Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter or its characters.

Warnings: Slash (RL/SB), Rape, Cutting, etc.

Just Believe Me

James leaned down and started picking all the things Sirius had thrown to the floor, putting all the letters and pictures back in the box. He took everything to his bed and started looking through it. He took the stuffed dog first. He had seen Sirius sleeping with it few times in the last days, and even before the boy always had taken great care of it. Sitting it perfectly still on his bed, putting it away before any pillow fights started so no one would accidently throw it.

He put it next to his pillow and started looking at the contents of the box. There were five pictures inside, the rest were all letters. The first one had Remus sitting with Sirius under the willow near the lake. He was leaning against his chest with Sirius' legs on both sides of him, the Sirius in the picture alternated between hugging him tightly and nuzzling his neck. James smiled at Remus' happy face, he kept smiling and laughing at Sirius' antics.

The next one was one of Remus sleeping. He had fallen asleep on one of the armchairs in the common room, a book laying on his lap. He seemed peaceful and content, it brought a warm feeling on James' chest, which was probably why Sirius had kept it. Remus rarely seemed so peaceful, he was always worrying over something or other. The third one was a picture of the group minus Peter, so James guessed he was the one taking the picture, they were all laying around on the grass, James smiling at the camera, Sirius was laughing at something Remus must've said, and the sandy haired boy was looking at Sirius with dreamy eyes. James imagined that by that time they weren't a couple yet, so it must have been the beginning of fourth year. How had they waited so long to admit they liked each other? Looking back, their feelings seemed to have been there by the beginning of third year.

He passed to the fourth picture, in that one Remus was sitting reading a book on a couch and Sirius was laying with his head in Remus' lap, Remus was caressing his hair softly, he leaned down to kiss his forehead but Sirius leaned up before he could and stole the kiss from the werewolf's lips, both of them smiled afterwards. James could remember that day, he had sneaked up on them and taken that picture. He had planned on framing it and giving it to them as a gift or something, but Sirius had found it before he could and had begged him to give it to him until he had agreed.

The last one was a picture of Remus and another boy. James was surprises that the other boy wasn't Sirius. He looked at the picture for a while, trying to see if he could decipher who he was. They were sitting in a pair of swings, swaying a little, both smiling at the camera, sometimes talking between them or laughing. Remus seemed carefree and at ease. Maybe that was why Sirius had kept the picture, their friend looked happy, that and Remus must've had a very good explanation. After all the young animagus was a very jealous kind of boyfriend, if he had seen a threat on the boy, he would have surely thrown the picture away and would have been sulking for months about it. He put the pictures on the bed and tried to guess which could be the one that had come with the picture attached. He looked around and soon saw a bigger envelope than the rest, the picture would have come in that one, since it was the right size.

He pulled the letter out and started skimming through it. Not wanting to intrude even more, he just jumped to the unknown name written there.

…Fine, fine, enough senseless ranting. I know you're dying to know who the boy on the picture is. His name's Daniel Radin, I wish you would meet him. (I think you'd like him, he's awesome) I sent you a picture so you know I'm having a good time, and also to introduce you to him, even if it is not directly. He's one of my best friends and a big enough part of my life that I want you to meet him (You better not be getting jealous, you know I'll only ever love you.) he's like my brother, I've known him since I was like 3. His family stood by us even when I got bitten, they didn't just move away, even if they knew what I was. I know what you're thinking, 'if they knew they must be wizards, then he'd go to Hogwarts' Unfortunately he's a squib, so he can't go to Hogwarts so you won't be able to meet him anytime soon. I hope the picture's good enough for now…

James chose to stop there, finding no need in reading the rest of it. He picked the picture again. So he was the friend Remus was staying with. He must've been planning on telling Sirius about his parents kicking him out, so he actually knew who he was living with before telling him. The boy seemed nice enough. Besides James couldn't really imagine anything less if the boy and his family had let Remus stay at their home when he had been thrown out of his own house.

He looked at the other letters, he knew that he shouldn't mess with those ones, they were probably very personal. He moved them around for a while, but finally just closed the box and put it in a drawer in his nightstand. He looked back at Remus' bed before taking his broom and leaving the room.

He was numb to everything but the pain in his chest, he didn't feel the tears, how cold he was, he couldn't hear his ragged breath or the door closing as James left the room, he didn't see anything besides the necklace in his bed, everything had faded around him. There was just the feeling of his heart trying to keep beating despite the hurt, the desperation, despite the feeling of not wanting to keep on going.

Sirius had officially finished everything they had ever had. He was erasing any emotional attachment to Remus, now he was only another student to Sirius, maybe even less. Before he had hoped Sirius would still love him somehow, but now…

He tried to move, to do something that would make his body feel something that wouldn't be that horrible sensation in his heart, but as soon as he moved he felt pain course through his body, his wounds had stretched making him wince and settle down again. That pain, it had stopped the other one, made it less important. He looked at the bandage on his arm, he could see some blood stains getting past the white fabric.

The pain was returning, he had to stop it, to make it vanish, if only for a moment. He looked at his arm again, it had stopped it before, he could make it go away again. His throat was tightening again, his heart was screaming for Sirius to come back. Without thinking he lifted his right hand and used it to clutch his left forearm harshly, the blood stains grew, and Remus hissed in pain.

Sirius practically ran to the astronomy tower, he threw the door open and let himself fall on the floor leaning against the railing. He hugged his knees to his chest and tried to catch his breath. He was confused, he didn't understand Remus at all. Why had he looked so broken? He didn't love Sirius, he had made that clear by sleeping with Malfoy. Then why did it affect him so much to see Sirius end their relationship? He had found someone new, he didn't need Sirius.

It wasn't fair, it wasn't okay for Remus to keep hurting him. If the werewolf kept showing Sirius tears and pain the black haired boy's heart would break further apart.

A/N: I'm sorry for making you wait so much, but I've been really busy, first I went on a study trip with my whole class and now I'm on my final exams, so I couldn't write much. But you know what finals mean right? I'll have way more time to write in a week from now, so please don't hate me, I swear I'll update more then.

Tell me what you thought about this chapter, even if it was short.

I'll be updating soon, don't worry too much ^^

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