[Erifef for yuletidenoah. Yes, this is a songfic, based on 'The Scientist' by Coldplay, excuse me in advance.]
i see you coming towwards me. like a ghost, fef.
these bubbles are so small, i kneww i'd meet you sooner or later.
i wwish i didnt have to.
all i can say is i'm sorry. and you're lovvely. you know that? i need you. i lovve you and that's a shitty thing to say right noww i know but…
i swwear, i never meant to hurt you.
can wwe just go back to the wway things wwere, before…
no? okay. i guess that's… you havve evvery right to say that. yeah. i'm not complainin.
… and there you go. i'll be runnin in circles tryin to find another one of you. one that doesn't hate me. i think that's impossible though. i fucked up pretty bad, didn't i.
i wwas treatin my life like a puzzle. like my wwhite science. but i shouldn'ta let that get louder than wwhat my heart wwas sayin, should i? it's hard bein a kid and growwin up, and no one said it wwould be this hard.
no one understands.
you still haunt me, fef. more than you'll ever knoww.
tell me you love me.