I know I've failed you people. Sorry!! But in my defense I got a really bad cold this weekened and just couldn't bring myself out of bed. My fever was killing me! So sorry again but I don't have any new chapters to upload this week. I just have CHAPTER 7.

As soon as I'm back and free, I'll write some more. I just can't handle Bella and Edward in my current state. They would end up giving me a headache with their constant confusion and ackwardness.

If you don't want to comment, fine! But you guys dissapointed me too. The minute I stop uploading a chapter you stop writing and asking for more. It's like there are no more people reading. Sad (sigh)

BPOV

Sweet love

Yeah

I didn't mean it when I said I didn't love you so

I should have held on tight

I never should have let you go

I didn't know nothing

I was stupid

I was foolish

I was lying to myself

I sang as I read my biology book. I liked this song and the video was one of my top favorites. Alice and Rosalie always made fun of me because of that. And I do admit that Mariah had her bad days but she is back in all her heavenly glory. She always had a good voice; so sweet and beautiful. I wish I could sing like her. But Charlie always said I was terrible.

I sighed. There was no way I could be ready for this test, no matter how much I tried to concentrate. I couldn't understand many of the terms very well. Maybe I am stupid. Now that I think of it, Edward was always the one with all the answers. How did he know so much? Oh! Right. He has Jasper. Why couldn't I have a friend like him? Alice was smart but she would feel bored with biology and wouldn't be much help. Rosalie was…well she was special. She was good at any class she took. She was not the science type. She preferred classes like psychology. Okay, I know that's a science, but not one where you have to measure something or do any real math. You know what I mean.

So that left me with no help at all. I was stuck. Well, I am just going to have to fail this class. At least I won't have Edward as a partner next time. I shook my head. What was I saying? I can't fail a class and was not going to. I wouldn't be able to live it down. Not with Edward. He would make fun of me for the rest of my life. I shuddered just at the though. Okay, I have to focus. I still have a few days before the dreaded test. I could still get ready. The test is scheduled for Friday. Maybe I'll find a tutor by then.

This all sounded all good in my head, reality was different however. Everyone kept on saying they had plans or just had too much homework. By Monday afternoon I was bummed. Biology came and I felt more and more nervous. I tried to pay attention to the teacher but I just couldn't stop fidgeting. Edward seemed to notice something wrong with me because he talked to me after class finished. I was just putting my stuff in my bag when I heard him clear his throat. I looked at him surprised.

:"You seem kind of….distracted. Is something wrong?" he asked. Was he worried? I put my bag on and walked out of the classroom. He followed.

"It's nothing. It's just… nothing. Really. Forget it. Okay?" I told him but he wouldn't take no for an answer. Why did he have to be like this? It confused the hell out of me and it irritated me not to know what he was thinking.

"Bella. I know I am not you favorite person in the world. But try to humor me here. Something is troubling you isn't it? You can tell me" his velvety voice said. Damn it. If he talked like that, it would only make me wish. Was this how he did it? Was this how he conquered all the girls? How he got them to be his? Was I going to be another one of his victims? No, I couldn't, I wouldn't. I was not going to fall for Edward Cullen.

"I appreciate your concern Edward, but it's none of your business" I felt a stab in the back and saw Tanya looking at us and turned back to Edward. Perfect. "Maybe you should worry about your own problems". I stated and left.

I don't know what he was thinking at the moment but he had Tanya. She was freaking perfect; practically a Barbie doll. He couldn't possibly feel attracted to me and I didn't feel attracted to him either so it was best if I just left my relationship with him strictly as lab partners and project partners, if such a thing exists. I was not going to fall in his trap.

That afternoon I went over my math homework and kept on studying for biology. This time I tried highlighting the terms that were confusing so that I could ask Mrs. Steiffer the next day. My pride kept me going. I didn't want to lose against Edward. I know he's supposed to be valedictorian in his class and he's graduating early, but I want to be valedictorian too. I want to step on that platform and give my speech. Although thinking really well about it, Edward will not be able to do that. Graduation is after spring semester. By then Edward will probably have finished his first semester in college. There was something weird though. I though Jasper was supposed to be the smart one in the group, how is it that Edward got a higher GPA than him? Well, maybe Jasper will be giving the speech in his absence. Either way, I was not going to lose to him. If he could reach the highest spot in the senior class, I was going to top that score.

It is weird once you see it through my eyes. Edward is popular no matter how you look at it. And he doesn't even hang out with the jocks. He doesn't play any sport in particular. Emmet is the one who excels in that area. He is the head of the school football team, the top dog in the school. But still, Edward is the one people admire; including the teachers. How did that happen? It seemed illogical. How come that Edward who doesn't really excel in any particular field is so damn popular in school? No matter how much I thought about it, it didn't make any sense at all. Normally people would make fun of him for being too good at something, but no one messed around with him.

Damn it! Why did I start thinking about that? I'm supposed to be figuring out this stuff in biology. Not thinking about that asshole. Okay, what was I reading?

EPOV

I cursed silently as Bella walked away from me. I wanted to reach out to her and talk to her, but my legs wouldn't move. Heck! My entire body wouldn't move. I was frozen. And she was right. Before I could worry about her, I had to solve my own issues. First in the list was talking to Tanya. I had to end it once for all with her. It was not fair to keep on giving her false hope. I knew now how I felt. And I didn't love Tanya. I didn't even see her as a girlfriend, just a fling. That's all it was for me. And now, the fling was over.

Tanya walked by me and was about to walk away from me, but I grabbed hold of her arm and she turned around to face me. But she wasn't really facing me, she was looking at the floor, her head low. That made it more difficult for me to say what I had to say. Have you ever been in the position where you have some really bad news and you know it will probably break someone's heart or give her disappointment? Well, that was my position right now. And I was feeling pretty shitty about it too. And it did not help that people were walking by us and watching our little scene. Although there was really no scene. We weren't even talking. I tried finding the right words to say but none came to mind. Usually when Tanya and I broke up, it was in the heat of an argument. But this time it was different. This time it would be permanent. I wasn't going to back down.

I decided that it might not be the best idea to do it right here in school, where everyone could hear us. "Tanya…we have to talk". I told her. "Can you please meet me at Arby's after school?"

There was no response from her but I figured she would go. She just didn't want to face me right now. And I couldn't blame her. I've been the worst boyfriend ever to her. I don't know what came over me, but everything started to make sense for me. I finally understood that Tanya and I were never meant to be together. We didn't even match. She hated reading any kind of book and thought that the Cooking Channel and soccer were boring. I may not be Hispanic but I had to agree that soccer rocks! I loved playing in the field. Too bad the school doesn't have a soccer team. That would have been the best thing.

After biology I had PE which was just a waste of time, but I wasn't about to complain. I needed the class. And it helped that Jasper and Emmet were also taking the class. I needed to hang around them for a while before I went and faced one of the biggest dramatic events of my life.

"What's up Ed? You look kind of glum" Emmet commented.

"I'm going to break up with Tanya" I confessed. Emmet and Jasper looked at each other and then back at me.

"Again? And how long is this one going to last?" Jasper joked. I didn't laugh. I looked at both them with my most serious face and they both knew instantly that this was no joke. I was decided.

"Forever. I can't date her anymore. It would be unfair to her. And as much as I like to be an asshole because I know I am one. She has been a good friend to me guys. She doesn't deserve being with a lowlife like me" I explained. The guys just kept silent until Jasper broke the silence.

"Edward, I've known you for a long time and I know you're not a lowlife. You have dated a lot of girls before you met Tanya, ergo your status as a player, but you've never played with a girl's feelings. You were always honest, and that's something not many guys are. If you feel that this is what you want to do, then don't let anything stop you. I'm actually proud of you man. You're growing up" Jasper smiled. That's why he was one of my closest friends; he understood. Maybe he was bit on the feminine side, but that was cool. I needed advice like the ones he gave me a lot. Emmet made fun of him a lot, but even he admitted at times that he couldn't be half of the man he was now if it weren't for Jasper. And coming from someone as proud as Emmet, it meant a lot.

After class was over, we all took a shower and left. Jasper was going to take Alice to the movies and Emmet and Rosalie were joining them. I said my goodbyes and headed straight for Arby's. Tanya was not there yet by the time I arrived, so I picked a table and waited for her. I was determined. Nothing was going to stop me now, not even her tears. An hour passed and there was no sign of her. I was starting to think that she wouldn't come. Maybe she was scared of this. I could tell she knew what I had planned. Tanya may be blond but she was far from stupid.

After waiting a half hour longer I decided she wouldn't show up and left the place. It was raining. Great. This was just what I needed to make this day worse. As I started to walk I spotted Tanya's car parked next to mine. She was in her car. Had she been there this whole time? So, she did come. She just couldn't bring herself to get in. She wanted to avoid this. Too bad that wasn't going to happen. I had to do this. Well, better to do it in the privacy of her own car. I tapped on her passenger window. She unlocked the door for me and I got in. It was completely silent with the exception of Tanya's sobs. I scratched the back of my head trying to come up with something to say. Why was it so hard?

"Tanya… um….I think…I…." I was having a battle of my won in head.

"Just say it Edward. You want to break up" she finally said. I looked away and then back at her. Her eyes were so red and she was puffy. Was she crying this whole time? And I was the one to blame.

"I'm sorry T. You know that I…." I started saying but she looked at me furious.

"Don't say it. You don't love me. You never did. I was stupid by thinking that I finally met someone I could love. Do you know what happened to me once I met you? When I fell for you?" she cried. I could see the tears falling from her eyes. I wanted to hold her in my arms and console her but that was not a choice. I was the bastard here. As much as it hurt me and it made my chest ache I had to control myself. There was nothing I could do to stop her from feeling the way she felt. "Before I ever had you in my life I used to sleep with other guys as if it meant nothing. But then we started dating and…and…I knew I was hurting you by cheating on you like that so I stopped" she sniffled. "I was faithful to you! I thought we were going to be together till college. I actually thought you were the one. Now you're saying you don't want me? Why?" she was now punching my chest with her fists. I didn't stop her. I had nothing to say. No way to answer that question. I didn't know what I felt myself. I just knew I couldn't keep on being with her.

"What made you change your mind? Why do you suddenly want to end it? Did something happen? Did someone else come and stole you away?" I shook my head saying no. So far as I knew there was no one. I didn't fall for anyone else. I just stopped caring.

"I just….I started thinking about stuff and came to this conclusion. I'm sorry Tanya. But I'm sure you'll find someone better. Bye" I finally said and got out of the car and into my own. I may have left her with many unanswered questions but truthfully they were the same ones I had. I had no idea why I suddenly wanted to end it with her. Maybe I wanted to all along, I just never found the guts to do it. And now, there was no going back.

BPOV

I was in my last math problem when I heard the doorbell. I knew that it were Alice she would just come in. She always did that. I didn't have to come downstairs to open the door for her. We've been together for so long that it was as if we lived in each other's house. When the doorbell rang again I knew it wasn't her, so I went downstairs and opened it.

He was standing there drenched in water from head to toe, looking miserable.

Please don't cry.

(Gives chocolate ice cream to anyone who cried after this chapter)

I know this chapter is sad for Tanya. I almost started crying while I write it. I know how she feels because I've been in the same situation. So, don't forget to comment.

I'll try to get better (cough, cough)