Breathless

The pain shoots through me like burning me from within.

If you think you know me...think again.

You sit there wondering why I stand.

I feel it burning through my throat...through my hand.

The flames subsided not long ago.

But the pain remains in its afterglow.

My heart ripped apart as I breathe.

I feel pain...so much pain...but it's hidden beneath.

Why can't I sit next to you.

Why can't I be happy around you.

Why can't I live like you do.

I waste away while you corner me

Waste away with the light of day

Why must hate cloud your heart

Why must you always block the way

I don't hate you...never have...

I've always thought of you as my better half

But now it's all done and gone

And I am once again left alone.

This breath which seeps into my lungs once more

Might never again

Save me from my own fiery death like it's done before

HIei's POV

The air felt so foreign to my lungs...I forgot to breathe. I felt like I don't deserve this air. Why am I out here? Why are the fox and the baka's sister here? Why is my skin all ripped up?...My Jagan...you must've granted me a moment of weakness...but I feel much worse than before. Everything hurts...but I can't act this way around them. I stood up and started to walk off...but my legs gave out. Even then I tried to hold myself up...but I fell...just like I did then...no doubt to meet the same fate, pain. I closed my eyes and landed...but it wasn't the hard floor...Kurama caught me. Shizuru took the jacket she was carrying and draped it over my shoulders. They both gave me a sad smile. I being one who doesn't respect pity...nodded Shizuru's way to thank her for her kindness...and stood up without having Kurama support me...I wish I was still being held...though I'll never admit it. Shizuru felt like a mother to me...and Kurama has always been my best friend and like my older brother...I liked the feeling of being protected...but I don't deserve it...I deserved the beating more...I deserved the pain more...more puttting down...I didn't deserve this moment. I walked into my room leaving them behind me. They both followed closely as I walked back...to catch me if I fall possibly...but I deserved this pain...I didn't deserve their love or care. I deserved to be alone.

Shizuru's POV

I felt like crying...he walked back supporting himself and almost falling down each time...but not enough for us to help him. He was in pain...and so quiet about it. Kurama looked like he would start crying any second as well. I knew I couldn't help Hiei...and he knew Hiei wouldn't accept the help. When we finally reached the room, all we heard was Botan snoring...she's very loud for a girl. Hiei walked all the way to the windowsil and sat looking outside...I closed the door to my and Botan's side of the room...and stayed with Kurama and Hiei.

Kurama's POV

"Hiei"

"Hn"

"Get to bed...you look tired."

"I don't want to make it dirty...I'll just sleep up here."

"You were in the rain...you're clean...we just need to wrap your wounds so they don't get infected." I don't think he ever fell asleep in a bed...his was still made.

"Hn."

He curled into a ball and sat there. He was still bleeding but not as badly...how can you get a child to act rational. That was what Hiei is...a child...and because of that...this conversation was geting no where.

"Hiei, Please get down here."

That was Shizuru. She continued sweetly...I have never seen her act like that with her own brother.

"You don't want anybody to come in and find you like this do you"

Hiei jumped down. He sat on a chair after getting the bandages and started wrapping his own cuts. He was done before we could object. He handed Shizuru back the jacket...it was wet with water but had no blood on it...he had avoided getting blood on it...no wonder he wasn't holding it closer. Hiei put on a clean shirt...but still sat on the chair.

"Hiei...go to sleep...the alcohol has to work its way out of your system and you won't help it any by staying up."

"Baka Kitsune, Kurama...just go to sleep...I don't want to. Shizuru, you do that as well...you shouldn't suffer on my account. Please, just go."

I grabbed Hiei and dragged him onto his bed holding him down...he needed to rest...I wasn't going to change my mind. He looked at me in shock...fighting back...but he was too weak to. After a couple of minutes of struggling he finally gave in exhausted and went to sleep...finally.

Ok...well hope you liked it. Review. Please tell me if you want Hiei to feel better or if I have to drag this on longer...I feel so bad for him.