Wedding Planner – Chapter 7
The following day was a Tuesday so that means that they need to meet up for the planning. As usual, Mikan and Natsume would meet up in the café where they always met up since then.
Today was unusually silent and straight to business because Miako wasn't there and Mikan was strangely silent today and so was Natsume. They only spoke when Mikan asked what the motif was and stuffs.
Miako entered the café silently. She was wearing a pink dress that are covered with coat. She curled her hair and wore an eyeglasses so that she wouldn't be noticed.
Today, she decided to eavesdrop cause of the evidences that she found in Natsume's iPad. She has no idea with what she's doing but if he wouldn't tell him the hell that's going on then maybe she would find out for herself.
She sat down 3 tables from the two of them. She can hear what they're talking about from there and there she heard that they're down to business. Haa, what's the effort for? She sighed heavily and then called a random waiter that took her order and then left.
From her spot she can see Mikan typing on her Macbook and Natsume checking out his Blackberry. She decided to turn her phone off for she reminded herself that she was there and if ever Natsume called they would hear the sound or vibrations of her phone.
"Ne, Natsume." Mikan started. She saw Natsume's eyes move to Mikan and stopped what he's doing. "About what happened the other day. I'm really sorry." She hid her eyes behind her bangs. Not letting him see her expression.
"There's no need to be. I just got carried away. I should be the one who's sorry." He said holding her hands.
What happened the other day? Miako thought but then decided to continue eavesdropping.
"Honestly, I would've answered that I'm still not over you."
Miako saw Natsume's eyes widened that shows that he's somehow jubilant about what she just said. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. Calm down, You're the one who decided to do this.
"Then, why didn't you?"
"I don't know. I just…"
"Mikan, you cant just answer I don't know. Everything has a reason. We always trip on the I don't know part." His voice raised a little. She looked away looking guilty.
"Do you know why I left before?" She took a deep breath, she forfeited and decided to tell him everything so that he would understand. He shooked his head.
"It was because of my dad who's in the military…
"Mikan, we need to move. We cant stay here anymore." Mikan's mother said as she got her bag and packed her things up.
"Right Now?" She rubbed her eyes and sat on her bed. Mikan's mom nodded and sat down beside her and patted her daughter's back.
"babe, I know you will have a hard time understanding our situation right now." Her mom gave her a sympathetic look.
"What's going on?" She asked looking shocked for she sensed that something bad is going on.
"Your dad got killed."
"What?" She stood up and took steps backward. "what are you saying? Where's my daddy!" she bumped her back on the wall and then she sat down and started sobbing.
"Honey, I know it's a great loss. I lost him as well and if we won't move from here the guys who killed him will kill us as well."
"No. No! I don't want to!" Mikan covered here and pinched herself cause she thought that this is just a nightmare.
"Honey, understand." Her mom approached her and sat down in front of her.
"Mommy, I don't care if I get killed or something. I Just don't want to leave this place. I only have this place as the memory of my dad. I don't wanna loose this." She plead and held her mom's hands as if begging her to stay.
"Honey, no we cant stay here. It'll be for our own good." Her mom said.
"I… I don't wanna leave Natsume behind." She said and faced down.
"Mikan…" Her mom patted her head and Mikan rested her head to her mother's shoulder. "Love is all about timing." She said. Mikan looked up to her with an expression that says: What?
"If the two of you are meant for each other, then in the end it'll still be the two of you even if the two of you are at the opposite poles of the earth." She explained. Mikan stopped crying. "Honey, you wouldn't want him to worry about you if you stay here. I mean, you wouldn't want him to see you crying, don't you?" Mikan nodded.
"We're leaving tomorrow morning. So, you still have time to say goodbye to Natsume." Her mom kissed her and continued packing up.
Mikan sat down on her bed and decided to stay up the whole night.
"I don't know if I should tell you but at that time, I'm certain that I wouldn't want you to worry about me. It's because I love you… So much, that I would rather hurt myself than hurt you." She said.
"Do you still love me?" He asked and took a deep breath. She nodded and then he smiled at her.
"Mikan… I Love you too." Natsume said. Mikan's eyes widened.
"…But, I have Miako with me. So we cant be together, anymore." He explained. Mikan's expression changed.
"I love her as much as I love you before and leaving her doesn't seem right. Cause, she cared for me and I felt that she's the one for me." He added. Mikan's tears started to fall.
"I get it now. I never should've met you after we parted." She said with a hint of remorse.
"Maybe, God sent the two of us to see each other again so that we can have a wider knowledge of what is going on between us. You know, the past hasn't been clear to me yet. Not until now." He said and faced down.
"Natsume, Don't you love me?" Mikan asked for the last time. Natsume nodded. "Kiss me." Mikan said. "for the last time. And after this kiss you wouldn't bother you again." She added.
Natsume's eyes widened. She stood up and so did he and then she started kissing him. Natsume felt that what happened before returned. As if his feelings for her is still there.
"thank you" Miako said to the waiter and then she turned to Mikan and Natsume and there she saw that they're kissing. She missed the part after Natsume said that he loved her too and what they did was enough.
"Oh My God." She covered her mouth and walked out of the room. She didn't even care if they noticed her or not. She went inside her car and started banging her head on the steering wheel and cried.
"I though he loves me but now I know that he still loves Mikan more than how much he loves me." She said to herself as she removed her glasses and watched her tears fall down through the rear view mirror.
She got a tissue and wiped her tears. I will let Natsume choose between the two of us but I don't want to loose him. He's everything to me. He's everything I wished for and now I found him, I don't want to let him go.
Even if he's not asking for forgiveness. I'll forgive him. Maybe he's just distracted right now. I don't know, maybe he has reasons and I understand. She told herself. But in the end, if he still chooses Mikan. I will try to understand but if he chooses me then, that's enough. I will make him happy and cherish him.
I just need to give him some time and maybe he'll realize and be able to choose. It'll be the best for the two of us. She concluded and started her ending and drove back home.
If you love somebody, let him free cause if keeping him with you meant hurting him then that is not love. That is being possessive & selfishness.
Miako finally understood what it meant.
Writer's block is approaching. This was suppose to be the turning point but looks like it wasn't exciting much :( sorry. :( I ran out of words. Sorrry, really :( I'm trying to make a story worth your time :( So, thanks for reading this. I promise to give my best in every chapter I do :(
Okayy, It's up to you :) Thanks for the reviews the last time. I update pretty fast ;) =)) This thing might end at January. I'm planning to make 18 chapters though or maybe I could make it shorter. =)) Okay then. Thanks :)
~Mady-Chan