"What do we need to talk about ve?" He asked as I start to lead him to my cabin.
"It's just somezing I need to get off my chest." I open the door and hold it while Feli walks in. He takes a seat on a bed while I close the door and lock it behind me. "So what do you need to tell me ve~?" He asks. I stare into those beautiful chocolate eyes. Those eyes are something hypnotic, you could stare into them for eternity and they would not get any less beautiful.
"Feliciano... I-I was vong. I... I love you! I'm not straight, vell... I don't think I am anymore because every time I see or zink of you my heart pounds, my palms get sveaty, and I get a veird feeling in my stomach. I realized now zough zat it's love. I love you Feliciano Vargas... But, do you still love me?" Feliciano stares at him shocked by this out of the blue news.
"Luddy, I do love you but I am with Gil right now. It would be mean to dump him because something else came along... I just can't ve." Anger rushes in as I remember when Gil asked Feliciano out and he accepted.
"But he only did zat to piss me off! He doesn't really love you!" I yell. Feli's body starts to tremble under my loud and booming voice. His face scrunches up with fear and I back off, not wanting to hurt one I do love. He looks back up at me.
"Luddy... You're a great man but you were stubborn and honestly stupid because even though you said you love me you refused the reality of the situation just because I was a man. You didn't like the thought of being gay so you rejected me. If Gil and I break up you can try but you can ask again but we may not ve." My anger grows more intense thinking about Feliciano ending with Gil... Gil is probably flirting with girls right now and Feliciano honestly thinks he's in a real relationship with him! I have to talk to him, I've got to have this mess cleared! I quickly run out the cabin and start searching for Gil. People try to stop me so we can talk about the show I put up but I ignore them and just keep running. After a few minutes I spot him under the trees surrounded by girls. The closer I get the easier I can hear the conversation.
"My poor little bro! He had to pull a stunt like that just to see if I loved him! He had the awesome me so worried I really thought he was doomed! Just thinking about my little bro dying brings tears to my eyes!" He says with dramatic body gestures and motions. I run right up to him, grab his collar and pin him to the tree. He tenses his body up and raises his arms to protect his face. "D-Don't kill me, please!"
"Then either A. Stop flirting vith girls or B. Break up vith him." He stares at me confused.
"The awesome me is dating someone?" I bang him against the tree and the girls run away screaming.
"Ja, his name is Feliciano!" Gil just blinks at me, confused, as if the memory of him asking Feli out had just disappeared.
"You two haven't gotten together yet? The only reason I asked him out was so you'd realize how you felt for him. You clearly loved him but you were in denial so I had to give you a jump start. Did Feli honestly think I wanted to date him?"
"Of course he did! He has a sensitive heart so you go talk to him and make zings vight!" Gil nods as I set him back down on the ground. I watch as he walks away and to our cabin. I sit down at the base of the tree as the wind blows in my face. How could I have been so deep in denial? I knew I loved him but I just didn't want to admit that I loved a man... I probably really hurt him... I need to be there for him, to prove I really love him.
I get up and head back to my cabin while thinking about how Gil does care for me. He did grow up fast for me, then he did try to get me to realize my feelings for Feliciano. Yes he does make my life a living hell but at the same time I made his hard as well.
I walk up to the cabin and pause for a moment, letting this moment soak in. I grasp the door handle and turn it. Opening the door I see a figure of two people kissing. Unable to speak, due to rage, I quickly run over and tear the two apart. I force myself to vocalize something. "V-Vat is your deal!? Do you care about me or hate me!?" A snicker appears on his face as he starts to chuckle. "Vat? Vat is funny!?" I look down and notice that there's just a pillow. "Vy vere you kissing a pillow?" I ask as I set him down on the bed.
"Well, you see the awesome me said that if you really cared about Feli if you saw he and I kissing you'd stop us cuz you really love him." He leans up close to my face and whispers, "He's in the closet, go get him." I slowly walk over to the closet thinking about how happy I am that they weren't actually kissing. I open the door to find an Italian smiling at me.
"Hey Luddy ve~! Guess what!" The man said with a glimmering smile.
"Vat?" I ask as my reply.
"I love you ve! And you love me?" I smile and him gently and warm.
"Oh Feli, of course I lo-!"
Pain pangs in my head and chest as I hear a scream and a laugh that will be burned into my brain. As I open my eyes nothing changes, the world is dark. Am I blind, did something strike my head? "Feliciano?" I ask as I feel around in the darkness.
"My head hurts ve... And I fell on my bum... And you're on top of me..." I gently get up, careful not to crush him at all, and turn around so I am facing the door. I feel around for the knob and grasp it tightly. It seems to be stuck when all of a sudden I hear that laugh again from the opposite side of the door.
"Gil, open ze door now!" I say as I start banging on the wood.
"Kesesesesese, no way! You two need some /personal time/ and we aren't really doing anything so now is the time! The awesome me will cover for you two, bye bye and be safe~!" Something slides under the door. Picking it up I start to examine... A condom... Gil is such a class act, of course he has these on supply.
"What is it ve?" Feli asks. I quickly shove it into my pocket.
"Oh nozing... Just you know..." I hear Feliciano giggle.
"A condom~?" He says in a seductive voice.
"Um... Ja..." Something wraps around my waist.
"It would sure be a waste not to use it ve~ And Gil was right, we don't have anything special to do today ve. What do you say~?" I turn around and look him in the eyes, now that they are adjusted to the dark I can see them. His eyes are such a nice shade of brown. A lot browns and be so ugly but his is like whipped chocolate ready to be eaten up.
"... It would be a waste." I say with a smile and a kiss.
That night was a magically night that I will never forget but the crazy part of it all none of it would have happen without Gilbert. If it weren't for him I wouldn't have realized, or should I say accepted, that I love Feliciano and I also wouldn't have had a night of love with the most amazing person in the world. I wouldn't have any of this without my big brother taking care of me. If it weren't for him I wouldn't even be in marching band and I wouldn't even have met Feliciano. I honestly owe for everything, but even more he's encouraging me to leave the nest and that's hard for anyone who's like a mother. In the end I can always count on him to catch me if I fall because even when pushing me away he tries to keep me safe. I love Feliciano but I also do love my big brother Gil.
"Knock knock, is it safe to open?" I hear as a the door knocks.
"Ja, you can open ze door." A shining light blinds me as I hear a snap sound.
"Ha! Now the awesome me has blackmail!"
"Did you just take a picture!?" He holds up a picture of a German with messed up hair and an Italian sleeping on his lap. "Vat do plan to do vith zat!?"
"Oh I'm just gonna wait for a day where this beauty can be of good use~" I sigh and take Feli into my arms, get up, walk out of the closet and set him on the bed.
"I guess you could say that you're out of the closet~! Ba-dum ch! Kesesesesesesesese!"
"Oh shut up Gil." I carefully put Feli under the covers of one of the beds. Then I go to the bathroom and fix up my hair.
"I just gotta ask you something though..." Gil's tone of voice became much more serious.
"Vat?" He stares at me with a serious and concerned look on his face.
"Did you use it?" I reach into my pocket and pull out an empty condom package. Gil's face smiles and relief flourishes. "Thanks lil bro! No matter what I do to you I always will care, but the awesome me sometimes forgets to say that..." I smile back at him.
"I understand. I do appreciate everything zat you do for me."
"I love to see you guys caring about each other ve~" A voice states out of the blue, "It reminds me of..." There's a loud bang sound as a cold breeze comes in as a man with brown hair bursts through the cabin door.
"Fratello!"