Lily: Fuck my life.

Ami: What's wrong?

Lily: I started writing this chapter and then suddenly I'm back at the document manager, and the whole text is gone. Fucking hell. Pisses me off. I had written quite a lot, too!

Ami: ^_^'' U-um...poor you...

Lily: Sigh. Anyways, homework suddenly piled up, sorry I couldn't really update every day or at least every 2 days. I'll try bettteeerrrr! ;) Also, has Utau been introduced yet? Cause I'm not bothered to check. I did skim through the chapters, though. I didn't see her name, but sorry if Utau has been introduced.

Ami: Enjoy!

Ami POV

"Amu...she did try to suicide," I said. Kukai's eyes widened.

"I-I'm sorry..." he said.

"No, it's not your fault. It's her own fault," someone said. I gasped.

"Utau!"

Amu POV

I was back at the field of flowers.

"Amu," someone said. I turned around.

"Ikuto-san?"

"I-" he started.

"I'm sorry!" I interjected, bowing down.

"What?"

"Y-you're right. I should take care of myself more. That's why...I'm moving out at the end of the week," I said.

'No! That's not what I meant!'

"I probably won't ever see you again...but thank you for everything..." I said, feeling the tears already coming.

'What the hell am I doing?! Stop!'

"Goodbye," I said, turning around and walking away. I hoped that Ikuto would grab my arm or something and stop me from going, but I knew that wasn't going to happen. He probably didn't want to see me anyway.

"Amu." I stopped at the firmness of his voice.

"Yes, is something the matter?" I asked, plastering on the best fake smile I could.

"You should take care of yourself more? What a liar," he said.

"Excuse me?" I asked.

"What a liar," he said, louder this time. "If you really are going to take care of yourself more, why aren't you standing up for yourself?"

"What...?"

"Even if it's me, you should still stand up for yourself. You can hit me, take all your anger out on me. I just...don't want to see you this way," he said.

I laughed humourlessly.

"What do you want me to say? Thank you? I'll stay? Don't kid yourself," I said. "I bring sadness to all those around me. It would be better if I stayed away from you," I said, giving him the coldest glare I could. It would be easier for him if he hated me. "Take care of Ami for me. But don't tell her the whole thing. I don't want to drag her down with me."

There were footsteps coming towards me, but I didn't run.

Arms slid around my neck. They were so warm and welcoming.

"Amu...let's start over. My name is Ikuto Yamamoto," he said. My eyes widened.

I hit him away, making him fall over.

"How the heck do you know his name?!" I shouted.

"I am him," he said again.

"Shut up! What gives you the right to use his name, anyway?! You're nothing like him," I said.

He stood up and suddenly something pushed against my lips. It was warm, yet cold and distant. It was soft, yet slightly forced.

But it was wonderful.

I pushed up against the other pair of lips.

A groan exited a mouth. I opened my eyes to see blue hair.

'Yamamoto...?' I thought.

"Amu..." he said. I gasped and pushed the man away. It wasn't Yamamoto.

"Why'd you do that?!" I shouted.

"Like I told you, I am Ikuto Yamamoto."

Ami POV

"Utau!" I exclaimed. She was standing at the door with her arms folded.

"It's her fault Ikuto is in the hospital. That filthy bitch," she said.

"Utau!" Rima shouted, standing up from her chair. "She didn't do anything to you! What the fuck gives you the right to speak about her like that?!"

"You know Rima, I'm really sick of you sticking up for your friends and nobody else," Utau said, glaring. "It's true, you know. It is her fault. She's so full of herself. You may not believe it now, but you'll realise just how much of an attention whore she is."

"Shut up!" Rima shouted.

"She's just a stupid girl. No one cares about her anyway. She can die, for all I care," Utau said.

"SHUT UP!" Rima shouted again.

"She thinks she can repay for her sins with her life, huh? How stupid. She's worthless, so I highly doubt she's repayed for her sins. In fact, she's sinned so much, it'd be impossible for her not to rot in hell," Utau said.

Rima walked up and punched Utau in the face, making her fall to the floor. Rima kneeled on top of her and punched her again.

"What the fuck's your problem?!" She shouted, punching Utau again.

"Rima!" Nagi exclaimed. He ran over and grabbed her, pulling her away from Utau. Rima got in a few more punches before she was pulled away from Utau.

"Let me go! Aren't you angry to?! Didn't you hear what the fuck she said?!" Rima screamed, tears streaming down her face.

"I am angry, all right? But I need you to calm down!" Nagi said. I clenched my fist.

"Get out of here, Hoshina. Go and jump off a cliff, for all I care. It doesn't matter, since you probably won't be singing for a while," I said, looking at her bruises. She glared at us.

"It really is her fault. But I guess her friends are just as stupid as her," Hoshina said. I didn't want to call her by her first name.

"Ikuto's gonna puke when he sees you. So sorry your hard work didn't pay off," I said, glaring.

"You bitch!" She shouted.

"Hoshina-san, I think it's best if you left," Nagi said. He was calm, but he was glaring as well, holding a sobbing Rima in his arms. With one last glare, Utau stood up and left the room, muttering to herself.

Rima jumped out of Nagi's arms and ran over to Amu, still sobbing.

"Sorry, Amu...you didn't need to hear that..." she said through sobs.

I gave Nagi a sad look who returned it.

Why was this happening?

Amu POV

"Liar," I said. "Yamamoto is nothing like you."

"That's not a good reason to say I'm not him. Because I am," Ikuto said. "You may not believe me, but I am."

"Prove it," I said.

"I confessed my love to you the day we separated," he said.

FLASHBACK

"It's pretty nice out today," Ikuto said, looking out the window.

(A/N: This is Ikuto Yamamoto.)

"Yeah!" Ami said, smiling.

"It is pretty sunny," I said, forcing a smile.

"Hey, wanna go somewhere?" Ikuto asked, smirking.

"Sure?" I replied hesitantly. Ikuto jumped out of the hospital bed. It had only been a few days since he was hospitalized, and I was still telling the nurses I was his sister. "Wait, are you even allowed to walk yet?!"

"I wants to go too!" Ami said.

"Sorry, Ami, but this is a grown up talk, OK?" he said, smiling and grabbing my arm. "Anyway, let's go!"

Ami pouted and sat down in her chair. We ran out of the room.

"Where are we going?" I asked.

"That's a secret!" He said, poking his tongue out and winking. I blushed at the gesture, but he didn't seem to notice.

He led us to a flight of stairs. I couldn't even see the top.

"A-are we seriously going to climb up to the top?!" I asked. Ikuto nodded. "Nooooo!"

He pulled me up and we started running.

SHORT TIME LEAP

"I can't...go...on!" I said, breathless.

"Come on, slowpoke! We're almost there!" Ikuto said.

"Slowpoke? You're panting as well!" I retorted.

"Shut up and get up here," Ikuto said, but he was smiling. I caught up to him. "Ready?" I nodded.

He opened the pair of doors in front of us.

I was met with a blinding light, which I realised was the sun.

"W-what is this...?" I asked. I gasped as I looked at the scenery before me.

"Do you like it?" Ikuto asked.

"...wow..." I said quietly.

"I take that as a yes," Ikuto said, laughing.

"I never knew there was rooftop garden in the hospital..." I said.

There was a square-ish dome going all around the rooftop. The flowers created a scent I couldn't describe that sent a warm feeling inside me. And everything was absolutely beautiful.

"Ikuto..." I said.

"What's up?" He asked.

"Today...I...I have to leave today. I can't keep up like this. Some time or another, the hospital workers will realise I'm not really your sister. Pink hair and blue hair? Get real. Anyways...I can't stay. I'm sorry, Ikuto...I really don't want to do this, but I have to. For you and me," I said, smiling.

Ikuto looked at me sadly.

"I...I understand. But I guess it still hurts," he said, pulling me in for a hug. I hugged him back tightly, a tear slipping down my cheek.

"Thank you so much. For staying with me. For putting up with someone like me," I said, pushing back to look at him but only a bit so we were still intertwined together.

"Putting up with someone like you? I didn't have to do that," Ikuto said, smiling.

"Eh?"

"Because I love you." He pressed his lips against mine. My eyes widened in surprise, but I returned the kiss, wrapping my arms around his neck.

It sent sparks through me, but it hurt. It hurt so much.

We separated for a moment, allowing me to speak.

"I love you too," I said, my voice cracking. I burst into tears.

"Sh...sh...it's going to be alright, I promise," Ikuto said, hugging me tight.

"No it's not...it's not going to be alright...without you..." I said through sobs.

"I love you. I love you...I love you..." Ikuto said, tears also falling down his cheeks.

"I'm going to miss you..." I said.

"Same. Let's go," he said, taking my hand.

He lead us to a bench in the middle of the garden, where a beautiful waterfall sat.

"How the heck did they get a waterfall?" I asked, wiping away the tears. Ikuto laughed a bit.

"I don't know," he said. We sat down on the bench.

"Hey, Ikuto...what do you think I should do?" I asked, leaning against his shoulder. He put his arm around my shoulder.

"To tell you the truth...I don't really know," Ikuto said, putting his hand on my pink head. "But first, you should learn how to get food for yourself. Then I'd probably try to find a group of people or at least one person to travel with."

"I see...good advice," I said.

"That's pretty much all I can say. Oh, and one more thing," Ikuto said. "Don't fall in love with any one else."

He kissed me again. I blushed and smiled.

"I won't. You too, alright? Pinkie promise," I said, putting out my pinkie finger. He smiled and took it with his own pinkie.

"Cross my heart, hope to die," Ikuto said.

"And put a needle in my eye," I continued. We shook our pinkies up and down.

"I'll take the needle."

"Eh?"

We laughed together, and I finally felt happy for once. Like life was worth living.

But it wasn't.

TIME LEAP

'D-does he always snore when he sleeps?!' I thought.

Ikuto had fallen asleep on my lap. I listened to the relaxing sound of the waterfall mixed with the wind rustling the leaves.

It was so peaceful.

"Yamamoto-san? Are you here?" A woman asked. It was probably the nurse.

"Crap!" I whispered. "I'll see you lat-...Goodbye, Ikuto," I whispered in Ikuto's ear.

I kissed him one last time, then left forever.

END OF FLASHBACK

"Y-you..." I said. I couldn't help myself.

I ran up and hugged him tightly. He hugged me back and stuck his nose in my hair.

"I missed you...I missed you so much..." Ikuto said, his voice cracking.

"Me too..." I said.

"But I can't stay...once again, this is where we say goodbye," Ikuto said. I separated from him.

"What?"

"Goodbye, Amu. I'll always love you."

'No...it can't end here...'

Ikuto started disappearing. He kept moving away from me...and I don't know why.

"Wait! I don't want this to be the end!" I shouted.

But here was already gone.

I fell to the ground and burst into tears.

"Please don't go..." I said. "Don't leave me..please, don't leave me!"

"Amu!" Someone shouted. Someone was shaking my shoulders. Everything was blurry, but I could make out 4 figures above me.

"Big sis!" Another person said.

"Is she waking up?" A boy said.

"Ikuto..." I whispered.

"Amu, can you here me?" Another boy asked.

"Big sis? Are you alright?" One of them said.

Things started taking shape and I could finally see everything.

'Goodbye...'

I gasped and sat up.

Two people hugged me.

"Big sis!"

"Amu!"

I blinked and rubbed my eyes.

"Ami? Rima?" I asked. They smiled and hugged me tighter. "What happened?"

Everything went silent.

"Guys? What's wrong?" I asked, separating from them. Ami looked at the floor. "Nagi! Wait, who's this guy?" I pointed at the man with brown hair and green eyes.

"Oh, let me introduce you. This is Kukai; he's Ikuto co-worker. Kukai, this is Amu, my big sister," Ami said.

"It's nice to meet you. I hope we can be friends," Kukai said, smiling and holding out his hand.

"It's nice to meet you too," I said, smiling and shaking his hand. "Let's be good friends."

'Good bye, Amu.'

My eyes widened. I jumped out of bed, when a knife of pain shot through me.

I grunted an winced, clutching my chest.

'W-what is this?' I thought.

"Amu!" Rima exclaimed, holding me up and pushing me softly back onto the bed.

"You should rest, Hinamori-san," Nagi said. Rima nudged Nagi with her elbow.

"You're friends; call her Amu!" she said.

"Uh...A-A-Am...u..." Nagi stuttered. I giggled.

"You'll get used to it," I said, smiling. Even if the pain in my chest still lingered.

"Big sis," Ami said. "For now, I think you should just rest. I'll get the nurse, alright?"

"Sure. Thanks," I replied. Ami nodded and ran out the room. "So...um...where's Ikuto?" I asked.

I saw a smirk play on Rima's lips, but it disappeared as soon as it came. I guess she thought it was a bad time.

"I don't know. I haven't actually gotten a chance to visit him," Rima said.

"You had plenty of chances; you were just sitting here the whole time..." Nagi muttered.

"I heard that!" Rima shouted, and hit Nagi in the gut with her elbow. Nagi grunted and clutched his gut.

"Y-your strength is what I l-like about you...Rima..." Nagi said.

I laughed nervously.

"Big sis! Here's the nurse," Ami said, running into the room.

A petite woman stood there with a clipboard in her arm.

She smiled warmly.

"Hello, Hinamori-san. I'm your nurse, Madoko Saede," The nurse said. "Please, call me Saede."

"Nice to meet you, my name is Hinamori Amu, as you already know," I said politely.

"Nice to meet you too. For now, let's just check your vital signs, alright?" Saede asked. I nodded.

TIME LEAP

"It seems you're perfectly healthy. Your vital signs are normal. The only thing is to be careful of the wound on your chest. You can leave at the end of the day, only if you are accompanied by someone. You are also welcome to stay for a few more nights," Saede said, smiling reassuringly.

"Thank you," I said, returning the smile.

"Well, I'll leave you alone for now. Please, let me know if you need anything, alright?" Saede said.

"Thank you very much," I said again.

Saede walked out. After a moment, Rima, Nagi, Ami, and Kukai ran in.

"Congratulations!" Rima and Ami said in unison.

"Huh?" I asked.

"Congratulations on being...uh...healthy!" They said.

'It's nice to be with these guys again,' I thought, smiling.

"Hey...um...do you know Ikuto?" Kukai suddenly spoke up.

"Eh? U-um, yeah..." I said.

My mind suddenly flashed back to the dream. What was I thinking? Dreams usually have some sort of meaning, something to do with real life.

So if this what I wanted? Or is this what's going to happen?

"I was wondering...do you want to see him?" Kukai asked. My eyes widened.

"He's...here?" I asked.

"Uh...yeah...he got into...a car accident," Kukai said, looking away.

"H-he...did?" I asked. 'Just like my dream!' I thought. Kukai nodded. "If it's ok, I guess I can go see him..."

"Amu!" The door slammed open. A blue streak blurred passed me. Something embraced me in their arms.

'Blue hair...that deep, husky voice...'

"Ikuto...?" I asked.

"I'm so glad you're safe!" He said, his voice cracking. I was lost for words.

My surroundings disappeared. What was going on? What was this feeling...?

"Me too...I'm glad you're safe," I blurted out before I could stop myself. Tears were already forming.

"Before...about before, I'm so, so sorry," Ikuto said. I could feel tears dropping on my shoulder.

"Why are you crying?" I asked softly.

"I had a dream...I saw you kill yourself," Ikuto said. My eyes widened.

"I saw you kill yourself too..." I said.

"You saw?"

"In a dream."

"Weird."

I laughed a little. I didn't care about the dream about Yamamoto. This was happening now, so I was concentrating on it now.

"Amu...I have to tell you something."

Rima POV

Ikuto ran into the room.

"Amu!" He shouted. I could feel myself getting excited. For Amu, of course. And also because the situation was so MOE!

Ikuto embraced Amu.

"I'm so glad you're safe!" he said.

"Let's leave them alone," I whispered. The others nodded and we tiptoed out of the room.

'I hope this patches everything up,' I prayed.

"Good luck, Amu," I smiled.

Amu POV

"Amu...I have to tell you something," Ikuto said.

"What is it?" I asked.

"Uh...let's sit down for now."

We sat down on the bed. I wiped my tears away and let out a shaky sigh.

"What's up?"

"Um...do you...recognise the name Ikuto Yamamoto?"

My eyes widened, but I didn't show it.

"Yeah...what about him?"

"Have you ever wondered where he went? What happened to him?"

"Yeah...many times..."

"I know what happened to him."

"You...do?" I tried to sound surprised.

"I do, because...I...I-"

"You're him?"

Ikuto's eyes widened.

"I-...How'd you know?"

"I had a dream...a weird one." I thought for a moment.

"I-" Ikuto started.

"I love you," I said, reaching up and pushing my lips against his.

"Wha-" He was able to say before I stopped him.

I wrapped my arms around his neck, as he put his arm around my waist, pulling me closer.

A warmth spread through, making me want to cry again. Wanting to cry because I was so happy.

How long had I wanted to do this?

How long had I hoped Ikuto would do this?

I was beyond happy in my dream, but that was just...a dream.

This is reality.

We separated for a bit.

"I love you," Ikuto said, embracing me tightly. I returned it and let the tears come out. "What's wrong?"

"I'm just...so happy that you're alright, Yamamoto," I said.

"It's Ikuto," he said, smiling and kissing me again. My tears slid down onto my lips, making it taste salty.

"I love you."

Lily: Chiosu, minan.

Amu: Stop being Japanese...

Ikuto: Yeah, I kinda agree.

Lily: Even if it's people in my own mind, they're still mean to me! T-T Anyway, a really...fluffy chapter. I didn't really like it...not much of the plot was in here...I think... _ Ok, my writer's disorder is coming back, I feel like the thing isn't going anywhere! T-T If you have any ideas, that'd be great! :)

Amu: Review!

Ikuto: Why are you so happy?

Amu: ! Uh...um...

Ikuto: *laughs mischievously* let's take it to 2nd base... ;)

Amu: *blushes* what's second base?

Ikuto: It's over there. *points at baseball game*

Amu: Oi!

Ikuto: *laughs mischievously*

Amu: You! *chases Ikuto*

Lily: Don't mind them. Review! :)