February 29th, 2009
Ok, I asked Alice if she could accompany on a trip. I tried to tell her without revealing my real plans, but you know Alice. I took her to a café in Seattle, so Edward couldn't hear her thoughts or us talking. The waiters all stared at us; I wasn't out in public much, and not used to being the most beautiful thing for miles. One of them even spilled a drink because he was watching us, not his feet. Or he was just a klutz like me… Ahhh! I'm so distracted! This is a really inconvenient part of having a vampire mind. Okay, I'm back on topic.
So, I told Alice everything from when my diary was stolen, up until I figured out that Jane had taken my diary. She asked what was in the diary, and I said that it told about Renesmee's growing, my, um, private life with Edward, and our every day lives. She didn't know how the Volturi would do it, but she was as certain as me that they would find something in there to bring us down. She said we would need to go next week, before Charlie visits again. He still doesn't know about vampires, though he is well educated about werewolves. He and Sue are going well- ugh! I can never stay on topic! Okay, we leave next week for Italy, and Edward thinks that we're going to a fashion show in Venice. I'm going to really miss him while we're gone, and I don't know if I'll ever see him again. But this is about protecting him and the rest of the family, so I need to do this.
Alice has been planning what we would where in her head to keep Edward out, and Searching for anything related to the Volturi in the near future. She saw that my diary would be in Jane's room, which is the top floor in the tower of their castle. We will need to disguise our scent, so we'll need to borrow Eleazar's old cloaks from when he was a guard for the Volturi. I'll be able to protect Alice if we get caught, and we can both fight them off. If Alice gets caught though, she will be pulled away from us forever, and it will be all my fault. I need to be brave; I need to protect my family with my life. I need to survive for Edward, because if I die, he will find a way to die. I can't let that happen. I want to go now to get the plane tickets. Edward can't see them, because they're supposed to be for Venice. I can't put his life in danger. Money is no object now, and the tickets are (this is Alice's idea, not mine) for first class. It is completely insane, but I still don't like people spending money on me, especially when it is to fix my mistakes. Oh, Renesmee just woke up. I need to get her some breakfast, so I need to go get Jake. He probably uses his bizarre link to Renesmee to sense her needs, but I need to go anyways. Bye!
Love, Bella