Chapter Five

Confessions and Feelings?

(Pewds' POV)

As I barely touched Ryan's soft lips, I leaned back face palming myself mentally. What am I doing? These feelings are one-sided isn't it? I should have considered Ryan's feelings about this. I think I just ruined my friendship with Ryan. This is not good. At this rate I won't have Ryan all to myself. I slowly went towards the door, not looking back.

I just needed a brief walk around the park that's near Ryan's house. I need to clear my mind and have some fresh air. I need to reconsider everything and think of a way to... Unexpectedly I could see that I was on top of the bed. Since when did I? Was it a dream? I glanced up to see Ryan on top of me leaning closer to my face. H-Huh? What's Ryan going to do?

"Felix... do you really like me that way? I want to make sure. I'm afraid that I'll be used for one-sided sexual desires and I don't want to feel heartbroken... It's a terrible feeling. Especially when it's the first time I've dated someone. I don't want that."

So this isn't a dream nor the other way around... but how could I not like him that way? I-I love Ryan! How couldn't I? Ryan's so fucking adorable. He's just so... innocent. No, Ryan's just perfect. So perfect. Just like how he said Ryan will be.

"Y-Yes! I really like you that way. I... I'm in love with you. There I said it. I love you and I wouldn't use you Ryan, I'm telling this from my heart. But I'm sorry about earlier though... I was just worried about you... and I really care about you. "

Ryan gave me a warm smile and replied,

"It's alright, I feel the same way Felix. But nothing's really going to happen to me Felix. I've got you and Mad on my side so there's nothing to worry about. Okay?"

I flinched as he said Mad was also there for him. I can feel the anger start to build up inside of me. Calm down Felix. You can and you will change that and it'll just be me and Cry. Nobody else can have him. I smiled back at Ryan still thinking about that he will be mine... all mine and Ryan doesn't know what's coming at him.

"Alright Ryan. I'm glad that we came to an understanding or rather a lovely and friendly agreement."

"Same here my dear friend."

I felt Ryan peck my cheek before he left the room, closing the door softly. I touched my cheek as it left a pleasant sensation throughout my body. Oh the things I could do, Ryan. All I have to do is follow his orders and I'll have you all to myself. I smirked at the thought. All I just need is to have you wrapped around my finger then that's when the fun will happen. Times a ticking Ryan. What will you do?

(Mad's POV)

I sighed, leaning against the wall with my arms crossed. When is Ryan coming back? He's taking way too long... Maybe I should go check on him. Wait. Why should I care? But I can't let Ryan be taken away from me... and it's not like I care or anything... oh screw it I can't help it. I was right. Ryan's the one. Damn... I've never felt this way with anyone before... but then again I could be utterly wrong.

Ugh I'm so confused! Is this how it feels like to care and love someone? Or am I just overreacting? Interrupted from my thoughts, in the corner of my eye I saw a figure coming towards the room. I glanced over to see Ryan smiling. Strange... I wonder what happened. What could have made Ryan to smile like that? Who? Envious, I shifted my mask to the right and walked over to Ryan keeping my cool while asking,

"So... Ryan what happened and why are you smiling?"

Ryan looked down, blushing while stuttering, "Well h-he... I-I..."

"You...? He...?" Don't tell me they...

"I... Um... Nothing really. He was crying so then I comforted him. That's all. Nothing else happened, I promise."

Why bother asking him when you know what happened? You can just read his mind, The voice in my head sneers. "I guess that'll just take the fun out of it..."

I sneer at Ryan's response and pushed him against the wall whispering into his ear,

"Ryan, you should know that you're mine... and nobody else's alright?"

I could feel Ryan shiver at my response and whimpered a little. That's a cute reaction. I leaned over as I licked Ryan's earlobe, biting it softly. Ryan struggled but stopped when I shifted over to his lips and bit down on his bottom lip softly. Smirking, I whispered into his ear again,

"I won't allow you to do that with Felix. You should know better Ryan... You're mine. Your body is mine. Even your lips..."

(Cry's POV)

Suddenly Mad attacked my lips, and wrapped his arms around my hips. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to say something but Mad's lips are just... intoxicating. I can feel myself getting carried away by the kiss. Fuck I'm taken away with just a kiss! But I don't want it to stop... and I don't want to go that far. I slowly wrapped my arms around Mad's neck, hanging on tightly as I finally broke the kiss and whispered into his ear,

"M-Mad... please stop... I'm not ready for that... a-and why are you doing this? I thought you didn't love me and I didn't think you'd steal my first kiss..."

"Your first kiss? I feel happy that I'm your first. And yes... I didn't love you at first sight but I've changed my mind. You're just so innocent... and just so fucking cute. I couldn't help but tease you a bit. But it also seems like you've taken a liking to me and my existence. Isn't that right Ry?"

Since when did he give me a nickname? Oh never mind that! I can't think about that now. But I can't help but feel butterflies in my stomach. As if they were real. But Mad confessed... I didn't expect that from him.

"I-I... no... I'm not that innocent... and no I don't love you like that. I think of you as a friend. A really good friend. I'm being honest here Mad."

"Ah but you see Ryan that's what you say but not your mind and body."

I could feel myself getting flushed by what Mad had said. Is it true? Did I love Mad? Maybe... but I just don't know. I never actually experienced love between another person before so I don't know what to feel or how it feels like. But this feeling... could it be? It's only when I'm around Mad... right? But I love Felix!

There's no possible way I could not love Felix. Both Mad and Felix just confessed to me of how they feel about me... they say they both love me. How can I tell either one is lying? But if they're actually telling the truth... I can't possibly decide. If I reject either one of them then I will have the same outcome, perhaps.

What do I do? What should I do? I looked straight into Mad's eyes. He looks like he's telling the truth. But how can I substantiate that?

"Mad... Do you really love me. Love me for me and only me?"

I need to hear him say it again. Even if he was telling a white lie through his teeth.

"I do love you Ryan. Why would you think that I'm lying to you?" What do I tell him? How do I explain it? This lead to an utter silence between Mad and I. It didn't last long though. It was awkward, indeed.

"Are you alright Ryan? I know something's bothering you... would you care to tell me if you like to?"

I shifted my glance to the floor. Should I tell him? Would he be angry with me? What's wrong with me? This conversation isn't going to end well or will not end at all if you don't say something!

"I'm fine. I'm just over thinking here but I just don't know how to put it in words..."

"What do you mean?" I lifted my head staring straight at Mad. Here goes nothing I guess.

"Well... how do I put it? I've had confessions from both people for whom I love dearly as amazing and wonderful friends from there I had to reconsider my feelings for both characters. There's a word to describe it. Uh... what's the word? It started with an L... a love triangle, well almost. Now I'm having a hard time choosing either you or Felix and hopefully we will have a good outcome for all three of us. But I doubt that."

Mad stared at me in disbelief. His expression changed from shocked to exasperated. He's angry at me right? I closed my eyes tightly, regretting about what I just said. I'm shaking and I'm afraid. Will Mad hit me? Petrified, I covered my face feeling the stream of tears coming down. It's no good. I am having a break down right in front of Mad. I could feel my hands being taken away from my face. Isn't Mad going to...?

"Don't cry Ryan. It hurts to see you like this..."

I felt his fingers wipe my tears and held my face sweetly. I slowly closed my eyes putting my hands over his. I smiled with pleasure and whispered,

"I-I... Okay, Mad."

I opened my eyes to find that Mad really close. I can feel him cup my cheeks and gave a peck on my lips then looked right at me.

"I think you should rest Ryan. You seem stressed and tired."

"B-But it's the middle of the day! I have to upload a video for my subscribers. I can't just leave them hanging!"

"No 'buts'. Go to sleep for your sake."

I nodded as Mad lowered his hands off my face as I walked towards the bed and went under covers. I looked over at Mad curious,

"What are you going to do? Watch me sleep? It seems creepy."

Mad chuckled. "Well if you put it like that then I guess I'll have to just sleep with you."

Sleep with me? "I-I don't know about that..."

"I'm just kidding with you. We'll sleep together later."

Mad winked at me before he shifted his mask back to cover his face. He left the room and closed the door leaving me to my thoughts. I close my eyes letting his words linger through my head.

"We'll sleep together later."

I felt my lips curve into a smile on their own. Maybe Mad, just maybe we will.