JustStockton: I don't know if you have watched TVD, but Bonkai didn't come in a calm path. In the show, Kai tortured Bonnie and she also stabbed him because of that. He did a lot of bad things to her to the point that she hated him deeply. After a lot of events, he felt guilty and went to ask for her forgiveness. This part... OMG! I was litteraly crying BONKAI! when I watched it. I'm sorry you didn't like my previous chap. Feel free not to read. It's understandable. Uhm, by the way, no, she wasn't pregnant at this time. Thank you for your review.

ShannonFin= God bless your wonderful soul, thank you so much. Kai stopped age at 27 yo so he is 27 yo. Xoxo

About Stefan... Let me tell you, he will be a bit different of the one of the show. He will not be ooc I hope but yeah the Ripper of Monterey is a sadist here... To be continued.

I adapted this fic with the end of TVD, so there will be stuff about it.

Enjoy the chap :p

Kai knew he had screwed up this time. He knew that it was his fault and had let himself be carried away by his vile impulses without listening to the voice of reason. Luke kept reminding him how bad what he did to Bonnie was, and how she wasn't obliged to forgive him. Even though, he did it, had stabbed her, he wanted her to understand that he was just jealous. He couldn't go apologize this night or even go sleep with her. She would kill him for sure. So, he stayed with Luke all night. Talking about some things and others until Luke literally fell asleep. Kai could not sleep that night. He only thought of the witch who slept in the other side of the villa.

He wondered how she would react now that she had seen this facet of him. He knew Bonnie was the kind of woman who has a great sense of forgiveness. Only this kind of woman could date a man like Stefan Salvatore, the Ripper of Monterey. If she could forgive Stefan, then she could forgive him, and they could continue where they had stopped.

Knowing already that there was not another man who waited for her was liberating. Stefan was trapped in a prison world with no possibility of escape. It saved him the job of going to kill him. He still wondered if they had broke up before he was trapped there. He hoped so. That way she wouldn't have feelings for him. That way Salvatore would be just her ex and that's all. Nothing to worry over. Kai was not the kind to share a woman's heart. He wanted to be the only one she thought of. He would have killed Stefan if he was free to come take Bonnie away.

True, there was Joshua in the image. Joshua was not really a rival for Kai. He was going to settle his case after, when the time came. He did not care about Joshua. Seeing how he treated the young witch, there was no way she would fall in love with him. She might fall in love with Kai. He wanted that. He wanted her to be his. He could not explain it. He just wanted Bonnie to be his.

Among the rows of bookshelves, Bonnie arranged books in alphabetical order. She was on a small ladder to be able to reach the high rows and arranged the books carefully. For her, it was a day like any other at work. Even though the memories of what had happened the day before yesterday popped in every second to her head. She had a headache because of thinking too much about the subject, so she did not want to think about it. She tried not to think about it,but it was too hard.

In the following two days, Kai gave her some space. Kai had not shown up, and it was perfect. He didn't come to sleep with her in those two days. No text messages, No call. Nothing. She liked that. It was perfect. Even though in those rare moments she wondered where he was, she did not want to see him, feel him or talk to him. She just wanted him to disappear of her thoughts. She knew she had to get pregnant, but Bonnie really didn't want to see Kai. There was a limit to what coerced things she could do.

In the library she did not want to be that girl who was forced into a marriage to pay her mother's debts and must get pregnant with twins who might become the leaders of a magical sect. She wanted just to be Bonnie, a book-loving worker who just got her librarian certification, was just hired to be a librarian at a large university library, and was waiting an opportunity for the job of her dreams. Bonnie was passionate about reading and literature. Reading hundreds year old grimoires at the age of 6 has created her passion for reading, she liked reading. She liked increasing her magic. She liked everything about it. Trough her passion she learned to use the 'expression' and become more powerful. Books were her power. She felt good being among them. She just wanted to be a normal girl. Not the other. She needed a break of all this.

The chime on her desk struck. Surely someone who wanted to borrow or give back a book. Bonnie went down the ladder. Being careful not to fall. Then she smoothed the folds of her tight sweater dress and walked proudly through the rows of the library. Some students looked at her ass when she walked. It didn't bother her.

"A delivery for Bonnie Bennett!" A man in UPS outfit said.

She sighed annoyedly, "It's me. I'm Bonnie Bennett."

"Here, it's for you. Could you sign this please?"

"Yes." Bonnie signed the recommended form and took the enormous bouquet of flowers that the delivery man handed her.

"Thanks. Have a good day."

"Thank you." Bonnie put the bouquet on her desk and took the card inside to read what was written. There was a brown rabbit badly drawn on it.

Forgive me.

Xoxo

"Jerk!"

She crumpled the paper and threw it in the trash bin. Bonnie was getting annoyed. Since that day, he had not stopped sending her flowers of all kinds: roses, tulips, orchids, freesia, azalea and even camellias. Since yesterday, she has not stopped putting them in the trash. A brief look in the trash bin under her desk, and she saw it full with the previous bouquet of flowers received. Bonnie decided to go and empty it in the garbage bin. She did not want to face this bullshit the rest of the day.

Ten minutes later, she was outside the library, behind the building where the garbage bins were. She threw all the bouquets carelessly into one of the open strands and wiped her hands before going back to the building. The noises of her heels echoed on the gravel path that led to the entrance to the library. She was careful not to slip. The snowfall was not as strong as it had been two days ago, but it was snowing notwithstanding. The white snow covered the ground and everyone was in winter clothes. It was the winter season, so it was cold outside. At least today the sun shone through the clouds, and there was no icy wind. Just the cold winter.

In two days, she doesn't feel sick anymore. Even her back pain disappeared. The Kai's blood had cured her of the pangs of the flu that circulated these times as well as the fever. In fact, she felt healthy, at the top of her shape. That was at least a good thing to get out of what he did.

"Bugs Bonnie..." She stopped walking."Bonnie..." Kai said slowly, and she began to walk again. "Please! Bonnie, just listen to me. I'm really sorry for what I did to you. I searched the right way to tell you that face to face, but I couldn't find another way than tell you I'm sorry." Bonnie didn't stop walking while Kai talked while following her. "BONNIE!" Kai shouted her name very loud. So loud that people around turned to look what's going on. "Please..." She stopped, but didn't turn back. "Okay. I get it. You're mad because I stabbed you three times, but when we think about it, it's a proof that our relationship is getting stronger than ever. It's just a fight. We can go through one fight. Don't you think?"

Bonnie turned quickly, and she opened her mouth to say something before closing it. She was at a loss of words. She did not know what to say or where to start. Kai was kind of special. Saying such a nonsense to her. Asking for her forgiveness. Yet he seemed very sincere. Bonnie frowned. She opened her mouth to talk, but nothing came out.

"Bonnie... I'm sorry. Please forgive me."

The jaw of Kai clenched. He swallowed his saliva hard. She knew it because she could see the movement of his adam's apple, and his eyes... They were full of regret. She almost fell for them, but she remembered what she had been through in the past. How she had suffered because of the craziness of a vampire. Bonnie did not want to commit the same errors as before. She learned hard that no one could go against nature. Kai was a vampire, and she was a witch. She had nothing to do with him. He was a murderer, and there was nothing to add. There was no relationship to talk about. Bonnie turned heels and started walking away from him without a word.

"Wait- Wait-" He grabbed her hand, and his hand caught instantly fire. "Damn it! Why- I just want to apologize." He extinguished the fire on his jeans. His leather gloves were ruined. He looked from left to right, to see if anyone had noticed, but no one had payed attention. Maybe they thought they were a couple who were having an argument in the snow. When he finished with the fire, he saw Bonnie walking and disappearing in the library building. He followed her quickly. Bonnie passed behind her desk, rummaged something in her lockers and pulled it out from there along with her handbag. She took her coat, her hat and her woolen gloves and walked around the office.

"Where are you going? Bonnie?"

She stopped to take her phone which was vibrating in her bag. She stayed like that a little while, standing before the office and she was tapping some messages on her phone. She ignored Kai who stood next to her.

"It must be your lunch break. Uh, let's have a meal together. I will eat whatever you want to eat. Just tell me what you want. I'm parked just-" She kept ignoring him while she finished texting and disappeared into the rows of books. "Nearby. Geez! This shit is not easy at all. But you don't know me, Bugs Bonnie. I will wait for you until-"

"Hi, mister," A pretty blonde with brown eyes said.

"Wow. Hey, you." Kai proudly re-arranged his expensive long coat. The blonde student was not so bad. She looked young, maybe around 20. She was very pretty and had a big boobs that she enhanced with a neckline despite the cold.

"Are you searching something? I'm a student here. I'm Mindy. I never see around before. Can I help you? Just ask me what you need... I'm sure I can help with something."

When Kai laughed, she laughed too. She didn't understand yet that the only reason he laughed was because she was flattering his big ego. Mindy couldn't help it. Kai is a handsome man, very good-looking and besides being young and handsome, he was rich. Mindy could tell his coat, tux and shoes could easily more than 20.000$. Kai was definitely her type. Even if she was blonde and petite, he wasn't interested in Mindy at all.

"I have high expectations. I'm not sure you could help."

"I can try. You can teach me." She flirted and Kai giggled.

"I'm not good at teaching."

She took a step, "So we could learn together."

"The girls nowadays! I swear I miss the old times."

Mindy was too young and impetuous for him. She had a nice cleavage though.

"What's your name?"

"Bye Mindy." Bonnie passed near to them.

"Oh! Hey, bye, Miss Bennett." The girl said. Kai hastened to catch up with Bonnie. The idiot had not even seen Bonnie coming out of the library. Mindy's big boobs were very attractive. He couldn't help.

"Bonnie, Wait wait. Don't be jealous. I didn't Look at her boobs. Well, uhm, just a few seconds, but I like yours far better. Bonnie? Wait- wait." The witch walked as if she were going to war, but she was only going to have a lunch. "Urgh! C'mon Bonnie, wait a minute. We can go eat together. I know a good Italian restaurant. Oops, not an Italian. Forget the Italian. Let's eat in a Japanese one. Do you like sushi? Sashimi? Dashiki? Bonnie could you stop a minute. "

"WHAT?"

"Do not be so aggressive." He raised his hands to prove he had nothing on him. "I came here to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry, okay? I was very jealous and upset and all my feelings mixed up." Bonnie was beginning to lose patience, "Okay. It's all my fault. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. I know I crossed the line, but I'm really sorry." She stayed silent. "I'm sorry... But you're very pretty." Kai said softly, "I know I made a mistake, and I'm sorry about that. Don't you want to talk? You do not want to talk... Obviously."

"I give you two choices: leave or die. I can make both to happen."

"C'mon..."

Bonnie was angry. Really angry. But seeing Kai feeling guilty in this way was absolutely adorable. She was fighting against herself not to forgive him right now.

"Last night, I felt so pathetic, and pathetic, and pathetic. What we started... I want to keep doing it. Do you remember the kiss? How it was? I want it to happen again."

"HEY, BONNIE!?" Someone called her, and she turned to see her long-time friend on the other side of the road. They used to have lunch together because the Oregon Health and Science University was not far. Elena, the med student, made her a great sign from a distance. "THIS GUY IS HANDSOME! DO NOT MAKE HIM RUN AWAY."

"I'M COMING." Bonnie shouted back to Elena with a forced smile on her lips before resuming her poker face and turning to Kai.

"You have a friend, and I didn't know. What am saying! Of course I know you have a best friend named Elena. The same best friends you never present to me. At least she's not blind. She can recognise a handsome man when she sees one. What a beautiful brunette you-"

"Enough."

"Okay... By the way did you miss me?"

Bonnie frowned, "Why-"

"Because I missed you... A lot."

"I have to go."

"What do I have to do if I have to see you?"

"I don't want you near me, Kai."

"C'mon, Bonnie, don't be so cruel."

"You think I'm cruel while you're the one who stabbed me?"

"I said I'm sorry..."

Bonnie had heard enough. She turned her heels to leave, but Kai grabbed her hand to hold her back.

"You can burn my hand again if you want, but I want you to forgive me. Listen, I wanted to tell you something." He approached her, close enough so their faces were a few inches apart. "I kinda... I kinda like you."

"Me?"

"Yeah... I really do. You, do you like me?"

"It's just been six days since we started to really know each other, and you want to make me believe that you like me? Don't bullshit me. I'm not naive."

"I like you. I really do. Why don't you believe me?"

"Because you stabbed me, Kai. Don't you realize that you almost kill me? How could you even think I can forgive you? How could you be so... Argh!"

"Sorry... I never felt this before."

"That's not a reason to hurt me."

"I said I'm sorry. "

"It's not enough for me to forgive you."

"That's how it works for you? I'm the only one who has tried to create something between us, but you keep pushing me away. Yeah, I stabbed you. Yeah, it was stupid. And yeah, I'm sorry that I hurt you. But for God's sake, stop acting like a robot. We shared a lot of things together. Even a sociopath can see there is something between you and me. Why don't you see the same? Why are making things so... HARD! FUCK, I'M TIRED."

Kai grabbed her wrist. It reminded her of what happened before he stabbed her. Bonnie did not know what he did to her had traumatized her. She couldn't believe she could be traumatized by that, but she was terrified before Kai's mood swing.

"You are a fucking hypocritical. You keep your silence just to use people as you want. You're hypocritical, and I hate people like you. Admitt it, you're mad at me because I remind you your precious Stefan." He spat with venom.

"Take your hand off me," she said with a trembling voice. Kai was surprised to hear her voice trembling. He looked at her wrist in his hand and let her go as if he touched fire. "Don't come near to me!" She said when he wanted to approach her. Kai hated the look she had. She looked at him like he was a monster. It gutted him seeing Bonnie looking at him with so much mistrust.

"Be honest... Do you feel nothing for me?"

"It does not matter what I feel."

"It matters to me. What we have shared matters to me. I don't care about Joshua. We can fool him as we want. In spite of your expressionless face and your silence, I have known how to read into you, and I know who you are inside. We aren't so different than you think. You and me, hide our true face to people so as not to be hurt by them. I know what it feels. There isn't a person in this world who can understand your silence as I do. This link we share together matters for me... You and me."

"You're wrong. I'm not like you."

"The first reaction that you had when I badmouthed your Grams was to make me recall the saddest memory I have. Even if there was no blood flowing, that was as cruel as a knife in the stomach. Tell me I'm wrong again." Bonnie didn't answer. He was right at his point. Maybe they were similar after all. "I want to apologize for what I did. I didn't want to hurt you like that. I regretted it after."

"Kai... It's useless. There will be nothing between us but sex."

"What do you mean? But... I told you earlier, I like you. I confessed something. Doesn't it matter for you?"

"No, it doesn't matter. You don't matter for me. Don't you understand? I don't care about you."

"S-seriously?"

"What do you want to hear from me?"

"There is a lot of things I want to hear from you. This is me being conscious of my feelings." He grabbed her arms, "Don't you understand that I have feelings for you? I can't stop thinking about you. I need you, Bonnie. We have something here. We can use it to be stronger, together. Why are you acting like I'm not good enough for you when your ex is the freaking Ripper of Monterey? He's worse than me even though you had feelings for him. I can't believe you don't have feelings for me too. It seems you have a crush for monsters, AND I'm a monster too. What's the problem with you?"

"What would you want me say? That I won't be there? That I loved a monster and that I keep loving him? Do you want me to say that your father disgusts me, and each time he touches me I want to vomit? That when you stabbed me, I feel betrayed? Yes I do. I hate this situation. I hate where I am now. I hate being with you in this kind of circumstance. I hate having sex like it's nothing, but I have to for my survival. It is the price to pay for my freedom, so I will pay it. I can not feel. I can not like somebody. Even though we had sex, it was just an act of reproduction for me. Nothing more, nothing less. "

"Look me in the eyes, and tell me you feel nothing for me."

"I feel nothing for you."

"I see..." Kai said harshly. He nodded and smiled sadly. "Apologizing doesn't matter for me, then."

"I have to- I have to go." Bonnie turned and quickly walked away from Kai.

"Bonnie..." He was almost singing with a sick smile on his lips. He changed. He wasn't the same Kai that was talking about feelings minutes ago. He was the bad Kai. The one who stabbed her. The one she disliked. "I have to remind you about the impregnation deal. We have 4 days left. I want to finish my contract properly. Be in my bed when I come home."

"I will." She answered coldly and began to walk again. Bonnie wasn't insensitive. Somewhere in what Kai confessed to her, he broke something in her heart, but Bonnie had to do it. She had to be strong. She needed him to be a monster, so she could easily leave him when the time came.

"If you tell anyone about today, I will make you live a hell."

"I'm already... Living a hell."

During the lunch break, Bonnie was lost in her thoughts. The images of the discussion with Kai merely assailed her thoughts. He was not just coming to apologize, but he also told her that he like her. What does it mean? Bonnie realized that Kai was interested in her, but she thought it was just a game. She would never have thought it would go that far. How did they get there? To the point where he tells him he like her. The fact that he stabbed her in the stomach was important, but all that remained was this statement. This statement touched her deeply. He looked really sincere, and what he said about her was not false.

She went through a lot of things with Stefan, and it ended up in a fiasco. Forgive, forgive and forgive without regrets. She did not want that kind of life anymore. She wanted to live for herself and do things for herself. Bonnie felt that after all the sacrifices she made for others, she also deserved to be selfish for once. All she wanted was to get pregnant and disappear after giving birth. Living far and hidden and maybe be happy. The fact that he like her did not take them anywhere. Yes, he liked her and then what? This path would undoubtedly lead to more sacrifice and more pain. She wanted to avoid all that. She did not want to think of anyone else but herself. What's wrong with that? It is her life after all.

She has the right to decide who she likes or not. With whom she sleeps or not. Why couldn't Kai figure it out? How he dared to tell her such things when he knew everything about what she has endured. How pretentious to think that he could improve anything in her life because he could not. He did not have that power. Joshua had, and that's why she was married to him. That was why she agreed to have sex with him several times, whenever he wanted. Even though she felt disgusted every second of it. Why didn't Kai understand? He dared to claim that he was the same as her when he could not understand the basis of her refusal.

Soon she should leave to stay with Joshua. There was no way Kai could stand it. That would create problems and more problems. Bonnie was tired of that.

"Hey Bon! Are you listening to me?" Elena pouted, "You seems to be out there. You did not even eat your lunch."

"Uhm? Oh, uhm, sorry. I thought."

"What were you thinking about?"

Bonnie tried to smile, but it came out as a grin, "Nothing important."

"Bonnie!" Elena said in a stern voice, "I don't like when you do that."

"Do what?"

"When you hide things from me when I tell you everything about me. I feel like I'm talking alone, and I'm very frustrated when you do that. I swear if we were not childhood friends, I would dump you without hesitation. Forget all about our past together and find another best friend."

Bonnie had a mocking laugh, "I'm sorry. And I'm glad to be your childhood friend, so you can not dump me." Elena rolled her eyes, "Sometimes, I just feel like I'm on a big wave and I get carried away by the wave without knowing where it will lead me. I try to swim, change the direction, but the wave still leads to same place."

"You sound sad. We should get drunk."

"I'm a poor drinker. I'm going to tell things that I should not. You know that."

"THAT'S THE POINT! You should talk more." Bonnie smiled sadly, "I miss the old Bonnie..."

"I miss her too." Bonnie answered sadly then took a deep breath and tried to smile at her friend, "About Stefan's brother, you should date him if you want. I'm okay with that. He's an unbearable jerk, but I love you. If you're happy with him, then you should be with him. I will always be there for you no matter what."

Elena took her friend's hand and smiled at her as well. She knew how much Bonnie was a wreck when Stefan disappeared and even before that when he switched to Ripper mode. Her friend endured much because of him, and she no longer wanted to hear about vampires. Elena and Damon were together at the same time as Stefan and Bonnie, but at that time their relationship was not stable. They often broke and got together to break afterwards. Since Stefan left, Damon was becoming more stable and they planned their future together. Elena was afraid that Bonnie would refuse a vampire as brother-in-law because Bonnie was like a sister to her. All she wanted was that she would accept Damon and she would not feel bad talking about their shenanigans with her best friend. Bonnie accepted that. Elena was so relieved and glad to have Bonnie like friend.

"Are you going to cry? Because I do not want to do your make-up after that. I'm definitely not in mood." Bonnie said before Elena jumps on her to give her a hug.

"Thank you. Thank you. Thank you." Elena had a shining smile before she have puppy's eyes, "Is it too soon to invite you to come to talk to him?"

"Yeah, it's too soon."

"It's been years..."

"I didn't get this far as I want. It's not easy to forget." Bonnie put her head on the shoulder of Elena while the med student began to eat her salad composed. "He doesn't help me to forget."

Elena almost choke her salad, "WHO? IS STEFAN THERE?"

"No. Of course no." Bonnie giggled, "Don't choke on your food. You're the med student. Not me. I'm sure I'd kill you if I tried to give you mouth-to-mouth. "

"Fuck. I thought he was back."

"No, he can't. Where he is now. It's a place there is not coming back from. "

"Ooh..." Elena started eating again. She did not try to question Bonnie. When you asked about the disappearance of Stefan after the massacres he caused in Mystic Falls, she closed on herself as an oyster and can wait days before you hear her talk again. Damon was also touched on this subject. All he said was that he was looking for a way to get his brother out of there, and he would never stop looking. Elena did not try to dig with both of them.

The two girls were sitting on the floor in a white stairwell somewhere in the Portland University Hospital. It was quiet, clean and warm. The perfect place to eat and chat about gossip and life. Bonnie was not hungry, so she did not eat. She kept her head on Elena's shoulder and stared at the rising stairs in front of her.

"You didn't tell me about 'handsome guy'. You have to tell me about 'handsome guy' quickly, Bennett witch."

"I'm obliged to?"

Elena made a noise of indignation, "If you do not, I'll publish all your drunk pictures to my Facebook." It was Bonnie's turn to make a noise of indignation, "Sorry." Bonnie laughed before hitting Elena's arm, rubbing her arm before making a pout. "Did you remember when you did a streaptease on the table in the-"

"Alright. Alright. You win you shameless human."

"First of all, who the fuck he is?"

Bonnie hesitated. She had not said anything about Abby's debts, the threat of the hunters, and the connection she had with the most powerful Portland family. In fact, she had not even told her that she was now a married woman. How could she explain the situation to her? Elena would tell her to ask Damon for help or worse to live under his protection. Bonnie would rather die than ask anything from Stefan's brother. Bonnie was keen on life, so it just shows how much she hates Damon Salvatore.

She just told Elena that she dated a man who is in his forties and that he takes care of her. She did not give details, yet Elena always wanted to plug her in dates with younger men. Men who are more her type according to her. Bonnie did not know how to lie or turn the situation, so she just went on with the flow.

"He's a penal lawyer."

And the original leader of the Gemini Coven, the most powerful coven of all time.

"Tell me more. It sounds interesting."

"He's the son of the man I actually date."

Bonnie made a face. She waited for the sky to fall upon her. Elena was speechless. She stood there for a few seconds before closing her mouth.

Contrary to what the two women sitting in the staircase thought, they were not alone in this type of place. A person was spying on them since the beginning of their conversation. Kai Parker was sitting on one of the white steps and listening attentively to every thing Bonnie said. He had drained Luke to use the Invisic spell, his favorite. Luke was kind enough to let him do it. Well, Kai did not leave him any choice. The blonde did not need magic to attend his class anyway. His magic was good for using here.

Kai was too angry with Bonnie, and he knew she was pretending. He knew she was lying about her feeling for him. She could not not to feel the same thing as he did. He needed proof. He had to calm his furious crazy desires. He needed to know what she really thought.

"Say something."

"I'm just shocked. It will be difficult to settle things, Bonnie."

"Don't you know I know that? I know it's just a burden. I don't want to be in this situation. I was okay with what I lived. I don't want changes. And he, he doesn't understand that. He just keep pushing me to feel something for him. And I don't want to. It's obvious I can't. I'm with his father. Why can he understand that what he's pursuing is a lost cause? He just gives me headache."

Elena chuckled at Bonnie's obvious despair. "In case you didn't know that's how epic love story looks like. Maybe you're avoiding the love story of your life."

Geez, Elena is smart.

"I have already have the love story of my life. I'm done with it."

"How is he? I mean his behaviour."

"He is... He's sociopathic. An obsessive idiot."

Pretty accurate.

"Wow!"

"Yeah. On top of that, he told me he liked me and got upset after I told him I didn't feel the same. Like an angry teen that hates the fact that his crush does not like him in return."

it's not my fault, you keep driving me nuts.

"What are you gonna do then?"

"I don't know. I can't run. I can't accept him. I'm just in between."

"Is that your way to tell me you like him too?"

"Don't say stupid things, Elena." Bonnie rolled her eyes. "I do not like him."

"I bet you like him."

"He's narcissistic, arrogant and unpredictable. Also has strange behaviors. On top of that... He can't control himself when he's angry. How can-"

"Bonnie? He is violent? Did he hurt you?" Elena asked in a worried voice. When Bonnie did not answer, she put a hand on hers, "Bonnie?"

"No, he's not violent. He's impulsive and... I know I can manage him. Often he's scary, like very scary, but he's gentle. He touches me with so much tenderness. I just can't understand why. I could be more tender with him, but when I think he can be good for me, he just throws it all away and disappoints me again. On the top of that, he has the nerve of kissing me without telling as if I was a certain kind of doll."

Perfect. Now I felt miserable.

"He acts like a psycho. Sometimes he clings to me. Like a leech. Literally a leech."

A leech? I'm more a sucker than a leech. A pussy sucker. Your pussy sucker. Mmm sweet like a Tennessee honey.

"He's a vampire, I presume."

"Yes."

"Uhm. Do you like when he clings to you?"

"A little... He's funny sometimes."

"Oh my God! Just admit that you like him already. It's so obvious."

"I don't... I just- I don't like him at all." Elena glared Bonnie Like a hawk until she spits the piece. "Alright, I can admit that... he made my heart flutter, but he also makes my heart hurt. It's the worst. I don't want to sacrifice myself anymore."

Oh my- oh my- oh my obsessed cold heart!

"I'm so sorry Bonnie..."

Bonnie turned her head toward the empty place in front of her. Just steps of white stairs. She smelled something coming from that place, but she could not put her finger on it. She rubbed her tired eyes and sighed.

"He's a cute dork too..."

Oh my- Oh my- I like you more and more now... What do I do?

"A cute dork?" Elena smiled.

"Yeah... He's clumsy... And he's- argh- Elena, stop this."

"What? I did nothing." Elena laughed innocently. But secretly, she prayed for Bonnie to fall in love with the beautiful brown hair man she had seen.

This man was absolutely Bonnie's kind of boy. Elena knew that Bonnie felt something for him, but for some reason Bonnie refused to let herself go. She could understand it. Stefan made her suffer for too long. Love left her a bitter taste that did not want to leave. Anyway, even if Bonnie refused to give her information about the mature man she was dating, Bonnie would be better off with someone under her age rather than a 43 year old man who did not make her happy at all.

"Seriously, how couldn't you fall for this handsome and sexy man. You're so bizarre, Bonnie. Pull yourself together. You need to ride this guy. Plus, he's tall. Oh my God. He looks like he has a good dick."

Bonnie made a smile that meant everything.

My emotions! My emotions!

"Bonnie Bennett! By chance, did you have sex with handsome guy? BONNIE BENNETT!"

"Don't you think you're fangirling a bit too much, ELENA."

"No, BON-BON ! This man is definitely attractive as hell."

I should buy her a beer for that.

"Don't be fooled by his marshmallow smile. He has plenty devils that whisper evil thoughts to his ears."

"He has charisma."

"He's a SOCIOPATH."

Yes I know, thanks Sherlock.

"And he has a good dick too"

Exactly. Cobra's tail, it's named.

"It's not that good."

"BONNIE BENNETT! YOU HAD SEX WITH HIM!"

"ELENA!" Bonnie laughed. The sex with Kai was good. Really good. She blushed.

"Okay that information changes everything."

"Not really."

"You're not honest with yourself. I can see it in your eyes."

"In my eyes. My butt. I'm perfectly honest with myself."

"No, you aren't."

"ELENA!" Bonnie groaned and Elena rolled her eyes. Nobody can be more stubborn than Bonnie Bennett.

"Tell me something you don't want him to know. And be honest. I'll not judge."

Here we go. Where is the pop-corn when we need some? Geez!

Bonnie lowered her head and thought about it a little before answering.

"He said once he couldn't take his eyes off of me. What he didn't notice is that... I couldn't take my eyes off of him too."

Sweet baby Jesus have a mercy.

"Bonnie..."

"The truth is... I'm afraid, and he didn't help. I don't want to fall in love. Ever again."

"Why?" Elena asked, but she already knew why.

"Because, love means to surrender. I don't want to surrender. I don't want to feel this weak feeling ever again."

"I see... I'm sorry about what you went though these past years. I know I wasn't here to help, but Damon was so-"

"It's okay. You're here now."

"But... Bonnie, do you still plan to leave Portland after two years?"

What the heck? What the heeeeck? WHAT THE HECK?

"Yes. Its for the best. Nothing will make me change my mind."

You dummy.

"Did you- did you hear something?" Bonnie asked, looking for the source of noises. Elena seemed not understand what Bonnie was looking for.

Kai projected his thoughts so strongly that the psychic side of Bonnie directly perceived them. Kai got up from where he sat and went downstairs. Letting Bonnie look from where the strong thought came from that made her goose bumps.

Bonnie's phone began to vibrate and she picked up it. Kai had just sent her a message.

-Meet me at the stadium of the University at 7 pm.-

"Everything is okay? Is it the handsome man?"

"Yes. It's him."

-we need to talk-

"He just sent me a text. He tells me we need to talk."

"This sentence always mean trouble. What do you think he wants to tell you?"

"I don't know..."