Hi Everyone! Sorry about the long update. It has been hectic in my life as I remarried in the church and am going to baptizing my child come Thursday. I hope everyone is enjoying my story so far. This chapter has been a long time coming and I hope ya'll enjoy it as much as I. There are just a couple of corrections before we begin. I realize at the beginning of the story I stated Cecilia aka Firebird's name as Cecily and later mistakenly changed it to Cecilia. I will leave it as Cecilia now and for further chapters, and perhaps go back to change the rest. Also I threw my timeline off at one of my chapter beginnings. I stated twice that X-Men had been gone for five years, unfortunately two years passed between the chapters so Chapter Three was supposed to read Seven years post disappearance instead of five. It was two years passed the day that Scott and Jubilee became an item when the X-Men returned after seven years away. Also I have posted bios to the characters on my story page. I hope you enjoy reading a little bit more about the team that I created. There are also some disclaimer's character's births and origins.

Disclaimer: The X-Men and co. and the concept of mutants in the capacity belong to Marvel. The name Tam comes from the series Wheel of Time by Robert Jordan. I receive no profit from any of my stories. They are created simply for the enjoyment of fans of these wonderful books and comics. Also the characters of Dysis, Piper, Penelope, and Chad were a joint collaboration between me and a friend.

Left Behind

The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.

Ben Stein

Chapter Seven

Faulty Decision's

Jubilee did not remember when she walked to this place, but she stood underneath a long, forgotten tree and sighed. She sat gingerly on the ground. Her balance already feeling off from the slight amount of weight she had gained from the pregnancy. She closed her eyes and started to do calming exercises. Cecilia was constantly on her case about trying to be less stressed, but Jubilee did not see how that was possible with the recent outbreak of FOH fights.

Scott allowed her on no missions.

Not that I would have gone, she thought to herself looking down at her belly and running a hand over the bump. It was her own rule that said no injured, pregnant, or person under 18 could run or be a part of missions. She certainly couldn't make an exception for herself.

A noise from the brush caught her attention and she glanced to the woods only a few feet from her. Logan appeared and sat beside her. She leaned against him in misery. This had to be the most twisted situation she had ever been in. Scott married to Jean and in love with Jubilee, Logan in love with Jean and Jean in lust for Logan, and Jubilee in love with Scott and very confused about Logan.

"We might as well be in some damn soap opera," she suddenly snapped. Logan raised an eyebrow as she stood up quickly. She tripped over her feet and found herself falling only to be suddenly pressed softly against Logan's body. Desire flared through her hormone ridden body and she cursed once again the parts of pregnancy that no one ever mentioned. Like the all consuming horniness. Logan's nose flared at the sudden smell of her desire. She stepped back from him in panic and turned to run. He caught her by the arm and turned her back around.

"We have to figure this out eventually, darlin," he said looking her dead in the eye.

"No we don't, As soon as I have Cecilia's go ahead I will be outta here," Jubilee mumbled. Logan's grip tightened slightly. Jubilee closed her eyes as tears suddenly welled up. What was she going to do? Nothing in her wanted more than to be with Scott, but that was impossible. It was tentative, but slowly Scott and Jean were rekindling the romance in their marriage. Jubilee had all but heard it when she had been swimming in the lake the other day and the two had found a romantic interlude on some rocks.

Jubilee still fought her attraction day by day of Logan for the reason that Scott stilled cared about her and it would hurt him. She needed M's cool logic, but Bobby and she were off on an undercover mission somewhere in Algeria. They would not be back for another couple weeks. Jubilee figured the worst part of everything was Scott being there at every appointment and appearing to help her down stairs and lift heavy items. He played the role of doting husband to pregnant wife. The only problem was he had a wife and it wasn't her.

"I'm damn well sorry that you were missing for so long and I moved on, but I am trying now! I'm sorry if it feels as if I cheated on you, but may I remind you that you knew I was alive, Jean, and you slept with Logan!" Scott's voice reverberated from somewhere closer to the lake house.

"You don't know what we went through and at least I didn't sleep with a girl I practically raised!" Jean countered.

"No you just screwed my teammate," Scott growled. The sound of a slap tore through the air and then Jean stalking away.

As Jean came upon Jubilee and Logan she snarled, "Looking for more of my leftovers? Would you like a list of ex's…or just the one's I screwed."

Jubilee stared in shock and felt her body start to shake. Logan found himself glaring after Jean in an instant moment of anger.

"She's just hurt, Logan, and she is partly right. That is easily what it looks like," Jubilee shuddered sadly and found herself leaning back into the embrace he was offering. Catching herself before she did yet another thing she quickly put her hands up to him and backed off.

"I have an appointment with Cecilia," she muttered and rushed off.

Logan watched her go, wary of her lie. She ran from him like she was scared of her shadow. He supposed he should be the one running, but he had gotten used to coming home to warm arms and able body in that other place they had gone. He thought that lost when they returned. Jean loved Scott; he knew that from the beginning. He did not expect anything that had happened once they returned. He found himself trying to decide if Scott was stupid or smart to stay with Jean. It was a hard choice; it was, between Jean and Jubilee. Both beautiful, smart, sexy, and different as apples and oranges.

Then there was this attraction of his own to Jubilee. He supposed it wasn't a surprise since she was one of his usual types, but there was also the feral feeling to growl whenever he caught Scott looking at her inappropriately. Jean had fled his mind soon after they returned home. He couldn't help it, Jubilee had flooded his senses. He felt as if she was his even if he could not convince his head of it. Gritting his teeth he turned and prowled back into the forest with women on his mind.

Med Lab

"Am I an excuse every time you must run from the feral wolverine? Do you wash your hair or fold laundry? There are other excuses instead of running down here," Cecilia told Jubilee straight as Jubilee buttoned her shirt back up.

Jubilee grinned wryly, feeling much more herself. She looked back down at the small bean on her ultrasound pictures. So little a thing her baby was. Boy or girl? There was still so much still to learn. She turned back to face Cecilia.

"I suppose they are, but who else am I to talk too? Half my team is off on missions."

Cecilia shot her a look and gave a shrug.

"Do you run from him because you do not want what is happening or do you run because you do?" she asked momentarily.

Jubilee shook her head in confusion, "I don't know Cecilia. I just don't know."

Cecilia sighed as she turned back to her work that she had been in the middle of when Jubilee rushed in the room. With her back turned she continued to talk.

"Jubilee, I am not good with this kind of emotional support. I am far too analytical. I just thought perhaps you were simply afraid to hurt Scott," she said almost offhandedly.

Jubilee shot her a look that confirmed her suspicions.

"Jubilation, listen to me now. I am your doctor and for that matter I tell you this. Undo stress because of a situation that you cannot reverse regardless of what you wish is not good for you or the baby. If you want Logan then go with it. You cannot control the decisions he makes. You deserve to be happy the same as him. Perhaps talking to Scott will help the situation?" Cecilia went on.

Jubilee nodded in thought as Cecilia's words sunk in. She was not even sure if she had ever heard Cecilia talk to her personally in depth before. The woman was almost obsessed with her research on mutant genes. Jubilee had never cared before as long as the doctor in residence took good care of the X-Men. She started to wonder if she had overlooked yet again the pain of loneliness in another teammate.

"Cecilia how would you like a research assistant?" she asked after a short silence.

Cecilia turned back around in surprise. She narrowed her eyes at her boss in thought. What was Jubilee getting at? She had always enjoyed her privacy and space, but an assistant would help with the grunge work of samples, cleaning, and paperwork. It would have to be someone of brains and integrity. She would not have some unintelligent dunce stealing her work and writing it off as their own.

She hesitated before speaking, "I will think on it and let you know by the end of the week."

Jubilee nodded satisfied and turned to leave. As she reached the door she turned halfway and remarked, "No one deserves to be alone all the time, Cecilia. Maybe you should go out sometime?"

Cecilia looked up again startled and watched the younger woman walk out the door. She smiled wryly, no one could ever accuse Jubilee of not being perceptive if not a little unwilling to see truth in her own situation.

Later that Day

Scott watched from the door as Jubilee tapped her hands on her desk in annoyance. She seemed perturbed over something.

"Problems?" he asked after a moment of watching her silently.

Her head snapped up and she blushed at being careless enough to not notice him.

"Come in. Shut the door." She said after a minute. He looked at her in shock. Jubilee had not allowed them to be in a room alone together for a long time.

He could tell she was nervous as she started to fiddle with the papers on her desk.

"What is it, Hon…Jubilee," he cut off as he began to address her as something more dearly. It had taken weeks just to get her to allow this bit of contact.

Jubilee sighed and stopped fidgeting. She looked up at him and started talking or rather made a statement. Scott looked at her in shock as the words she said rampaged through his brain. She wanted to start or "try" a relationship with Wolverine. How could she do this? How could she…

He stopped himself as he realized she was looking at him with pleading, scared eyes. He knew then that he could not stop her from trying to find some happiness through out the situation they were all in.

"Jubilee, I just want you happy," he managed to say before turning and walking out. He did not stop until he got to the garage and grabbed his keys. He slipped behind the will of his car and sped out of the drive way.

I'll be gone for awhile, Jean. I just need time away. He sent the message to his wife, not wanting to worry Jubilee further.