He was the picture of ease and contentment lying back on the grass, he had his eyes closed and his whole face was relaxed. He looked like a painting you would see at the museum and I was afraid to disrupt this silence but I wanted to know about him.
"What lead you here?" I finally ask.
He doesn't move but I can his chest rise and fall and the sun illuminate his face.
"I just needed to get away" he replied.
So he was running from something but what?
"Get away from what?" I was curious.
He sighed "just personal stuff"
"I'm sorry for prying I just wanted to know you better" I quickly apologized.
"It's fine"
It was quiet for some time and the silence unnerved me and made me sad. Here he was really with me for the first time and I didn't know how much time we had left. I wanted to know his life story and I wanted to take away the sadness I can feel radiating from him.
"I know how you feel, I've come here when I needed to get away from my parents" I said after a beat.
"Ah typical teenage issues"
I bristled and was about to retort but I knew he didn't mean it, he didn't know me.
"No it's not about me, my parents have the issues and I've spent all my life watching them fight"
He opened his eyes "physical?"
"No just verbal and its always about little stuff, it gets to you after a while"
"They don't love each other?"
I shrugged "I remember asking when I was younger but they assured me they were in love… but now it seems like they're together out of convince and I find myself wishing they would just divorce already"
He flinched and I watched a shadow pass behind his eyes. I was nervous now because I don't know what I said to upset him.
"It's harsh I know but you haven't experienced it"
Here she was spilling her secrets and pain to me even though I didn't ask. I had the feeling she wanted to talk but I just wasn't in the mood and I really didn't want to talk about my problems. I just wanted to come here for peace and she was making it hard. Though I shouldn't be too hard on her, I can see she's lonely and I know the feeling all too well. She shouldn't be lonely I thought, she's not fit for the loner world. A beautiful girl like her could do so much better. I listen to her talk about her worries and I know it has to be hard and sometimes you want someone who understands. She wants to ask me more but I see she's afraid and she's looking into my eyes and whatever she sees there makes her sad.
It bothers me to see her, this way and I can't ignore the fact that a part of me isn't interested in her, a part of me wants to find someone who understands. I just never expected it would be her and it scares me a little. I can see myself falling for her my small crush returning and this is what I wished, this is what I wished before my life changed, before she left, I wished Bella would notice me and I wished I could talk to her and we would become friends, every cliché I wished to happen.
I'm scared to give her my heart and for her to break it, like my mother did to my father and me. I'm wary and at the same time I want to take the risk. She smiles at me sadly and the sun reflects in her eyes making them brighter and her hair lighter. She's beautiful in sadness and it hurts, I want to fix her and fix myself.
Before I know it I'm pouring out my heart to her.
"My parents are divorced" I say after a beat.
She looks at me in surprise "I never knew, that must suck"
"Yeah that's not the worst of it, my mother just one day decided to leave without any explanation and we foolishly believed she would come back until she sent divorce papers in the mail"
"So your dad didn't know?"
I shake my head "No and this has destroyed him, it's been three years and he's still not over it. I hated him for being weak and I hated her for making him weak. It was hard after she left and I was still coming to terms with everything but it made worse when he….." I trailed off.
I've never told anyone about this because I know what it would mean. I'm hesitant but I really want to tell someone, to get it off my chest. She smiles kindly at me understanding.
"You don't have to tell me everything" she says softly.
I want to it was just a matter of trust and looking at her I can tell Bella is someone I can trust.
"He use to take his anger out on me especially when he was drunk" I explain.
Her eyes widen in horror and she leans forward staring at me intently, her eyes roam over me and then stop on my eyes.
"The black eye" she whispers.
I nod
"Edward I never knew, you have to tell someone!" she exclaims.
I flinch and for a second I regret telling her but I know she's just trying to help
"No you can't tell anyone, it would be too much drama"
"But he hurt you!" she's insistent.
"I know but the physical pain I could take over the emotional, I don't blame him Bella she made him this way"
She shakes her head back and forth "that doesn't matter why are you defending him?"
"He told me I was to blame for her leaving and being young and naïve I believed him but I know better now, its equal blame we wasn't enough for her to stay"
She's crying now and I feel guilty but also relived and happy, she really cares about me and I haven't had this feeling for some time.
She rushes me putting her arms around me hugging me tight, I freeze not used to this kind of affection but she smells good and she feels so warm. She feels like comfort and I hug her back.
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