highschool musicals story and its actors do not in any way belong to me i am just useing them in my awsome kick ass story they belong to the evil empire that is disney etc. XD
We arrived at the Hilton garden inn in Casper Wyoming which was a welcomed change of pace to staying in a bus for a night. Clearly the idea was not very well thought threw by sharpay if everyone was already thankful to be in a hotel after one night but I foresaw this happening from the second she came up with the idea. We booked two side by side rooms Gabi troy Chad and Taylor shared one while sharpay zeke Kelsey and Jason shared the other with me of Corse being the outcast in a pull away cot so needless to say I think I would have been more comfortable in the Winnebago by myself but sharpay wouldn't have any of it.
After we arrived and got our self's situated everyone began to argue over who would get to have a shower first. Troy left the joint rooms abruptly saying something about going to the hotel gym to take a load off. How is going to a hotel gym taking a load off? Sometimes the boy confused me maybe that's why I liked him so much.
"Well I'm going to the pool while you guys figure that out". I said completely ignored I grabbed my bathing suit from my bag and left the room. I wonder what troy is doing right now, pumping iron no doubt. I walked into the pool area where I found a few others swimming or relaxing in the hot tub. And across the room I saw troy threw a large floor to ceiling window peddling away on an exercise bike. God did he look good all sweaty and hot.
I made my way over to the door that said change room and went inside. It was completely empty so I could change in peace without distraction. I stripped off my clothes and threw on my bathing suit quickly. See as much as I would spend time dancing to relieve my stress I also enjoyed a nice swim in the pool to clear my head and man did I need to clear my head.
Ok so where to begin yesterday we made are way from Albuquerque new Mexico and drove to Denver and now to Wyoming and in that time I had realized I liked being here more then I thought I would, that being said the reason why I enjoyed being here was one big conundrum. in short the reason I was having any fun at all was exactly why felt so bad and needed to clear my head it was the troy thing. And I say thing because I don't really know how else to describe it I mean I had only talked to him about it twice and one of those times we only really kissed. But it was a problem because of Gabi and as much as I wanted to just indulge and not care I still felt like I was being a complete and utter backstabbing whore. Well that's because I was being a complete and utter backstabbing whore! I couldn't resist troy's charm and I prided myself for having good willpower but clearly I didn't. God I really liked troy and I have wanted this for so long. This is something that I never saw in a million years happening and now it's like my dreams are coming true as cheesy as is sounds. But then when I am alone and contemplating my actions I can't help but feel this horrible feeling of my betrayal of Gabi its like I was saying one thing but thinking another and around troy it all crumbled.
But how can I regret it I mean on the one hand if I had stuck to my decision not to come I wouldn't have let my temptations overwhelm me but if I had stayed home and not come I would have never known about troy's feelings and who knows he could have patched things up with Gabi and completely forgotten me.
While I was thinking I had totally forgotten that I was in the change room and exited wasting no time in jumping in the typically warm hotel pool water. In the time I had taken to change all other people who where there had left the pool and I was alone. I hated being alone with my thoughts. I began to swim back and forth form wall to wall trying unsuccessfully to not think about troy when I heard a splash. And suddenly two strong arms were wrapping around my bare chest and I was pulled over to the wall.
"Hey there beautiful" he said planting a kiss on my cheek
"Troy what did I say about that" I said making no effort in trying to escape his grasp.
"No one will see us trust me" he said now kissing my on my lips "you look so good without a shirt on" he said wandering his fingers up and down my chest.
"looking good yourself wildcat" see now that was one of the things I shouldn't have said but of cores the troy charm kicked in and I gave in. what I should have said was "troy no I told you we cant do this" and jumped out of the pool but the mind just doesn't work like that when you are head over heals or in my case sneakers.
"I noticed while changing that there are showers in the change rooms" he said in a sexy tone "care to join me?"
Was he seriously asking if I wanted to shower with him "I don't know troy"
"We don't have to take our bathing suits off or anything but I think a little bit of privacy would be nice" he said with his sexy smile. Great here it comes cave in time. I rolled my eyes which he noticed right away.
"What?" he said laughing.
"It's like your some sort of incubus" I said disconnecting myself from him and swimming away.
"How so?" he asked chasseing me across the pool
"You make me do things that I would never do" I said all joking aside I looked in his eyes trying to figure out where his head was at.
He two stopped joking and was now serious "is that really how I make you feel?"
I turned away not wanting to see his face " don't take it wrong troy I have wanted you for a long time and for a large part of my life I knew that was an unrealistic goal but that didn't stop me from liking you"
He smiled weakly "so then what's the problem?" he said
"the problem is I feel like my feelings for you are masking all of the wrong I am doing its like I am pushing aside all of the bad things I have done because I am finally getting what I want but the way I am getting it goes against almost everything I stand for" I said maybe this time troy would understand what I was trying to say before.
"Ryan I would never want you to feel uncomfortable but I don't know if I am capable of not being with you" he said shaking his head wearing expressions of panic a look of almost fear. Dose he care about me that much?
"troy that's the problem I don't know if I am capable either and that scares me because right now we are risking everything our friends our family's because of that, like I have never kept a secret from sharpay and now I am because of this… love I feel for you that I have never felt in my life for anyone"
"I know what you mean" he said grimly "I mean I sort of always knew you were well..."
"Gay?" I said
"Yeah so I had already prepared myself for what to expect if this happened and I have already prepared myself for what people might think" he said
"Me on the other hand…" I said before getting cut off
"Had no idea I felt the same therefore never really expected anything to happen" he finished for me.
Wow I knew troy as a person wasn't the most attentive person but it's like he knew what was going on in my head. It made me wonder if all of the bad shit was worth it just to be with someone who seemed to know me so well even if he had only been my friend for a few days, even if we had only realized our love for each other this morning.
"so what dose this mean?" he said looking as if he might cry
God I don't know I came into this thinking I was ending this and letting life get back to normal at least as normal as it had been before but now I didn't know what I wanted. But the difference between now and the last time is this it wasn't the charm of troy that made rethink my original course of action but instead it was like my conscience telling me that maybe the bad shit was worth it.
"I can't "I said finally caving.
Troy hung his head and didn't make eye contact with me as he turned away
"Ok I understand" he said about to climb out of the pool
"That's not what I meant" I said. " I cant not be with you and if that means I am destroying any sort of friendship I have with Gabi then I guess I will have one less friend in California this September and if it ruins things with my sister then I guess…" I swallowed hard thinking about the idea of shar hating me "then I guess I will have to get used to that to"
Troy turned around so quickly I'm surprised he didn't get whiplash " are you for real?" he said crying.
"Yes" I said smiling. "I love you troy"
At that troy wasted no time in swimming across the pool to me and kissing me long and hard on the lips "I love you so much Ryan" he said between kisses. I welcomed the kisses it just felt right to be kissed by troy and I finally knew why. I had always admired troy and fantasized about him but never did I ever think I would have him in the flesh all to myself. But a part of me told me never to give up on him and I never did. And regardless of the guilt I should be feeling I deserved to have the object of my affection after so many years of never getting to have him.
"Showers?" I said breathlessly pulling away from a passionate kiss.
"I thought you would never ask" he said pulling back and getting out of the pool. Seconds later we found ourselves in the change room showers grinding against each others half naked bodies in a fight for toung dominance. I wanted troy I needed to have him pressed against me with out his touch I just didn't feel comfortable. There was no feeling better then his hands trailing down my back no scent better then his natural musk and no taste better then his mouth but that was still yet to be known for I had not yet tasted the other troy flavors. His hands squeezed my butt and mine grasped onto his hair. Troy moaned in pleasure as I pulled harder on his hair.
Suddenly his hands made there way down my swimming trunks and cupped my bare ass I gasped in both shock and pleasure at the contact we made.
"You like that?" troy breathed into are joined lips. "Want more?"
God yes troy I want all of you… but sadly I knew it would have to wait as blissful as it was he had been away from the group for a while longer then in took the rest of them to all have showers and I knew my sister had plans for us to go to dinner at the American grill the hotel had so it was time to be responsible for the both of us because I know troy wouldn't be.
"Troy we have to go"
"Go? Why?"
"Dinner the others will come looking for us" I said
"Ahhh Ryan pleases… I'm so Horney right now"
"Troy" I laughed "we still have to get out of here"
"What if I refuse?"
"Trust me troy I will make it up to you later"
"How" he said biting his lip
"In ways you couldn't even imagine" I said giving him another kiss "I promise" I said crossing my finger over my heart.
"You better" he said frowning clearly he didn't like the idea of doing anything that didn't involve touching me.
The both of us got dried off and redressed. It was good that troy always carried around shower gel in his gym bag for we both needed a shower. Some would look at me and troy showering together as wrong but I just looked at it as saving water.
We made are way out of the pool area to find sharpay alone in the hallway on her way to find us.
"Oh there you two are" she said startled as we came threw the door "did you enjoy your swim?"
"Yeah it was…" troy said
"Great so the rest of us are ready to eat so as soon as you shower" sharpay said cutting of troy.
"Actually we already did shower in the pool change rooms troy has shower gel" I said smiling at troy
"A change room shower?" she said repulsed "that disgusting"
"I thought it was refreshing" troy said smiling ear to ear
"Of cores you did" she said sarcastically "but if you don't mind I need to have a word with my brother so run along and find the others in the room" she said pointing down the hallway towards the elevator.
"Ok then" troy said "see you soon" he said then turning to me.
Troy left us standing in the hall
"So how long has this been going on?" she said with a sneer
I was completely confused by what she was talking about "how long has what been going on?"
"Don't be stupid Ryan I'm talking about you and troy" she said shaking her head impatiently
Shit….I froze up not being able to speak not being able to breath and above all kicking myself for thinking I could hide this from sharpay.
"Well…?" she said now taping her stiletto on the tiled hallway floor.
A/N
aww so now ryan and troy will be together and evreything will be ok right? wrong lol yeha i had to slip that little drama into the allmost perfect chapter. but the stroy wouldent be good without a little drama. so yeah sharpay knows and i have left this story at a clif hanger for now but dont worry i will update sometime this week and you will find out how this little convo between sharpay and ryan turnes out but for now i need sleep i would have had this chapter finished earlyer but the fial episode of survivor was on and hell if i was going to miss that so yeah hope you enjoyed read and review :D