''Are you sure you don't just miss my sweet lady kisses?''.

She asks the question like she already knows the answer.

I gulp.

This wasn't supposed to turn out this way.

She raises one eyebrow, expecting an answer from me.

''No'' I eventually manage to get out. My voice doesn't sound convincing, rather shaky and unsure.

''Britt .. You know we can't do that, it's just wrong.''

''But ..''

''No ..'' she says with a strong voice, but I can see in her eyes that she knows she's hurting me and that she hates it.

I have to get away from her, I don't know what I'm going to do if I have to stare at her for much longer.

I quickly stand up. A bit too quickly, I blink a couple of times and grab the side of the couch. I see her getting up and wanting to support me, but I manage to pull myself up again and I run to the hall.

Not a good idea.

I suddenly feel dizzy and light headed. I try to find support on the wall, but my legs are like pudding, and I slide down to the ground.

This was not going well at all ..

I pull up my knees and rest my face in my arms. As I try to hold back tears, I try to calm down a bit by breathing in and out deeply.

It doesn't help, a couple of seconds later I feel the first tear roll down my cheek.

I hear her footsteps but don't look up.

She doesn't say anything. She just puts an arm around me and sits down next to me.

I don't pull away, I'm more sad than angry right now.

''Britt-Britt ..'' she whispers.

I don't look up. I don't want her to see me like this. Even though she did a million times before .. Not like this.

She strikes her fingers trough my hair and makes me shiver.

''Hey ... Don't be sad .. It's okay ..'' She says quietly, and she shifts a bit closer to me.

I softly shake my head, but I guess she noticed it.

It's quiet for a minute. There's only her breathing and my sobbing to hear.

"Chiquitita, tell me what's wrooong...''

I suddenly hear her sing softly and I can't help but to smile a little, even though I'm trying really hard not to.

''I have neever seen such sorroooww ...'' She sings, a bit louder and I can hear her smile trough her voice.

Damn her.

Ofcourse she remembers this.