This Is All I Have Left

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Sakura stood in shock.

He finally said it. He finally said what she was so scared of hearing. He wanted her to leave him...he wanted a divorce.

She honestly didn't know what to say anymore. She opened her mouth, but no words came out.

Sasuke looked away. "...then...I'll file the divorce papers within a week and a half. I'll also notify our parents by next Saturday." He replied before turning around to leave and go upstairs.

Sakura suddenly took a step forward and grabbed his sleeve.

Sasuke froze. He could feel her fingers shaking.

"...if...if you want me to leave...why didn't you just divorce me sooner?"

Sasuke glared at the ground. So she wanted to leave sooner? She was just waiting for him to say it? He knew it all along. She hated this marriage, she hated him...and she couldn't wait to get out of it.

"Well, I'm doing it now, aren't I?" He said, a little too harshly, and jerked away from her.

Sakura just watched silently as he walked away and went upstairs. She felt like crying...but she refused to let her tears come. "...so he wants me to leave..."

She walked over to the couch and laid down, staring at the coffee table silently. Like she said, she'll go with it. She'll accept the divorce if he wanted it. She didn't want to force him to stay in this marriage if he didn't want to.

But damn...she didn't know it'll hurt this much.

Sakura let out a shaky sigh and closed her eyes. "Whatever makes you happy, Sasuke..." She whispered.

She didn't feel the two tears that ran down her cheeks as she slowly drifted to sleep.

Sasuke was laying on the bed, staring into the darkness.

He couldn't describe what he was feeling right now...it was like, anger, sadness, and confusion, all at once.

It hurt.

He didn't know that he could ever feel like this. It was devastating. It made him feel weak.

He was going to lose her...he was really going let her go...they were really going to get a divorce.

After a while of quiet thinking to himself, he wondered why Sakura hadn't come up yet. Sasuke narrowed his eyes and got out of bed. He walked out of the room and went downstairs to see that all the kitchen lights were still on.

'Where's Sakura...?' Sasuke walked quicker and she was no where in the kitchen...then he turned around and saw her asleep on the couch.

'So she won't even sleep with me?' He sighed and went over to her. Sasuke knelt down so he was at her level and gazed at her face.

She was so perfect...so beautiful. He loved every part of her.

Hesitantly, he reached up to swipe away some bangs that were in the way of her eyes. His fingers froze when he felt something wet...then he realized there were tears at the corner of her eyes. Sasuke blinked curiously and wiped them away.

'She's...crying...?' He hated it when she cried. It made it him feel like it was his fault...well...it kinda was his fault. But why would she be crying? They were getting a divorce. She should be happy.

"Why are you crying?" Sasuke whispered worriedly and gently caressed her cheek. His thumb softly ran over her lips and his eyes gazed at them for a while. He had never kissed her...not even at the wedding. He refused to, and their parents agreed to not let them kiss since they didn't know each other very well.

But now he regretted it.

He wanted to kiss her...but then that would be taking advantage of her. Sasuke let out a sigh and stood up. As carefully as he can, he lifted her up and carried her upstairs.

When he got to their bedroom, he laid her down and pulled the covers up to her shoulder. Hesitantly, he leaned down and placed a featherlight kiss on her forehead. His lips trembled when he pulled away...he didn't know why he didn't do this more often...she was so precious; he should've at least taken care of her better.

'But that's why I'm letting her go.' He thought and gazed at her.

"This is all I can do for you, Sakura. Find someone better, smile more...be happy..."

Sakura's eyes fluttered open. She let out a soft yawn and slowly sat up...then she realized she was in bed. 'I thought...I fell asleep on the couch last night...?'

Then she glanced over to Sasuke, who was still asleep. 'Did he carry me up last night?' The thought of him carrying her and tucking her in bed made her blush.

...damn...too bad she was asleep through the whole thing.

Sakura sighed and gazed at Sasuke for a bit longer before getting out of bed. Well...they only had a week and half together.

She should try to make the best of it.

Sasuke woke up later and came downstairs for breakfast. He saw Sakura already sitting at the table and waiting for him...like always.

He quietly sat down and ate his meal. They both didn't utter a single word until Sasuke was done eating.

"I'm going." Sasuke bluntly replied and got up. Sakura slowly got up and followed him to the door.

He reached for his tie, fixing it around his collar. Then he grabbed his case, slipped on his shoes, and proceeded to go out.

Sakura watched as he opened the door and took a step out. They only had a week left...she wanted to at least do something more. "S...Sasuke..." She called quietly.

Sasuke slowly stopped and turned around slightly.

"Um..." She wanted to ask for a hug-goodbye. But she chickened out...it was too daring and awkward to ask. "...uh...um...nevermind. I'll make dinner."

Sasuke stared at her for a bit; there was something that restrained him from wanting to go...but he ignored it and turned around, resuming to walking to his car.

At work, Sasuke barely paid attention to doing his paperwork.

'Should I just tell her?' He sighed and shook his head. Oh, he wanted to confess. He wanted to tell her so bad before they divorced; but the thought of her rejecting him...the thought of a shocked and disgusted expression she'll have...it scared him. He didn't want her to hate him or be scared of him more than she already is.

There was a sudden knock on the door.

"...come in." He quickly grabbed his pen and pretended like he was working.

"Saaasuke?"

Sasuke cringed at that voice and glared up at her. "Karin. I thought we agreed that you wouldn't bother me again."

Karin pouted. "But I miss-,"

"I'm not in the mood. If you don't get out this instant, I'm firing you." Sasuke said bluntly. He seriously didn't want to deal with her right now.

"What? You're so mean!" Karin whined.

Sasuke just ignored her.

"Sasuke-,"

"I'm gonna count to three." He warned.

"Ugh! What the hell! Fine!" Karin glared at him and stomped out of the room.

'Why the hell did I hire her in the first place?' Sasuke shook his head and leaned back on his chair.

The whole divorce thing was driving him crazy. He honestly couldn't imagine living without Sakura now...it'll be so different if he went home and she won't be there waiting for him. After the divorce, they probably won't ever see each other again.

Damn, that scared him.

The thought of never seeing her again...the thought of her being in another man's arms...he just couldn't stand it.

"But she doesn't want to be with me." Sasuke sighed and ran his fingers through his hair.

"...I'd do anything...just to have her love me back..."

Two days passed since they've mentioned the divorce. They both were heartbroken, and they both wanted to get closer before the divorce day came, but they were just too afraid to make a move on each other.

It was a Friday night, and Sasuke just got home.

They sat in silence at the dinner table while they ate.

If possible, Sakura thought things were even more awkward now. She couldn't even bring herself to look up at him.

Sasuke wasn't even sure why he was eating; he had absolutely no appetite. Slowly, he set down his fork and put his napkin on the table. "...I'm gonna go sleep." He replied and got up.

Sakura stared at his plate...they just only started to eat a few minutes ago. Did he hate her that much that he couldn't even stay in the same room and finish his food? She sat quietly as Sasuke walked past her and went upstairs.

She also set down her fork and stopped eating. She pushed her plate away and stared down sadly at her wedding ring. '...this will be only thing I have left of this marriage when I leave...' She ran her finger over the diamond ring and at that moment, she felt like crying.

'This will be the only thing left.' Her thought repeated.

She and Sasuke had nothing together. They didn't have love. They didn't even have a child. He didn't even wear the heart necklace anymore. Everything was already gone.

Sakura's lips quivered and she took a deep breath, trying to stop herself. 'It doesn't matter how much I love him. Crying won't solve anything. This marriage will be over soon, and...and Sasuke will be happy that I'm not here anymore.' She quietly got up and cleaned up the dishes.

Sakura dumped the food that was barely eaten, into the trash and brought the dishes to the sink. After washing them, she went upstairs.

Sasuke's eyes jerked open when he heard the door open.

"Sorry..." Sakura apologized quietly and closed the door. She walked over to the bed and slept next to him. Her thoughts flashed back to that night he held her...why couldn't he just be more like that?

Sakura felt the warmth of his back...they were sleeping closer than usual.

Honestly, even though they just slept back to back every night, she would miss sleeping next to him like this.

The next day, Sasuke actually woke up before Sakura did.

'...that's weird. She's usually up early.' He slowly sat up and peered over to look at her.

He narrowed his eyes and then and scooted away, and got off the bed. He just got an idea.

He should make breakfast for her. He knew how to cook, but...he just never did, since she always did it.

Sasuke went to the bathroom and quickly washed up and changed before quietly running downstairs.

Sakura finally woke up and looked at the time. She gasped, realizing that it was already nine o'clock. 'What the hell! Why did I wake up so late?'

She realized Sasuke wasn't even in bed. 'He must be angry with me...'She quickly got out of bed, brushed her teeth, and changed into a simple dress. She didn't even bother to comb her hair and ran downstairs.

She narrowed her eyes when she smelled food. Sakura nearly gasped when she walked in the kitchen to see Sasuke setting down two plates of egg omelet, sausage, pancakes, and two cups of coffee.

Honestly, she didn't even know he could cook...and his food looked even better than the ones she made. "Um...Sasuke...?"

Sasuke looked up to her surprised expression and fought the urge to laugh when he saw her bed hair.

"I'm sorry, I didn't wake up earlier, so-,"

"It's fine. I already make breakfast so come eat." He replied.

Sakura nodded and walked over to the table. She flinched when Sasuke suddenly grasped her arm.

"Stay still." Sasuke muttered and reached up for her hair. He gently brushed away her bangs and ran his fingers through her soft tangles.

Sakura blushed at his touch.

"...you should've at least brushed your hair."

"Uh...I...I was in a rush. I thought you'd be mad at me, so I just got ready quickly..." She stuttered.

Seeing how tense she was, he knew she was probably uncomfortable. He backed away from her and walked over to his seat. "...you always cook for me, so it's fine." He reassured her and sat down.

Sakura also sat down. She glanced at him and noticed that he wasn't wearing the necklace again. Her eyes averted down to his hand and she felt a slight pain in her chest when she didn't see the wedding ring.

'So...he already took it off, huh...'

She looked down sadly at her own ring.

'...so this will really be the only thing left of us...'

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