AUTHORS NOTE

THANKS AGAIN FOR ALL THE GREAT COMMENTS - I have only read this chapter through once, so there may be a few typos - but i wanted to get it out as i have a 14hr shift tomorrow : ( as usual it all belongs to Stephanie Meyer.

JACOBS POV

As soon as the Cullen's had left I jumped out the window, and ran towards the forest I needed to phase my wolf was clawing to get out, I had never felt such conflicted emotions, I couldn't understand why my wolf had chosen a vampire, was this my pay back for being such an asshole, my wolf snarled at me our mate is not a punishment as soon as I hit the cover of the trees I was running on four legs.

I immediately sensed Sam and Leah patrolling, Sam started as soon as he felt me "Jacob what the fuck" I interrupted "PHASE OUT" and they both did, I couldn't risk my block falling around then I'm was too confused to concentrate, I ran for hours until I was too tired to continue, I slumped down under a tree, I needed a plan.

The longer I thought the more I convinced myself this wasn't happening for lots of reasons, firstly and most importantly I was made to kill vampires – why on earth would I want a relationship with one, secondly I was not gay, I had never once found a male sexually attractive, apart from Edward of course but that was the vampire voodoo working its magic, humans were supposed to find them attractive, but would I want to sleep with him, I didn't think so, I'd never been inclined to go down that route, I'd had offers but never even been tempted and that's saying something from the guy that was ruled by his cock. Thirdly my Dad would not accept this as long as he had a hole in his ass, which lets face it was forever. I didn't even want to think about how the pack would react I could just image it now, hey Sam by the way I'm gay, and I'm screwing a vampire – he would have a coronary, it just couldn't happen.

I felt a lot calmer now, my wolf was pissed, he was stalking and snarling at me but fuck him, I was the one that would have to take the consequences of this not him human Jake was stronger, I was not taking it up the ass for anyone I thought, we wouldn't be taking anything, he's our bitch my wolf spat, I shivered at the thought. I returned home late that night my Dad let me be assuming I'd had issues with the Cullen's at school, if only he knew I thought as I climbed in the shower I was exhausted, I don't think I had felt like this since becoming a shifter, I went from the shower straight to bed, and that was the first night I dreamt of Edward Cullen.

Cool lips pressed against my neck as he pinned me to the wall, I panted enjoying the pleasure that shot straight down to my cock, I could feel his tongue licking up towards my ear as his hard body pressed against mine take him he's ours purred my wolf, I grabbed his shoulders and span him round, pressing him against the wall, your mine I growled yours all yours Edward moaned as he tilted his neck submissively, I placed my lips to his neck and inhaled, fuck he smelt sooo good, it was a smell that made me hard with need, he reached up and kissed my lips, gently almost shyly, I tensed and waited for my wolf to snarl like always, I hadn't kissed anyone since I phased he wouldn't let me, but the snarl never came, I started to relax enjoying the feel of his cold hard lips on mine, he felt unbreakable, I kissed back more forcefully, fighting for dominance Edward gave it to me willingly, my tongue pushed through his parted lips

BRINNNNNG BRINNNNNNG BRINNNNNG I sat up in bed like I'd been shot, I was actually panting, I grabbed the alarm clock up and threw it at the door, where it smashed in to a million pieces – I'd never hated an object so much in my life.

I led back down, lifted the sheet and inspected my cock it was rock hard and leaking all because of a dream in which I was kissing, kissing a male vampire, groaning I wrapped my hand around my cock and thought of fucking Jess in the sea with everyone watching, my cock started go soft, so I thought of licking Leah's pussy, still no joy my wolf smirked come on you know what you want

I ground my teeth together "I Cant" I muttered to myself, my hand was still rubbing my cock, although I was no longer rock hard my balls ached, I needed to come badly think how nice those cold lips were, how submissive your vampire is, how unbreakable I was rock hard and throbbing again, my wolf was loving this "No one will know" I said trying to convince myself, so I closed my eyes and thought of kissing Edward, I thought about how nice he smelled, and how cold his mouth would be, how erotic it would feel to have my cock in that cold mouth, his cold lips placing gentle kisses up my shaft, I groaned loudly and came hard, sweat pouring off my forehead

"Jacob if there is a girl in there with you, you are grounded forever you have school in an hour" holy shit that was embarrassing, now I felt sick with guilt I had just jerked off thinking about a Edward fucking Cullen.

I was dreading school and to make matters worse I had left the rabbit there after phasing yesterday, I would have to phase and run to school, great just great now I would be all sweaty when I saw him, fuck why did I care, I shook my head I didn't I had to remind myself of that.

After showering and eating breakfast I made my way to school, I felt physically sick at the thought of seeing Edward, but I wasn't going to hide, I just had to remember human Jake is stronger. I got to homeroom early and sat waiting, I could still smell musk and vanilla from yesterday and the smell calmed my wolf immensely, Bella walked in and threw my bag at me "you left it yesterday, where did you go I was worried" I chuckled "No need to worry bout me Bells I'm a big boy ya know" she blushed bright red "Well I just ummmm wondered why you disappeared" I gave here my 100 watt smile "Had an offer I couldn't refuse if you know what I mean" I winked and she walked away dejected "oh ok then"

"Hey Bells thanks for grabbing my stuff".

The bell rang signalling start of school and the seat next to me was still empty, my wolf was disappointed, and as much as I wouldn't admit it out loud a small part of human Jake was too.

The rest of the week was the same, the other Cullen's were at school, they all smiled politely when they saw me the pixie even tried to make conversation, my wolf was pinning for Edward I couldn't sleep because he relentlessly paced, so now human Jake was getting touchy. I was very tempted a few times to ask where he was, just to soothe my wolf but I couldn't give in.

I was currently sat in Biology thinking about the pack meeting Dad had scheduled for tomorrow night, I had told him several times this week that I didn't want to be Alpha but he was relentless, he kept smiling at me think of your imprint Jake, when your Alpha you will find your soul mate – I could hardly tell him I had found HIM already and HE was a VAMPIRE, could I, what my dad didn't realise was that as soon as I accepted the Alpha status I would love Edward Cullen as much as my wolf did, which I can assure you by the way my wolf was pinning was a lot.

My biggest problem with this meeting however was that as much as I could refuse the Alpha status around dad, every time I saw Sam, my wolf wanted to kill him, and I'm sure Sam felt the same our wolves were asserting their dominance and only one could lead the pack, I decided there and then I wasn't going to go, it was simple avoid Sam, avoid becoming Alpha.

The bell rang making me jump, I don't think I could ever get used to canine senses, I strode in to the corridor and Mike Newton came up to me "Hey Black I'm having a party tonight, the folks are outta town" I grinned at him "Who's going" Mike laughed "everyone I think"

"Sweet, I'll be there, catch you laters" I strode down the corridor passing the pixie leech on my way.

On my way back to the rez I decided that I was going to get plastered and laid tonight it was just what I needed to make me feel better, grinning I walked in to the house. I shouted for Dad, he didn't reply, I listened for his heartbeat nope he was definitely out, I went in to the larder and got down two bottles of Dads homemade moonshine, it was hard to get a werewolf drunk, not impossible but hard so I decided two bottles of Dads paint stripper should do the trick, I was still amazed that a human could drink the shit him and Harry made and survive!

I was quite sure that sober my wolf wouldn't let me fuck anything and I needed to prove to myself that Edward Cullen wasn't the only thing that made me hard.

I text Bells offering to pick her up on the way, and jumped in the shower. I started to get ready I needed to look hot, then I would have an abundance of aroused women to choose from, so I styled my hair, put on aftershave which made my nose twitch and eyes run – but women liked it, grabbed a pair of black jeans and the tightest top I could find, I glanced in the mirror yep I definitely looked good, I grabbed the moonshine jumped in the rabbit and went to get Bells.

EDWARDS POV

After leaving school on Monday I decided I could not go back, I would kill someone if Jacob had really had sex with as many people as he said he had, I was bound to see replays in peoples minds and I simply didn't trust myself enough to be around humans lusting after my mate, and I wouldn't until he was properly mine.

So I spent most of the week sat in my room sulking as Rose so kindly put it.

It was now Thursday afternoon and I was waiting for Jazz and Emmett to return from school so we could go hunting, I heard the hummer coming up the drive and made my way to the porch, Alice was bouncing in the truck excitement written all over her face

Ed a boy called Mike Newton's having a party tonight and we've been invited

The hummer pulled to a stop she jumped out

"Alice why should I care about that"

Coz my little brother Jacobs going to be there

"He hates me Alice"

I beg to differ young Edward ask any of the others he's been looking for you all week not that he would admit it she grinned,

I looked at her increduesly "Really"

"Will you two stop doing that it's weird?" Emmett grumbled

"Sorry Em I was just filling Edward in on the party tonight" he shrugged his shoulders fucking pixie and her great ideas I wanted to hunt I couldn't help laughing Emmett scowled at me.

"Come on Edward we need to make you look irresistible" Alice placed her hand on my shoulder leading me up the stairs

"Hey Alice, didn't you hear the dog, he needs to look fuckable not irresistible, the ways to that mans heart is through his cock me thinks" Emmett roared with laughter, Jazz and Rose joined in, fuck I hadn't thought of that I was a virgin, oh hell I didn't know what to do with a woman let alone a man.

I followed Alice like a lamb to slaughter, I was slightly grateful now that he hated me at least I could research the sex thing, whilst I got him to like me, thank god for Google.

JACOBS POV

I arrived at Bella's and knocked on the door, Charlie answered and grumbled something about women taking forever and ushered me to come in

"Hey Charlie is it ok to leave the rabbit here tonight" he looked at me eyebrows raised "Jake you know I cant condone underage drinking, but I spose drink drivings worse" I pouted "I'm only guna have a few beers, dad doesn't mind coz Pauls guna pick me up" I was getting too good a lying it should have worried me but it didn't.

Bella came down the stairs ready to go and eye fucked me again, jeez couldn't the girl take a hint, Charlie looked me straight in the eye "the car can stay here, behave yourself and watch Bella for me" I grinned throwing my arm round her shoulder "Sure sure" Bella chuckled.

I grabbed the moonshine from the rabbit and tossed the keys in the glove box, then we walked towards the Newton kids house it would only take 10 minutes, once we had left Bella's street I took out one of the bottles of moonshine, Bella looked at me "what is that"

"Moonshine Bells – want some" I held the bottle to her she took one mouth full and coughed and spluttered "Urgggg how the heck do you drink that?"

I laughed "practice Bells but it still tastes like shit" I took another big gulp

"Oh my god Jake you've nearly drank the bottle, your guna get alcohol poisoning" she was panicking

"Bells I'll be fine I've drank that much before" I smirked by the time we got there I had drunk one bottle and was feeling a bit buzzed, I had to refrain from drinking the other in front of Bella because I'm sure she would have called 911 – just in case.. The music was loud and there were people everywhere, half the people were blind drunk already so I thought fuck it and headed to the kitchen and downed the other bottle – I had never actually consumed this much moonshine before but it was definitely doing the trick.

I had girls literally throwing themselves at me, but I felt numb, I'm sure it was just the effects of the moonshine.

I was attempting to dance with Bella, attempting being the right word as my legs were no longer coordinated with the rest of my body, I was actually enjoying myself, for the first time in ages, I must have been drunk because I had had plenty of offers from women all night and declined them to stay with boring little Bella, My head was a bit dizzy from all the spinning around, I took a deep breath to try and ground myself and smelt him, I groaned then my wolf groaned, find him, find our mate, we need him chanted my wolf over and over in my head, I put my hands over my face trying to block that scent that sent my world spinning "Jake, Jake are you ok" I was vaguely aware of someone shaking my arm I took a breath to reply and groaned again "Jake please answer me" I tried to focus on Bella's face "I need to get out, need fresh air" I chocked out, I shook her arm of my and stumbled outside. I sat on the porch and took a few deep breaths fuck my head was spinning I wanted him so bad "Jake are you ok, do you feel sick you drank a lot of that stuff" Bella said sitting beside me "I'm fine Bells" I slurred ok maybe I was a bit drunk "Shall I call your Dad" I shook my head "Nope I will be fine in a bit go back in I wana be on my own" she reluctantly stood to leave "are you sure" I stood up and wobbled a little bit "Yep I guna walk a bit, fresh air will be good" I stumbled across the grass and in to the forest I wondered if I could phase and chuckled to my self "Ha a drunk wolf, Sam would love that" I found a big tree about 10ft in to the forest and slumped against it.

My wolf wanted Edward so bad, and I think human Jake was too drunk to protest, I brought my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around my legs, placing my head on my knee caps I thought really hard shouting in my head, I didn't think it would work but I couldn't go back in there CULLEN IF YOU CAN HERE ME, I NEED YOU PLEASE

I could smell him immediately "Fuck your good' I slurred "didn't know if you would hear" I glanced up there were two of him leant against a tree looking at me with a crooked smile, why the fuck were there two of him I frowned "there's only one of me Jacob I think you may be drunk" I scoffed "I'm not drunk" I tried to stand up and fell ass over tit, Edward caught me before I hit the ground

"Ok maybe a little bit drunk" I mumbled in to his shirt, I inhaled deeply and groaned "Fuck you smell soooooo good" he leant me back against the tree and resumed his place against the other one, I frowned again why the fuck didn't he want to be close to me he told me I was his mate

"You only want me here because you are drunk, I don't want to take advantage when you're vulnerable" I growled at him

"Please sit next to me" he cautiously walked over towards me, I watched him carefully he was fucking gorgeous I bet all the girls wanted to fuck him he's mine my wolf growled Edward sat down next to me. I leant my head back against the tree fuck my head was spinning "My wolf wants you" I mumbled "but I'm not gay" he nodded "and now the only way I can get off is thinking of you, women don't make me horny" I groaned "Fuck I cant believe I said that out loud" he chuckled "I would have heard it in your thoughts anyway, Jacob I'm not gay or wasn't but you are my mate that's the way it is I cant change that I want you in every sense" My head was spinning I still had my eyes shut tight trying to stop myself from puking or passing out

"Jake are you ok" I groaned "Guna be sick" I stood up slowly and placed my palms against the tree and proceeded to throw my guts up, great going Jake he's guna want you now NOT, I felt a cold hand rubbing my back, he was actually trying to comfort me "are you ok, can I get you anything" he asked in his soothing voice.

Alice appeared with a bottle of water, threw it at Edward and left, "are you going to be sick again" I shook my head slowly "Nope, I'm tired" he picked me up like a baby and cradled me to his chest and for the first time since I phased I felt at home, I shut my eyes I didn't care where I was going, my wolf knew I was safe I started to drift off.

I woke up my head was fucking pounding, I couldn't move god I was dying, where the fuck was I, I slowly peeled one eye open, I was at home, how the fuck did I get here, I thought back to last night Edward had it all been a dream, I groaned and turned over "Morning sunshine" Sam growled "you got a lot of explaining to do".

EDWARDS POV

We arrived at the party about 2 hours late as we decided to hunt first, walking through the door I realised why I never came to these things they smelt like, alcohol, sweat and sex – not a good combination. The place was heaving you had to push through people to get anywhere, the others headed off to dance as I headed towards the scent of Jacob, girls were literally offering themselves on a plate to me at ever turn, the thoughts of what they wanted to do to me was terrifying, I reached the kitchen in time to see Jake stagger out the back door, that annoying Swan girl following, I growled loudly – I knew this was a bad idea. I stalked back through the house intent on leaving whilst I still could as I shut the front door a voice ran through my mind CULLEN IF YOU CAN HEAR ME- I NEED YOU PLEASE I vaulted the fence and went to my mate, I stood against the tree looking at him in amusement he actually seemed surprised I was there "Fuck your good" He slurred "didn't know if you would hear" I listened too his thoughts, bless him he was so drunk he thought there was two of me, he had a cute little frown on his face "there's only one of me Jacob I think you may be drunk" he looked at me "I'm not drunk" he then tried to stand up and stumbled I caught him just before he hit the floor "Ok maybe a little bit drunk" god he felt so good, so warm and inviting I couldn't breathe for fear of scenting him that would be my undoing, suddenly he inhaled deeply and let out a husky groan "Fuck you smell soooooo good" I had to let go now before I did something stupid he was too drunk to know what he was doing, I placed him back against his tree and resumed my position against mine, his thoughts were sad, he couldn't understand why I wouldn't want to be near him if he was my mate

"You only want me here because you are drunk, I don't want to take advantage when your vulnerable" he growled at me, the noise went straight to my groin, god I felt like a hormonal teenager thank god he was drunk.

"Please sit next to me" Jacob patted the ground, I walked over listening to his thoughts, ha his wolf was jealous of the attention I got – now he knew how it felt, I sat down and watched him lean his head against the tree "my wolf wants you" I couldn't believe he had admitted it "But I'm not gay" I hadn't really thought about this in terms of male or female I nodded I suppose I could understand

"And now the only way I can get off is thinking of you, women don't make me horny" he groaned "Fuck I cant believe I said that out loud"

I could have danced the happy dance, it was only a matter of time he was mine, and so I composed myself and chuckled

"I would have heard it in your thoughts anyway, Jacob I'm not gay or wasn't but you are my mate that's the way it is I cant change that I want you if every sense"

I looked at him again his mind was a whirl of colours he looked wrong

"Jake are you ok" he groaned "Guna be sick" and managed to stand himself up with a small bit of assistance he placed his arms against the tree and brought up the contents of his stomach, I rubbed his back trying to soothe him extremely grateful I didn't have to breathe, I couldn't believe he thought this would make me not want him "are you ok, can I get you anything" I wasn't sure what to do I didn't have much experience with drunk werewolves, actually thinking about it what the fuck did he drink to get this drunk, as I was contemplating this Alice appeared with a bottle of water "Thanks Alice" she winked "No problem" and disappeared.

"Are you going to be sick again" I asked still rubbing his back he shook his head "Nope, I'm tired", I picked him up knowing that he wouldn't be able to walk and headed towards my car, he snuggled in to me and drifted to sleep.

I reached the range rover and the others were stood waiting for me

" Fuck me dude he really is massive, bigger than me" Emmett looked on amazed as I placed him across the back seats of the Range Rover "God he might puke in your car urgggg and its guna smell like wet dog" I growled at Rose teeth bared in warning "I don't fucking care Rose its my car and he doesn't smell like wet dog" she laughed, but wisely shut the fuck up.

Jazz was the first to ask "Ed I don't mean to burst your bubble but what are you going to do with him, you cant take him to ours the wolves will think you kidnapped him"

"I'm taking him to La Push, I will wait at the border until a wolf comes and hand him over"

"Fuck Edward are you suicidal" Jazz Growled

"Nope but he's my mate I will protect him with my life he needs to go home" I jumped in the car Jazz jumped in the passenger seat "I'm coming with you"

I looked at him and sighed "This isn't your problem, I will be fine" he laughed "you are family, and as much as I hate to admit it now is the mutt so lets go" I smirked at started the car

"Yo Bro we will follow but stay back a bit in case we are needed" yelled Emmett I nodded and we left.

The drive to La Push was silent, I decided to ignore Jaspers thoughts as soon as I realised he was working through battle strategies in his head.

We pulled up to the border 10 minutes later Jake was still out for the count, it took approximately two minutes before Jazz and I heard a wolf howl, the next minute we were confronted with a huge black wolf snarling at us, I can smell Jake what the fuck have they done to him I interrupted the wolfs thoughts "Jacob is fine, he's in the car very drunk I found him in the woods and thought I better bring him home" why the fuck would he bring him home, why is Jake drunk another voice joined in what's going on Sam The black wolf replayed the scene through his head the other voice chuckled how the fuck did he get that drunk – only Jake could manage that A grey wolf sauntered from behind the bushes snarling Paul this is serious he could have got him self killed Pauls wolf tipped his head to the side looking at Sam knowing Jakey he probably just got laid I was then assaulted with images of Jake having intimate relations with an endless string of faces, I growled loudly "would you two kindly refrain from you stupid conversation" I blocked their thoughts and went to the back of the car opening the door I inhaled deeply savouring his scent, I cradled Jake gently and walked over to the line "Would one of you assholes phase back and take him" I snarled.

The Black one disappeared behind a tree "put him on the ground" he ordered

"No come and get him I bit back" he stared defiantly at me and stalked across and grabbed Jacob roughly "Your ass is mine Black, you will fucking pay for this" he growled

I grabbed his arm tightly the grey wolf snarled and looked ready to pounce, Jazz came and stood by me in case he was needed

"Touch him Uley and I will kill you myself, treaty or no treaty I will come to La Push and find you"

I turned on my heel and jumped in the truck, faster than the human eye could follow, my hands gripped the steering wheel so tightly it cracked

"Edward he will be fine, he's pack they wont harm him"

I looked at Jazz with black rage filled eyes "They better fucking not"