Author's Note: Wrote this one quick this morning! Hope everyone enjoys the superbowl! GO COLTS! (I'm not actually a Colts fan, I'm just rooting for them because as a Giant/Saints fan this makes sense) Anyway, enjoy the story!
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the songs or Duck characters. I do own my OCs
Timeline: Can't place it exactly, six months after Dean and Julie got married though.
Situation: Julie finds out she's pregnant and thinks back on her first pregnancy.
Format: Song Lyrics, Flashback, Present
Song: Christmas Lullaby from Songs for a New World by Jason Robert Brown
I'll never have the power to control the land
Or conquer half the world
Or claim the sun
Julie clutched her stomach. She said a silent prayer, as she waited for the stick to turn blue. Two weeks, it had been two weeks since her period was supposed to come, after the first week she had told Dean, they decided to wait another week before they started thinking about what it could mean. She was thirty years old, she was ready to have a baby. She wanted it more than anything in the world. She and Dean hadn't been trying but they both wanted kids, lots of them. Four was the number they had decided on. What a blessing the baby would be.
I'll never be the kind who simply waves her hand
And has a million people do
The things I wish I'd done
Julie sat on the bed in the hospital when the doctor came in.
"I don't know what's happening!" She said panicked. "I started bleeding this morning. That's not supposed to happen right? What's going on"
"Julie," Dr. Willis said quietly, "Julie please calm down."
"I'll calm down when you tell me what's happening!" She said, her temper flaring. "Is my baby alright?"
But in the eyes of Heaven
My place is assured
I carry with me heaven's grand design
Gloria, glory, I will sing the name of the Lord
And He will make me shine
The timer on the microwave went off. She took a deep breath, and pulled the stick out. She heaved a sigh, releasing the tension that was inside of her.
"What is it?" Dean ran over from the living room where he had been pacing. "What happened?"
"It's positive!" She squealed. "It's positive, we're pregnant!"
"It's positive!" He shouted. "It's positive! Fantastic!" He kissed her. "I'm going to be a daddy!"
And I will be like Mother Mary
With a blessing in my soul
And I will give the world my eyes
So they can see
"No," she said to the doctor, "no there's been a mistake. I can't have lost this baby, it's something else, it has to be something else!"
"Julie, I'm so sorry," she said, "But this happens a lot, you can still try to have children, you're perfectly healthy to. Do you want to call Adam?"
"No," she said quietly, "No, I just want to go home."
"Can you drive, or do you want to call a cab?" the doctor was being so careful.
"No, I can get there." She had gone past panic to this serene state of shock. "Thank you, for your time."
And I will be like Mother Mary
With a blessing in my soul
And the future of the world inside of me
Julie and Dean walked hand and hand into the church. She had promised herself this. She was going to do it right this time. She knelt before the statue of the Virgin Mary.
"Thank you," she said, as she lit a candle. "Thank you for this incredible blessing. I know you hold my first baby, but I ask you to let me hold this one." She looked over at Dean. "Please, this is all I want."
In the eyes of Heaven
My place is assured
I carry with me heaven's grand design
Gloria, glory I will sing the name of the Lord
And He will make me shine
She wandered unaware upstairs and climbed into bed. She began to cry softly. This wasn't supposed to happen. This happened to other people, you heard stories about couples who lost babies, but it's not supposed to happen to you. She didn't want to be a story, she didn't want to be one of those women. She lay there for hours, she didn't know how many passed.
"Julie?" Adam's voice echoed up the stairs. "I'm home. Jules? Where are you?" She heard him walk into the room, she rolled over and looked at him. "Julie? Baby, what's wrong?" He came over and sat down on the foot of the bed. "Are you feeling alright?"
"I lost it Adam." She said, her silent tears turning into sobs. "The baby, I lost the baby." He looked at her with a mix of confusion and sadness. "I'm so sorry."
"No," he said, holding her, "Don't be sorry, you didn't do anything. This wasn't you."
And I will be like Mother Mary
With a blessing in my soul
And I will give the world my eyes
So they can see
And I will be like Mother Mary
With a blessing in my soul
And the future of the world inside of me
Julie and Dean lay in bed that night, an overwhelming sense of joy surrounding them, but Julie was careful to control her joy.
"What are you thinking about?" Dean said, when he saw the smile on her face.
"I'm thinking about what a miracle my life is." Julie said, "I'm thinking about the miracle that's inside of me right now."
"You're scared," he said looking at her. "I know you, you're scared."
"Just a little nervous," she explained. "I've been here before remember?"
"Don't think about it." He said, wrapping his arms around her. "We started over remember? It's not going to happen again. This is going to be a healthy beautiful baby boy."
"So it's a boy?" Julie laughed. "What if it's a girl?"
"It's a boy," he said, "or a girl. But it's ours Julie."
"I know," she said, her eyes shut tightly, "it's ours."
And I will be like Mother Mary
With the power in my veins
To believe in all the things
I've yet to be
And I will be like Mother Mary
And I'll suffer any pains
For the future of the world
For the future of the world
Inside of me...