"I have no idea where you learnt about right and wrong," Nina shook her head "but you sure have missed a few fundamental rules at the beginning."
"And yet, I'm still your coach."
"Everybody makes mistakes."
"Are you going to win a gold for me, angel?"
"Did you make a bet on me?"
"No gentleman bets on what is sure."
"Then why the question? And if I'm not a lady, you are not a gentleman... "
Zakhar stopped and looked at Nina, examining her face.
"Your makeup skills are significantly improved. Nobody would think how you look like underneath."
"That's the point, isn't it?" Nina started to walk again and her coach walked in peace with him. "And how would I explain the bruise on the side of my face? I ran into a parallel bar or something in my room?"
"You have a bruise?"
"A light one. Nothing serious." Nina lowered her voice, even though she was sure, nobody around them spoke Belarusian. "But if I can give you one advice, I would refrain from hurting my skater's face, especially before a competition... The rest, I can cover up, but that... It's a little hard." They reached the ice rink and stood next to the railing, waiting. She could sit down as she was performing later and she should consider her foot, but she felt she needs to stand. She grabbed the railing and her fingers dug into the metal.
"Stop that." Zakhar cautiously touched her knuckles with the back of his hand, making Nina startle.
"Don't touch me."
"Go, sit down."
"Don't. Touch. Me."
"Go, sit down." Zakhar repeated, and even though his tone was the same, Nina felt exactly she can't argue with him now, so she jolted into the first free plastic chair she saw.
"Happy now?"
"Pleased."
"So you did not make a bet on me."
"Angel, I, ALWAYS make bets on you. On every single occasion. And I always win. Don't ruin this for me."
"Are there any people who make bets with you after all this time?"
"Of course... There are idiots everywhere."
"And... getting a lot of money out of the bets?"
"Far not enough."
"You mean" Nina was playing with her martyoshka pendant "beside that what you get from my sponsors?"
"You are lucky that you don't have to pay me... You are fourteen, there is no way you can work that much to make a living."
"Now I think about it, yes... I never paid you. Not even at the start."
"Because somebody is pretty popular between sponsors."
"I guess the name 'Nikiforov' open lots of doors..."
"The name what I meant was VIKTOR Nikiforov."
"Well," Nina released her necklace "at first, I'm sure that was how it was, but after, I guess, I earned it on my own right."
"Guess? You usually more self-confident."
"No, I'm not."
"At least," Zakhar straightened his long limbs "that sounded pretty confident."
"Shut up..." Nina mumbled.
"Don't you think they are cute?"
The man asked as they stood up to listen to the Italian anthem for the last medal ceremony before the juniors started. From the little girls who were standing on the podium, two were Russian and one was Italian.
"Was I that cute ever?" Nina asked after the music finished.
"You? Never."
"Thanks..."
"Angel, sweetheart, you could never be cute. You seen too much for that, thank God."
"Should I understand this?" Nina leaned on the railing and rested her face in her chin.
"Cuteness, REAL cuteness means that you are innocent." Zakhar followed the girl's gaze and rubbed his face. "And innocence is one form of ignorance. I would go crazy with innocent people around me."
"You could change them easily; you could corrupt even a saint." Nina still avoided eye contact with her coach.
"You think too highly of me." Zakhar purred.
"I don't think so." Nina's voice was cold. "You are rotten to the core."
"And I make my skaters high class in the meantime."
"SkateR. You only have me."
"Of course. I wouldn't waste my time on some lower ranked idiot."
"You know, sometimes I just don't know if you are racist, sexist, both or just the biggest asshole on planet Earth... Wait, not on Earth, in our solar system."
"Oh, how I would miss you."
"I'm not going anywhere."
"Theoret0ically, I mean."
"I wouldn't miss you. I mean theoretically." Nina echoed her coach. "Are we finished? I have to skate soon."
"Sure... I let you concentrate."
"I appreciate that." Nina put in her earplugs.
"And our last contestant" The announcer started as Nina skated to the centre of the ice "is one of Russia's most priced upcoming skaters, the fan favourite, Viktor Nikiforov's younger sister."
"If somebody would doubt that," the second added "now it became sure, it runs in the family... This little beauty is the just finished Winter Youth Olympics' winner in Ladies single, team, and her team ranked on the first place too. One could guess why... Plus, she is the first Russian ladies' singles skater to score above the two hundred mark in total score, she is the first ladies' skater in history to win two World Junior titles, she is the winner of two consecutive Grand Prix Junior titles, also she is the current world record holder for the junior ladies' short program, the junior ladies' free skate score and for the junior ladies' total score, with her world standing being number one. And I didn't even add the numerous European championships where she snatched the gold too..."
"That is nearly too much to list." The first announcer laughed a little. "If she would be a boy, her brother could start to worry as she debuts in Senior soon..."
"And if you would shut up," Nina muttered. She took a deep breath and looked around the audience, spotting her coach, J.J., Emil, Angelique, Sebastian and after a few moments, Aleksandar in the ring of unfamiliar people "that would be nice..." She ran her look down on her dress. She was wearing a high necked, long sleeved, midnight blue dress, spotted with thousands of tiny Swarovski crystals and her nude coloured skates - she had three pairs exclusively for competitions, one white, one black and one nude, all custom made, with the Russian and the Belarusian flag on each side of the back of the skates; their blades were also special; they had a light, blue-silver colour with frost and snowflake pattern on them - while her hair was a simple, tight bun. Compared to most of the other skaters, she seemed a little bit simple, but that was the exact reason why she stood out. Her coach might be an ass, but he was doing his job perfectly.
"And to what our little martyoshka doll is dancing to?" The first announcer asked on a joking tone, as Nina started to skate on her music.
"Maksim Mrvica's Croatian Rhapsody. watch?v=3CdKrA3viNw An interesting choice, but this little lady was always full of surprises..."
"Watch this beautiful step sequence... I can almost say it's a Russian privilege to skate that gracefully, but Nina goes far beyond that... Her movements are so smooth, so collected, so clean... Oh and a layback spin followed by a Biellmann spin, which is hyper-extended, with more than eight revs... we can say, 'as usual'!"
"Yes... Her spins... I just love them; maybe even more than when she jumps..."
'Of for fuck's sake...' Nina rolled her eyes mentally as she skated.
"I wonder what she has for next..."
'Making my dinner?'Nina commented as jumped into her flying spin. Her right foot was very strange, but it was still better when she felt the pain... And this was only a short program... There's no way, she would mess up that...
"And a triple axel with one hand up! Beautiful! Followed by her spiral sequence... Not many female skaters can land triple axels, and certainly not in Junior..."
"What is my personal favourite in Nina's jumps is that she always jumps with one or two hand raised and does this with such grace... Not many skaters are able or willing to that, even though the plus points... And the aesthetic elegance too..."
"Plus those little sweet things she always adds into her choreographies, small sequences, positions, or her favourite ballet and mazurka jumps, what she never misses to do as we see..."
'Another two morons disguised as commentators.' Nina noted in herself.
"And now," the second commentator grabbed the opportunity to speak again, "her next required element, the jump combination: a triple Lutz with one hand up, and a triple toe loop jump with both hands up! Impressive! And a shorter step sequence, immediately followed by a triple flip... Oh, and she done it, with one arm up!"
"Now what is still needed her spin combination... I hope she surprises us again..."
"Aaand... A camel spin with a backward entry, changing of edges... more than eight revs... next, a pancake spin, still changing edges, and now, changing foot... A doughnut spin and finally an I spin, more than eight revs again and changing edges... Perfect, just perfect, almost unbelievable! Ladies and gentlemen, this Russian lady delivers quality every time she steps on the ice!"
'God lord please someone remove the microphone from them...' Nina thought gasping, as she stood in her finishing position. This wasn't supposed to be a hard short of her, but because of her foot and the lack of sleep, it took out more than her as she thought... But the audience was cheering for her, throwing flowers and stuffed animals to the ice, so she smiled and bowed as it was expected from her. Most of the plush toys what she got were little moles, most of them was wearing blue trousers, hats or some funny clothing. The little mole was Nina's favourite cartoon when she was young... Or, more precisely, it was still her favourite. She had t-shirts, pyjamas, hoodies, pencils, notebooks and even mug with the little mole on it, didn't mention she had all the books which came out with him and all the episodes of the cartoon on her laptop. As she was skating towards the kiss and cry, she picked up one – a bigger one with a blue-yellow hat – and squeezed it to herself.
"Well, it could be worse." Zakhar muttered as he took away the stuffed animal until Nina put on her jacket and the edge protectors of her skates.
"It always could be worse." Nina retorted.
"Let's say you are better when you are not injured."
"Surprise, surprise..." The girl muttered as they walked to the bench and sat down to see her points.
"Ni, hey!"
The girl turned around, still holding the mole and a few flowers. The last member of the press just left and she felt a throbbing pain starting in her temple. She wanted to send away whoever was calling her name, but it was Aleksandar who tried to break through the crowd.
"Alek..."
"You were awesome!" When the young man tried to hug Nina, she took a step back.
"It was just a short program..." The Russian skater muttered after a few awkward moments, and a light pink colour stole itself onto her cheeks.
"Are you all right?" From the emphasize of the question Nina understood he meant her foot.
"Yeah, I'm fine... A little bit tired..."
"And?"
"And? Nothing."
"You sure?" Alek hesitated, when he saw Nina shivering.
"No, I'm not, but I'll live. I promise. Thank you for coming to see me... Apparently, with that, you did more than my brother dearest..." The girl was not sure why she said that, it just slipped out before she could think. Maybe last night wouldn't be so hard for her if she would have Viktor by her side... But she as the one who didn't tell him she is injured... Maybe because he would demand her to withdraw from the competition...
"Ni...We talked about this already."
"Then why are you the one who is here and not him?" Nina didn't really want to keep up this topic but this whole situation made her snappy.
"You are just saying that because-"
"Because" The girl interrupted the other's sentence "I can't even tell him I have an injury while you know? When this became so twisted?"
"You miss him now more than usual, right?"
"I don't know why..." The girl muttered. "I just feel, something is different..."
"What?"
"I-don't-know!"
"You are just worked up, if you calm down a little, I'm sure-"
"NO! Just no... Please Alek..." The girl let out a shaky breath and leant against the wall, closing her eyes. After a few moments, she silently started to speak again, as if she would be talking only to herself. "After I moved into my biological father's place, Viktor was glued to me so much, he literally took me everywhere with him, and now... People are drawn to new things, they treasure them, but with time, everything becomes granted... I became one of the things in life which were granted... But for me, he was the only thing what I could take granted... And I lost that too... I think that is what I'm feeling... Somehow... losing him. This is crazy, right?" Nina's laughter was shaky. "How could I possibly feel something like that? I know he is home in St. Petersburg, walking Makkachin or at the ice rink, practising... He always made Yakov crazy with how arbitrarily he took his training sessions..."
"You know, sometimes you not sound like a fourteen year old at all."
"Zakhar always says I was born middle aged, and he didn't need to raise me at all. Like if he would have raise me... Belarusian asshole."
Alek chuckled, and suddenly Nina felt his warm breath tingled on her skin as he spoke. "Everyone who takes you granted is an idiot, even if that someone is called Viktor Nikiforov. See you later."
In the next moment, she felt a light kiss on her cheek. Nina's eyes popped wide open, but she only could see Alek's back as he walked away. He kissed her exactly on the same spot where Zakhar did earlier...
"Sweet." Somebody snorted behind Nina. "I thought you wanted to get somebody to skate with, but it seems like you catfished some idiot who actually stayed after and turned into your boyfriend."
"I didn't catfish him." Nina didn't even turned back to see who is speaking. "And he is not my boyfriend. I would never catfish anybody. That's a horrible thing to do... And even more horrible you know what catfishing means."
"You know it too."
"At least I feel ashamed about it."
"No, you don't."
"Okay, I don't."
"You.. Well..."
"Hm?"
"You... were quite... nice... out there before."
To that, Nina squinted at the talker. It was of course Yuri. He was already in his costume but still in his shoes, while the girl was in her skates so momentarily, she was taller than the boy.
"Thanks... I like what you are wearing."
"Why? It's nothing interesting." The blonde Russian had black pants on and a light brown long sleeve under his usual blue jacket which he left open now.
"You don't look like a try hard Christmas tree. I appreciate that."
"Stay to watch the rest of today?"
"You mean staying to watch your short program? Sure. Especially because you did the same."
"I don't need a favour form you."
"This is not a favour. I'm interested. Here." Nina held out the little mole plushie. "Rub his belly."
"What? No! And don't shove that into my face!"
"It's not in your face... Don't be such a whiner, do it, it brings good luck."
"Why are you so attached to this... whatever is this."
"You didn't watch it when you were young? The little mole?"
"I had better things to do... Like raising money for my family... Not everyone can live off from her surname alone."
"Well," Nina's voice turned to ice cold "I had to watch it to forget I'm the most unwanted person at the place where I'm living and what I suppose to call 'home', with the persons who I supposed to call my family and who are loathing me... If I could trade that name or that money for a dad who picks me up after a practise, I would do and I know you would too. But unfortunately we can't choose our families, and you understand that just as well as me, so why don't you stop mocking me because of it?"
Yuri puckered up his lips and shrugged like if wouldn't care, but finally he reached out and poked the mole's belly with one finger.
"Happy know?" He muttered.
"You can have it."
"I don't want it!"
"Just take it already!"
The blonde Russian's face was like he was forced to eat a whole lemon, but he grabbed the plushie and mumbled something which vaguely sounded like a 'thanks'.
"Come, let's go." He waved to Nina and started walking.
As the girl put weight on her foot, sharp pain ran through her body.
"God damn!" She cursed under her breath.
"Your injury?" Yuri stopped and looked back at her.
"Yes... The medicine wears out slowly... But at least it's good for my headache."
"What?"
"You can only feel the worst pain in your body... If my foot hurts, my head doesn't. Well, at least I can forget about it a little bit."
"Know what? Spare me your weird biology facts... Can you walk or not?"
"Can... Just slowly."
"Don't you want to change into your shoes?" Yuri started to walk again, but in a slower peace, so Nina could keep up with him.
"It wouldn't help... But not a bad idea."
"Will you win gold like this tomorrow?"
With that question, Yuri echoed Nina's deepest fear at the moment.
"Honestly?" She sighed. "I don't know."
"Are you afraid?" The blonde Russian asked casually.
"No... I'm terrified." Nina admitted. "What if my foot never heals normally? What if my skater career ends here?"
"Your coach said, it's going to be fine, right?"
"What if he was wrong?"
"Then, you can thank it to yourself. I told you this might happen."
"Don't say that..." Nina whispered. He turned away her face, but Yuri caught the glimpse of tears in her eyes. "And don't be such an asshole. Not now. Not about this."
"Know what? If you are that scared, I can offer you to rub my plushie mole's belly tomorrow. They say it brings good luck."
"Thanks." Nina couldn't resist letting out a faint giggle. "Very kind."
"Nia... What I said earlier about you and your money... I didn't mean to-"
"I know."
Suddenly Nina was a child again, standing in the kitchen of the small apartment which smelled of coffee and cheap cigarettes. Yuri's father was sitting in the living room watching the TV with a glass of vodka in his hand while his mother was in the kitchen with curl-papers in her hair varnishing her nails with a cigarette in her mouth. They were not bad people, just old fashioned in the term how they saw their only son. According to them, children had to do what was told by the parents, especially if it was about free labour like cleaning the car, washing the dishes or taking the garbage down. They didn't have the nerves neither for noisy children, neither to listen to any whining, stories or fantasizes. They had their 'grown-up lives' and they certainly didn't have time for their son's figure skating career. Next time Nina was in the apartment, it was after they returned from the cemetery. They attended to Yuri's father's funeral. Since then, Yuri was a half orphan and the main provider for his family, while Nina was always the 'bad seed' between the Nikiforovs, living in the shadow of her older brother. They never said it out loud, but on that day while they were sitting next to each other dresses in black, eating cheap, dry shortbread, they formed a pact, swearing they never let anybody take advantage of their situation. They would show the world that even if not together, they will go forward without hesitating, proving they can't be defeated...
And here they were: their generation's best skaters, having no one to stand against them when they stepped onto the ice.
