Chapter 7: Keep calm and hit a blunt
The bright California sun shining into Happy's room woke him up. Happy felt extra weight on him so he looked down and stared at the brunette that was asleep on his chest.
Happy reached down and began to run his hands through her soft hair, by doing this it brought back painful memories that he wish he could forget. He knew he shouldn't be involved with the girl who was asleep on him. There was something about this girl that was different.
She brought out his side that he thought would never come back, she made him feel crazy feelings and if she asked him to he would kill for this chick.
Happy knew that he couldn't get her involved with his fucked up life. Happy knew she deserves better, and Happy also knew that if he didn't end things with her now, she would end up just like Rachel.
Happy closed his eyes and took a deep breath, he had to control his emotions, Happy felt movements so he reopened his eyes, he looked down to see the beautiful face smiling up at him.
"Mmm good morning." She mumbled as she stretched on him, Happy closed his eyes.
"Get out." Happy mumbled as he held his eyes nice and tight, he heard laughter and he sighed.
"Your kidding right?" Bella chuckled as she ran her fingers up and down his naked chest.
"You heard me, get out." Happy said with a little force in his voice.
"Please tell me your joking." He heard a little beg in her voice.
Happy took a deep breath and reopened his eyes, he pushed her off of him and stood up.
Bella watched as he put on a pair of jeans. When he was done he picked up her clothes and threw them on the bed.
"Leave" Happy grumbled as he turned his body from her.
Bella stared at Happy in shock as she looked at her clothes on bed. She looked back up at him.
"Happy what the fuck?" Bella asked as she sat up on the bed.
"You got 2 minutes to get dressed and leave before I threw your shit out my door along with you." Happy said as he leaned onto his dresser for support.
"But what about last night?" Bella asked him as she tried to control her emotions.
"Last night meant shit to me." Happy growled as he dug his hands into the dresser making his knuckles turn white.
"You told me you liked me." Bella whispered to herself.
"I was drunk and I wanted some pussy. I said what I had to say in order to get some pussy. If it wasn't you it would have been a sweet butt." Happy growled as he closed his eyes tightly.
"I'm not a sweet butt Happy." Bella hissed as she stood up and threw her
clothes on.
"Leave now." Happy growled as he turned around to faced her.
"I hate you." Bella screamed at him.
"Like I care princess." Happy asked with a smirk.
"I never want to see you again!" Bella screamed as she walked towards the door.
"Good" Happy whispered so quietly.
"Bells" Happy called out to her.
"What!" Bella hissed as she turned around and looks at him.
"Thanks for the pussy." Happy said as Bella glared at him.
"Fuck you." Bella yelled as she opened the door and slammed it behind her.
"I'm sorry." Happy whispered as he stared at the door.
"You did the right thing." A voice whispered into Happy's ear.
"Go away." Happy hissed as he turned around and saw Rachel standing there.
"You're too fucked up David. You getting involved with her will only fuck her up. She deserves better then that. Just like I did." Rachel said as she stood with her hands on her hips.
"Fuck you!" Happy yelled as he picked up a crystal ash tray and threw it where Rachel was standing. But she disappeared and the ash tray shattered against the wall.
Happy heard Rachel's laughs as someone knocked on the door.
"Everything okay in there brother?" Juice knocked on the door.
"Go away." Happy growled as he leaned against the wall, he grabbed the box off the table and slid down the wall.
He pulled out the blunt, lit it and closed his eyes. Letting the smoke relax him.
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Bella walked into Jax's room. She saw Bentley was sleeping on the bed so she quietly slipped into the bathroom closing the door so she didn't wake him up.
She jumped into the shower, after a 10min shower she wrapped the towel around her. She silently opened the door to see Bentley was now under the covers.
Bella walked to the black bag and pulled out her underwear and bra, she found a pair of white short shorts and a black tank top. She pulled out black socks and black sneakers, she carefully walked into the bathroom and threw on her clothes, she decided to let her hair air dry. She walked out of Jax's room closing the door silently as she walked into the bar.
"Why hello princess." Juice said as he was siting at the bar with his feet up drinking a beer.
"Hey Juice." Bella whispered as she looked around the room.
"Where's Jax?" Bella asked as when she couldn't find him in the room.
"Uh I think he's outside." Juice answered.
"Thanks" Bella said as she walked outside. She saw Jax siting on top of the picnic table smoking a blunt.
"Hey" Bella whispered as she sat next to him.
"You seem to be having the same kind of day I'm having." Jax said as he blew out the smoke, and passed the blunt to her.
"You could say that." Bella whispered as she took a hit of the blunt. Bella heard the door opened and heard voices, but there was one voice she never wanted to hear again.
"Morning sunshine." Bella heard someone say. Bella passed the blunt back to Jax as she blew out the smoke.
"Morning" Bella said as Tig and Happy stood in front of her.
Bella looked at Happy then turned her head when Happy caught her looking at him.
Jax's phone started to ring. Jax handed the blunt back to Bella as he looked at the caller id. Jax sighed as he hit the silent button to silence the phone.
"Baby momma." Tig asked his VP as he watched Jax take the blunt from Bella.
"Yeah" Jax said as he blew out smoke into the air.
"Let me get a hit." Tig said as he watched Jax getting ready to hand the blunt to Bella. Jax looked at Bella but handed the blunt to Tig.
"Mmm this is some good shit." Tig said as he took a hit and held onto it.
"Pass the blunt Tig." Bella mumbled as she watched Happy stare at her.
"I'm not done yet." Tig said as he took another hit.
"Pass the fucking blunt Tiggy before I knee you in the nuts." Bella hissed as she watched Tig take another hit. Tig looked at her and smirked.
"I love it when you talk dirty to me." Tig said as he passed the blunt to her. Bella sighed and took another hit before she gave it to Jax and stood up.
"Where are you going?" Jax asked as he watched Bella stretched. Bella watched as Juice walked out of the club house pulling out his keys.
"Where are you going Juicy?" Bella asked as she ignored her cousin.
"Huh" Juice said as he looked up at Bella.
"Where are you going." Bella asked again as happy watched how shy Juice was getting.
"Oh just for a ride." Juice said as he looked down towards the pavement.
"Want some company?" Bella asked as Happy's eyes darkened.
"What" Jax yelled as he looked at Bella.
"Huh" Juice asked as he made eye contact with her.
"Way to go Juicy." Tig cheered as Happy and Jax glared at him.
"I mean uh sure." Juice said as he saw the death glare the clubs killer was giving him.
"Then lets go." Bella said as she smiled.
"Watch Bentley for me Jax." Bella called over her shoulder as she grabbed Juice's hand and lead him towards his bike. Juice let go of her hand and handed her his helmet.
"You know their going to kill me right." Juice said as he saw the smirk on Tig's face but the glares on Jax's and Happy's.
"They'll be fine." Bella said as she took the helment and put it on.
"Shit" Juice cursed as he sat on the bike and started it up. Juice watched as Bella got on the bike turned and looked at Happy then winked at him as she wrapped her arms around Juice.
Juice watched as Happy balled his hands up to a fist.
"Fuck you're really trying to get me killed." Juice said as he let go of the kick stand and speed out of the parking lot.
Happy watched this and as soon as they were gone, Happy walked over towards his bike and got on it and speed off on it.
"Shit that don't like good." Chibs said as he walked out of the club house.
"No it does not." Tig said as he looked at Jax.
"Did something happen between Bella and Happy." Tig asked as he saw Jax staring off to the direction Happy speed off to.
"I don't know." Jax said as he got up and walked inside.
"Yup something happened between them." Chibs said as soon as Jax walked inside.
"Poor Juicy." Tig said as he walked away.
"Fuck!" Chibs cursed.
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Happy speed down the highway, speeding around traffic. His body was shaking and his blood was pumping. Finally he pulled into the dirt road and put the kick stand down. Happy shut off the bike.
He leaned against the bike gripping the handle bars so tightly that his knuckles started to turn white. Finally he turned around and took his helment off, throwing it across the dirt road. Happy heard the door open and heard foot steps on the wood panels.
"David" His mother called out to him. Happy turned around.
Letty saw her son's eyes darken. To anyone this would scare them shitless but to Letty it didn't bother her.
"You are not taking one foot in my house until you calm down." Letty said as she gave her son a pointed look.
She then turned and walked inside leaving the door cracked. Happy took deep breaths as he walked up the steps on sat on the porch chair. He leaned back into the chair trying to calm down but of course someone wouldn't let him do that.
"Why are you so pissed off." A voice in his head asked him.
"Leave me alone." Happy growled out loud.
"She doesn't deserve you David." The voice growled.
"I know." Happy hissed as he opened his eyes and saw Rachel standing there.
"You're to much of a fuck up." Rachel hissed at David.
"You should know. You're the one who made me like this." Happy yelled at her.
"Me" Rachel chuckled as Happy glared at her.
"I didn't do anything but love you." Rachel replied as she smirked.
"Fuck off." Happy hissed.
"Who are you talking too?" Happy's mother asked as she walked out onto the porch.
"No one." Happy replied as he looked up and saw Rachel disappeared.
"You still see her don't you?" Letty asked her son as she pulled a chair over so she was siting right in front of him.
"The bitch only appears when I'm fucking down." Happy replied as he looked at his mother.
"Don't call her a bitch David." Letty said as she looked at her son.
"You loved her." Letty said as she looked at him.
"I fucking know alright." David hissed as he stood up and leaned against the wall.
"What is going on David. Talk to me." Letty asked as she saw the emotions in Happy's face.
"Its nothing ma." Happy said as he sighed.
"If it was nothing then you wouldn't be here looking like you're getting ready to kill the next person who even makes eye contact with you." Letty said as she brought her one leg up on the chair and wrapped her arm around it.
"Maybe I just wanted to come and see you. Have you ever thought of that." Happy hissed at his mother.
"Save the bullshit kid and talk to me." Letty hissed at her son. She watched as he took a deep breath.
"I met this girl." Happy said as he watched his mothers eyes light up.
"Oh baby that's wonderful." Letty said as she smiled but when she saw Happy's face she lost the smile.
"No its not mom." Happy hissed as he reached into his pocket and took out his pack of cigarets.
"Why not?" Letty asked as Happy lit a cigarette.
"There are many reasons why." Happy sighed as he took a hit.
"Like" Letty asked as she looked at her son.
"She's my president's daughter." Happy sighed.
"Clay has a daughter?" Letty asked as she gave a confused look towards her son.
"No. Long story short we have a new president. His name is Charlie Swan also known as Teller." Happy said as he let out a cloud of smoke.
"JT's younger brother?" Letty asked as her eyes widen.
"Yeah" Happy said as he sighed.
"What are the other reasons?" Letty asked her son.
"She's too good for me." Happy said as he closed his eyes.
"What makes you think that?" Letty asked as she raised an eye brow at her son.
Happy opened his eyes and looked towards the ground "I'm to fucked up for her." Happy felt something sharp hit his head.
"What the fuck." Happy hissed as he looked around for the source. He watched as his mother picked up her shoe.
"I don't ever want to hear you say that again." Letty hissed at her son.
"Its true ma. Look what happened with Rachel and Ryan." Happy said as he looked at her.
"You know damn right their deaths are not your fault David." Letty said as she sighed.
"You know it was ma." David said as he frowned.
"You did everything you could for them David. You were an amazing father and you took care of Rachel. You loved her David. You tried to save them." Letty said as she walked over and touched her son's cheek.
"I don't want to lose Bella and Bentley the way I lost Rachel and Ryan." Happy said as he sighed.
"Their bound to die David." Letty said as she watched her son flared at her.
"But until then, be the father Bentley never had and love Bella." Letty said to her son.
"I can't." Happy said as he walked over to his mom and kissed her cheek.
"You can David. Its your turn to be Happy for once." Letty replied as she watched her son walk down the porch steps.
"How can I be happy when all I do is hurt people. I'm not meant to be happy ma. My job is to kill for my president, for my club. I can't fit Bella and Bentley in my schedule." Happy replied as he walked over and picked up his helmet that he threw.
"You fit Rachel and Ryan in it." Letty called out to her son.
"Yeah and look where they are at now." David hissed as he got on his bike.
"You need to stop running away from your problems David." Letty yelled as he started his bike.
"You need to talk to Bella. Tell her everything. Its time for you to grow some balls. Because if you don't, you will lose her." Letty screamed as she watched her son raced out into the hallway.
"I swear that kid is going to be the death of me." Letty sighed as she walked into her house and closed the door.
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Juice slowly backed into the parking spot, he turned off the bike and turned and looked at Bella.
"Be right back." Juice told her. Bella nodded as she watched him walk into the store. She got off the bike and leaned against it as she felt her pocket vibrate. She cursed when her father's name popped up.
"Hi daddy." Bella said as she answered the phone.
"Would you like to explain to me why you speed out of the parking lot with Juice." Charlie hissed at his daughter.
"I'm sorry the last time I checked I was 18 and I didn't have to explain to you what I'm fucking doing all the time." Bella hissed back.
"Watch it you might be 18 but, your still my fucking kid. I'm still your fucking father, so show some respect." Charlie growled at his daughter.
"Ha" Bella chuckled into the phone.
"What the fuck is so funny!" Charlie yelled at his daughter.
"Last time I checked. I was a mistake, remember daddy." Bella hissed into her phone as she saw Juice walk out of the store and put the baggie in his cut.
"Bells" Charlie sighed.
"Save it. I'll be home soon. I just need to clear my thoughts." Bella said as she flipped the phone shut and turned to Juice.
"Ready?" Bella asked Juice as he stared at her.
"Your old man" Juice asked as he nodded to the phone.
"Yeah" Bella said as she turned around as Juice walked to the bike.
"Shit now I really am going to be dead." Juice cursed as Bella chuckled.
"No you won't Juice." Bella said as she smiled at him.
"I gotta get you back to the club house." Juice said as he turned on his bike.
"Can you take me somewhere?" Bella asked as she looked at him.
"Bells" Juice sighed.
"Please I can't. I don't wanna go back yet." Bella struggle to get the words out.
"Fine. Where do you want to go?" Juice asked as he looked at her.
"Anywhere but the club house." Bella said as she put on her helmet.
"Alright I know a place." Juice said as he felt Bella wrap her arms around him. He then felt her hide her face into his shoulder as he speed off.
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"Fuck" Charlie cursed as he threw his phone after Bella hung up on him.
"Everything okay pres?" Jax said as he walked into church after dodging a flying cell phone.
"It's Bella." Charlie sighed as Jax closed the door behind them.
"What happened?" Jax said as he looked at Charlie.
"Nothing bad VP calm down." Charlie said as he put his hand on Jax's shoulder.
"Then what's wrong." Jax asked his president.
"I'm worried about her." Charlie sighed.
"What do you mean?" Jax asked.
"I know she's falling in love with one of the guys. I just don't know which one yet. I kinda think its Juice." Charlie sighed as he ran his hands through his hair.
"Its not Juice that's for sure pres." Jax said as he looked at his president.
"Do you know something I don't VP?" Charlie asked as he gave Jax a look.
"No pres." Jax said as Charlie continue to look at him.
"If I did I would tell you." Jax said as he lied to his president.
"Good" Charlie said as he nodded for Jax to leave. Jax took the hint and walked out the door closing it behind him.
"I hope you know what your getting your self into Bella. Fuck." Jax cursed as he walked towards the bar.
"What can I get you Jax." One of the prospects asked.
"Jack" Jax answered.
"Its early to be drinking brother." The prospect said to Jax.
"Did I ask for your fucking opinion." Jax cursed at the prospect.
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Bella and Juice were siting under a shaded tree at the park smoking a blunt.
"So what's wrong?" Juice asked as he passed the blunt back to Bella.
"What do you mean?" Bella asked as she took a hit then closed her eyes and handed the blunt back to Juice.
"You look like your brain is running a marathon." Juice said as he took the last hit then put it out. He leaned against the tree as he saw Bella open her eyes.
"Oh really?" Bella asked as she looked at Juice.
"Yep" Juice answered as Bella laid down putting her head on Juice lap.
"Is my brain winning?" Bella asked as she looked up at Juice.
"Haven't decided yet." Juice said as he looked down and smirked at Bella who started to laugh.
"But for real Bells what's wrong?" Juice asked as he began to run his hands through Bella's soft hair.
"You wouldn't understand if I told you." Bella sighed as closed her eyes.
"Try me." Juice whispered to her. Bella opened her eyes and looked up at Juice.
"Can I trust you to keep a secret?" Bella asked Juice.
"You know you can B." Juice answered as Bella chuckled. She then took a deep breath and closed her eyes and poured her heart out to Juice.
"I have feelings for Happy." Bella whispered.
"Shit that's not good." Juice cursed as Bella opened her eyes and looked at him.
"Why the fuck does everyone say that?" Bella asked as she looked at Juice.
"Uh" Juice stuttered.
"Juice what the fuck is everyone hiding from me." Bella hissed.
"Uh shit Bells. Look Happy has a dark past. Shit that fucked him up pretty bad." Juice said as Bella looked at him.
"What happened?" Bella asked.
"Its his story to tell B not mine or anyone elses." Juice told her as she sighed.
"I fucked him." Bella whispered as she closed her eyes after she felt Juice halt his hands.
"What?" Juice asked as he stared down at her but her eyes was closed.
"I fucked him." Bella whispered again.
"Shit Bells." Juice said as he felt Bella's chest shake.
"Oh fuck B don't cry." Juice said as Bella opened her eyes and Juice watched as a tear fell.
"Fuck B." Juice said as he ran his one hand through her hair and used his other hand to wipe away the tear.
"He told me he had feelings for me." Bella whispered as she brought her hand up to Juice and took it in hers.
"Shit" Juice sighed as Bella traced his palm with her fingers.
"I fucking believed him." Bella said as she closed her eyes tight to stop the tears from falling.
"Don't cry B he's not worth your tears." Juice whispered into her ear which caused her to open her eyes.
"I was so fucking stupid to think that he would ever have feelings for me. I mean look at me. I'm fucking ugly as fuck." Bella hissed.
"Your not ugly B." Juice said as Bella chuckled.
"Don't lie Juicy." Bella chuckled.
"I'm not Bells, your fucking gorgeous. Happy's just in a dark place right now." Juice sighed as Bella stood up.
"Well I wish I could say I didn't catch feelings for him but then I would be lying." Bella said as she walked over to the bike, and put her helmet on.
Juice stood up and put a hand on Bella's shoulder, making her freeze. She turned around and threw her arms around Juice's neck and hide her face in hisr cut. Juice rubbed her back as she sobbed.
"It will be alright B." Juice whispered.
"No it won't." Bella sobbed.
"Yes it will." Juice said as Bella pulled back and looked at him.
"How" Bella asked him.
"Because you have me." Juice said as he gave her a goofy smile and Bella smiled.
"Thank you Juice." Bella said as she smiled.
"It's Juan." Juice said as Bella looked at him weird.
"Huh?" Bella asked as he got onto the bike and turned it on.
"My name is Juan. You and Chibs are the only ones who know so keep it that way please." Juice said as he patted the seat behind him and Bella smiled.
"Aaw little Juan don't like his name." Bella chuckled as Juice gave her a look.
"Lets go shit head." Juice said as Bella laughed. She got onto the bike then sat up.
"Thank you for being there Juice. You're my only friend here and I fucking trust you." Bella whispered into Juice's ear. She then sat down and wrap her arms around him and leaned into him.
"I'll always be here Bells." Juice said over the engine as he speed out of the park and got onto the highway.
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Happy was siting on the picnic table smoking with Tig when he heard a bike turn the corner.
"Awe the two love birds are back." Tig joked. He failed to see Happy's eyes darken when Juice pulled into the parking lot.
Juice parked the bike and Jax walked out of the club house to see Juice help Bella off the bike.
"Yo" Jax called out to Bella. Bella turned around and looked at her cousin.
"What" Bella hissed to him.
"Your old man wants to talk to you." Jax said as Bella sighed. She looked over and stared at Happy whose eyes were pitch black.
Bella ignored him and turned and looked at Juice.
"Thanks for the ride and the talk Juicy." Bella said as she kissed Juice on the check.
"Like I said Bells I'm always here when you need me." Juice said as he hugged her.
Bella smiled then walked passed Happy who glared at her.