I look at Amy, " I"m not sure. She might have gone inside but I wasn't there. I was looking around the mansion. Had to figure what the Mirtinon needed, well wanted". Lily didn't say anything about going inside of the Tardis. It was the safest place so not the worst choice.

"Rory already told me about the Mirtinon, thank you for keeping her safe", her eyes are filled with concern but she stays strong. Amelia Pond, my best friend, is afraid. "Doctor, what happened to River?", I don't know whether to lie or to tell the truth. The Doctor always lies, rule number one. But she and Rory mean the world to me.

"Amy, Rory, River...she...River sacrificed herself. She saved so many people, you know how she was. Strong minded just like you. Oh Amy, I never meant for this or that to happen. I was going to sacrifice myself another version of myself but she handcuffed me to a pipe, taking my place", a small smile forms on her lips as she remembers cuffing me to the the thing in the hall. Tears run down Amy's cheeks, Rory looks away.

"You should know that a copy of her consciousness is saved in The Library. If you ever wanted, I'd take you there. Of course there is a infestation of Vashta Nerada. But we can worry about that later", Amy nods. All I've said and neither of them have said a word. Perhaps I should just leave and never come back.

This is the first time in years that I've seen them and I break their hearts. Amy and Rory wipe their faces, as footsteps approach the kitchen. Lily walks in. She looks around, "what's going on?". Her eyes meet mine. "Why is everybody so sad?", she walks to Amy. Amy wraps her arms around Lily.

"Doctor, please leave", she won't look at me. There's no reason to fight it. River died because of me. I can't have Lily dying because of me too. To take both daughters from them would be horrible. My heart breaks as I turn, walking out of their house.

Lily POV

"Why would you do that. He loves you both and you just kick him out"

"Lily, did you go into the Tardis?"

"I walked in, but only for a few minutes"

"Lily I don't want you to go near him"

"I need him"

"Oi! I mean it. You're my daughter, you listen"

Her eyes are filled with tears, she grabs my shoulders. I shake my head, how can they do this? My father looks at me as my mother walks away. I don't know what to do. My brain is saying to listen to her but my heart is telling me to go to him. A knock pulls me from my thoughts.

My teddy...how did he get outside? Doctor...My Doctor...I turn and walk outside. "Lily Lily stop!", I hear them calling me but I can't stop walking. I pick up my teddy and run to the park. I look around but I don't see him, where is he?

"Doctor! Doctor!", I look around for him. My head feels clouded. Please Doctor come to me, where are you? It starts to rain, but I keep walking. Hours pass but I still can't find him. My feet ache, my teddy falls from my hands. I drop to my knees.

Tears fall from my eyes. Something touches my hand, I look up to see my teddy. Ugh I must be really exhausted, hallucinations wow. He glows purple, a calming sensation runs through my body. My eyelids feel heavy, Doctor where are you?

I wake to a strange whirring sound, it sounds familiar. Rubbing my eyes, I look around. Why am I laying in grass? I sit up, I'm sitting in a field. "Why are you doing this? We need to go somewhere else! They don't want us here", the slamming of what sounds like a door brings me to my feet. Down the hill sits the Tardis, I run down the hill.

"Doctor, Doctor Please", he asks who's there. I smile, "Lily Pond". The door swings open, his eyes are red and a little puffy. He's been crying. My poor poor Doctor, "you didn't deserve that, you know". He frowns at me asking how would I know. " I heard the whole thing. Well most of it, I'm sorry that you feel responsible but it was her decision. She chose to help you, to sacrifice herself for you. The man she loved", he places his hand across his mouth.

Tears fall down his cheeks, I wrap my arms around him. "Doctor, not everyone is perfect. You weren't to blame, sometimes things just happen. She wanted you to live on, to help whomever you possibly could. River used to tell me stories of a man in a blue box. A man that traveled and helped save planets. Of course the man wasn't perfect but neither is the world", I hold him close to me. His arms wrap around me.

"You give beings something amazing", the Doctor pulls back, asking what he gives them. I lift my head to look him in the eyes, "Hope, Doctor".