Chapter 7: The Talk

The Talk

Only one more month till the wedding, and I think I might go crazy; I knew I should have taken moms advice and let Aunt Alice do everything, but I kind of wanted to be involved which was a bad idea, I think I might pull my hair out if I have to look at another napkin color. We are only having around twenty people at the wedding since no one really knows who I am. Mostly it's going to be made up of the Denali's, some of the friends that came for the battle to save my life seven years ago and of course the pack with Leah my best friend being my maid of honor, only after three days of begging, she hates all this romantic crap, as she puts it, it makes her want to run in front of a speeding bus.

Now to top it all off Leah has me all worried. Why you may ask, well today while we were trying hair styles out for the wedding, she of course had to bring me in to her life of misery by bringing up the 'Honeymoon', which I had not thought of till the moment.

"So are you going to do 'it' or have you already done 'it'?"

"Do what?"

"You know "IT" with Jake, I would rather you didn't since the whole pack will be able to see what you two were up to…"

"What, oh god… NO! well we have not really talked about it. I guess yeah well, isn't that what you normally do on a honeymoon…"

"Well, yeah, but what do you mean talked about, there's not much to talk about…"

"Yeah there is…the fact that what could happen if we do have sex."

"What do you mean 'what could happen'."

"Oh, I don't know, I could get pregnant or hurt… it's no different than my mother and you saw what happened to her, you were there."

"Oh, yeah never thought of that, you think that could happen to you."

"Well, yeah why not, I am half human; I am a human girl in that aspect"

"Yeah I guess…. were you going to talk to anyone about this; maybe your grandpa?"

"Oh god no are you crazy… Well I guess I should talk to someone... Maybe my mom she might be cool talking about this."

"Yeah, you should talk to somebody …( we hear a howl off in the distance) Oh, hell what does Jake want now?"

"You got to go?"

"Yeah I'll call you later so we can talk some more about this, but you should talk to someone other than me."

"Yeah, you're right…….Tell everyone I said Hi and tell Jake to come over when he is done."

"Okay, should I make it sound none urgent?"

"Yeah, I need to talk to my mom first then I'll talk to him."

"Okay! Bye."

"Bye"

Well she was right I did need to talk to someone I never even thought about what would happen if we did 'it', I always had this feeling of wanting him but never this way, well not till now that I am thinking more about it. I guess my mom would be the easiest to talk to; we are so much alike it's easy to talk to her.

******* One Hour later..and a lot of pacing ******

"Ummm, mom can I talk to you."

"Sure sweetie what is it, you getting nerves about the wedding only twenty-six more days!"

"Yeah a little, I want to talk to you about... well after the wedding."

"Yes, the reception is going to be beautiful!"

"Well….no, I ummm, well mom I didn't mean the reception I meant the 'honeymoon'!"

"Oh, that!"

"Yes that, Leah and I were talking about it today and I had this thought about what would happen if we…..well…… you know…and if something could happen like what happened to you."

"Well, I ummmm. I don't now sweetie that's hard to say there's never been anything like you and Jacob. And well……you don't have to do anything like that if you don't want too; you don't have to have sex to be in a relationship with someone. Has Jacob said anything to you to make you feel like you have to do that to make him happy?"

"No, we have never talked about anything like that, we have never even felt like we had to, just what we have been doing now... Don't worry it's only been kissing, don't get scared... we have never felt the need to go any further than that we have been content to just do that. But I worry that after the wedding he might want to and well I want to make him happy."

"Well, I don't know what to tell you darling, maybe we should talk to your father to see what he thinks…( I had one of those 'Oh God, No' Looks on my face) It's okay he will understand, but you should talk to Jacob before this goes any further."

In the distance I can hear jake's paw movements getting closer to the house.

"Yeah your right, speak of the wolf, there he is now I kind of figured you'd want me to talk to him so I told Leah to have him come over when he was done, I'll talk to you and dad later, could you brace him for me and tell him the basics so I don't catch him off guard."

"Sure sweetie, talk to you later."

And with that I gave my mom a huge hug and went to go discus this new information with Jacob.

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"Hey, Jake that was fast, I told Leah to tell you to come when you were done."

"Yeah I know, I knew she was with you and I wanted to spend time with you too today so I called her to get her away from you so I could have you to myself."

And somehow during our talking he managed to distract me enough to pick me up and carry me to a rock besides the river and in that moment looking in to his eyes, I had this feel that I had never had before, this feeling of I guess what humans feel like when they were as Leah called it "In the Mood". And without really even think I was kissing Jacob like I have never kissed him before. Once he realized this was not my normal kiss it only took him a second to take it in and seconds to push me away.

"Nessie, what was that for, if I knew that's the reaction I would get for being sly I would have come hours ago."

"Sorry, I have just had a lot on my mind, that's kind of why I wanted to see you."

"What's wrong sweetie, what's going on in that head of yours."

"Well, Leah and I were talking earlier, and well I had a thought."

"It's never a good thing when you and Leah are together I normally get in trouble…Ouch… don't hit so hard, I still have a mark from the last time you hit me which is weird I normally heal faster than this, you're getting way to strong for me." smiling that wicked smile of his.

"Anyways, we were talking about after the wedding."

"Yeah what about it."

"Well, we will be married and I may be young but I know what goes on after people get married and what they "DO", and I guess I got a little scared."

"Scared about what… (wait for it)...Oh…( and he understands).. well…..I guess we should talk about it, are you nerves that you won't like it or that you may hurt me since you're getting so strong, which I don't like."

"No, I'm scared what could happen… like I don't know there's never been anything like this...like you and I… what if what happened to my mom happens to me what if I get…you know………"

"Oh, well you're not your mom and I sure am hell not like your dad, I'm human."

"Well yeah, but we don't know how our bodies will react, my mom is going to talk to my dad and probably grandpa Carlisle about it and you should come over later so we can all talk about it..."

"You talked to your mom about this?"

"Yeah why wouldn't I, Jake are you mad at me?" slightly teary eyed.

"Well, uh, No it's just that this caught me all of guard."

"I'm sorry it caught me off guard to."

" Nessie, I'm sorry, really I have never thought of us that way before, I mean I have never felt the need to be with you that way .It's like I have you in so many other ways that I don't need you in that way, our love is more than that. I love you more than you will ever know. And I want to make you happy so if you never want to do that, we don't have too, we have the rest of our lives which is quite awhile to do stuff like that."

"I always knew there was a reason I loved you." I say with a sigh.

***

"So, what are your plans for tonight do you want to hang out down at the beach?"

"No, I was thinking I would go to Port Angeles for some 'quite time' no wedding stuff, you know get away for an hour or so."

"Yeah I understand, I have to get back to the pack Quil is going crazy over Claire, she's going through a pre-teen crisis and he needs to get away so we were going to go hunting."

"Haha, she'll get through it soon and just make sure your back later so we can talk to my parents… I know you don't want to have them involved like this but its important to know what could happen"

"Yeah I know, I'll be back around ten."

And then with a delicate kiss he was off in a flash. I told mom I was going to 'run' to Port Angeles for some alone time and that I would be back for ten and that Jake was going to come over so we could talk.