Jake will come back! This is just the set up for when he comes back in later chapters! :D let's just say he'll be back with a bang,

(Nessie's POV)

I regretted kissing Nahuel - more than anything. I wanted my first kiss to belong to Jacob, I wanted my last kiss to belong to him too.

"Renesmee - we need to talk." Nahuel caught me off guard while I thought about Jacob. I was sitting on the porch stairs wrapped up in a blanket. He sat next to me and let out a breath.

"You've been avoiding me." He said with a defeated tone.

"I tend to do that a lot." I muttered.

He laughed lightly, "I've noticed."

It was silent as we listened to the rain hit the ground.

"I understand that you regret kissing me - but I don't. I care for you a lot, Renesmee - more than you think." He murmured,

"I'm not ready to love someone that's not him, Nahuel." I stated,

"You think you love him - you think you're not ready, but you don't know. All you have to do it try." Nahuel pleaded with me, I closed my eyes and shook my head no.

"You're wasting your time on a man who is out looking for another woman, if he really loved you - he'd be here with you." My heart shattered just hearing him say that, I already knew Jacob didn't love me like I loved him - but the possibility of him not loving me at all angered me. He was in fact looking for another woman - who I already knew had a thing for my Jacob.

"You're right, Nahuel - you're right." I hissed, Jacob would get a taste of his own medicine.

"So you'll give me my chance?" He looked at me with sparkling eyes.

"I'll give you one." I said with a forced smile.

I would do it, but that didn't mean I would be happy about it.

I went to bed that night thinking about my decision, I hoped that if Jacob ever came to visit me that he would see Nahuel and feel the pain I felt.

You're wasting your time on a man who is out looking for another woman, if he really loved you - he'd be here with you.

Nahuel was a gentleman, took me on dates often - did everything he could to make me see him in the light I see Jacob in.

Nahuel liked to say we were a couple, but I only saw us as friends...with benefits.

He tried to kiss me - a lot, most of the time I would pretend I didn't know what he was doing or flat out turn away.

But sometimes a person can't handle so much rejection - so he just stopped trying lately.

"School's starting for you soon," He said softly one night when we went for a walk in the forest.

"Yup."

"That doesn't mean i'm leaving. I'm not going to stop trying until you realize you love me." He concluded happily. I stopped in my tracks and stared at him,

"That's a waste of time, it'll take a while." I mumbled,

"I'm willing to wait," He said calmly. "I'll wait a hundred years if it takes long, what's another few hundred years gonna matter? I've already got a few behind me." I laughed lightly, he just talked about his age freely like it wasn't a big deal that he's been around this long.

"Yeah sure, no big deal." He chuckled with me for a few moments until we were greeted by silence again.

"I know my time is limited, I just don't want to think about it like that - sooner or later they'll find that girl, and he'll come back to you. Then I'll just be tossed to the curb because I didn't work hard enough."

I looked over at him, his hands were shoved in his front pockets of his jeans as he looked at the ground.

Now I really felt bad.

I mean - he was a beautiful man. Tall, dark and handsome...just like someone else I knew.

His black hair was shaggy and always looked so shiny. It was kind of wavy, but the just right amount of messy to make it look good. He always had his jaw lightly stubbled, he said it made him feel a little human since he could grow his hair.

He was lean, and toned - but not nearly like J -

I stopped my thoughts, forgetting him was so hard. It shouldn't be because I can't even figure out why forgetting about him like this wasn't easy. I wasn't as happy as I used to be, I wasn't like this when Jacob was around. But I was getting better.

"Hmm," I said in content.

"Would you care if I went back to school with you?" He asked, his eyes were burning with curiosity and passion.

I pursed my lips, "No."

His smile couldn't have been missed, "Great, I can't wait." He picked up my hand and intertwined our finger. My lips twitched into a smile, nothing could really get him down.