"Kaoru? Darling, why are you crying?" A woman with orangish-red hair that looked much like the twins asked.
Kaoru just looked up at her as he cuddled into a ball in the corner of the bedroom he was in. He opened his mouth and whined, "I don't know what's going on."
"Look, mommy's going to leave you for awhile, okay? You've been with mommy's friends for a long time, and I'm going to come back for you, so wait here for me, alright?" The woman continued. Kaoru began bawling and he latched himself onto her leg.
"Tell them Hika-chan's my brother, tell them, mommy," Kaoru sobbed.
"Darling, you're not my son anymore, Hikaru's not my son anymore. You can't ever tell anyone I came to visit you, alright? Your father and I... got rid of you awhile ago, we promised you two that we'd come back, and we will. Hikaru's such a blabber mouth though, he says everything," She laughed and bent down and hugged the mini Kaoru. "People will lie to you, and I don't want you to listen to them. They'll say Hikaru's not your brother, they'll say we're dead, they'll say you're evil, but don't listen to them. People lie a lot, and I want you to blank them out for mommy. Blank them all out and they can never hurt you. I'll always be here, and I'll come back for you, okay?"
"Okay," Kaoru sobbed. "I'll just blank them all out. All of them, right?"
"Right."
"You will come back right? Come back for brudda Tama and Hika-chan?" Kaoru asked, rubbing tears away as he tore away from his mother. "And ME. Wight?"
The lady nodded her head. "Right, now I have to go, Kaoru."
"Mommy!" Kaoru whined as he sat in the corner of the room.
"Kao-chan? What's wrong?" Tamaki asked as he walked into the room and bent down and sat next to Kaoru, wrapping his arm around Kaoru. "What's wrong wittle brother?"
"People are mean," Kaoru explained. "I hate 'em."
Then Tamaki wrapped his arms around Kaoru and pulled him close to his chest and he moved his jacket so it covered Kaoru.
"Tama? Tama?" Kaoru called, crying again.
"Here. I'm your cocoon," Tamaki laughed.
"Cowoo?" Kaoru asked.
Tamaki laughed and hugged his brother. "They can't see us."
Kaoru had never forgotten it, and now he sat in the Host Club, hiding himself in his cocoon.
"Kao?" Tamaki asked as he walked over. "What're you doing?"
"I don't know," Hikaru answered and the customers with him shook their heads. "We don't know what's wrong, and he won't talk. He just hides in there and he said it was his cocoon, and that we couldn't come in."
A smile slipped onto Tamaki's lips.
"It's brother Tama," Tamaki whispered. "And I can't find my brother."
Kaoru dropped his blanket and wrapped it around Tamaki's shoulders and pulled Tamaki down onto the couch and he snuggled up to him and sobbed. This was the brother he remembered, who wasn't really his brother. No, he was his brother. His birth mother said she'd take Tamaki with them when she took them away, she'd take Hikaru, Kaoru, and Tamaki.
Tamaki wrapped his arms around his little brother and wrapped the blanket around his arms and hid the two in the blanket.
"What're you two doing?" Hikaru asked.
"You can't see us," Tamaki replied and snuggled closer to Kaoru, and Kaoru sobbed a little harder and kicked his legs.
"Tama! Tama!" Kaoru sobbed. "I'm confused! Mommy said! She said!"
"Mommy?" Tamaki asked. "Kao, mom is dead."
"My mommy!" Kaoru shouted. "Our mommy! She said! She-"
"...You can't ever tell anyone I came to visit you, alright?..."
"Nevermind," Kaoru whispered.
With the warmth of his brother, Kaoru began to fall asleep, with everyone's eyes on the two. Kaoru heard all the whispers too, but it didn't matter to him. Tamaki was his cocoon, and no one could see them. No one. They just thought they did, they just wished they did.
Hikaru guessed, abuse finally got to Kaoru.
"Tamaki-sama, what's going on?" One of Tamaki's most precious customers asked as she walked over. "And why are you cuddled up to a riff-raff?"
"You can't see us," Kaoru and Tamaki chimed. "Go away."
Kaoru closed his eyes again and snuggled his brother.
"I love you," Kaoru whispered.
"I love you, too."
Hikaru smiled sadly and he realized, that Kaoru wasn't his. Hikaru let go and allowed Tamaki to be with Kaoru, and now Kaoru wasn't his anymore. Kaoru wouldn't snuggle up to Hikaru in bed anymore, he wouldn't kiss those lips again, and he wouldn't hold that body again. The next thing he knew, he was bawling too. It wasn't his. That beloved thing of his affections, he denied it, he refused to believe it. He thought she was his point of affection, but surely he must have felt it once he met Kaoru? Surely, he did, he could feel something different everytime he looked at Haruhi.
He ignored it though, and now it wasn't his. It couldn't be his. All his anguish and hatred and sadness from when Kaoru left him before, and now that Kaoru was leaving him now, came from him in those deep, long, drawn out sobs. Hikaru looked much like the state Kaoru was in earlier, and Kyoya found himself wondering which twin was actually with Tamaki. Kaoru and Tamaki ignored Hikaru, no matter how hard it was, they both wanted to help him, but this was their cocoon.
Kaoru finally moved and he pulled the blanket with him and Tamaki stared as Kaoru scooted over to Hikaru.
"It's our cocoon," Kaoru explained as he wrapped the blanket around Hikaru and he tried to hide them both in it. "And they can't see us."
Hikaru tried to hold back his tears, because Kaoru was here now. Most of the customers were all gone now, as they felt the tensions rising. The rest of the club huddled around the twins in their little "cocoon" and Tamaki sat staring at them.
"When people are mean, you blank them out," Kaoru explained. "See, it's our cocoon? They're all gone now. It's just us."
Kaoru blushed and snuggled up to Hikaru under the blanket Tamaki place above their heads and he wrapped the first one around them so no one could see the twins. Hikaru gasped and held Kaoru. He was sure of it, he had liked Haruhi for years, but he'd liked Kaoru longer. He'd liked Kaoru since they were children, since they were babies. Kaoru was his, and he didn't want to share him, but he knew he'd have to do with Tamaki. This annoyed him severely.
"What is this?" Haruhi asked once every single customer had left by the shooing of Kyoya.
"Something weird," Kyoya replied, not very interested, but staring none-the-less.
"I taught it to Kao when we were toddlers. I taught him that if anyone bugged him, I'd protect him in our cocoon. It blocks them all out, and it's just us. When we come out, we're happy and safe again, beautiful. We're butterflies then. I don't know, I taught it to Kao once, I don't remember why. It was our tradition though."
Kaoru dropped his and Hikaru's cocoon and he explained, "Some of my parents didn't like me, and they made me cry, and then they got madder. So I hid in my cocoon, because I'm supposed to wait."
"Wait for what?" Kyoya asked, suddenly interested.
Kaoru looked away. "I can't tell."
Kaoru was about to get up, but Hikaru's arms wrapped around his stomach and pulled him back down into his lap, and Hikaru spread out his legs, so Kaoru sat infront of him with Hikaru's legs around him. Kaoru blushed and smiled and he leaned back and started to fall asleep.
"I'm telling you though, she promised me," Kaoru mumbled. "She promised me."
"Who promised you?" Hikaru asked.
"You're a blabber mouth."
Hikaru felt hurt and muttered, "Blabber mouth?"
"Yeah, that's what she told me."
"Who?" Kyoya interrupted, now sitting on the couch next to the two. "Kaoru, tell me, who promised you what?"
"SHE promised to take us back," Kaoru hissed. "All of us. She also made me promise me not to tell, so that's all I can say to you. Good day."
Kyoya blinked and backed away and Kaoru blinked as he turned his gaze to Hikaru, and he felt sad. He wanted him so badly.
"I love you," Hikaru whispered.
A smile immediatly attacked Kaoru face and he replied, "I love you too, Hika-chan."
Hikaru blushed and suddenly he pushed Kaoru off of him and he ran out of the room.
"What's wrong?" Tamaki asked as he walked out of the room.
"He-he's so cute," Hikaru whimpered. "How can you stand Haruhi?"
"You're asking me that?" Tamaki questioned, a bit irritated. "You, the one who calls me a pervert every minute you can? Something's up."
"Wow, you're pretty bright when it has to do with you."
"I'm always bright!"
"Then you'd know what's wrong."
"I have no idea, what's wrong?"7
"I think... I love him," Hikaru admitted.
"I know that, you just told him."
"Idiot! I meant I love as more than that!" Hikaru scowled. "I THINK I do anyway."
Tamaki smiled and whispered, "Well, he-"
"Tama?" Kaoru asked as he opened the door to stare at the two. "WHAT were you about to say?"
Kaoru looked so innocent, but Tamaki couldn't feel more threatened.
"How you feel," Tamaki replied. Suddenly, Kaoru innocence turned into a devil's gaze and he glomped Tamaki and began crying for him not to do it, that he'd die. Tamaki kept trying to shake him off. "What? He loves you! So why can't I tell him?"
"I know he loves me," Kaoru cried.
"More than that!" Tamaki shouted, trying to push his brother off of him. Finally, at those last words, Kaoru peeled off and he stood thinking, a finger to his lips. "Gosh, Kao, honestly. You need to tone down your drama a bit more, don't you think?"
Kaoru looked away and he started to walk.
"Kaoru!" Hikaru called. "Wait!"
He didn't stop, instead he started running out of the building and Tamaki scowled and they all ran after him.
Kaoru... was lost.
Again.
"Who're you running from?" A dark voice asked.
"My twin brother," Kaoru admitted. "My big brother was going to tell him how I felt, and I thought that if I ran, he wouldn't tell."
The man in the black robe laughed.
"What're you doing in this dark part of the school?"
Kaoru bit his fingernail before replying, "I didn't wanna leave the school, someone was trying to kill me. So, I thought I'd go somewhere Tama hates, so he'd keep looking for me for a long while."
"Don't you think your twin brother might get hurt instead?" The man asked, readjusting the thing that was on his hand.
"I guess."
Kaoru smiled, blushed, and pulled the thing off of the man's hand.
"Don't touch Berenzef!" The man scowled as he tried to grab the cat puppet back.
"Aww, it's adorable," Kaoru squealed and put it on his hand. "Can I get one?"
"Sorry, it's for Black Magic Club members only."
"Join the Host Club and I take over this club, and I get Berenzef. Sound fair?" Kaoru tried to negotiate.
"Mr. Suoh hates me," The man tried to explain.
"What's your name?"
"Nekozawa Umehito."
"Oh yeah, Tama talks about you quite a bit. He's really scared of you, isn't he?" Kaoru laughed and twirled around, still holding the cat puppet.
"How do you know him?"
"Older brother."
Nekozawa blinked and nodded his head solemnly at Berenzef, which was on Kaoru's hand.
"You can take care of my darling Bereznef until you're finally able to tell him how you feel," Nekozawa finally gave in.
"OKAY!" Kaoru shouted and glomped him. This was how Kaoru thanked people, he was just getting his happy state back, and that was when he was a child, so he thought he should act like he did when he was in kindergarten, even then, Kaoru was one of the weird people.
"Y-you're welcome," Nekozawa replied, uncertain to this affection.
"You got a cool cocoon," Kaoru noted as he pulled away. "Can I have one, too?"
"Umm, sure," Nekozawa replied uncertain and gave Kaoru a cloak. Kaoru stuck it on and bounded off, not quite fitting the look he was wearing. Nekozawa scratched his head and whispered to himself. "Wow, what a weird child. Is he Hikaru-kun's brother too?"
"Kaoru... what's wrong with you?"
"They're gone, your friends, they died," Kaoru whined and cried. "Someone got them."
The woman sighed and hugged Kaoru close to her again.
"I promise, I'll come back for you, please, don't give up on me," She whispered.
"Give up..." Kaoru whispered. "I already gave up."
That was the last time Kaoru ever saw his mother.
These memories haunted Kaoru daily and he wished he could get rid of them. He hid in his room now, the room he shared with Hikaru. The lights were off and he had Nekozawa's cloak on and he cuddled inside of it next to the bed with Bereznef inside with him. He was sobbing and crying, because he couldn't get those memories out of his head.
The worst memories were of his life as an abused child, and those were the strongest.
"Kaoru?" Hikaru asked as he opened the door and turned the light on, only to notice the huddling black mass next to his bed that was trembling. "Kaoru! We looked all over the school for you, and finally Nekozawa told us you went home. What did you think you were doing? Talking to the creepy gothic, catworshipping Russian?"
"Shut up," Kaoru scowled. "Leave me alone, please."
"What were you thinking? You had us all worried!" Hikaru shouted.
"Go away..." Kaoru whispered.
"Kaoru-kun? Where the hell are you?" A voice rang out.
Kaoru huddled under the bed, his hands over his ears.
"I'm in my cocoon, I'm in my cocoon."
A hand reached under the bed and Kaoru jumped and crawled back farther under the bed, his hair getting caught on the springs. A voice came from not far away and it snarled at him, "Kaoru-kun? You're down there, aren't you? Get the hell out, I need to talk to you."
"Shut up," Kaoru snapped back.
The hand grabbed his foot and pulled him out, and he stared teary eyed at his second father, Kamimoto, the one who would non-doubtly, try to murder him later in his life. The man craddled him in his arms and whispered, "Kaoru-kun, you had me worried, don't do that to me. I need to talk to you. Do you have a twin named Hitachiin Hikaru?"
Kaoru nodded.
"I thought so. Look, Kaoru-kun, twins are bad," Kamimoto tried to explain. "Do you understand what I'm trying to tell you?"
"He doesn't know he's my brother," Kaoru countered. "So it's not that bad."
"Do you miss him?"
Kaoru nodded again and began crying.
"I want my brothers!" Kaoru sobbed. "I want my brothers!"
Kamimoto hugged Kaoru, and held him close. Because, he wasn't always bad.
Hikaru shook Kaoru, and he cried and cried still.
"Kaoru, what's wrong?" Hikaru scowled.
"It's just..." Kaoru tried to say but he still cried and choked and it was hard for him to say what he was thinking. "It..."
Hikaru growled, the constant crying was getting annoying. Suddenly, Hikaru's body was on top of Kaoru's and they were laying on the floor, Hikaru's hand pushing against the wall as the other cupped Kaoru's face. Hikaru's lips were on Kaoru's and he parted Kaoru's lips and his tongue entered his mouth. Kaoru blinked, what was going on? For sure, his tears had stopped falling.
"Hikaru..." Kaoru whispered between the kisses as Hikaru took a breather. "What're you doing?"
"I told you, I love you, and I just need this. I promise, I won't ever touch you again after tonight, just let me have this one night," Hikaru gasped and began kissing Kaoru. Kaoru's leg itched to go up and around Hikaru's legs, but he kept it where it was, just bending his knee a bit on one leg and he wrapped his arms around Hikaru's neck, tryingn to let him know that Kaoru wanted this, too. He wasn't quite sure if Hikaru got the picture, but at least Hikaru understood he had this night to express how he felt. Kaoru's heart throbbed, and his mind raced.
"Hikaru..." Kaoru groaned as Hikaru kissed his neck. "Hikaru! Stop!"
Hikaru ran his hand up Kaoru's shirt and removed his hand from the wall and wrapped that one on Kaoru's face instead as he kissed down Kaoru's neck and as far onto his shoulder as he could. Kaoru groaned Hikaru's name again and struggled a bit.
"Want me to stop?" Hikaru asked, breathing onto Kaoru's ear and making him shiver.
"N-no..." Kaoru admitted.
Hikaru smiled. "Good."
It must have been the labored breathing, and how hott his mouth was from kissing Kaoru's neck, but the breathing and talking on his neck and next to ear was finally enough, and Kaoru wrapped his leg around Hikaru.
Hikaru smiled and huffed again, before asking, "What was that for."
"I... love you too," Kaoru admitted. "Now get kissing."
"Yes, Ms. Heroine."