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The drive back to the house was silent, there really wasn't much left to say at this point.

Spencer was going through an emotional time now that his first daughter was gone. Before the team arrived that day, he tried countless times to call Lulu and as how she was doing, but she never picked up. He even called the school and begged them to give her a massage from him, but she never returned them.

He spent the three days until his team came, crying and praying that his daughter was safe and sound. He couldn't take losing her, after already losing his wife.

"Reid…are you alright" asked Morgan gently. Spencer sighed heavily, "I just…miss my daughter so much. I drove her away…because I couldn't let her grow up…. She wanted to go to this university that is a few states away…I didn't let her and now…she went on her own and she won't talk to me…I'm so worried…"

Hotch who was also in the car sighed too. He could understand Spencer's emotions. A parent would never feel better until knowing for a fact that their child was safe and sound. "I'm sure she will call you soon Reid…she loves you" he said.

Spencer had small tears in his eyes, he just wanted his daughter back…or at lease know that she is ok.

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At the house, the team went to bed after a long day of travel and a good dinner. Spencer went into his son's Chris's room to tell him good night, but he noticed that he was crying in his chair.

"Chris what's wrong" he said as he rushed to his son's side and put his hand on his shoulder. He sniffled, "Tonight…I went out with that girl I told you about…it was my first date…after we left the diner and watched the movie…she kissed me…and then ran over to her friends who were hiding in the bushes…she said they made a bet that she could stand one date with "the nerd" and then left me…"

Spencer sighed heavily but his mind was filled with angry thoughts. How dare they think that fooling someone's heart and emotions was funny? Did anyone have a soul anymore? He hugged his son and rocked him gently.

"Chris…you're not a nerd and she was just a juvenile girl that clearly doesn't know the first thing about relationships. You're smarter and more mature about that. You don't have to rush dating Chris. There are so many girls out there…you just have to find the right one…just be yourself and don't doubt yourself."

Chris smiled, "Yeah…forget her…still I'm going to ask her tomorrow to pay me back for the movie and dinner."

Spencer laughed and hugged his son.

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Spencer read Emma a bed time story and kissed her goodnight. When she was tucked into her bed, Spencer left to go to the kitchen to get a glass of water. There at the table waiting for him, was Hotch, Morgan, JJ and Garcia. He stopped dead in his tracks and sat down at the table.

"Reid…we wanted to let you know that…were still very upset that you didn't talk to use for years now" said Hotch in a stern voice.

"We want to help you Reid…you have to come to terms that your wife is gone and you can't throw away your old life just because of that" said Morgan.

Spencer sighed, tears stung his eyes "I…I'm sorry guys…God I'm sure a failure as a father and a friend" he dropped his head in his hands and sobbed.

The others went over to him and comforted him, "Spence…you're not a failure. You have three wonderful children and you're a great friend and person. We love you but you have to let us be there for you" said JJ.

Spencer still cried and they helped him to his room to let his emotions and stress out. It's been so long since he last was able to let every guard and defenses he put up around his emotions fall into a large heap.

He cried for a long time and then Rossi came in and also helped comfort Spencer.

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The next morning Spencer finally got a call from Lulu

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