When Rory entered the house she heard yelling in the kitchen;
something about coffee, she wasn't really listening. Rory silently walked
to her room. She shut the door and brought out her bag. She started
stuffing her clothes in when she heard the yelling decease.
(Outside)
"Was that Rory?" Lorelai asked.
"I dunno, what time is it?" asked Luke.
"It's 7:30.. I thought you locked up the diner!" Lorelai responded.
"I did!"
"Well how did she get out?"
"I dunno!"
"Alright, alright. I'll go see her.. And you, get some sleep! You grumpy"-
"Stop right there! I'll just go to sleep!"
"Fine!"
"Fine!"
Lorelai knocked on Rory's door and a muffled, "Yea?" was heard.
"Rory?" Lorelai asked.
"Ahuh?"
"You okay?" Lorelai asked, walking into Rory's room.
"Yea, I'm fine." Rory said still folding clothes to place into the bag.
"You goin' back home?"
"Uh- yea.. Tomorrow.."
Lorelai nodded.
"Ok, well I'll leave you with your peace.." Lorelai said. Rory nodded.
"Mom.?"
"Yea?" she said turning around.
"Thanks."
"Aw.." she said walking over to hug Rory, when they separated, Lorelai smiled and walked away.
She closed the door on her way out. Rory took in a deep breath. The air grew thin and full of sadness. She sighed and her tired body fell to the floor. Her back was against the end of her bed.
Her arms were supporting her upper self as she leaned back on them. Her hand landed over a medium- sized book. She didn't know what it was so she pulled it out. She leaned back on the end of her bed. It's leather exterior was worn and the gold engraved title was faded and read, 'My Memories' she smiled as she opened it.
The plastic protector held memories even she had forgotten. They were recent photos. The first one was of her and Lorelai sitting at the counter at different ends playing bagel hockey. The next was of her and Lorelai again, sitting at a table with 2 large tubs of coffee sipping them down; it looked like it was a race. She smiled and flipped the page.
The next few made her want to cry. She smiled sadly as she concentrate on each picture. The first on that page was of her and jess sitting at the bridge. Jess had his arm wrapped around her and she was snuggled into him. The second one made her laugh to herself. It was her in bed with tissues surrounding the bed and boxes of tissue everywhere. Her nose and cheeks were all red and she had ruffles of tissues crammed in her hands. The picture was taken right when she was bout to sneeze. She sat there recalling the day before when this picture was taken.
*Flashback*
(Thud). (Thud). Rory looked over at her window. She was in bed, sleeping when she heard noises at her window. She looked at it. It had 2 smashed snowballs slushed into the transparent surface. She smiled as she got out of bed and lifted the window. She saw Jess standing there with a snowball in his hand he started walking away when she called,
"Wait for me!" to him. He smiled and leaned against the tree while she ran to the closet, grabbed a jacket, shoes, and gloves and crawled out the window.
"Ma'am? You crawled out that window like you had done it before." Jess commented. Both of Rory's eyebrows were propped up. She bent down and grabbed some snow, when she came back up she was hit with Jess' snowball. Her mouth hung open and her eyes were as big as they could get.
"Jess Mariano? Fell the wrath of Rory Gilmore!" with that, she threw the snowball and laughed.
When they finished throwing one snowball after another, after another, Rory got up from her base and walked over to Jess who had been recovering from an attack. Jess was wiping off snow when she came up to him. She smile and he looked up at her eyes.
Her beautiful eyes. There was absolutely no name that could brand those eyes. It was the kind of blue that pierced your soul and opened your eyes to the things that your mind couldn't see. It was the kind of blue that made you realize just now lucky you really wee and how grateful you should be just to have found those special people in you life. This is how Jess felt, each and every time he looked up at her eyes.
He traced the features on her face; her eyes followed his finger's every destination. First she followed his finger, then brought her eyes up to see a studious Jess, concentrating on all the fear and love and happiness his eyes displayed, she pulled his finger away. He looked at her and again was stricken with that extraordinary feeling her eyes gave him.
She held onto his finger and with her other hand, brought his head closer to hers. She let go of his finger and pulled his face to hers, cupping his chin to support him. Her touch made his body weak. She slowly pulled away slipping into the shadows and whispered,
"G' night Jess." And crawled back through the window.
*End flashback*
That's how she got sick the next day. She could feel pools of salty madness swimming to the corners of her eyes. She blinked her pain away. They were like stab wounds to her heart. She closed the book and flung it back under the bed. After that she went to sleep.
The next morning, Rory awoke to the scent of coffee brewing in the morning. She yawned as she stretched out of bed. Slipping a robe on and some pink fuzzy slippers, she dragged herself into the kitchen. No one was there. By a cup at the coffee table was a note. It read,
Daughter of Mine,
I'm at Luke's begging him to make me chocolate chip pancakes. If you come I know he'll make em', so, for your dear old- wait I AM NOT OLD! For your very young mothers' sake, please come down...
-Always, your VERY YOUNG MOTHER!
Rory smiled as she poured herself a cup of coffee. She later slipped on a pair of fitted jeans and a shirt that read, 'if I close my eyes and count to 10, will you still be there?'
She laughed to herself because of the shirt. She finally made it to Luke's. The bell at the door rung with welcome in every pinched chime it made. Rory searched the room for her mother and spotted her at the counter, still begging.
"Come on Luke! It's not that hard to make chocolate chips into the pancakes!"
"Then you make it!"
"Are you serious?"
"No! Of course not!"
"Then make the damn pancakes!"
"Never!.(Rory came up).. Oh hey Rory, what would you like?"
"Umm.. I'll have chocolate chip pancakes."
"Sure." Luke said, walking away.
"Hey! Favoritism!!" Lorelai said sighing.
"Luke likes me better! Luke likes me better!" Rory sang.
"Lalalalalalalala!!" Lorelai responded, covering her ears.
"Lorelai!." Luke said.
"Lalalalalalalala.." She continued while keeping her eyes shut.
"Lorelai!!."
Rory started poking at her and she uncovered her ears and opened her eyes.
"(Sigh)" Luke was tired of Lorelai's Childs play.
"Your in trouble! Your in trouble!" Rory whispered, singing to Lorelai. Lorelai stuck her tongue out at her.
"Yes Lukey, whom I love so very much, maybe more than my own daughter!"
"Mom!"
"What? You were being mean to me! Say your sorry and all is forgotten."
".(Sigh). sorry." Rory said, crossing her arms.
"Aw, I love you too!" Lorelai said hugging her.
"Lorelai."
"Yes Lucas?"
"Your pancakes." Luke said, placing both Rory's and Lorelai's plate of pancakes.
"Muaha!" Lorelai blurted out.
"What was that for?" Rory asked, looking weirdly at her.
"That was my inner me rejoicing for this wonderful meal."
"Ahuh." Rory said, getting back to her pancakes.
Jess came down the stairs and was taken aback by Rory's presence. Lorelai saw the look jess gave Rory. It was sad, it was a mixture of despair and loneliness. A sense of want and desire. She knew she needed to give the two space to talk to she bugged Luke.
"Oh Luukeey!! Where oh where has little Lucas gone, oh where oh where can he be?! Where oh where has little Lucas gone, oh where oh where can he be?." Lorelai sang while she walked into the kitchen.
"Lorelai! How many times do I hafta"-
"Aw pipe down Luke, they're gonna talk!"
"What?" Luke asked, genuinely confused.
"Jess and Rory, they're gonna talk! Now shush!!"
Luke and Lorelai listened and picked up words, as best they could.
"...Hi.." said Jess leaning over the counter top.
"Hi.." She responded.
"I thought you'd have gone home by now."
"I needed breakfast." she explained as he nodded.
Just then, Ms. Patty came rushing in with a child being dragged along.
"Oh Rory, honey, I need your help"-
"Ms. Patty I"-
"Rory darling this little girl's my niece and I need someone to watch her, just for today."-
"Ms. Patty.. I"-
"Oh thanks Rory, you're a doll, I'll be sure to tell your mother and Luke that! You can get Jess to help too!" Ms. Patty said, backing out of the dinner. She ran and ran as fast as she could, like there was no tomorrow.
"Ms. Patty, I'm leaving." Rory said to no one. The little girl stood there, her hands in her pockets and her hair half up half down. She was adorable. Rory who looked back at Jess just sighed while Jess smirked.
"Guess you're staying.." he said, grinning.
"Just for today!" and she looked back at the little girl, she was eye to eye with the little girl and asked,
"So. what's your name?"
".Miya."
Rory smiled.
"How old are you?" Rory asked.
"I'm a whole hand old!" Miya said, showing Rory her hand.
"Wow. I'm 4 hands and 1 finger old."
"That's ooolldd!!" cried Miya.
Rory's smile turned into laughter. Rory picked up Miya and placed her in the stool next to her.
"Are you hungry?" Rory asked. Miya nodded furiously.
"(Chuckling) ookay.. You can tell that man right there (pointing to Jess) exactly what you would like."
"Oook. can I have a ginamous plate of waffles withs lotsa syrup and lotsa butter, please Mr. Diner Man?"
"Sure.." Jess said smiling at her while he placed her order.
The little girl looked back up at Rory and smiled.
"You can call me Rory, by the way."
"Row-ry?" Miya asked, "What're we gonna do ta-day?"
"We can do whatever you want.. Do you wanna go play by the gazebo?"
"Yea!" Miya cried, nodding like a mad man.
"Okay, when we finish we can go, okay?"
"Ookay!"
Jess brought Miya's order and she ate as fast as she could. Her mouth was covered in syrup and she licked the plate clean. Jess smiled as he took the cleaned plate and placed it into the bin. Miya hopped off the stool and with a wave of her hand, she cried,
"Come on Row-ry!" Rory hopped off her stool and wiped Miya's mouth clean. Rory looked back at Jess and said,
"I'm not doing this alone ya know!"
Jess nodded and yelled, "Luke, I'm goin' out!"
"Yea, yea." Luke yelled, taking orders.
"Come on!!" Miya yelled as she tugged at Rory's hand.
"Alright!" said Rory laughing.
She looked back at Jess and quickly looked forward where Miya kept tugging at her. She caught up with her and she held her hand as they crossed the street together, with Jess tugging along, slowly.
Miya let go of Rory's hand and stood on the grass and sat in an area that surpassed all. She sat Indian- style with her hands in her lap.
"What do you feel like doin'?" asked Rory just as she sat next to Miya.
"Let's give names to the clouds!!" said Miya.
"Ookay."
They laid down and Jess sat at the gazebo, watching from a distance, but still earshot from the whole commotion.
"That one.." said Miya.
"It's a fish!" said Rory.
"Nu- uh, it's a rabbit, it has ears! And ya see that fuzzy lookin' cloud at the end? That's its tail!"
"I don't see it." Rory pouted.
"Right there!" Miya outlined the cloud- shaped 'rabbit'.
"I see it!.ookay, that one." Rory said, pointing to anther cloud.
"Umm, it looks like a turtle!"
"Ookay, that one.." pointing to another.
"It looks like Mr. Diner Man's hair!" Rory sat up and laughed. Jess smiled and shook his head. Rory waved a 'come over' to him and he just shook his head no.
"Your loss!" She yelled to him and turned back and lay down.
A few hours later, Miya had fallen asleep. They had named clouds, played hand games, played tag around Jess and then he caught Miya and laid her down and tickled her. Rory stood back and watched. A smile had crept upon her face. Rory sat next to Miya, encircling her legs with her arms. Jess walked over and sat opposite from Rory.
"W should take her back to Ms. Patty now.." Rory said. Jess nodded. Rory picked her up and held her tightly as they crossed the gazebo to the other side and crossed the road to Ms. Patty's dance studio. It was 6:30 so Ms. Patty still would've been there. Jess knocked and opened the door.
"Ms. Patty.?" Rory called.
"Yes?." she said, turning to the 3 at the door. "Oh yes." she started walking over. She took Miya into her own arms and said, "Thanks a bunch, she wasn't too much trouble, was she.?"
"She was an angel." Rory said with ease.
"Oh good. well I'll see you guys later, bye."
"Bye.." Jess and Rory said in unison.
They both walked out and Jess looked over at Rory and said, "You're gonna make a good mother, ya know that?"
"Ha! I can hardly take care of myself, let alone a child. That, today, that was luck. She was a good kid. I had it easy."
"Nah, you really will."
"Huh.well you're gonna make a fine father."
"Not a good father, or a great father?"
"You're pushin' it..!"
"Right." Jess said nodding and looking away.
"So this is goodbye.." Rory said as they both stopped.
"Goodbye's suck.. Until we meet again."
Rory nodded and they parted. Jess stopped and watched her walk home. Would this be the end of them? His heart fell as he realized things would never, could never, be the same with out Rory Gilmore.
(Outside)
"Was that Rory?" Lorelai asked.
"I dunno, what time is it?" asked Luke.
"It's 7:30.. I thought you locked up the diner!" Lorelai responded.
"I did!"
"Well how did she get out?"
"I dunno!"
"Alright, alright. I'll go see her.. And you, get some sleep! You grumpy"-
"Stop right there! I'll just go to sleep!"
"Fine!"
"Fine!"
Lorelai knocked on Rory's door and a muffled, "Yea?" was heard.
"Rory?" Lorelai asked.
"Ahuh?"
"You okay?" Lorelai asked, walking into Rory's room.
"Yea, I'm fine." Rory said still folding clothes to place into the bag.
"You goin' back home?"
"Uh- yea.. Tomorrow.."
Lorelai nodded.
"Ok, well I'll leave you with your peace.." Lorelai said. Rory nodded.
"Mom.?"
"Yea?" she said turning around.
"Thanks."
"Aw.." she said walking over to hug Rory, when they separated, Lorelai smiled and walked away.
She closed the door on her way out. Rory took in a deep breath. The air grew thin and full of sadness. She sighed and her tired body fell to the floor. Her back was against the end of her bed.
Her arms were supporting her upper self as she leaned back on them. Her hand landed over a medium- sized book. She didn't know what it was so she pulled it out. She leaned back on the end of her bed. It's leather exterior was worn and the gold engraved title was faded and read, 'My Memories' she smiled as she opened it.
The plastic protector held memories even she had forgotten. They were recent photos. The first one was of her and Lorelai sitting at the counter at different ends playing bagel hockey. The next was of her and Lorelai again, sitting at a table with 2 large tubs of coffee sipping them down; it looked like it was a race. She smiled and flipped the page.
The next few made her want to cry. She smiled sadly as she concentrate on each picture. The first on that page was of her and jess sitting at the bridge. Jess had his arm wrapped around her and she was snuggled into him. The second one made her laugh to herself. It was her in bed with tissues surrounding the bed and boxes of tissue everywhere. Her nose and cheeks were all red and she had ruffles of tissues crammed in her hands. The picture was taken right when she was bout to sneeze. She sat there recalling the day before when this picture was taken.
*Flashback*
(Thud). (Thud). Rory looked over at her window. She was in bed, sleeping when she heard noises at her window. She looked at it. It had 2 smashed snowballs slushed into the transparent surface. She smiled as she got out of bed and lifted the window. She saw Jess standing there with a snowball in his hand he started walking away when she called,
"Wait for me!" to him. He smiled and leaned against the tree while she ran to the closet, grabbed a jacket, shoes, and gloves and crawled out the window.
"Ma'am? You crawled out that window like you had done it before." Jess commented. Both of Rory's eyebrows were propped up. She bent down and grabbed some snow, when she came back up she was hit with Jess' snowball. Her mouth hung open and her eyes were as big as they could get.
"Jess Mariano? Fell the wrath of Rory Gilmore!" with that, she threw the snowball and laughed.
When they finished throwing one snowball after another, after another, Rory got up from her base and walked over to Jess who had been recovering from an attack. Jess was wiping off snow when she came up to him. She smile and he looked up at her eyes.
Her beautiful eyes. There was absolutely no name that could brand those eyes. It was the kind of blue that pierced your soul and opened your eyes to the things that your mind couldn't see. It was the kind of blue that made you realize just now lucky you really wee and how grateful you should be just to have found those special people in you life. This is how Jess felt, each and every time he looked up at her eyes.
He traced the features on her face; her eyes followed his finger's every destination. First she followed his finger, then brought her eyes up to see a studious Jess, concentrating on all the fear and love and happiness his eyes displayed, she pulled his finger away. He looked at her and again was stricken with that extraordinary feeling her eyes gave him.
She held onto his finger and with her other hand, brought his head closer to hers. She let go of his finger and pulled his face to hers, cupping his chin to support him. Her touch made his body weak. She slowly pulled away slipping into the shadows and whispered,
"G' night Jess." And crawled back through the window.
*End flashback*
That's how she got sick the next day. She could feel pools of salty madness swimming to the corners of her eyes. She blinked her pain away. They were like stab wounds to her heart. She closed the book and flung it back under the bed. After that she went to sleep.
The next morning, Rory awoke to the scent of coffee brewing in the morning. She yawned as she stretched out of bed. Slipping a robe on and some pink fuzzy slippers, she dragged herself into the kitchen. No one was there. By a cup at the coffee table was a note. It read,
Daughter of Mine,
I'm at Luke's begging him to make me chocolate chip pancakes. If you come I know he'll make em', so, for your dear old- wait I AM NOT OLD! For your very young mothers' sake, please come down...
-Always, your VERY YOUNG MOTHER!
Rory smiled as she poured herself a cup of coffee. She later slipped on a pair of fitted jeans and a shirt that read, 'if I close my eyes and count to 10, will you still be there?'
She laughed to herself because of the shirt. She finally made it to Luke's. The bell at the door rung with welcome in every pinched chime it made. Rory searched the room for her mother and spotted her at the counter, still begging.
"Come on Luke! It's not that hard to make chocolate chips into the pancakes!"
"Then you make it!"
"Are you serious?"
"No! Of course not!"
"Then make the damn pancakes!"
"Never!.(Rory came up).. Oh hey Rory, what would you like?"
"Umm.. I'll have chocolate chip pancakes."
"Sure." Luke said, walking away.
"Hey! Favoritism!!" Lorelai said sighing.
"Luke likes me better! Luke likes me better!" Rory sang.
"Lalalalalalalala!!" Lorelai responded, covering her ears.
"Lorelai!." Luke said.
"Lalalalalalalala.." She continued while keeping her eyes shut.
"Lorelai!!."
Rory started poking at her and she uncovered her ears and opened her eyes.
"(Sigh)" Luke was tired of Lorelai's Childs play.
"Your in trouble! Your in trouble!" Rory whispered, singing to Lorelai. Lorelai stuck her tongue out at her.
"Yes Lukey, whom I love so very much, maybe more than my own daughter!"
"Mom!"
"What? You were being mean to me! Say your sorry and all is forgotten."
".(Sigh). sorry." Rory said, crossing her arms.
"Aw, I love you too!" Lorelai said hugging her.
"Lorelai."
"Yes Lucas?"
"Your pancakes." Luke said, placing both Rory's and Lorelai's plate of pancakes.
"Muaha!" Lorelai blurted out.
"What was that for?" Rory asked, looking weirdly at her.
"That was my inner me rejoicing for this wonderful meal."
"Ahuh." Rory said, getting back to her pancakes.
Jess came down the stairs and was taken aback by Rory's presence. Lorelai saw the look jess gave Rory. It was sad, it was a mixture of despair and loneliness. A sense of want and desire. She knew she needed to give the two space to talk to she bugged Luke.
"Oh Luukeey!! Where oh where has little Lucas gone, oh where oh where can he be?! Where oh where has little Lucas gone, oh where oh where can he be?." Lorelai sang while she walked into the kitchen.
"Lorelai! How many times do I hafta"-
"Aw pipe down Luke, they're gonna talk!"
"What?" Luke asked, genuinely confused.
"Jess and Rory, they're gonna talk! Now shush!!"
Luke and Lorelai listened and picked up words, as best they could.
"...Hi.." said Jess leaning over the counter top.
"Hi.." She responded.
"I thought you'd have gone home by now."
"I needed breakfast." she explained as he nodded.
Just then, Ms. Patty came rushing in with a child being dragged along.
"Oh Rory, honey, I need your help"-
"Ms. Patty I"-
"Rory darling this little girl's my niece and I need someone to watch her, just for today."-
"Ms. Patty.. I"-
"Oh thanks Rory, you're a doll, I'll be sure to tell your mother and Luke that! You can get Jess to help too!" Ms. Patty said, backing out of the dinner. She ran and ran as fast as she could, like there was no tomorrow.
"Ms. Patty, I'm leaving." Rory said to no one. The little girl stood there, her hands in her pockets and her hair half up half down. She was adorable. Rory who looked back at Jess just sighed while Jess smirked.
"Guess you're staying.." he said, grinning.
"Just for today!" and she looked back at the little girl, she was eye to eye with the little girl and asked,
"So. what's your name?"
".Miya."
Rory smiled.
"How old are you?" Rory asked.
"I'm a whole hand old!" Miya said, showing Rory her hand.
"Wow. I'm 4 hands and 1 finger old."
"That's ooolldd!!" cried Miya.
Rory's smile turned into laughter. Rory picked up Miya and placed her in the stool next to her.
"Are you hungry?" Rory asked. Miya nodded furiously.
"(Chuckling) ookay.. You can tell that man right there (pointing to Jess) exactly what you would like."
"Oook. can I have a ginamous plate of waffles withs lotsa syrup and lotsa butter, please Mr. Diner Man?"
"Sure.." Jess said smiling at her while he placed her order.
The little girl looked back up at Rory and smiled.
"You can call me Rory, by the way."
"Row-ry?" Miya asked, "What're we gonna do ta-day?"
"We can do whatever you want.. Do you wanna go play by the gazebo?"
"Yea!" Miya cried, nodding like a mad man.
"Okay, when we finish we can go, okay?"
"Ookay!"
Jess brought Miya's order and she ate as fast as she could. Her mouth was covered in syrup and she licked the plate clean. Jess smiled as he took the cleaned plate and placed it into the bin. Miya hopped off the stool and with a wave of her hand, she cried,
"Come on Row-ry!" Rory hopped off her stool and wiped Miya's mouth clean. Rory looked back at Jess and said,
"I'm not doing this alone ya know!"
Jess nodded and yelled, "Luke, I'm goin' out!"
"Yea, yea." Luke yelled, taking orders.
"Come on!!" Miya yelled as she tugged at Rory's hand.
"Alright!" said Rory laughing.
She looked back at Jess and quickly looked forward where Miya kept tugging at her. She caught up with her and she held her hand as they crossed the street together, with Jess tugging along, slowly.
Miya let go of Rory's hand and stood on the grass and sat in an area that surpassed all. She sat Indian- style with her hands in her lap.
"What do you feel like doin'?" asked Rory just as she sat next to Miya.
"Let's give names to the clouds!!" said Miya.
"Ookay."
They laid down and Jess sat at the gazebo, watching from a distance, but still earshot from the whole commotion.
"That one.." said Miya.
"It's a fish!" said Rory.
"Nu- uh, it's a rabbit, it has ears! And ya see that fuzzy lookin' cloud at the end? That's its tail!"
"I don't see it." Rory pouted.
"Right there!" Miya outlined the cloud- shaped 'rabbit'.
"I see it!.ookay, that one." Rory said, pointing to anther cloud.
"Umm, it looks like a turtle!"
"Ookay, that one.." pointing to another.
"It looks like Mr. Diner Man's hair!" Rory sat up and laughed. Jess smiled and shook his head. Rory waved a 'come over' to him and he just shook his head no.
"Your loss!" She yelled to him and turned back and lay down.
A few hours later, Miya had fallen asleep. They had named clouds, played hand games, played tag around Jess and then he caught Miya and laid her down and tickled her. Rory stood back and watched. A smile had crept upon her face. Rory sat next to Miya, encircling her legs with her arms. Jess walked over and sat opposite from Rory.
"W should take her back to Ms. Patty now.." Rory said. Jess nodded. Rory picked her up and held her tightly as they crossed the gazebo to the other side and crossed the road to Ms. Patty's dance studio. It was 6:30 so Ms. Patty still would've been there. Jess knocked and opened the door.
"Ms. Patty.?" Rory called.
"Yes?." she said, turning to the 3 at the door. "Oh yes." she started walking over. She took Miya into her own arms and said, "Thanks a bunch, she wasn't too much trouble, was she.?"
"She was an angel." Rory said with ease.
"Oh good. well I'll see you guys later, bye."
"Bye.." Jess and Rory said in unison.
They both walked out and Jess looked over at Rory and said, "You're gonna make a good mother, ya know that?"
"Ha! I can hardly take care of myself, let alone a child. That, today, that was luck. She was a good kid. I had it easy."
"Nah, you really will."
"Huh.well you're gonna make a fine father."
"Not a good father, or a great father?"
"You're pushin' it..!"
"Right." Jess said nodding and looking away.
"So this is goodbye.." Rory said as they both stopped.
"Goodbye's suck.. Until we meet again."
Rory nodded and they parted. Jess stopped and watched her walk home. Would this be the end of them? His heart fell as he realized things would never, could never, be the same with out Rory Gilmore.