writing is all that I am. It's how I keep a hold of my mom.

Why hasn't anyone told me I was drifting so much? Rose or Alice? I live with them for god sake! They should notice I'm not being myself, or even my brothers! I know I can't blame Edward, I never see him; I don't even know if I would consider him a friend anymore. Are any of them my friends anymore?

I turned to Nate seeing his beautiful blue eyes as the clashed with his blond hair. He was wearing dark wash jeans with a jacket. It's pretty hard going somewhere without a jacket these days. He held a confused look, waiting for me to say something, to apologize, I don't know. But I do know that something has gone terribly wrong and I just need to go. I need to see Emmett, I need my big brother.

"I need a break Nate, I'll call you," I said and took off away from him. I ran towards the San Juan Island art to lose him.

The weather was beautiful today. Chilly yes, with Thanksgiving coming up next week the weather was at a constant forty. The trees were turning colors and the snow was well on its way. I couldn't help but pull my coat on a little tighter and I began my walk towards my dorm across campus. Western spent a lot of time keeping the campus look good, and feel like him. The tees covered everything, the browns and oranges played off the cobble stone walk ways, and the huge art pieces. This was my home, my safe haven when things went wrong. I haven't felt this alone since mom, when I wasn't sure how my brothers would react and treat me. Sighing, my brothers. I must have been pretty distracted if I haven't noticed how much I really miss my brothers, my family for that matter.

Before I know it the trees I'm staring at are the ones in front of my dorm, and its then I decide where I'm going. And once I've decided, I book it up the stairs, throw open there door and run into the arms of my brother Emmett.

"Bella?" he asked

But I can't seem to help it; I hold on tight and start crying. Everything comes down on me at once. I let a guy I barely knew, come in to my life and take me away from everything that means the world to me. I wouldn't be where I am today if not for Em and Jazz. They are my life boats; they brought me out of my dark times.

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I couldn't say how long I cried for, but the next thing I knew I was laying down still holding on to Emmett when I heard him talking.

"How long has she been out?" a guy asked, Jasper!

Out? I must've fallen asleep.

"Since she got here, so probably about three hours now" Emmet answered.

Three hours! I really need to get up! I have things to do! As I start opening my eyes I hear his voice.

"You've been sitting there for three hours?" Edward asked

"Well yea, she is my little sister, its killing me to wonder what's caused this, but if all she needs is to cry then I'm going to sit here until she is ready to talk. You can't tell me you wouldn't do the same for Rosalie."

"You got me there, but you have got to be starving, want me to order a pizza or something?"

"YES!" I heard both Jazz and Em yell.

Having Em's booming voice yell gave me the opening to open my eyes and start to wake up.

"Bells?"

"Hi Em" I whispered, slightly embarrassed.

"Are you okay, are you hurt? Do I need to kill someone? Nate? I swear ill kill him!" Emmett said and began to sit up.

"No Emmett, its fine this is all my doing."

"What do you mean sis?" Jasper asked.

I turned to him and saw Edward in the kitchen, on the phone and staring at me. God he is gorgeous.

That's when I decided to let it all out, "It all started when Mrs. Weathers asked to talk to me. She said something about my lack of drive lately. How I seem so distracted. I mean I was really confused because I love that class, but none the less she said I have a C! A C! Can you believe that! Since when have I ever had a C. So then I started thinking about my other classes, what kind of grades do I have there? But she offered me a TA job every night to get my grade up, which is great in all, but what caused my grade to slip anyways! On my way back here Nate was waiting for me, and he called Creative Writing a pointless class. Why would he tell me that? Writing is my thing. Then I realized I never told him ANYTHING what kind of boy friend is he if I don't tell him half of who I am!" pausing to breathe I finish, "So I realized it had to of been him, he kept me from everything I am and love. So I thought of you Em, I haven't seen you in so long. I miss my brothers, I miss my friends, and I miss mom! So when I came here and saw you I just broke down." I sighed finishing.

Both of my brothers had confused looks as they took everything in. Edward on the other hand had a frown on his slightly tanned face. Jeez it's not like anyone is forcing him to listen to me.

"First, I told you to not talk so fast I get confused!" Emmett said breaking the silence.

"And second," Jasper began, "Is that we miss you too Bells."

And let the water works begin! I jumped into my brothers arms again

"Okay no more crying, there is enough water outside, we don't need any more in here." Edward said pointing to the window.

I was shocked, the weather was beautiful when I got here, and now there was a horrible storm outside. I could barely see two feet out the window.

"When did the storm blow in?" I asked, only to receive a couple laughs.

"You didn't notice it on your way here? It started just minutes before you showed up." Jasper said

"And it's still going!" I didn't understand, storms like this weren't on the west side.

"Yea, it's some freak east side storm that didn't make it to the east. Anyways get away from the window. Pizza is almost here, and Rose and Alice are on their way down." Edward said coming into the living area.

"I didn't think they would deliver in this weather!" today was just a purely shocking day.

"And miss out on good tips?" Edward Smirked.

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He guys! I am so completely sorry for taking so long to update. I have had a lot going on in my life. Between colleges, losing my grandpa, and moving across the country. My life has been upside down lately and I am trying to get it back in order. So here is my start to a new beginning. I hope you enjoy it. Please leave reviews they would really make this worth it.

Markiee