Me: Ello everyone i'm back after just 3 days go me :D
Sakura: Yay that means i'm one step closer to not being like a permanent version of inner me.
Me: Wow you kind of are too O.o Finally figured out what inners problem is, she had a traumatic experience in her younger inner days.
Sakura: But that would mean i did because she's me!
Me: but she's totally different from you so i don't think she is and before you can argue i'm going to start the story cause i win that way yay! so here it is...
I made my way through the door of the Uchiha mansion and headed for the shower but unfortunately was stopped before I got there by Itachi. As soon as I saw him I had a mini panick attack almost preparing myself for a fight, but I fought the thoughts in my head telling me he was dangerous and convinced myself that all memories of him were unreal and he could be trusted. He seemed to have noticed my inner turmoil as he looked at me with the little bit of worry that he could muster up.
"I heard about the amnesia." I looked down in shame at his words, knowing that he must think I was horrible for having imagined up him killing our clan. "You know, you have one messed up head. If I was going to kill everyone you'd be first to go. It'd be great to get rid of your annoying self." I caught the joking tone in his voice and looked up at him confused.
"You're not mad?" he chuckled at me and placed his hand on my shoulder.
"Why would I be mad at you for that. It's not as though you could control it. Maybe if you'd dreamt up me being beat by you then I'd be angry but even in your fantasy world you weak so it's all good."
"Shut up. I could kick your ass any day."
"Really? Maybe we should take this outside." I glared at him and very almost took him up on the offer until I remembered I had to go to the cabin.
"I'd love to but I've got somewhere to be."
"Your not going to meet up with Sakura again are you? You really upset mum with that. I know you have some weird bond with her but you need to realize that it's not real. She's trouble, trust me I'd know."
"I already told mum I'd given up o…" I paused thinking over what he said for a minute as he looked at me like I'd grown a second head or something "what do you mean you'd know?"
"Just trust me Sasuke. She's not worth the effort. She pushes everyone away and if they don't leave she gets violent. Why do you think Ino gave up on her? Poor girl almost ended up in hospital just because she wanted to help. She has serious anger issues. It's best to leave her alone, you especially. I'm surprised she left you last night and didn't try to seduce you into her bed. That's the kind of girl she is, not whatever the hell you have in your mind. I know you told mum you won't see her again but you said that the first time. I'm warning you Sasuke, stay away or you're going to get hurt."
"It's lucky I didn't plan to see her again then isn't it?" I said as I pushed past him and into my room.
I don't know how long exactly I had been in my room, thinking about what Itachi had said. Sakura being this total witch was one thing but hurting Ino for trying to help her was just too much to handle. Sakura wasn't a violent person unless she had to be, well except towards Naruto and she didn't exactly beat him to a pulp. The Sakura I thought I knew and this real one really were completely different people. I couldn't help but wonder if she'd still be this way if her clan hadn't been massacred or if she'd be the Sakura from my memories. The Sakura I loved so much that I was willing to ignore the real horrible one with hopes that I would get my Sakura back. It also worried me what my brother had said. I knew he was hiding something from me. Something to do with Sakura and himself and from what I had been told about Sakura it wasn't hard to guess what, but I didn't want to believe that. Having strangers touch her was bad enough. If I found out my brother had also I wouldn't be able to stand it. Fake or not, to me Sakura is sweet and innocent and he is the definition of evil who up until only a few days ago I hated, or at least I remember hating. The thought of the two together though just wouldn't leave my mind, I could see his grimy hands all over her body and it actually made me feel nauseous to the extent that I threw up. I needed to know it didn't happen and there was only one way I was going to find out. I knew Itachi wouldn't tell me and so I'd have to ask Sakura.
I looked towards the clock and cursed myself for having gotten so distracted. It was almost eight and I hadn't even taken a shower yet. I got up trying to ignore the thoughts plaguing my mind and headed to have a shower. It was probably the quickest shower I'd ever had and I was clean and dressed within ten minutes. I made my way out of the house and towards the forest in search of the cabin, subconsciously making sure that nobody took notice of where I was going.
It didn't take too long to find what I was looking for and I managed to arrive just before half past but I stood outside the door for what seemed like hours, contemplating whether I should knock or just enter eventually deciding on the latter. I opened the door and walked in and as soon as I did all thought of Itachi were gone and the only thing I could think of was the beautiful, naked goddess walking towards me. I watched as she finally reached me and began to unbuckle my belt. Funny thing is I wasn't looking at her amazing body but her beautiful face instead. She had actually looked like my Sakura when I walked in, apart from the nakedness of course. She seemed so happy to see me walk through the door, the kind of happiness I'd expect to have seen from fake Sakura if I had gone back to the village. Admittedly it was only there for a second but it told me that no matter what people said she could be changed, she could become like the Sakura I remembered.
Once she had discarded of my clothes she began to kiss my chest and slowly her mouth moved down, trailing butterfly kisses right down until she got to my very hard cock. She looked up at me for a moment and I saw pain flash across her face but just as I was about to ask her what was wrong her mouth captured my member and all reasonable thoughts went out my mind. The feelings shooting through my body were just too intoxicating to think straight and my thoughts only became normal when Sakura was cuddled up to me asleep.
I liked how we were at that moment with Sakura's head on my chest s I played with her hair. She looked peaceful in her sleep, like she didn't have a worry in the world. Seeing her like this made me determined to help her and convince her that if she let people in they wouldn't leave. I'd do whatever it took to make her look like this all the time.
Eventually I got bored of playing with her hair and began to trace my fingers down her arm, taking in every intricate detail. It was only now that my thoughts were clear that I noticed the scars all up her arm, things I had seized to notice during our moments of pleasure. At first I thought they were just battle scars but on closer inspection I noticed just how perfectly placed and neat they were and horror overtook me. She had done this to herself. There were one's which couldn't be more than a couple of days old and others which looked like they had been there for years. I grabbed her arm and looked at one of them more closely and I must have grabbed her arm a little rough because I heard her moan and open her eyes, shooting a glare in my direction.
"What the hell are you doing?" she grumbled at me, clearly still tired.
"Looking at your scars. What the hell is wrong with you? Why would you do this to yourself?" I shoved her arm into her face so she could see the many scars adorning her arm. She looked at me blankly and grabbed the hand that was wrapped around her arm, prying my fingers off.
"I don't think that's any of your god damn business." The peaceful look on her face was definitely gone now, she looked unbelievably pissed. "Why don't you just leave."
"Cause I think it is my business and I am not leaving till you tell me why you've been cutting."
Not leaving may have been a mistake on my part because suddenly she was furious and I only just managed to dodge the chakra infused punch that was aimed at my face. Itachi hadn't been lying, she really did get violent, but as violent as she was I knew I couldn't just give up, instead I dodged her punches over and over watching as she got angrier, and then suddenly she stopped throwing punches and just fell to the floor crying her eyes out. I stayed where I was for a moment checking that she wasn't trying to trick me, and then when I was sure it was safe I went over to her and hugged her weeping form.
"why won't you just leave?" she said between sobs and the pain in her voice made me hold her more tightly.
"Because I care about you and I'm probably the only one who even has the slightest idea how you feel. I want to help you Sakura. Whatever you want to do, I'll help. I'll help you find and kill your brother to avenge your family whate…" Suddenly Sakura looked up at me confused and angry all at the same time, stopping me in my tracks and then she pushed me away.
"Why the hell would I want to kill him. He's my brother, the only family I have left." She said chocking back sobs. Her words swirled around in my head and I just couldn't understand them. I was supposed too have made up these memories from her past so surely she wanted to get revenge on her brother like I had. What confused me even more was that she still classed him as her brother. He had killed her whole family, her mother, father, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandparents. Literally every member of her family had been ripped away from her by that man and yet she still classed him as a brother. I just couldn't wrap my head around it. She must have noticed how puzzled I was because she began to explain it to me.
"He killed everyone I love and yet he kept me alive. He told me I wasn't worthy to kill and yet he had killed babies and small children who weren't even strong enough to defend themselves. I knew my brother so well and he wasn't a murderer. He'd play with me, help me train and comfort me when I was upset because I had been bullied for my forehead. Never had he even shown any signs of hating any member in my family."
"So your saying he didn't do it?" I asked and she shook her head, a fresh batch of tears pouring down her face as she recalled memories of a happier time.
"No he definitely did, I saw him with my own eyes take the life of my parents. I'm saying there was a reason for it. He wouldn't just wake up one morning and decide he wants to kill everyone in the family. When he did it of course I was angry and wanted to hurt him like he hurt me but then one day I thought about it and I recalled watching him kill my parents and I noticed that for a split second he had shown remorse at having killed them. I don't know why he did it but I know it wasn't to hurt me and leave me an orphan." She looked down for a moment, letting her tears fall to the floor and then suddenly she smiled, that true Sakura smile "I remember when I was younger. Just before the murder actually. He told me he'd always be there for me to protect me." She looked up at me again "Does that sound like a guy that would kill your whole family and leave you alive just to hurt you?"
I didn't reply but just looked at her instead, thinking about how I had handled the situation and never really thought about how Itachi could have done it. Sure there was tension between him and my father, with all the pressure of needing to excel in everything, but that wasn't enough reason for him to have killed everybody. There was no real reason I could come up with for him having killed children even younger than I had been; he had even killed a baby. It made no sense for him to have done that and then I realized it didn't matter because it had never happened. I had no reason to care about his motives for doing it because it was never actually done.
"You think you understand me because in your mind you've been through the same thing but you don't Sasuke. You and I reacted totally differently to it. You thought it best to kill your brother and in order to do that you betrayed the village for some creepy pedophilic snake guy and I just go on living. The only thing the same about it is that we both wanted to become stronger. I did it so if something like that were to happen again I'd be able to protect people and you did so you could kill. You also can't understand because your hell ended when you woke up to find your family there infront of you. It was all just a very realistic nightmare to you but I'll never wake up from this. I'll be forever haunted by the images of my family dead on the ground. I'll always know that it was my brother who caused it and I'll never wake up to find my mum cooking in the kitchen or my dad training in the back garden. Eventually you'll regain your real memories and your pain will go away, mine never will. That's why you can't possibly understand."
"But I know what it's like to hate the idea of people getting too close out of fear of losing them. I understand that you've had to lock away your heart from the world because you can't even stand to think about experiencing the pain of losing a loved one again. I know what it's like to hate yourself for not having been there to at least attempt to save your family. Real or not I still know how all of that feels and I know that you feel those things too."
Sakura suddenly stood up and walked started walking across the room, she bent down, grabbing my clothes from off the floor and chucked them at me before retrieving her own. She no longer looked angry at me and she had managed to stop the flow of tears rolling down her face. The stoic expression I knew so well was now in place and it told me that I wouldn't be getting anything else out of her tonight and so I got changed. I was pleased that I had gotten something out of her and although I didn't get an explanation for the scars or even a chance to ask her about Itachi I was content. I didn't want to push her too far and loose her. I was playing it safe, hoping I would be able to get a little more information out of her every time we had our encounters. Eventually I hoped that all the anger, loneliness and pain concealed within her would lessen and she'd become a little less bitchy and more like my Sakura. Once I was done getting changed I walked over to Sakura and before she could protest I gave her a short but passionate kiss, hoping my care and love for her would be shown in it. When we parted I headed towards the cabin door and just as I was about to leave Sakura spoke.
"Your wrong you know. I don't let people in because there not worthy of my time. They're all weak, pointless idiots and ye I wished I had been able to do something that night but I don't feel guilty about the fact that I didn't."
I nodded and left the cabin, a small smirk on my face. I knew she was lying, she was trying to protect herself having already opened up to me so much. She didn't like the fact that I knew how she felt so well. It made her feel vulnerable and her tough girl persona wouldn't allow that. I've got to admit though I never thought I'd make her open up to me that quickly, maybe it was just because she realized I was serious when I said I cared, or maybe she realized that no matter how much she fought me I wouldn't leave. Whatever reason it was I didn't care as long as she carried on doing it. I was hopeful that I could help her out of the shell she was hiding in and make that sweet innocent girl of my memories a reality. It would take time but I hoped eventually even the villagers would learn to love her again.
Sasuke: I'm so out of character in this!
Me: yes but you have kind of woken up to having your family alive, stops you being your bitter twatty self :D
Sasuke: I'm not bitter, it's not my fault everyone annoys me.
Me: Denial! Now cause out of character you is so nice you'll say the goodbye's for me, won't you? -glares-
Sasuke: tch! Review cause Fallen Angel want's to make this story enjoyable for you so you need to tell her that it's all a load of crap and she should change it so i'm not some stupid sissy boy!
Sakura: I like you like this and i bet the readers do too. He's right though, you should review so that angel can make the story even better. Arigato and sayonara x
Me: Thankyou Sakura-chan at least your nice! byebye everyone x