She sat in her mansion looking outside of the window towards all of the fans who had gathered at her gate wanting to see her. She cursed at Chad for not lying to the media and instead telling them that they would be coming back to Tokyo for two weeks holiday.

She loved being in the band and she loved all of the attention she received from fans but sometimes it was just too much. There was too much pressure on her to succeed at what she id. People idolised her now, they all looked up to her as if she was some god. She felt guilty now as she remembered all of the times when she had been the fan harrassing the idol.

She sighed and stepped away from the window. She was in pain. The doctors had all said that it was just in her head, that was why she was on this holiday, so she could rest. Although with the crowd outside she didn't see how that was going to be possible any time soon.

Life as a pop icon was harder than she had ever imagined. She had once heard from a friend long ago that she could no longer remember, that you werent allowed to eat just anything. Her friend had been right about that. The people she worked with starved her and woke her up at gastly hours in the morning, and then expected her to look her best. Her clothes where closen for her, while she no longer had a say in her hair or make up or what fashion styles she wanted to follow. She was actualy surprised to find that she would be able to enter the bath room alone (although on several occassions she had caught the papparazi looking in through the window.

Her voice was better than it ever had been as a teenager and her body had grown into that of a womans. She was a living beauty and yet she felt that something was missing.

She'd awake in the morning and see something white in the corner of her eye, something alive and moving. But it was only her over active imagination. She owned nothing white, the repo men had taken away her last white fur coat when their last album hit rock bottom. But that had all changed now. They where back on top and ready to show the world what they could do.

Mina smiled to herself at the thought of that. So many nights she had gone without sleeping, her and all of the band, as they tested new lyrics and music part. Guitar solo's, drum solo's, bass solo's and rifts. They had now exaughsted all of their resources. Now all they needed was to sit back and watch the money flow in as it already had the last few weeks.

But it wasn't the music that was bothing her. It had to be something else, something more. She was missing out on something in life and it was eating her alive, driving her to the point of madness.

The pain in her gut coninued.

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