/in my head i found you there and
running around and following me
but you don't, oh, dare, now
but i find that i have, now
more then i ever wanted to…..

that makes it all clear
makes it all...
hey, do you know
hey, do you know
what this is doing to me?
oh, here...
here...
here. in my head-Here in My head/

Maybe you should just breathe.

Maybe?

Something like that…she was sure someone had told her.

Maybe you should just breathe.

Relax.

Take a deep breath…and stop those hands from sweating.

Maybe?

Maybe you should do SOMETHING…and try not to be so useless.

Or something like that…she was sure Hiead was always telling her.

Or maybe it went kinda like stay out of my way.

Something.

Sometimes she thought her hearing was going.

Like her head was getting all loopy.

She almost thought it was the air in space…then she realized there was NO air in space.

Just G.O.A.

So maybe G.O.A. was making her go all…weird?

Maybe…perhaps.

Or it had to be something….else.

She couldn't even be a good repairer…and it's not like Hiead asked for much.

He wasn't like a Clay or a Roose who needed to be walked through things.

It wasn't like Ikhny could lead someone…but still.

She couldn't figure…couldn't wrap her head around what was happening to her.

However…she was fully aware…

Her hearing was going.

Like Kizna could have been possibly talking, she was sure her lips were moving but nothing was coming out.

Ikhny was beginning to feel like her body was becoming disconnected.

Or maybe she just needed better glasses.

Which don't help fading hearing…but still.

If she could see better then listening wouldn't matter much would it?

Cause every time she looked through her glasses everything was blurry.

It was like she was only half seeing…like she was seeing through the looking glass.

Like…sometimes Hiead's eyes looked blue.

And sometimes Roose hands reached longingly for Yamagi.

Or like…Kizna face when Zero was talking to anyone else BUT her.

But then she blinked…and everything got all fuzzy…and there was a buzz in her ear.

Then she'd look again and it would be gone.

As if it had never actually been there before…and she didn't really know how to feel about that.

Cause she didn't like the thought of going crazy.

Or deaf and blind.

Maybe she could handle one.

Just one.

Maybe.

It felt like her life was full of maybes.

Full of DOUBT.

Never really knowing what she was seeing.

Never really comprehending what she was hearing.

Always feeling so…disconnected.

Even from her best friend.

Because unlike her…she and Hiead did NOT fit.

They did not compliment.

And there was a deep part of her that WISHED…

That one day she'd have the guts to wish…

To wish…

That Hiead could just die.

And for some new glasses.

Then maybe…

Just maybe…

Someone would walk up…and she'd see them.

They'd walk up and say "hello I'm your new candidate…what's your name?"

And she'd HEAR them…every word and it would be the most beautiful thing she could ever hear.

Yeah, she would hear them and say…well she would smile…

Take a deep breath…

And say "Hello, my name is Ikhny Allecto…it's very nice to meet you."

A/N: Thanks for all those who have either read or reviewed this piece. I'm hoping to put 2 more chapters here…one for Kizna and one for Rill after that I'll be starting another sorta series thing. Ok till next time ).