Chapter 7

Bella POV

The feeling after I woke up was confused. Did I just have a dream of kissing Demetri? It felt unbelieveable real and even excisting. His cold lips danced with mine gently and filled me with warmth and solace.

Then he whiped my tears off and whispered me Italian words. And then I...

Oh my God. I touched my face and there still was one dry tear. It wasn't a dream. It was real. My heart started beat like crazy. I felt like a murderer. I felt like I just had killed Edwards heart. Like I had stabbed it or ripped it out with my bare hands. I felt sick of myself. What have I done? I closed my eyes and tried to think. I should tell Edward. But he doesn't even know where I am. If I would call him and just tell that Demetri and I kissed, he would know I'm in Italy and come here. He would try to kill Demetri. My heart missed a beat thinking of that. I tried to explain it with the thought that if Edward would try to kill Demetri, it would be a suicide.

But maybe it is time to call home now.

I walked to my suitcase which I haven't unpacked yet. Outside is dark, but the morning sun is rising. So it's Monday. I don't know how much is the time in USA, but vampires don't sleep so I don't have to be afraid of waking them up.

I picked up my cell phone from little pocket of the suitcase. 263 missed calls and 178 messages. I sighed.

Most of the calls were from Charlie. Gosh how I would love to hear his voice right know. But I think I will send him a letter. It feels stupid, but I'm kind of afraid of hearing his voice or yelling.

I watched at the names in my phone. I picked one name and pressed the 'Call'. Half second and familiar, wind bell voice gasped: "Bella?"

"Oh, Alice... I'm so sorry", I was so relieved to hear her little voice.

"Bella you owe some serious explanation to us! How can you leave us like that? Without even a proper goodbye? Charlie is heart broken, you runawayed again ! Bella, Edward is depressed. He just sits in the forest near to your home, Bella, he just sits and waits for you to come back", Alice almost screamed at the phone. I heard Jasper calming Alice down and then Emmett saying something to someone.

"Please forgive me... Try to understand. I... I needed my own space. I mean, I love you guys and it's the best time I've ever spent when I'm with you, but something didn't feel right", I said. I lied. And I know Alice knows that because of my stammering. And because she knows I adore and love Cullens too much to leave them.

"Where are you?" Ah, the question I knew would come. I sighed.

"Alice you know I won't tell you. You would come and get me. I don't want to go home now", I lied. The message behind my words was 'I can't tell you or you would come here and get killed. I want to come back home but I already made my decision and sealed my fate.'

"Why didn't I see your plans to leave?" she asked me hurt, "Why didn't you tell even me?"

"Because, Alice, if I would have tell even you about my plans, you would have told Edward. Maybe not intentionally, but he would've picked it on your mind somehow. And it was hard to tell anyone, when it was just a sudden caprice". Oh my, I don't know what to tell anymore. I'm lying to the most amazing person in this world, I'm lying to my sister. It hurts but it protects her and them.

"Oh, you suddenly wanted to go do some travelling? Something's not right with this, Bella", she said coldly. That was it. The moment I would brake is coming anytime soon, this is the time of goodbyes.

"Please forgive me, Alice. I love you, just please. Don't go searching me, it's no use. I promise, you will see me someday, when I'm ready. Tell Edward to come home, tell him I want him to go back to his family. Tell how much I love him and miss him. I miss you too. Take care of Charlie, this is hard to him", I said. I couldn't stop the break of my voice in the end. There was a short silence.

"We miss you too. We hope you'll come back. We love you", as Alice told me those things, I hang up the call.

Alice POV

It was such a relief to hear Bellas voice. Bellas human voice.

She didn't tell me she was leaving, because she thought Edward would get that to his information. She was wrong. I have had a vision, couple actually, of Bella. I know where she is. I know she is becoming a vampire. She didn't runaway. No, they came to get her. But I understand Bella somehow, and I won't tell Edward. She will tell him that herself, someday, as she said.

"Let's go get Edward home", I whispered. I put the thought of Bellas location and phone call away, where Edward would never get.

Bella POV

The call to Alice helped me a little. It helped the homesickness, but I feel even more terrible about myself. How dare I lie to her? After all what she has done for me, that's what she gets: lies, lies and more lies from a stupid human.

I heard two knocks on the door.

"Come in", I said. My voice still cracked a bit and I tried to clear my throat. It was Heidi, she bringed me some breakfast on a trail. The food actually looked tempting, and the reason for that is I haven't eaten much past three days. Heidi left the trail on my bedside table.

"Thank you, Heidi", I said quietly. She smiled with her shining, white teeth visible and it just catched my breath.

"Good to hear you talk. Will you eat too?" she asked me. I nodded shyly. She turned to leave and walked human speed to the door.

"Oh, would you tell me why Demetri was so happy yesterday evening when he left your room?" she stopped at the door and asked me as if she was abashed. I blushed right away. My face felt like on fire and so I pressed my head down. Heidi winked at me grinning and I hated myself even more.

"Nothing", I answered quietly, head still down. Heidi uttered a laughter in disbelief and ran away.

Nothing. Happend. Between me and Demetri.

I walked to my bed and sat on it. I started to eat the green, juicy grapes pouting. Then I ate the cheese sandwich and the yogurt. It felt really good to have some food in my empty stomach. I sighed and went to take a bath.

Demetri POV

I knew Bella felt something to me, too. I mean, why would she kiss me just like that? She started the kiss, she is the one whose fault it is.

I have had a huge grin on my face whole night. I know that and I'm not going to even try to hide it. Why should I? I'm happy. Aro knows what happend, of course, because of his power. I think almost everyone suspect something. Heidi is on right tracks, she winked at me like she knows. Oh, how I pity Bella: Heidi is the one who takes the breakfast to her. I bet she will just wonder, why I grimace like this. I laughed in my mind. Bella would blush so much, and it would be so damn cute. Hah, I have become a real sissy. Bella is the first girl in my whole time of living, who I am not thinking only naked.

Sure, she is hot. But there is many things more what I want to do with her. I want to talk with her whole night. I want to cuddle with her. I want to kiss her lips so much she needs air. I want to take her to places she has never been.

I want her to be happy with me. I know it will be really hard to win her love, because she is so addicted to Edward Cullen. But maybe, just maybe, she could forget him? Or even leave him in her past and start living her future?

Because I know it would be different to be with me than with the vegetarian vampire. I don't doubt that she didn't have fun with him or feel unsafe.

But with me it would be some much more. Anything she ever dreamed, I would give it to her. I would give her all the stars from the night sky if she asked it. Anything.

I have talked to Marcus about these feelings. And now I know what this is.

Love.

A/N: Did you expect something like this from the big mean vampire Demetri ? ;)