New York or Bust
Chapter 6: Enduring My Agony
Disclaimer: I own nothing, except my plot and the made-up characters.
Clary POV
A/N: I am sorry that it's taken so long. If you look at my profile,you will see that I have many stories running. My summer break is ending soon, so updates should be at the end of each month. For now, I will update 2 stories a week. I am currently looking for a beta reader. Thanks!
Magnus portals us to the Manor, so we can grab our stuff. I had a bag packed in case I needed to leave quickly. I didn't want to spend hours getting out of a place because I wasn't prepared. Magnus can just use magic. As soon as I grab my bow and dagger, I walk down to the main hall in the manor. The portal resides there. The Clave decided to give me and Jon a portal because of our contributions to both wars.
I have already fire messaged Izzy and Simon that I will be visiting the New York Institute and that we should get together. I am sure that Izzy will want to give me a makeover. She hasn't heard that Ale and I are officially together yet. Thinking of Izzy brings back memories of Pandemonium and the greenhouse. Thinking if Jace makes me tear up. I still have the witch light that he gave me for my 16th birthday. I wish that I wasn't running from another place that I called my home. I will have to move back to New York, after the threat that I gave Morgan. Jenna was training Alec and I to run the institute in Phoenix. I feel so bad, because Meredith an JAckson will come to New York with us.
"Biscuit! Your boyfriend is at the door. If you want to leave without seeing him, we need to go. The portal is just about open."
Then Alec busts through the door, right as Magnus gets the portal open. I know to think of Magnus's apartment.
"Clary! Don't leave! You can't leave" he whispers. "I know that you are angry at me for not telling you about your mom, but I know how it feels to lose a parent. I can help you through this."
"Alec." I look up at his sapphire blue eyes. The pierce my should like my seraph blade pierced my father by the lake. I can't look directly at him. It hurts too much. I know that I won't see him again for a while and he thinks that I am leaving him forever. I run to him and give him the most passionate kiss I have never given anyone. He gets lost for a minute and so do I.
I know I have to pull away. The second I do, he looks me dead in the eye. I can see the tears forming, but I know that they won't fall until I am gone. Alec has never cried in front of anyone.
I am about to step through the portal and I look back, and he is gone. I step through the portal and feel my heart break. When I land on the floor of Magnus's apartment I start to cry and bawl like I did when I was a 5 year old again. Magnus hears me and instantly runs over to me and crushes me with a hug.
As I walked through the portal, I knew I deserved to go back to hell. I had fixed the gaping whole in my heart and then I broke it all by myself and I knew that I would never be able to fix it unless I could get back to Alec. Soon I can't cry anymore. Magnus picks me up and lays me in his bed, so that I can sleep.
As I fall deeper and deeper into sleep, my dreams begin to look like hell.
I see Alec and I laughing and stealing kisses in Phoenix. I see the day he gave my the necklace and ring that I never take off. All the memories of us go up in flames and Lucifer plagues my dreams, by showing me images of Jace and Morgan, Carson and some girl, and worst of all, I see Alec with Lydia Branwell. His father had a marriage contract set up, but was never able to sign it because he died. I know that there has always been some sort of attraction, like there will be to Simon. When I was 13, he was my first crush. We had 3 years of almost dating and then I met Jace. We love each other, but we are better as friends than as lovers.
I am pretty sure that Simon is going to ask Izzy to marry him very soon. He texted me and asked me what size Izzy's ring finger is and sent me pictures of rings and asked me which did I think that Izzy would prefer. He is a very traditional guy. I overheard him talking to Alec on the phone asking for Izzy's hand. It made me tear up, thinking that my oldest friend, my surrogate brother, would be getting married to the love of his life.
Magnus brings me back from the depths of my hell. As I wake-up I find that I am shaking and having cold sweats due to my dream. I feel so guilty about leaving him, that I was causing myself to be sick over it. I knew that I would have to put all this behind, if I wanted to find out what happened to my mother.
Magnus is using a sensor, similar to Izzy's, that can track demon activity over a year ago. We are looking for a great shift in demonic energy, because Alec said that she was attacked by a large group of demons. It could also be a greater demon. I sigh knowing that Meredith is probably cursing at me in Idris for screwing up the best thing in my life.
I can feel the parabatai rune throbbing, like it always does when she is disappointed in me. I have had that feeling quite often lately. I hope that she doesn't try to track me, because she will want to help, and I don't need her getting hurt. Then, I hear the sensor go off, blaring and making noise to alert us of a large demonic disturbance.