Sonny had come home that night after signing the divorce papers and completely lost it. He cried till there were no tears left. He sat on his bed, going over what his life had become, in less then 6 months, his second business was a bust, his current business was going downhill slowly, his marriage had come to an end...and now he had nothing to live for. He had not seen his daughter since Will took her to LA. Now he didn't know if he was ever going to see her again. He felt like his whole world was crumbling around him, he had nothing to live for. He had lost it all. When? How? Why? Questions he had no answers to, kept creeping in his brain till his frustration lead him to his first drink. He wasn't the kind of guy to become easily addicted to anything, so for him this was nothing more then some much needed solace to calm his mind. He needed to get back into focus, to get his business back on track. Maybe, just maybe, his life would not suck so bad.

It had been about a month now, since he had signed the divorce papers and it was all Sonny could do to forget Will. He still loved Will, a part of him still was furious at Will for cheating on him, but God help him he still loved Will. He wished he knew what or how he could have loved Will differently. Then maybe, this is not where they would have ended up. He knew his thinking was futile. Will was now with Paul and from the talks of it by Paul, they were happy. According to Paul, Will was not ready to see him, and that did not sit well with Sonny. Did Will hate him that much? Again, Why?

Sonny spent his days working to a point of completely shutting his brain off from personal issues, then he would come home and drink till he felt numb from the pain that still existed in his heart, and fell asleep. Try as he may, he felt like there was something wrong with this whole scenario, but if he let his brain think too much, then he would feel pain and that was something he could not allow. He could not feel broken. His business was slowly back on track. His bank account was back on the positive side, he even paid off Will for his portion of the money that he had spent when he was trying to get his second club off ground. Paul had said, Will did not need the money, but Sonny had insisted because he felt obligated.

That was the another thing, every time there was some news to deliver or something that needed to be said to Will, it was always Paul who came. Never Will. Sonny wondered if Will had ended up hating him so much that he was not even able to stand the sight of him. But that would make no sense. It was after all Will that cheated on Sonny, not the other way around. Furthermore, it was Sonny that had done everything to make Will happy, so why would Will not come to see Sonny or even deliver the divorce papers in person? What could he have done to Will that made him hate Sonny so much?

Sonny had no time to contemplate these questions, he had his business to run in the days and his bottle to keep him company during the lonely nights. On one of these days, he was working at the bar, while Ben and T served the tables, and Paul had come in pushing a stroller. At first Sonny thought he was imagining things, but then he heard the familiar squeal of his little girl and he all but ran to see Arianna. When their eyes met, it was like love all over again. Arianna had her arms up wanting to hold him and Sonny felt like his heart would explode from the sight of his little girl. She had gotten so big and yet she was his little angel. He scooped her up in his arms and they held each other, for what felt like an eternity.

That was until Sonny heard his little Arianna say 'I love you, Daddy Sonny'. It was all Sonny could do to not cry in front of his patrons and his friends. T and Ben saw the exchange and took charge of the bar and the restaurant. They knew Sonny needed this time with his daughter. Paul handed Sonny Arianna's stroller and said that Will had to go in for an early meeting and he had plans, so if it was ok, Sonny could keep her till Will came by and picked her up. Sonny nodded his agreement and went back to paying attention to his daughter. He took her to his office and sat down on the chair, and put her on his desk and they started to chat.

Sonny made Arianna her favorite sandwich. He was shocked to see his little girl eating big girl food, and she was able to say if she liked something or not. She was feeding herself, and above all she demanded Sonny make her sandwich the way she said. If it was cheese before the ham, then that was how it was supposed to be. Sonny smiled. Nothing was ever going to make him say no to Arianna. It wasn't often that he would have such moments with Arianna. He watched her as she consumed her food and drank her juice. As per her request, the juice had to be apple and it had to be organic. Sonny wondered how she knew such things, but he didn't care. He more then obliged his little girl and all her quirks. She even insisted on washing her hands before and after finishing her meal. That was something new for Sonny, as he was used to taking his daughter to the sink to wash her hands. They do grow up fast. Again it was Paul that came to pick up Arianna, making some lame excuse for Will.

He wished that at least Will would come to see him or at least apologize to him, he felt that Will owed him that much. Then again, when ever Will had tried to talk to Sonny over the phone, the wounds were so fresh, that Sonny had ignored all tries and never gave Will a chance to speak his mind. Of course, for Sonny, it would have meant a finality of his relationship. Right now the way things were, even though the divorce was done and over with, Sonny felt like Will was still in his heart and for some unknown reason he thought that Will felt the same way. But to have Paul come and speak to Sonny on behalf of Will was very unsettling. It was as if Sonny wasn't even worth the effort to communicate with.

So this went on for a while, finally Sonny got frustrated and made an attempt to contact Will. But he couldn't. He tried to call Paul and it was answered immediately. Sonny told Paul that he would like to talk to Will if possible. Paul, with a very cocky attitude, told Sonny that he would see how Will felt and that he would let him know later. Sonny felt something was off, why would Will be only communicating to him thru Paul. He had known Paul for a long time and to think that Paul would do something like this on purpose was not something Sonny believed. He wondered why Will kept him at arms length. So a couple of days later, when Sonny was busy with paper work in his office, his work phone rang and Sonny picked it up without seeing who was calling. It was Will.

"Sonny? Hi, its me, Will."

"Will? What do you know, you are capable of calling me. Why haven't you called me earlier?"

"Paul told me you wanted to talk to me, so what is it I can do for you?"

"Do for me? Seriously, Will? I thought you were the love of my life and that you felt the same way about me, don't you think I even deserved some face time with you? Do you think I deserved to be served with divorce papers from your new boyfriend? Didn't have the guts to face me?"

"Divorce papers? I don't understand. What are you saying? I thought that is what you wanted. Isn't it?" Sonny heard some shuffling noises in the background and then he heard Paul say something to Will to which he heard Will answer "of course, Paul. I know you love me and I love you too."

"Will, if you are going to talk to your BOYFRIEND while on the phone with me then spare me. I don't need to hear your love confessions to each other." And with that Sonny hung up. Sonny felt the tears threatening to flow so he let the them flow freely down his cheeks. How easily had Will said 'I love you" to Paul, how easily things had changed from Will loving him to Will loving Paul. He thought he was over it, he thought it wouldn't bother him to hear Will and Paul together, but he was wrong. The words they spoke to each other brought more tears to his eyes and more anger in his heart. Anger and pain, slow burning pain.

He wanted...no needed to know what had changed. What had made Will fall out of love with Sonny and fall in love with Paul. He wondered if Will's love for him was really as strong as his love for Will was, After all, Will had only come out and Sonny was his first and only boyfriend and then they married. Sonny wondered if it was all too much for Will. If it was, what in God's names would possess Will to say yes to him and marry him. Why? Why? Why?

More questions he had no answers to, more questions that were swimming around in his brain, now added to that was the pain of hearing the 'I love you's' between Paul and Will. He could not handle it. He felt like his world was collapsing all over again all around him. He missed Will. He loved Will. He wanted to hate Will, but only pain and remorse kept his heart company these days. Pain of loosing Will to Paul and the remorse of pushing Will so hard to commit that it cost him the only man he had really loved. The only man he would truly, completely and whole heartedly love. Will. His Will was now Paul's. How?

Sonny had been sober for a few days after Paul had brought Arianna to him. But after the call, he had started to find solace in the bottle again. He had not heard another peep out of Will or Paul. No surprise visits from Arianna. For Sonny, loosing Will was one thing, but to loose all contact with Arianna was heart wrenching. He knew it was bound to happen, he was prepared. But his heart still held out hope that he and Arianna would be able to see each other on a regular basis. That was not to be. Why would Will punish Arianna for something he held Sonny responsible for. More questions. Nope. No more questions. Now it was time for him to take charge of his life and move forward just like Will had. So he did the only thing he could think of to make that happen, he opened another bottle of Whiskey and didn't even bother to pour it in the glass this time. he just put the bottle to his lips and turned the bottle upside down till his mouth was full of the nectar he needed to forget his previous life.

Sonny's days were work and drink. He started to drink during work as well. He would take quick swigs of a drink here and a shot of tequila there. He thought that no one would notice, but T and Ben were quite aware of the decline of their boss. They wanted to step in and help him, but for that, he would have to admit there was a problem. They had tried once to tell him to slow down on the alcohol, but all they got was 'if you want to work here, work and leave me the hell alone'! They knew it wasn't Sonny talking, but the alcohol or the pain in his heart. So all they could do was watch and grieve for their friends Will and Sonny.

He made it sound like he was living life to the fullest and that he was just having fun being single again. But T and Ben could see the pain behind the words and the tears that would fill his eyes, before he would pretend that something was in his eye, excuse himself to go to the bathroom and get rid of the offending matter in his eye. Neither T nor Ben fell for that line, they knew better. T had seen the divorce papers that Paul had brought by, he had seen Paul bring Ari to see Sonny and he knew Will well enough to know something very deep and disturbing was going on. He had no proof, so he kept his mouth shut but his eyes and ears wide open.

Now that Sonny was openly drinking, it was time for T to step in and take charge of his friend/Boss. He loved Sonny like a brother, and he would be damned if his best friend would treat Sonny like this. He remembered how once upon a time when Will had told him that he had loved Sonny more then his life and that Sonny was the best thing to happen to him and his daughter, so the sudden avoidance and ignoring of Sonny was not sitting well with T. So he called Will, and he got Paul instead. He was told Will was busy writing a book and did not want to be disturbed, so T left a message to be called back again.

Sonny had declined so much with the drinking that half the time he was in the club he was drinking the merchandise and had to be sent home with some excuse or the other. They did not want to offend him, so they had told his parents about it and Victor had made excuses of wanting help at home with some projects to keep Sonny away from the club. It worked for now, at least. Sonny was so far gone, he wouldn't have known a lie if it hit him in the face.

By the time Will had called T back, it had been a few days they decided to meet in the park. When T came looking for Will, he found out he was early. So he sat on the bench and called Adrienne to check up on Sonny. Apparently, Adrienne and Justin had confronted Sonny about drinking and he had left the mansion last night and was not heard from since. T promised them he would go and look for him around town after he finished his appointment. T hung up just in time to see his friend walking towards him, and guess what? He brought along his boyfriend. How wonderful, T thought.

T and Will greeted each other with a hug and T asked Paul if they could talk privately. Paul kissed Will and left. T did not miss the exchange of when Paul went to kiss Will, Will moved his head just in time for the kiss to land on his cheek instead of his lips. T thought that was odd. Will was never shy about showing his love for Sonny in front of him, ever. So why worry about that now? But he let that slide for now. T and Will hugged again after Paul left and T just smiled at Will, so happy to see him after what seemed like a lifetime!

"It is really good to see you. Where have you been?"

"I am sorry for just disappearing on you. I just needed time to understand where I stood with Sonny. Then Paul came along and basically swept me off my feet. Then the whole whirlwind romance led to our moving in together. So I guess, I have just been busy with living. Paul is very good to me. He is great with Arianna also. That is more important to me. You know."

"Yeah, I guess that would be important, but what about Sonny?" T asked, needing an answer about how he could just forget Sonny and move on with Paul without any rhyme or reason. Or so he thought.

"Yes Will, do tell us what about me? After all you did cheat on me, you didn't even explain to me how you could leave me at my lowest point and move on. This was the last thing I expected from you." Sonny added after listening to the conversation between Will and T. He had spent the night in the park. He had come out here last night to clear his mind, with the help of his bottle, and had fallen asleep. He was woken awake with noises from the other side of the bush where his bench was. As he recognized the voices, he eavesdropped on the conversation. But when T asked about him, his anger got the best of him and he put his two cents in. Even though he knew he shouldn't have eavesdropped.

Will and T were shocked to see Sonny there and Will was even more shocked by the bitterness in Sonny's voice. He felt guilty at the fact that he had been the reason for the attitude change in Sonny. T went to Sonny and tried to put his hand on Sonny's shoulder in a show of support, but Sonny just pushed his hand away and walked up to Will and stared at him in anger and repeated his question.

"What about me...or us Will? Did I do something to make you go and sleep with my ex? Please explain to me what it is that Paul has given you that I cannot."

Paul had just walked up when he heard Sonny's voice and he knew that Will would need moral support and so he walked up to Will and put his arm around his shoulders and looked at Sonny with concern and worry.

"Sonny, I didn't know you were going to be here? I am sorry for all this, but I already told you, Will and I are quite happy together and I really don't want you to make Will uncomfortable. You just need to get over it and move on. This is not healthy for you."

Sonny was about to answer back with more bite, but he was stopped by T and saw the fear in Will's eyes. Sonny couldn't understand why Will was being like this. He was basically acting like Sami. Everything that Will hated about his mother, he was actually doing it himself. So he cooled down a bit and asked Will point blank.

"Will, I promise you I will never interfere in your life from today on wards, just answer me one question. Are you really happy with Paul? I mean really happy?"

Will looked at Sonny straight in the eyes and spoke with such determination and convict, "Yes. Yes, I am. I really love him and we are meant to be together forever."

"Forever?" Sonny asked when he remembered Will sending him a picture of their wedding and wrote the same words on the picture, FOREVER. Now Will was using those same words to describe his love with Paul. He felt like he was hit in the stomach again. But before anything else could be said or done, Sonny heard T saying bye to Will and Paul and then T was by his side. T helped Sonny sit on the bench and sat with him. T then helped Sonny to get home and he went to work.

Sonny sat in his room and looked at the picture that Will had sent him and the words that were written there. He wanted to wipe those words and throw the picture away. But, something was stopping him. He thought that Will was talking to him, talking about him when he said the words 'forever'. But he knew Will was talking about Paul. So why did Sonny feel that that word was directed to him. Why?

I am so sorry guys for posting this so late. I have had a few health problems, but I am much better now. I am already working on the next chapter and I promise it will be up as soon as I am done. I wanted to add a little of what is happening on screen on this story, but I am going to wait till the next chapter. Please bare with me. And thank you all for the wonderful reviews. You guys sticking by me is really inspiring. Please read and review...Please...