Andy opened her mouth to thank Sam for everything that he has been doing, but that it wasn't a good idea if he stayed. It would give people the wrong idea. But she wasn't prepared for what she was about to say. She didn't even mean to say it, it just happened. "Stay with me." The weight of the words, three simple words.
"Okay," Sam replied nodding. "I can sleep on the couch."
Andy shook her head. "No Sam, stay with me."
Sam was a little confused, he was only half sure he knew what Andy was getting at. Then Andy lunged at him, crashing her lips against his. Sam at first was happy, and willing to give into the temptation. He had longed for this moment for so long but he knew he couldn't take advantage of it. This time he had to be the one to walk away. He couldn't do that to Andy.
"Andy," He said as he pulled away from her kiss. Leaving Andy shocked, confused, and a little embarrassed. "I'll stay with you but I'll sleep on the couch."
"What?" Andy retorted quickly in an annoyed tone. "Sam you want this, don't act like you don't."
"I'm not."
"You are."
"Andy I'm not it's just," Before Sam could respond Andy cut in.
"Whatever Sam sleep on the couch, go home if you want to. I don't care."
"ANDY." Sam said as she turned around to continue picking up the boxes from their dinner. But Andy just ignored him and Sam, well he wasn't sure of what to do. Part of him wanted to storm out. He didn't want to deal with his feelings for Andy, not while she was like this. Not while she needed him to be his friend, and not right after she broke up with Luke.
"Well..." Andy said Sam hadn't even realized she had said something and by the look on Andy's face she wasn't very impressed with him.
"Are you going to share the bed like an adult or what? I won't be able to sleep knowing that I'm putting you out like that. Even though I'm ... whatever just sleep in the bed okay." Andy wanted him close, she just wanted him near. Even though she felt embarrassed for being rejected. She also couldn't be mad at him.
"Sure." Sam said not even sure if it was a good idea.
"Officer in jeopardy move in now."
"One victim DOA shot in the chest."
"There's an undercover cop in the building, repeat, an undercover cop in the building."
"Officer in jeopardy move in now."
"One victim DOA shot in the chest."
"There's an undercover cop in the building, repeat, an undercover cop in the building."
This can't be happening. Sam has to be okay, Sam cannot be dead.
The yellow sheet, no not the yellow sheet.
Andy began tossing and turning in her sleep which woke Sam.
Luke and Boyd standing beside the body folding down the sheet. There was Sam lying there.
"SAM"
"SAM" Andy screamed in her sleep. Sam sat up in bed and tried to wake up Andy.
"McNally you should have had my back."
Bang. Bang. Bang.
"Officer down, lie back, lie back."
"She's dead."
"NO." Andy screamed as she jolted up in bed almost headbutting Sam in the process.
Andy breathing heavy looked over at Sam, this time unlike the night before they just stared at each other. Sam reached his arm over to her and placed it on the small of her back.
"Andy what happened?" Sam asked cautiously.
Andy looked over at Sam not sure of what to say. She could tell him the truth, she could tell him that it was nothing. If she told him the truth she'd be letting him in, and she wasn't sure if she should do that after being rejected earlier Andy just wasn't sure if she could open her heart like that. So, she decided to tell him that it was nothing and just as she opened her mouth to tell him it wasn't a big deal, it was just a silly nightmare something happened. Andy told him the truth.
"It was the nightmare I've been having ever since the undercover op. We are in the car and they say there's a victim and I try to tell myself it isn't you but I know it is. I hear the voices over the radio, Noelle screaming to them that there is an undercovercop in the building. But I just sit there frozen because I know what we are about to walk into. It's too late. It's like I'm numb. Then we get there and get out of the car and Luke and Boyd go to the yellow sheet and there you are lying there. Your eyes just piercing back at me. Then you say I should have had your back, and everyone starts saying I should have had your back. Then the new part happens. There are gunshots and I fall to the ground and someone says Officer down then they say, she's dead. Sometimes the dreams have more in them, just everything that has gone wrong while I've been a cop."
"Andy," Sam said weakly. He knew what he had to do know. He had to tell Best the truth, tell him that Andy needed to talk to someone, someone who could actually help her work through this stuff. "Andy you had my back, and I'm fine."
"I know," Andy said unsure of what else to say. Then the alarm went off.
"It's my first day back on shift." Andy said looking over at Sam.
They had gotten ready at Andy's place and Sam drove them both to the barn. They hadn't talked about what happened. They just pushed it aside but Sam knew what he had to do. He needed to do it even though it meant that he might lose the possibility of being with Andy. Also, losing her as a friend.
Andy and Sam separated as they went into their separate locker rooms.
"So.." Traci said not even a second after Andy walked through the door.
"What?" Andy said defensively but also genuinely confused.
"You getting a ride with Swarek, what's up with that are you two you know together now?" A smile swept over Traci's face. Andy was getting uncomfortable really quickly she didn't know what was going on between her and Sam.
"Trace, I – uh – I just broke up with Luke. Sam was just being nice he saw me walking." Andy tried deflecting.
"Swarek, have an update for me?" Best asked as Sam walked into his office. Sam had gotten changed quickly so he could go and see Frank before parade.
Sam nodded reluctantly. "Yeah."
Sam walked into the office feeling a twinge of guilt, he felt like his was betraying Andy. He knew how she would feel about this. He knew she'd catch on quickly that he was the one who went to Frank. He could only hope that she would forgive him.
"Andy has been having nightmares, I think she's." Sam stopped for a minute. He could hear Andy yelling at him for doing this.
"Swarek... keep going."
"I think she needs to talk to the department shrink. She's uh – she could be on the brink sir."
"On the brink of what?"
"A breakdown." Sam hated going behind Andy's back like this, but he also knew he had no other choice. Andy needed help, help he knew he couldn't give her.
"Alright, unfortunately this means you and McNally with both be on desk today. I'll pair you with Peck while McNally is undergoing her evaluation unless you'd prefer someone else."
Sam shook his head, "No Peck is fine sir." He turned around to leave Frank's office and head for parade.
"Swarek."
Sam turned around.
"You did the right thing."
Sam gave a weak smile and left the room. "I hope so." He muttered under his breath.
Traci had dropped the subject and they were headed to parade. The room was full of everyone anticipating what the day would have in store for them. Andy was ready to get back in the car and just forget about all of her problems for a few hours.
"McNally and Swarek you're on desk."
DESK. Andy perked up confused. She looked back at Sam who shrugged but avoided eye contact. How in the hell.. what the hell... Why is this happening. Since when did a senior officer get desk? Did Sam do something to piss Best off? Andy sighed and sunk into her chair while she listened to the rest of the assignments.
"Nash you're with Williams, Diaz you're with Andrews, Peck you're in booking with Stryker, and Epstein you're with Shaw. Now remember we've had a string of low-end B&E's around Jarvis street. Keep your eyes peeled. Serve, Protect, and keep the streets safe."
Andy headed to the front desk, her head hung a little low. She was disappointed to say the least about her assignment for the day.
