"... but I could also write about love. How a hand can silence thousands of voices and how someone's smell can make you feel at home even though you're a million miles away from
home
and have you ever hurt someone you love? Because you're angry. Because you're disappointed and sad and you just really wanted to love and be loved in return
but life got in the way and you both said things that should never be said and you're angry but don't know how to. Because you still feel this strange love for him, but you're also fucking angry and you want to hit him, but then hug him because hurting him is hurting yourself, and then hit him again because you're angry! and so you fall on your knees because you're hopeless to yourself and your own emotions
and that's love, my friend."
― Charlotte Eriksson

XXXXXX

My blood was boiling and I knew once this baby was born, if it wasn't going to be the death of me, I was going to get my tubes tied and burned to ashes. I was on the pill. Rick was using condoms. I still got fucking pregnant. The doctor reassured me that if I followed his advice that I could have a successful pregnancy but I shouldn't press my luck with any more.

For the life of me I have no idea what Rick and I were doing. We were hot and cold. We weren't the same temperature but it was extreme with us.

He got mad at me because I wanted to date other people to move on because the Karma we would experience based on our bullshit was going to be a whirlwind, Tsunami or Tornado.

I had to quit him and then he would have the audacity to quit me to only show up at my door the next day wanting to see his babies. I didn't want to keep fucking around with Rick but he kept fucking around with me.

"Hey, where the hell you going Rick, the babies aren't in the bathroom."

"Judith and Abigail are asleep. I am going to take a shower. You more than welcome to join me."

"Didn't you quit me just yesterday Rick?" I watched him walk in the bathroom leaving the door wide open as he undressed, putting his clothes in the hamper before he stepped in the shower.

"I quit you yesterday. I am back today. New day."

"You think I am that easy Rick? That you can just walk in and out of my life and I just take you back?" I found myself undressing.

"You know what this is between us Michonne."

I watched him lather up his skin. He was completely aroused. His dick was at attention and he knew that was my damn weakness as I felt myself tingle down below at the sight of him.

His back was to me as I climbed in right behind and jerked him off in the shower. My pelvic rubbing against his ass caused me to cum. He is the only one that can get me off without penetration and I was mesmerized by it.

He kept spare clothes at my place and I kept forgetting to toss them out or burn them to help with keeping Karma at bay.

I asked for a relocation back to Atlanta and got it. Andrea was excited to know that I would be back in cahoots with her in the hub. I put in for FMLA based on the doctors recommendations and was approved. Things were working out smoothly. I just didn't know how badly I was going to miss Rick until the girls kept asking for their daddy in the night.

I began to doubt if I made the right decision to just up and leave. I changed my number too. I knew Rick was going to be pissed when he realize I was no longer in King's County.