Note: I am so glad that everyone is liking my story so far, i just love Sesshomaru in this story, he doesnt want to fall for a miko and the answer is in this chapter, as in who killed Sesshomaru's mother..... read on my hungry fans. hehe
Kagome was tossing and turning and finally she flipped into the floor, a groan had escaped her lips as she slowly pushed herself up into a sitting position on something firm but yet soft and warm. Sesshomaru jerked awake and the first thing he smelt was sweat then heard Kagome breathing hard,
"Kagome," Sesshomaru using her human name,
"Lord Sesshomaru," Kagome's body going stiff,
~Oh god, I hope I didn't hurt him.~ Kagome forgetting that he was a full demon for a few minutes,
"I didn't hurt you did I?" Kagome still sitting on top of him, light streamed through the window from the crescent moon outside, Sesshomaru got caught up in the moment,
~She looks gorgeous in the moonlight, the way the moon's light hits her face and skin makes her look like an angel…an angel? What am I saying? She is a miko!~ Sesshomaru growled a little.
"Sesshomaru, are you okay?" Kagome softly, Sesshomaru cleared his mind of any thoughts,
"This Sesshomaru is fine, are you alright?" Sesshomaru confused to why he even cared if she was or not,
"My lord I am fine, I think," Kagome slowly getting off of him, she sat on the edge of the bed, wiping her forehead with her hand. Sesshomaru could feel the tension in the air, radiating off of her, slowly he sat up, he stared at her, Kagome saw him staring at her and noticed he was still in the pants and belt that she had given him to wear, he didn't know of this comforting thing that friends did to help each other when they needed it, he had always been cold and always shrugged everyone away that had tried to help him or comfort him, he could always handle things by himself or he would have Jaken do things for him.
"I apologize my lord I should have given you some sleepwear, I'll go and find some," Kagome not liking the silence and the way Sesshomaru was looking at her, she got up to leave the room, but Sesshomaru grabbed her wrist,
"Miko, I demand you to talk," Sesshomaru standing up, Kagome busted out on him,
"Lord Sesshomaru, my name is Kagome, not miko, not woman, or stupid, or bitch…" Kagome was interrupted,
"Kagome, calm yourself, explain to this Sesshomaru where this reaction is coming from," Sesshomaru sternly, he sat on her bed, he still had a firm hold on her wrist,
"What do you care, I am just a stupid, weak little human girl, who couldn't even protect her father," Kagome screamed, Sesshomaru grabbed Kagome in his arms and flew out the open window before she could wake Sota, he landed near the pond in the back yard. Sesshomaru was still holding Kagome tightly to him, as he started to release her he whispered something in her ear,
"Your father was the alpha male it came with his title to protect his pack, it was not your job," Sesshomaru finally letting her go. Kagome needed to let her steam out and she started hitting Sesshomaru, pounding on his bare naked chest with her tight little balls of fists,
~She does have some strength in her, I need to teach her to defend herself more so she doesn't have to depend on that half-breed all the time.~ Sesshomaru standing there letting her hit him, he could hear her cussing about her father dying on her when he still had her, and the rest of his family to care about. Finally Sesshomaru grabbed her wrist after letting her go at him for five minutes straight, he had figured that she would give out or slump to the ground on her knees but she still had fire going deep inside her.
"Enough, this Sesshomaru wants to listen to what you have to say, so talk and I will listen," Sesshomaru still holding her wrists, Kagome took comfort in Sesshomaru, she never could talk to her mother about her father, and she held so much resentment toward her father leaving like that, and she never told her friends about it that she had left behind in the Feudal Era because when she was over there she felt like she had a fresh start and left her problems at home but she was back home, supposed to be resting like the doctor had explained.
Slowly she hugged Sesshomaru and laid her head on his shoulder, Sesshomaru knew how to hug and thought she may need another since she was hugging him, he felt the overwhelming tears that longed to pour from Kagome's eyes.
"I can't talk to anyone about my father, I hate him, he left us behind, family shouldn't ever leave anyone behind, he should have fought harder, if he loved us enough, he shouldn't have given up," Kagome so harshly, Sesshomaru kept hugging her, slowly he sat down with her and she curled into his lap, he stared across the pond, he saw the reflection of the crescent moon in the water.
"My father left me too, he was protecting the half-breed and his human mother, I have anger against my father for protecting such foul creatures, but he upheld his duty, he died honorably protecting them, not protecting this Sesshomaru, this Sesshomaru was never shown love, he doesn't understand the concept, it is just a weakness humans have, I was just learned to fight and build strength," Sesshomaru strongly but Kagome could hear the wavering in the back of his throat, it wasn't noticeable but she was close enough to feel the vibration of it from his throat.
"Humans are not as weak as you think we are, we just require more food and more sleep than you, and yes we have emotions, but everyone and everything has emotions, even you my lord, you took Rin in, you care for her well being, she is apart of your family just as Jaken, and though you detest the half-breed as much as you detest humans, he did come from your father, you are still his big half brother, you have a family, Rin, Jaken, and the half-breed, you have to protect them," Kagome seriously, that pushed Sesshomaru overboard,
"This Sesshomaru has no one to protect!" Sesshomaru stood without warning her, she hit the ground but not hard.
"Even though you may not realize it you protected Rin and you protected me," Kagome explained softly,
"Enough," Sesshomaru's eyes turning red, Kagome slowly walked over to him and bowed,
"I apologize for upsetting you my lord," Kagome turning and walking to the other side of the pond.
~She isn't dripping with fear from this Sesshomaru, she has never feared me, but why, how can that be, her own brother didn't even smell of fear from me, what is wrong, am I losing my touch?~ Sesshomaru confused, he stood in the same spot and turned to look at the crescent moon. After a few minutes of Kagome throwing rocks into the pond, she looked up and didn't see Sesshomaru, she wondered where he could have gone,
~He is trying, he is a good listener but I guess I am not good at showing him things that he doesn't want to talk about.~ Kagome resting her chin on her knees that were pulled up to her chest.
"I was conceived and born under the crescent moon, in the westerner lands, but mother never had this Sesshomaru in the home, she upset at father and she had left the home, she was down in the lower western lands when she fell, my father was right there with her, he never once let her out of his sight, he was the first one that held me," Sesshomaru not knowing why he should share that with her. Kagome smiled a little,
"That sounds like a nice story, being born underneath the stairs," Kagome softly,
"I lost mother that night," Sesshomaru strongly. Kagome's mouth dropped open,
"There was a miko that came out and purified my mother with her arrow," Sesshomaru standing there letting the wind whip around him.
"My lord, I am so sorry," Kagome standing up quickly and hugging him,
"Do not pity this Sesshomaru," Sesshomaru growled, Kagome didn't let go of him,
"I have a story like that, well, it holds many lifetimes of stories, its seen the good and bad times throughout the Higurashi shrine, will you let me show you?" Kagome pulling away from Sesshomaru, he nodded, Kagome pulled him along, he growled that she was touching him, she didn't care though. It seemed as if they were heading back to the house, but he found himself stopped in front of a tree that held a decoration around it,
"This sacred tree has seen everything, it has watched me grow, and it has seen Sota being brought home from the hospital when he was born, and watched him grow, its seen my grandpa grow old as the man he is now, the funny thing is, this tree actually has been there for me when I was going through my father's death, I used to sit up on the high branch of the tree and not come down for hours, of course my mother worried, she always had to wait for me to fall asleep and get the ladder and get me out," Kagome placing her hand on the bark of the tree remembering. Sesshomaru stood quietly letting the wind blow his silver hair.
"What was it that was troubling you to fall on this Sesshomaru tonight?" Sesshomaru confused to why he was telling and asking her questions that he never really normally cared for the answer, Kagome glanced over to Sesshomaru,
"Every night since I lost my father, I relive the memory of the horrible night and the events that led to my fathers death, I watched the man that robbed our house kill my father, I was only 10 years old," Kagome explained.
~She has never had a good night's sleep since then, she is what 15 so she hasn't gotten a good night's sleep since she was 10!~ Sesshomaru swallowed because his throat was really dry,
"It helps when I am in the Feudal Era because I have things and friends to keep my mind off things at home, that and sleeping under the stars with the fresh air," Kagome closing her eyes and breathing, she slowly opened her eyes and stared at him with a soft smile and tear glittering eyes.
"Come, you need your rest," Sesshomaru turning into his full demon,
"Um, Sesshomaru, you wont fit through the door like that," Kagome explained, she had the urge to touch his fluffyness but she didn't want to disrespect him, she had manners to an extent. Sesshomaru saw her biting her lip and playing with her hands, he knew at that point she was in love with his fluffyness, he led her back to the pond, he circled her and laid down, he pushed her down on the ground with his tail,
"What is it, we can't sleep out here, what if something happens, this isn't the Feudal Era, you just can't kill something that comes to harm us," Kagome explained, his tail kept pushing her back till she was practically swallowed up by his stomack hair,
"This is rather comfy, your hair feels like a cloud, so soft, so beautiful," Kagome combing her fingers through it, she reached through the hair and finally found his skin, she scratched his belly, he started digging at the spot she scratched at, she giggled,
"Ah, yes, every dog has his sweet honey spot," Kagome still scratching, Sesshomaru was practically purring. After a few minutes of scratching, Sesshomaru noticed the scratching had slowed down a lot, Kagome was drifting to sleep, slowly and gently he laid his tail over Kagome making sure she wouldn't get too cold, but it was summer, and it wasn't that bad cold outside but Sesshomaru didn't know if the summers in this strange place were anything like the summers back home. Sesshomaru fell asleep in his beast form, knowing if there was anything trying to creep up on them he would pounce in a heartbeat.