I realize that when I'm moody I have the inspiration in continue this series, what is wrong with me? XD

And also that I haven't been updating for a month HOMG...

Just really busy with work and stuffs _(:'3 J And now here I am, updating it during work! XD /OPPS/

As usual, everyone belong to Murakami Maki, except for my OC and story plot, and also for all the supports and reading my stories. Thank you guys.

Entry 7. Lost

May 29, Friday

I told Hiroshi about Shuichi's situation after hearing it from him, as Hiroshi have the right to know.

Of course, he wasn't happy with it.

I mean, who in the right mind is happy about that situation, right?

It was despicable of me in making use of Hiroshi as a prevention for Shuichi to meet that trash, since I in any ways, doesn't have the stand in interfering his choice.

I'm just his doctor.

Since that day I lost contact with him till...

...

Hiroshi called up for me, in hoping to have a talk with me on Shuichi.

We met at the same cafe that we arranged to meet on our first meeting, and when I saw him, I was deeply in shocked.

He looked as if he aged 10 years despite it's only about few days since I last saw him.

"Hey Hiroshi... Are you, alright?" I asked, as he took a sip of his coffee with tiredness.

As if long period passed by, Hiroshi looked up to me.

"Kaine..." He called out.

"Yes, I'm here. What exactly happened? It's been so long ever since I last heard from you."

"I... Shuichi... I... can't bear it anymore... His situation worsened."

His words hit my heart so hard that I almost forget to breathe.

"In.. what way...?" I squeezed the words out.

"On the same day you told me about that trash, he came up to me and begged me to let Shuichi be with him again, giving all those f_king bullshits of 'I only realise Shuichi meant so much to me, he is the best and he will die without him and etc...'. I had a physical fight with him, cast-ed him out of the house and warned Shuichi not to meet that trash anymore."

"..." I kept quiet, looking down at the coffee, in hiding my emotion away from Hiroshi.

He continued.

"Shuichi cried, begged, but in vain. His parents knew about his situation and locked him up in his room. But somehow, he managed to sneak out to find Yuki. Before he could reach him, I managed to find him and tied him back to my apartment. He's now being locked, with his hands and legs tied up."

I looked up instantly with shock, how could he do that?

"I was expecting that from you..." He forced a smile.

"But that's the only way... Every single day he have been crying and smiling, all in his mind is just that trash. He's not willing to talk to me, I understand that, but even toward his family... He's just... He's not willing to take in any foods..."

As Hiroshi said, his voice wavered and cracked.

He was crying.

"Kaine... I have no one to go to now... Please... cure Shuichi... I can't stand it anymore..."

Upon hearing this, I... don't know what to feel.

Lot's of emotion overflowing me that I went back home unknowingly.

I promised Hiroshi that I'll find a day to see him, to understand his situation.

To be honest, I wasn't prepared.

I'm still struggling.

And yet things not going well.

I can never forgive myself if I make use of the current situation, yet, this is the only chance.

Please, tell me what should I do...

- Kaine