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A/N: Sorry guys this is up so late. I've been really busy! I'm already a week behind in school because I just moved and I have no idea what I'm doing, but I'm trying to post as much as I can.

Spencer won't text me back. It's been three days. She's been ignoring me at school. I get why she wouldn't want to see me, but I miss her.

"Spencer, please text me back," I text her. I wait. I wait. I wait.

"Hi," Spencer finally texts back an hour later. I smile. I'm glad she replied.

"Come over tonight," I tell her. It's more of a demand than a question. I want to make her feel like I still want her around.

"Maybe," she says. In hopes that she does, I clean up my room a little.

"What are you doing?" Kyla asks me.

"Cleaning up my room a little," I tell her. I pick up a shirt and hang it on a hanger.

"Why?" she asks. She walks into my room as sits down on my bed. She sits cross-legged and takes out her phone.

"Spencer might come over tonight," I tell her. She raises her eyebrow at me.

"What happened between you guys anyway?" she asks me.

"She…..she told me she liked me. You know, like in a more than a friend way," I tell Kyla.

"And what did you say?" she asks me.

"I said that I wasn't sure how I felt," I tell her. Kyla sighs.

"Ashley, are you serious?" she says annoyed.

"What do you mean?" I ask.

"Ashley, she seems to make you happy. You can't honestly tell me you don't know how you feel about her. You're like all smiley around. You definitely like her more than a friend so I don't understand why you aren't going for it," she says. I sit down on my bed. I don't know why I haven't gone for it. She's right. I'm starting to feel things again and a big part of it is because of her.

"I don't know," I reply.

"Well you need to think fast because I just got a text and apparently she's going on a date with Aiden tonight," she tells me. My heart sinks. I didn't really think she would do that or Aiden for that matter.

"How do you know?" I ask her. I'm curious to how she finds out this information in the first place.

"Spencer told me," she tells me. She looks at me.

"Are you guys like friends now?" I ask her. It's not that, that would bother me. I just wish that if Spencer was going to talk to one of us, it would be me.

"We talk every now and then," she explains. "Anyway, I hope she comes over." Kyla leaves my room. Then Spencer texts me that she is here.

"Hi," I say opening the door for her. She looks down at the ground.

"Hi," she replies. I lead her up to my room. She sits down on the ground and leans against my bed.

"So you're going on a date with Aiden?" I ask. She shrugs.

"Yeah, I guess," she says. She's still not looking me in the eye. I just wish she would look at me.

"Why," I ask. She looks at me now.

"Because I wanted to. He's a nice guy, and he asked me out so I said yes," she explains. I don't want to look hurt, but I feel hurt. She just told me she liked me, and now she is going on a date with my ex-boyfriend.

"Oh," I say. She tilts her head.

"You're not allowed to be mad," she says defensively.

"I guess not," I reply quietly. She shakes her head.

"I think I should go," she says.

"Spencer-"I begin to say. I don't understand why she won't stay. I don't understand why she is going out with Aiden. I thought she liked me. And now I know what I want.

"I'll see you later," she interrupts me. She stands up and heads for my bedroom door.

"Where are you guys going?" I ask before she walks out of the door. She sighs and turns to look at me while she answers.

"Some club. I'm not sure; I still don't know what everything is," she tells me. I nod my head. I want to tell her to stay. I want to tell her to not go on a date with him but to go on a date with me. I don't do any of these things. I watch her walk out of my door. I sit down on my bed. I feel sad. I feel angry. I'm feeling, but I don't want to. I grab my keys and walk out the door.

I want to do something destructive. I want to not feel. I head to Ego.

I drive there fast and reckless. I try not to act like I care. When I get there I head to the bar. I order a shot of tequila and take it right away. I don't want to go too fast so I order a martini next. I sip it slowly trying to calm down. I'm still angry. I look at the stage. It's some R&B band playing tonight. The dance floor is full of people grinding.

I spot Carmen. She makes eye contact but then looks back to the girl she is dancing with. I look away. I look around. I look at the door. I see them. I can't believe he's taking her here. This is my place. I order two more shots and down them. I head out to the dance floor. I pull Carmen into me. She grinds against my thigh. She leans in and kisses my neck. She's biting and sucking. I'm trying my best to get into it because this is what I want. This is what I need to do.

I see Spencer look at me. She looks hurt. She looks angry. She pulls Aiden into her and kisses him. I grab Carmen and pull her to my car. I drive back to my place. In the car she takes two lines of coke. When we get home I take the last one and pull her into my bedroom.

I pull my shirt over my head and pull my pants off. She does the same. I push her down on the bed and crawl on top of her. I kiss her neck and then make my way to her bra. I unhook her bra and throw it on the floor. I pull a nipple into my mouth and slide my tongue against it. I pull away and kiss down her stomach until I reach her underwear. I pull them off. I flick my tongue against her clit and her hips jump up automatically. I draw circles with my tongue and push two fingers into her. I curl them up in just the right spot when she moans. The moan turns me on a little so push into her deeper and start and slow pace.

"Ashley, go faster," she demands. She pushing her hips up to get more friction. I go faster. Her walls tighten, and I know she's almost there. I kiss up her stomach while still moving inside of her. I don't want to kiss her lips. I don't want to know that feeling. I suck on her pulse point instead and curl my fingers just right. She reaches climax and gasps. I help her ride out the orgasm slowly moving in and out of her. When I'm done she smiles at me.

"Can I do you now?" she asks. I shake my head no. I don't want this. She nods. She gets it. We do more coke, and I fall asleep.

I hope you enjoyed it. Have a nice day!