SUPER LONG CHAPTER AHEAD!

Thank you for your comments! I'm glad to here you're all enjoying it so far. This is the last update that consists of Season 3, which means chapter 8 will be of my Season 4. I've been updating pretty rapidly lately and that will probably change due to the facts that I only have so much written of this story and still need to continue to write this story along with my new one which will be called: Hold you in my Arms. That story will probably come out at the end of June or so. But I will tell you, that I would never hold updates over your heads, but comments do motivate me (:

So here it is. The way I would have ended Season 3..

AUTHORS NOTE: No this chapter is not ment to confuse you! Italics are voice overs by none other than Meredith Grey. Italic and Bolded words are flashbacks.

Disclaimer: For obvious reasons of this fic, I do not own Grey's. I mean for Pete's sake I'm rewriting their Season 3 finale. It was just a little too depressing for me that I needed some hope, and what better way to create this hope then write what I would have liked to have happen. I am not the Genious that is Shonda Rhimes though because I won't dare rewrite the Season 4 finale that is brilliance. Plus Shonda owns Grey's Anatomy, and only a Genious could come up with a show like Grey's. I am not Shonda Rhimes, hence my lack of Genious and lack of Grey's Anatomy.

IF THERE IS SOMETHING YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND AFTER READING THIS (BECAUSE I KNOW SEASON 3 WAS A LONG TIME AGO) AND YOU NEED A CLARIFICATION, PLEASE ASK AND I PROMISE I WILL REPLY TO YOUR QUESTION! THANKS.

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Everyone cheered as the Burkes walked into Joe's bar, where the reception was being held.

"Congratulations!" Olivia said.

"We're so happy for you two." said Joe and Walter who were standing behind the bar.

"Thank you." they both said.

They told everyone how grateful they were for them being there. Then, they opened gifts and soon speeches were being made.

"Congratulations to the both of you and may you two live a long and happy life together." Addison said to the both of them.

Mark as well said some nice things. And even though he used the word hitched over and over again, Preston and Cristina were still glad he came.

Meredith unfortunately was not in a party mood. As happy as she was for them, she was still sad about the direction her and Derek were heading. So she sat at a table, not drinking, not eating, not really doing anything. She couldn't get her mind of Derek.

Derek had come in late but he still got there. He congratulated them again, but like Meredith was also in that same mood.

Soon everyone started dancing; some having too much to drink.

Mark was dancing with any woman he could find. Cristina and Burke danced together slowly and just stared into each other's eyes completely happy.

"Thanks for marrying me." Said Burke.

"Yeah, yeah.." she replied, but couldn't hide her smile.

Meredith watched as they danced. She was so happy for her friends, especially for her person.

"Hey guys," Meredith said butting into their dance, "I'm gonna go, if that's okay, I'm so tired."

"Yes, of course." they both said. "Thank you for coming."

"Thank you for having me. I am so happy for the two of you. Have a great time on your honeymoon and a safe flight." Meredith hugged them both and left.

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Addison was sitting at the bar, having a bit too much to drink. She was having a great time with her friends, and was almost not looking forward to leaving. Sitting next to her was Callie who just sat there, looking upset.

"Hey!" Addison screamed. "Where have you been?"

"I've been sitting here for the past 15 minutes. Here, give me your drink, I think you've had enough." Callie took the glass away from Addison.

"Have you seen umm.. Dr. Korev anywhere?" Addison asked.

"No I havn't- no no women, you're not going down that road again."

"Why not?" she asked. "I know I sort of cheated on Mark with him, but I don't want Mark. Plus who doesn't cheat?"

"Oh, our society.." Callie moaned.

"No seriously," Addison started "I had an affair with Mark, then Derek dated Meredith while we were separated, Derek and I tried again, but then he had an affair, Izzie had an affair, Richard had an affair- seriously who doesn't cheat in this dimension?"

"Wait what?" Callie asked.

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When Miranda left the church she first headed back home. She said hello to her husband and told him the bad news; that she had not gotten chief resident. He didn't understand, but either did Miranda herself.

When he started getting upset that Miranda had not been chosen she told him not to worry, it was no big deal. And maybe it was for the best. She could spend more time with her husband and baby. She then told her husband she had a meeting with Dr. Webber at 8 so she had to leave.

"I'll be home later." she said.

When she got to the hospital, it was quiet. Most were sleeping, and it was passed visiting hours. Plus, Sundays were usually the least busy.

"Chief?" Miranda asked as she knocked on the door.

"Oh good, you're here. We need to talk."

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Ultimately, it's the little things in life that make it so worth living.

Derek had been sitting for awhile. He then heard a slow song come on for dancing. He got up and realized that the only time he was ever happy was when he was with Meredith. He wanted to find her and tell her that. Tell her he was sorry for being short with her earlier, he just hates when they fight. Then he'd kiss her and dance with her for the rest of the evening. He looked around like a spaz but he couldn't find her.

"Hey Burke, where's Meredith?" he asked.

"Oh she didn't tell you, she left; quite awhile ago actually."

"Oh," Derek said disappointingly.

"Thanks for coming though man, I appreciate it." said Burke.

"My pleasure. Have a good honeymoon." Derek then walked out and left.

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But what do we do when we think we've lost that person that actually makes our life worth living?

"I just don't understand?" she asked, "Did I do something wrong, is there a specific reason I wasn't chosen? Could I have done more?"

When we've hurt someone, all we can do is sit them down and explain to them what went wrong.

"Bailey, you've done nothing wrong!" Dr. Webber said.

"Then I don't get it? Why is Callie Torres Chief resident?"

"Because!" he said raising his voice, while pacing around his office.

Or we finally get to hear the real truth once and for all.

"I would like you be the next chief of surgery."

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Meredith was at home, but doing the exact same thing she had done at the reception. She just sat there, with tears streaming from her face. She didn't want to feel this way. She hadn't felt this way when she was with Derek.

It takes time to realize what you truly want in your life. Especially when you've been through the ringer.

She closed her eyes tight hoping she would stop crying. Instead a strange clip of memories came rushing through her mind.

I was fighting, I was swimming, but then I thought, just for a second- I thought, what's the point? And then I let go. I stopped fighting..

Meredith suddenly woke up but quickly she was pulled back into another memory.

Here's the important part, so you listen up good. Do you know how rare it is to find someone like Derek? He's still an optimist. He still believes in true love, magic, and soul mates. He's waiting for you, and if you don't come back from this, you will change who he is.

Meredith wanted to cry but before she could she was yet again pulled into another memory.

Do you see her?

No. Sometimes we'll be in the exact place, at the exact same time, and I can almost hear her voice. But that's all you get. Moments with the people you love.

Meredith couldn't contain her tears. She started to weep but once more she had a memory.

Well, I don't want to be here, I want to go back.

We were told there wasn't much time.

I'm out of time!

Well, were not sure exactly.

It's not enough! Just a wif of Derek!.. It's not enough- I need to go back. Please, Please! I can't breathe.

This will pass.

It won't, it won't.

Meredith opened her eyes, and tried to relax. She understood now what Derek meant when he said, "I don't know if I can breathe for you anymore." It all made sense to her.

'I need to want to live,' she told herself, 'And I did because I went back- I came back to life.'

With that, Meredith knew exactly what she needed to do. She grabbed her keys, jumped in the car, and pulled away.

But what happens when we finally open our eyes to what's right in front of us? When we finally wake up?

She had so many thoughts running in her head. Was she crazy? Had she gone mad? It was raining, and she probably wasn't even driving on the right side of the road. Luckily, it was a quick drive.

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Derek was lying on his couch doing absolutely nothing. He didn't feel like doing much. The only person he really wanted to see was Meredith. He was starting to give up hope with her. Maybe it really wasn't meant to be. He turned off the lights and started heading to his room when he heard a knock on the door.

Can a complete change of heart change the situation?

Sopping wet was Meredith Grey.

"Hey." he said.

"Hey." she said back.

"What are you doi-" he started but Meredith interrupted him.

"Let me talk first. Remember you're the one who wanted me to communicate." she smiled and took a deep breath.

Sometimes all we need to do is say what's in our hearts.

"We havn't been talking in awhile. And at first I figured it would pass, but it hasn't, and now I realize its all my fault."

"No Mer, it wasn't-"

"Please, please let me finish." she pleaded.

"Ok." he said.

"When I drowned.." she paused, knowing this was going to be a hard subject to hit.

"When I drowned it was partly my fault. Sure I got pushed in sort of, but I should've fought harder. I was so upset with my mother for calling me- for saying all those things to me. I was unbelievably happy and I thought that was enough, but to her it wasn't because all she thought was important was surgery."

And when we finally admit the things we're feeling..

She paused to take a breath, unsure of what he would think of the next part of her story.

"I saw Denny. I know that sounds crazy but I did." she said smiling. "He told me to fight, but I forgot what I was fighting for. He told me to go back for my friends, my work, my home.. and then he brought up you."

Derek noticed a tear in her eyes and he brushed it with his fingers.

Still, Meredith continued, "From that moment on I knew I wanted to come back. Because that was just our beginning and I wanted an ending. I want it all."

Then Meredith started to really cry and Derek hugged her.

It can make a whole world of difference..

"No wait, I'm not done yet, I've got to finish what I started to say." she said. "Do you remember when I woke up in the hospital bed and you were there and I already knew my mother was dead."

Derek thought for a moment. "Yes, how did you know that?"

"Because I saw her. And I talked to her. She told me not to give up and to keep fighting. And then she said-" Meredith felt more tears coming on. "She told me I was anything but ordinary."

..when we learn how to breathe.

And she smiled. "I know that I'm dark and twisty, and sometimes crappy stuff happens to me, but I also know I would have never been "anything but ordinary" without you. You're the reason why I'm happy. And today when I walked down that aisle I realized something."

"What's that?" he asked with a tear in his eye.

And when we are finally are honest..

"I don't want to walk down the aisle alone. I want to be happy as often as I can be. And I can't do that without you." She started crying again. "I can't do that without my knight and shinning armor."

Then we can finally believe.

Derek smiled the biggest smile Meredith had ever seen.

"Derek," she grabbed his hand and got down on one knee, "Will you marry me?"

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