Elena was lying on Stefan's bed, her eyes were wide open. She was too wired, too tense. Stefan stepped out few minutes ago, she could see it was hard for him. Her decision to let go, he didn't say anything, respecting her choice, as always. But secretly she doubted her decision, how could she not? She wished she could talk to someone about it, someone other than Stefan. She didn't think she could discuss it with Bonnie, her being anti-vampire and all, not Caroline either, they were never that close. Elena wrecked her brain trying to chase the thought away, but no matter how hard she tried , there it was… She didn't need to speak to just someone, she needed to speak to HIM… she needed Damon. He was so angry with her decision, it made her upset. It was so hard making this choice to begin with, everyone encouraged her to do what she wanted, to decide, to do something. The truth was that she didn't know what she wanted. And she needed to figure it out, and do it quick. She was feeling weaker as time passed, she felt life draining from her and she was scared.

" Elena?" she heard soft knock on the door and Jeremy's voice. He was here? She didn't think he would come… it was too dangerous… Jeremy walked in and smiled with relief, looking at his sister.

Moments earlier in front of the door to Stefan's bedroom.

Damon led Jeremy to the door but held him back for a second before he opened the door.

" Just want to ask you something before you walk in there." Damon's blue eyes pierced into Jeremy, he frowned and continued

" Are you willing whatever necessary for Elena? "

Jeremy was surprised by Damon's question, he didn't get it at first. But then he got what Damon was thinking.

" Yes, whatever necessary" he nodded.

" Okay then, I'll give you two a moment" Damon turned around to walk away, but Jeremy stopped him.

" You have a backup plan, don't' you?"

" Yup, but I really hope it will not come to that" Damon sighted and walked away.

" Jer! I'm so happy you are here! " Elena flew into her brother's arms. As soon as she did her focused shifted to vein in his neck. She felt blood pumping through Jeremy's neck, for a second she actually considered piercing his skin and getting to that delicious blood… Elena pushed Jeremy away and held her hand up, alerting him not to get any closer. She took few deep, slow breaths. She concentrated on her breathing, and soon blood lust passed.

" I'm sorry" she whispered.

" It's okay. I get it. You are doing very good." Jeremy tried to cheer her up. " Are you really not going to get through with it?" Jeremy was worried, he wrapped his arms around Elena once again and they sat on the bed.

" I don't know Jer, I'm confused. I know that if I do, I will lose myself. I will lose it. I don't know if I can get through with it. And all I get from everyone is that I should do whatever I want… but Jer…I don't know what I want.."

Elena felt hot tears on her cheek, she wanted to stop crying but it seemed impossible. Her emotions took over, she couldn't stop crying.

" It is going to be okay, Elena"

"NO! How is it going to be okay?! It's never going to be okay! God why am I still crying?!" Elena jumped off the bed. The tears were still streaming from her eyes, but she was no longer upset. She seemed angry

" It is not going to be okay, ever! If I don't drink blood until evening, I will die and leave you all alone! When it's my fault that you already lost everyone you care about! But I Can't bring myself to the idea of drinking blood. I want it! But I can't imagine myself actually doing it!" Elena run her hands through her hair. She was frustrated with herself. She felt shiver going through her body, it was too hard to control. She was trembling, shaking.

" Elena… ELENA!" Jeremy could see his sister loosing it. Before he knew it she crushed unconscious in his arms.

"ELENA!...Shit!... DAMON!" he screamed trying to awake her.

Within seconds Damon burst in the room, his eyes zeroed in on Elena in Jeremy's arms.

"She just fainted! I don't know what happened!"

" She is getting weaker, she needs to feed…." Damon scooped Elena in his arms and rested her on the bed. He brushed loose strand of hair from her face.

It pained him to see her like this, he would give up everything for her not to be like this. He felt his dead hearth shrink at the sight of helpless Elena. He half-smile at the thought when he promised to stake Elena himself, when there was possibility her turning into a vampire.

This time it was different, he would do anything for her to complete the transition. He was still mad at Stefan for not saving her, for taking possibility of Elena growing up, having kids and everything she wanted. But the idea of a world without her, was physically hurting him. How everything changed, he came into this town wanting to destroy it, thinking he knew it all, thinking he was invincible.

It was until he met Elena, she changed him, he might not like it sometimes, but it was pointless to deny. She made him kinder, more caring, less of a vampire at times and more human-like, weaker. But he would take it, because she was the one he loved. Loved her like no one before, not even Katherine. After losing everyone he cared for, starting with his mother, loosing himself to vampirism, Katherine, Rose, Alaric… he didn't think he will survive if he would lose her too.

"Stefan since what time is she like this?" Damon got up and turned to his brother.

" Couple of hours…" he answered with despair. " We are supposed to have until about 9 tonight, its 4.30 pm"

" We should let her rest, she will need every once of strength when she wakes up" Caroline stepped in covering Elena with a blanket.

" We will have to say goodbye?" Bonnie's voice was ghostly whisper. No one in this room was ready for what's coming.