Authors note: I know I'm a couple days late, no apologies I suck I now...But alas here's the next chappie
Again the spelling and grammar is horrid and the fault lies solely with me.
Memories, dreams and thoughts are in italics everything else is just the usual basics.
Sorry it's so short
Anyhow on with the story.
"Come on honey just take a bite." Something was wrong. She couldn't quite place exactly what, but something was wrong. She didn't want food...why exactly didn't she want food again? One glance at the smiling woman before told her exactly why. "I only eat if you eat" The words slipped from her mouth with ease, it was a practiced reply, one that she had used nearly every day for a week. The smile slipped for the woman's face faster then the words had slipped form her mouth. Raven hated seeing her frown; she was gorgeous and the frown didn't fit her at all. She wanted to reach up and hug her, to tell her "It's ok to eat" but she couldn't. Raven watched in morbid fascination as the woman scooped up a tiny bite of the ravioli and brought it to her lips. She couldn't help but notice the slight gagging noise as the woman before her forced herself to eat just the tiniest bit of food and acted as though it were killing her. "There, now eat your food" She forced a smile, but it didn't reach her eyes. Raven took the fork from her and took just the tiniest amount form her bowl, the same amount the woman before he had taken and ate it, her stomach growling loudly. It took all her willpower to avoid devouring every morale, but she resisted. What was at stake was far more important. She couldn't stand watching the person she loved more than anything slowly waste away. The only time raven ever got her to eat was the small bites she would take to encourage the small girl beside her to eat. She pushed the food away, looking up into the woman's eyes. Her eyes were ravens favorite thing about her. They shone bright practically glowing and the tears begging to bloom only served to make them even more beautiful. "I only eat what you eat." She spoke softly a hint of defiance in her voice. "Why is it so hard for you to eat?" Sometimes late at night she would hear the gagging noises that the woman before her tried to hide and she would wonder how she could help. She had tried just about everything. The only thing that seemed to work even the tiniest bit was refusing to eat herself. The woman before her let out a tiny sob and rushed from the room. Normally she would go to her, whispering condolences, telling her she would eat, begging for her forgiveness…but not now; Not anymore.
By giving in to her it gave her the power to refuse to eat while still getting raven to eat. Raven refused to do that anymore she wouldn't let her best friend in the whole world waste away day by day. If she had to stop eating to get her to eat she would. It wasn't just that she was too thin, it was that everything she loved seemed to be wasting away with her body. She no longer sang or dance around, she hardly smiled…she was a shell of her former self an raven wanted the old her. She wanted to be smiled at and sung to and tucked into bed at night, she wanted her best friend, and most importantly her mother back.
Slowly she got up, scrapes the food into the trash and walked to her room. She tried her hardest to ignore the cries coming from her mothers room. If this is what it takes then so be it.
The uncomfortable pain in her stomach was almost unbearable; although that was most definitely not what woke her. Blinking the sleep from her eyes she glanced at the redhead lying next to her. She was so beautiful. "Not like me" she thought angrily catching a glance of herself in her vanity mirror. Her normally bright and clear eyes were bloodshot, her skin was covered in splotches from the tears she didn't even remember crying. Groaning she gently pried herself form the aliens grasp and made her way downstairs and to the basement. In the beginning it had been about helping someone else…but now. She put an immediate halt to her thoughts. Now was not the time to get herself worked up.
She padded over to the worn out exercise equipment being as quiet as possible and began her routine with more vigor than ever before, she could feel her heart thudding painfully but she didn't stop. She couldn't stop. She worked diligently for another thirty minuets before gasping painfully and slowing her pace. She allowed herself to cool down, running lightly on the treadmill for what seemed like hours. Despite the utter exhaustion she still didn't feel like she had exercised enough. It never felt like enough. Her muscles screamed in pain and her vision swam before her eyes,. Her breath was coming in short gasps but still she didn't stop. She pumped herder, willing her legs not to give out. She could feel the darkness coming on, but still she pumped her screaming muscles faster. Just like all the times before when she pushed herself too far her world suddenly went black. The sharp pain in her head was nothing compared to the pain in her legs. They felt like they had been run over by a car. Her stringy muscles were cramping painfully bringing tears to her eyes. Water. She needed water. Getting up she limped her way to the fridge. She guzzled the water down opening up another bottle after the first, and another after that. She continued to drink until she felt like her stomach was going to burst. By the time she was done her legs felt a tiny bit better, and her head wasn't quite as groggy, but she still felt sick. 'probably all the water' She told herself as she made her way over to the yoga mat. Glancing at the clock she knew she still had plenty of time. She began the second part of her routine. She did sit ups until she felt so sick she actually threw up some of her water, but didn't stop there, she lifted her small15lb weights until her arms were cramping nearly as bad as her legs. Only when every part of her body felt like it was on fire did she stop. Even then it still didn't feel like enough.
She limped her way back upstairs to her bedroom and silently gathered her clothes for the day, smiling softly at her sleeping alien friend. Half an hour later she stepped shivering violently out of the freezing shower. Her lips were blue an her skin deathly pale, ever her hands were blue this time. Usually it was just her fingernails, but even the skin almost to her wrist was tinted a pail blue. She desperately wanted to climb into the bed with Starfire and soak up some of the cheerful friends warmth but she wouldn't let herself. She made her way back down to the kitchen and cook her friend a feast, taking some of the food and rubbing it on a plate making it look as though she had eaten she set it on the table before going to wake her friend. She didn't even get halfway up the stairs before Starfire nearly knocked into her. "Good morning friend raven!" She grinned at her. "Morning" she tried to grin back but her stomach was churning after having cooked the food. She felt so sick. "I made you breakfast" she replied cheerfully, grabbing the taller girls hand and dragging her to the kitchen. She made a show of putting her used plate in the dishwasher before sitting at the table with her herbal tea and watching as Starfire savored every tiny morsel making approving moans as she ate. Raven couldn't help but blush at the growing warmth in her neither regions at watching the girl before her lick her lips. It seemed like everything Starfire did was sexual. She ate slowly, moaning and licking her lips after what seemed like every bite. Her green eyes practically glowed with appreciation for ravens hard work.
When she was done she slid over to raven and hugged her tightly. "That was delicious friend raven!" she practically moaned, kidding her on the cheek. Raven could feel her face heating up and she welcomed the warmth. She was still a little cold Starfire grabbed her hand and tugged her to the living room here she popped in the chick-flick they hadn't gotten a chance to watch the night before. Again she snuggled close to raven, latching their fingers together and wrapping her arm around the smaller girls waist.
Raven smiled. Despite the gnawing pain thought her body she felt happy again. She was well on her way to being perfect for her gorgeous alien friend. She sat and watched the movie soaking up the warmth, the smile never leaving her face. Life was good.